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Is it possible for your ancestors to curse you??? I keep getting intrusive thoughts about my relative that passed away and my thoughts are saying that they’re gonna curse me with one of my biggest fears. I’m so terrified right now. What if these thoughts were to actually come true..??!!!

I’m starting my first year at college after this gap year I used to improve my mental health aka ocd, and I’m not super sure how this will go. I’m living on campus, and I’m super excited to start classes and move in, meet new people. I just know it will be overwhelming, and if anyone has tips on coping with that, so my ocd doesn’t go absolutely wild, it’d be greatly appreciated

Does anyone else get this sinking feeling in their gut, like something terrible is about to happen? I use to panic over it but now I know it’s my OCD, it’s just so random, like all the sudden my brain is like SOMETHINGS WRONG OMG OMG DONT BE ALONE DONT LEAVE OTHERS ALONE 🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨

someone said something WORD FOR WORD what i am going through. i want to post it to see if you guys have any advice. to me, it’s the fear that my values or morals have changed forever. i don’t want them to change tho, i have no idea what to do

i wanted to reach out for some guidance i feel like i really need it. as we said, my anxiety levels have increased over the past week as i’ve gone forward with my scripts. i felt like our last session made me feel pretty off. one thing im struggling with is doubt within myself about my thoughts and train of thought. i feel like i constantly am checking and monitoring my thoughts and if it’s reassurance for anything. it feels like im not allowed to think a certain way and its become confusing. when i identify my compulsions and my reassurance i feel okay, but i feel like i don’t know where to go from there. it feels like i don’t know where to turn my mind to and that im not allowed to think any thoughts about my partner at all, even good one or my other situations in general, i feel like i get worried its just reassurance. it makes me feel sad because anytime i have a good thought my mind just feels blank at some points and it freaks me out because i just feel lost in that feeling. i’m doing my scripts and they seem to be going well, but i just am struggling because i thought i knew my feelings and had accepted these fears, now i feel like i just don’t know how to go forward with this.

Reassurance used to “help” me feel better and now it doesn’t. Does anyone know why that is?

So my theme has revolved around the fear of having schizophrenia for about a year now, many therapist and mental health professionals told me they believe it’s a mix of ocd and hypochondria. Well my main symptom of this disorder is the fear of having delusions, so over the course of this year I’ve had thoughts ranging from “what if my wife is a demon” “what if this song means something” “what if there’s some hidden message in this movie” “what if the government created the world and controls everything” “what if Satan is the true creator of the world” “why did my cat look at me like that, what if he’s a spy created by the government, what if all animals are?” Literally crazy shit but it all feels so real, I’ve thought about this stuff so much that I’ve started to have almost an emotional detachment from the world around me, I’ll have thoughts like, “why should I care, nothings real anyway”. And now it’s starting to feel like my normal line of thinking, like now I genuinely feel like everything is fake or staged in some way, nothing feels real or genuine, it feels like everyone around me, the media, news, politics, all feels like some sort of big act or lie. Feels like there’s something more to reality that I’m missing or something, everything feels “too perfect”. I’ve lost all happiness in everything and I’ve become SO suspicious of every single thing, everything has to have some deeper meaning according to my brain, it sucks. Has anyone ever had the fear of schizophrenia and it got this bad?

ive been questioning these past weeks, what js wrong with me? i just feel like i FEEL the thoughts but i dont HEAR them. I felt all these things, i saw these images but than i didnt. I felt fucking insane. Until, after a short anxiety attack, and some spiralling. I realized what the problem is. Im repressing the thoughts, im forcing them shut. Im just not letting them flow. I would tell them to stop, to shut up. And i fear, after doing that, the thoughts are still there, and i feel them there, i just dont hear them. Its weird, and probably doesnt make sense. But i honestly fear my own mind, i fear my thoughts, i fear the images, i fear the power it holds. And ive been chicken to it. It makes me feel crazy, like a lunatic. I feels like someone is squeezing my brain. Idk, does any else relate?

I was doing great for 4 days straight then it just hit me…like a giant wave and intrusive thoughts just started bombarding me…now I’m in the back yard in tears & sad…arrrrhhhghg

Hi everyone. Has anyone's OCD skyrocketed after an abusive relationship and/or after having children? I've always had some version of OCD but two years ago in February of 2022, I experienced this really horrible bout of DPDR. I lost my sense of self, I was having really strange spiritual thoughts or existential thoughts. I was in an abusive relationship at the time. I'm still recovering from that. But my OCD jumps around. Today, I was worried I was having a brain aneurysm because of a mild headache and because I'm prescribed Lexapro for my depression/anxiety and a low dose of adderall for my adhd. I've been on these meds for a while with no issues but I am now getting thoughts like," maybe I'll have a stroke or an aneurysm from my meds." With no reason to think so. And then I spend hours googling. The health anxiety and death anxiety are fueled by a fear of my kids being without a mother (I'm a single mother.) in some ways, the fear has helped me to make healthier choices but these thoughts of death and the million things that can cause it are taking away from the joy of living. The DPDR seemed to kick this off. Does it ever get better? I exercise, meditate, pray, talk therapy, I just want to feel like "me" again.

i don’t even feel human right now honestly, like i feel NOTHING. ugh my mind comes up w doubts that completely go against what I want and who I want to be. and my values. it feels so real too and i’m so afraid because of how real it feels bro. i feel like there’s no coming back from this. i’m genuinely becoming evil. i really didn’t want to be like this bro. i just wanna be normal

Can ocd make me think i want to act on them when i dont pls respond

Today I’ve been feeling like crap, I feel like I am losing my mind and I’m about to lose control. I feel so desperate at my own home. Do you know if this is OCD related??

I feel like I just can’t do it anymore. Every new day brings new triggers and I’m starting to believe that I’m a monster that needs to be tucked away from the rest of the world. Not only for other people but for myself. I just want to sleep. I am so tired. And I can’t even begin to tell my family because they just don’t understand. They think OCD is simply cleaning and tidying up things and I can’t seem to get it through their heads that I’m living with this disorder, day in and day out. I just want some relief, even for a little bit.

Sometimes I'll have the general feeling Something Bad is going to happen. Is this common with OCD?

I got diagnozed with OCD two years ago. Since my teenage years, I suffered from recurrent depressive episodes and also OCD related themes. I am currently doing ERP with NOCD but I feel I need to address my depressive moods as well. Is anyone doing ERP and CBT or talk therapy or anything else in parallel or has experience in treating both in parallel?

my mom shared a post with me about someone we knew being arrested for cp things. i’ve been obsessing over it for like 30 min now. i feel like i want to watch those things and i would like it. would i actually do it? no. do i feel like i would like it? yes. what if this isn’t ocd and i’m actually like that. i’ve done things in my past as a kid that could make me believe i’m a pdo and i just think what if i’m still like that or what if i am that. i feel like i don’t deserve to live. i’ve been imagining these types of things to test if i really like it and i feel like i do, i feel gross.

does anyone else have like videos of ppl with gofundme’s or like sick animals who need donations pop up on your fyp? i sometimes get overwhelmed when they do pop up bc it kickstarts my compulsions and i start praying for them and then share their video to boost it. and that’s fine, i want to help. but the problem is that on my fyp it pops up back to back sometimes and then i get really overwhelmed. i was just wondering if anyone else feels this way 😭

i feel like i’m faking everything, like ive read it all and my brain has mesmerised it completely. i first started struggling with feeling like i was faking it when my pocd episode started, i’d research pocd to see if what i was experiencing was similar or if i genuinely was one. i read something that said some people with pocd avoid children but i don’t do this. i don’t purposely put myself them around them but if my mum is going shopping i’ll go with her and my head will be screaming at me saying im going for different reasons. the other day i went my sisters and i was wearing kinda a mesh top and my head was telling me i can’t wear that because there will be children around and that i can’t expose that to them even though ive wore the outfit multiple times before without these thoughts, ive always taken my time with what i wear because it’s not often i go out so when i do go out even to the shop, i attempt to dress as nice as possible. i still wore the outfit and it convinced me it was for that. another thing ive read is that some people with pocd can’t say the p word but i can say it, i just chose not to. i started to not say that word after i had read that piece of information. it’s not a word i’d usually say before all of this anyway but if it was brought up in conversation i wouldn’t overthink it. another reason why i feel like i’m faking it all is because im not getting anxious or anxiety around compulsions, i don’t even know what my compulsions are technically. i don’t know if i don’t feel the anxiety anymore because i take medication for it or what. i just know i don’t feel anxious anymore. when i see people on here who i relate to, i can’t do the thing ive read again because otherwise i’ll feel like im just copying them? the post could be made today and ive been doing something for idk weeks beforehand and i’ll still feel like ive seen a post similar.

My brain constantly finds things I need to “confess”, to for example my partner. Things that are not relevant now, nor important in the present moment (it is for example something that I did 10 years ago). I get so stuck on these thoughts, and when I confess them there always pops another thought up that I obsess over and I feel the extreme urge to confess again and it gives me so much anxiety. Those confessions are all things I am ashamed of, or I judge myself on immensely. The anxiety stays till I confess it, then the anxiety calms down for a bit, only to flare up again with another thing I get stuck on. Is this a symptom of OCD? Is there anything that can be done about it?