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I had to ask God today if my whole life was just going to be struggling to right my wrongs. That is how it has seemed to be for so many years now. They are long since paid and I hope one day to be repaid but that day is hard to find. Apart from that the heroin addict keeps approaching me so I've told the police about him now. It would be so easy to be violent with him as there is nothing holding him up, he's all bones. His friend was chiming in and getting cocky too today so it is getting worse.

Hey all...so I just had this thing happen a couple of days ago. I wrote about it earlier, but have been obsessing and can't sleep. Please help if you can... I have a fear of numbers, mainly 6 which is a religious thing. We were having this fun drawing for picking gifts. 1 to 25 was written on tiny pieces of paper. I was the second to draw. In my head, I kept saying, " please don't be 6" and of course, it was. I drew the freaking number out of the remaining 24. Now I feel as if I am evil or can conjur this bad stuff to manifest. It has reinforced this feeling of evil. I say I'm a believer in Christ but this has scared me so desperately bad. It seems as if there is no relief. With ERP you choose to expose yourself to your triggers. This feels as if it was chosen for me...by something malevolent? Oh God, please help! My mind is out of control...

Hello guys, I’m having a hard weekend. Of all the what ifs. I hate how ruminating causes me a lot of depression. Sometimes I feel so trapped in my own body idk if anyone else can relate. I’m so tired of telling others about how I feel because I know that: 1) Is getting annoying 2) Is not helpful So I’m stuck feeling this dread. And guilt that I keep ruminating. Any tips or advice about this?? I feel like I’m disappointing God sometimes by paying too much attention to what the thoughts and feelings I’m getting but they’re so hard to ignore. Feed back would be greatly appreciated.):

The fear: I’m not good enough The obsession: my pastors righteousness The compulsion: trying to prove his unrighteousness The story: my wife and I got kicked off the worship team because we were arguing a lot, it’s a lot better now but it’s still not where I’d like it… the pastor who kicked us off is guilty of adultery and in my state that’s even a felony. I’m feeling not good enough because I’m not righteous enough to serve but I haven’t committed adultery… there’s a major conflict here. To make matters worse, my wife picked sides with the pastor, even after I begged him to at least let her serve on the worship team as I self deprecated to prove that she is blameless and that I should be the only one to suffer this punishment. This all happened in January, now it’s July and I’m having a hard time still… Help! I just want these thoughts to go away and leave me alone… I can’t prove his unrighteousness, everyone knows about it and they like him more than me because I’m some sort of OCD freak to them, or maybe that’s just the OCD talking… help!

Hey ! Does anyone think that intrusive thoughts are sinful? Does god punish us for our bad thoughts ?

I posted a couple days ago about a video of that went along the lines of ‘at the end of the month everything I want will come to me an manifestation and the karma coming back’ if I sent the video back to the page which I did then later finding out that the page does black magic spells, I sent this video back during a time when I was sad and low and when I sent it, it said that this page doesn’t receive message requests so I don’t even know if it’s been seen and I blocked the page but it’s made me so anxious that black magic has been done on me and then me and my partner who was having a hard time at the time have now rekindled and I can’t get out my head it’s because of this page😣. It’s causing me so much anxiety and making me feel like I’m going to go insane if I keep thinking like this and feel sick & I can’t get out of this loop I’ve tried saying maybe it is maybe it isn’t but the thought of it scares me so much, I tried to tell myself my message hasn’t been seen and it’s okay and the page had 17k+ followers I wasn’t a follower and what’s the chance i get picked out of all them followers, I tried to tell myself it’s not guna work like that I’d need to pay something for the page to do any spells but nothing seems to be helping. can anyone give me any advice on this please? Has anyone had the same obsession? Normally magic and manifestations, karma etc doesn’t scare me i somewhat believe in it but it was something about the ‘black magic’ that doesn’t sit right with me and scares me. I just wanna go back to living my life again happy with my partner but this is getting in the way 😭

Sometimes even tho I know God loves me and will forgive me of all my sins I question whether or not I’ve “messed up too bad this time” every time I ask for forgiveness and it genuinely makes me sick to my stomach… I’m so scared one day He’ll decide that I’ve made too many purposeful mistakes and stop forgiving me

I find myself always needing to make sure God know I am grateful for all he has done for me. My prayers consist of a lot of thanks yous that sometimes turn into loops. They really do feel like a compulsion, but one with meaning behind. But I guess that’s just what OCD is. They flow out of, over and over again. I can’t help it. And there aren sentences that I will repeat. Not because of a compulsion, but because of muscle memory, since I have the same exact prayer every single night. Sometimes I question if that’s okay, since my friend says prayer is a conversation. Is it okay to have the same repeating conversation with God? Always saying the same things in almost the same order? What are your experiences with this, thoughts, and ways you’ve combatted it.

I’m so scared I’m not going to make it to heaven what if I’ve made too many mistakes in my life .. I’m afraid of the unknown what if the rapture happens soon

I know that God is good and loving. He has proven it to me so many times. But recently a video came on my for you page and it was kinda blasphemous. It was basically making fun of some pastor in a church. But I found it really funny. I knew that it was disrespectful to God. I wasn’t laughing at the fact that it disrespectful to God. I was laughing because the pastor was doing something out of the ordinary. but now im scared that He’s gonna punish me with one of my worst fears that OCD has been revolving around. I just think back to some of the punishments that He gave in the Bible, and im scared that im gonna get punished in the worst way.

OCD is being mean again recently. If I come across a video of someone who has cancer, or some kind of ailment, I have to watch it with so much focus, read every caption perfectly, or I feel like I’ll get the same cancer or ailment. Totally irrational. I know. I keep telling myself so. Yet I can’t help but give into these compulsions. Because I know they’re compulsions, and I know it’s OCD. But there’s still a “what if” flicker in my head. “What if this feeling actually a warning and not OCD this time.” Part of it is my scrupulosity OCD. I feel like God is going to punish me for “not being compassionate” Or empathy, or caring enough by giving me the same ailment I ignored. Like a religious karma. And I’d like to say I KNOW for a fact God won’t do that, but OCD makes me believe other wise. What’s your experiences with this, even if it’s not religion OCD related.

Since the start of the year i had been feeling guilty for being in a relationship with someone of the same sex. I wouldn’t specify my religion but being gay is considered natural but acting upon it isnt allowed. The guilt and the thought were so strong that I eventually ended a 2 year relationship. I didnt want to tho but i do believe in my faith strongly and even tho i do question why something isn’t allowed, i do believe that if it isnt, it isnt for a reason. I had that reason too, i was mentally drained because of that relation, it messed my head in ways nothing ever will. But that never pushed me to end it

I’m struggling tonight. I seen something Instagram about a manifestation/karma and I responded to it, I looked on the profile after responding to it and one post it said black magic spells. I’m now having a really hard time that I’ve done something bad and I’ve messed with black magic.. I deleted the response and blocked the user, but my anxiety is through the roof stuff like that scares me and I’m crying. I’m so scared right now that something bad is going to happen 😢😢

Hi everyone ! I have been diagnosed with pure, somatic and harm OCD since last year as well as dermatillomania. Oh ! And to top it off I have diagnosed ADHD as well. I wanted to just come on here and share some experience that I’ve had. I’m 23 years old and ever since I was a child I have memories of my dermatillomania as a way to cope with my anxiety. I have struggled with my mental health since being a child, my undiagnosed ADHD made me very self aware that I wasn’t “fast enough”, “smart enough”, or “cool enough”. My psychiatrist even says that this undiagnosed ADHD until my 20s probably exacerbated my ocd as a way to compensate. Now I still rely on my parents as they help me out while I finish my studies. One parent is very religious and believes that “disease does not exist” (only a projection in peoples minds), and is very against meds and my other parent seems to always want to change the subject and has refused to come into therapy with me to meet my doctors and understand what I live through. My religious parent, I refuse to tell them I am on medication and I know that they will disapprove and try to gaslight me into believing something that will “make it all go away”. So I’ve given up. My other parent although they appear to pay attention always changes the subject and makes me feel invalid, and no matter how many times I try to explain I feel like I am talking to a wall. I just feel sad because.. well you would want your parents to want to understand and help you. In my case I am fortunate that financially they back me but I feel like I need to be a different person around them, and when it comes to my mental health I have no support. I look at mostly white families (not all) online and they seem to want to understand and be a part of a healing process, or at least believe that OCD is a valid diagnosis. I just want to ask if any of you have had unsupportive family members, have felt alone on your journey, and if it’s okay to never really let go of that hope that one day they may understand you. And honestly advice is great but just knowing I’m not alone in this will already comfort me, knowing that we are all in this together.

So my theme has revolved around the fear of having schizophrenia for about a year now, many therapist and mental health professionals told me they believe it’s a mix of ocd and hypochondria. Well my main symptom of this disorder is the fear of having delusions, so over the course of this year I’ve had thoughts ranging from “what if my wife is a demon” “what if this song means something” “what if there’s some hidden message in this movie” “what if the government created the world and controls everything” “what if Satan is the true creator of the world” “why did my cat look at me like that, what if he’s a spy created by the government, what if all animals are?” Literally crazy shit but it all feels so real, I’ve thought about this stuff so much that I’ve started to have almost an emotional detachment from the world around me, I’ll have thoughts like, “why should I care, nothings real anyway”. And now it’s starting to feel like my normal line of thinking, like now I genuinely feel like everything is fake or staged in some way, nothing feels real or genuine, it feels like everyone around me, the media, news, politics, all feels like some sort of big act or lie. Feels like there’s something more to reality that I’m missing or something, everything feels “too perfect”. I’ve lost all happiness in everything and I’ve become SO suspicious of every single thing, everything has to have some deeper meaning according to my brain, it sucks. Has anyone ever had the fear of schizophrenia and it got this bad?

Is it possible for your ancestors to curse you??? I keep getting intrusive thoughts about my relative that passed away and my thoughts are saying that they’re gonna curse me with one of my biggest fears. I’m so terrified right now. What if these thoughts were to actually come true..??!!!

Sooo.. for 7 years i havent worried about demons magic and other evil things.. because i prayed, and told my self. God is protecting me because og my prayers. And that worked very good. But my ocd just jumped to everything else in the religion like ocd do. 7 years of hell. Off all the things that ocd attacked in my religion from everything about sinning to perfect in prayer etc. I Got sick off all the stress. I then learned that prayer is a compulsion and that i have to face my darkest fear. Which is not to pray and face the possibility to get possed and attacked by evil. I Got the balls to do it. And i still beleive god Will protect me even if i dont pray. But. I worry if it Will work ore not. That i just should not Care if i get possesed ore not. To be honest i dont Care anymore.. But im afraid that it wont work this method. So i gues its the fear of fear.. what are u guys experience with this?

Does anyone here struggle with moral scrupulosity OCD? It’s been a lonely journey dealing with intrusive thoughts about being seen as good or bad (aka a failure in my brain), especially dealing with being a lesbian in a very Christian household. Just want someone to talk to.

Hi everyone. Has anyone's OCD skyrocketed after an abusive relationship and/or after having children? I've always had some version of OCD but two years ago in February of 2022, I experienced this really horrible bout of DPDR. I lost my sense of self, I was having really strange spiritual thoughts or existential thoughts. I was in an abusive relationship at the time. I'm still recovering from that. But my OCD jumps around. Today, I was worried I was having a brain aneurysm because of a mild headache and because I'm prescribed Lexapro for my depression/anxiety and a low dose of adderall for my adhd. I've been on these meds for a while with no issues but I am now getting thoughts like," maybe I'll have a stroke or an aneurysm from my meds." With no reason to think so. And then I spend hours googling. The health anxiety and death anxiety are fueled by a fear of my kids being without a mother (I'm a single mother.) in some ways, the fear has helped me to make healthier choices but these thoughts of death and the million things that can cause it are taking away from the joy of living. The DPDR seemed to kick this off. Does it ever get better? I exercise, meditate, pray, talk therapy, I just want to feel like "me" again.

I often notice that i get into this rabbit hole, that i feel like what i have is a temptation and not just ocd. I feel that i label everything as ocd while i can have temptation too. Recently i was dealing with sexual thoughts and i said its ocd but at the same time i acted on ways that it seemed like its not ocd, its temptation. It scares me cause then when i have agressive harm thoughts or any intrusive thought, it might be temptation. Or when i dealt with this sexual problem, i had really bad feelings same as pocd, and now im questioning if it was temptation or not. How do you know if its temptation or ocd? For me tenptation is like when you fight to not do something but you are in danger doing it. Ocd is different. Maybe im afraid of it cause i watched alot of christian videos and everybody is talking about temptation, it makes me scared now that these thoughts/feelings were temptations but the same time i feel like im arrogant if i say its ocd and i cant have temptation...