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I am dealing with really intense scrupulous relationship OCD. Idk if anyone else can relate but I have this debilitating fear God wants me to break up with my bf and it’s so difficult because I know I am a bit codependent and don’t spend enough time with God as I should. I know he is a jealous God and I keep thinking “what if God wants me to…” and getting intrusive thoughts masking as the Holy Spirit. I know I’m not as close with God as I should be, but I’m doing devotions and really trying, I just can’t hear his voice over all the anxious thoughts.

I'm trying so hard to make progress with my ocd, and I have an awesome therapist who is helping me make more progress than I have in a long time, but life keeps giving me big helpings of stress, worry, frustration, and emotional turmoil. Today's helping is, my father took a fall today and is in the hospital with a fractured hip. My parents are older and their health is facing challenges, as it does for older people. I am not prepared to deal with this. My parents live 2 hours away from my, and my ocd has made it impossible for me to get to see them this past year. I know my time with my parents is limited, and my ocd mind f's are keeping me for making the most of the time I have with them. I can't begin to explain how much I want to curse the stars or whatever it is that has this pile of misery it keeps dumping on me. I'm really sick of life tormenting me.

Hello! I am in a fairly new relationship (5 months) and I’m starting to struggle with Relationship OCD (I think?) I have begun to constantly question my feelings for this person (ex. do I love them enough, are they good enough, do I even like them) even though we have never had any major problems and I genuinely enjoy spending time with them. However, these thoughts have become so encompassing that I no longer feel able to connect to my real feelings for this person, which then makes the thoughts stronger. I will be discussing this with my therapist tomorrow but wanted to see if anyone here has had a similar experience. Thanks in advance!

Been diagnosed with ocd since I was 12. I’m 26 now. I’ve had many themes but this one won’t give I get repetitive thoughts of “what’s the point if we die” anything I do.. my brain goes “why you doing this what’s the point” if I see something fun I wanna do my brain goes “what’s the point”. I don’t consider myself depressed but maybe I am? Is this depression? These thoughts give me immense anxiety. I feel isolated and scared. I honestly feel like there’s no way out. Like I discovered something I can’t undiscover. I know this is super weird guyss. It’s super distressing for me. Is this existential one or something more? What if there is no cure to this? I’m so scared guys. I’m graduating nursing school in 20 days and I’m having a hard time trying to be happy with these thoughts.

I am clean and free from my porn addiction. I was 8 and now I'm 18. I didn't realize it was an addiction until now and all the shame is hitting me at once. I let my porn addiction take me to dark and sketchy places. Now I can't get over the shame of the actions I did. I was shameful before but now I accepted that it was an addiction, ive been so depressed and having thoughts about what I did and if I could go back and save myself now I would. I keep getting so many intrusive sexual thoughts about literally everything. People, places, things, animals and even children. I hate all these anxiety inducing painful thoughts. Does anyone have any insight on recovering from excessive thoughts?

How do I not shut down and go quiet and cry when my partner is trying to have an uncomfortable conversation with me is anyone else dealing or dealt with this ?

Hi, I’ve been thinking about opening up to some of the people in my life who I am really close with about my ocd. There are two things that I’m worried about. One is that I feel like since my ocd and my anxiety in general to make so much to be happening in my head and it’s seems to be jumping from theme, thought, or worry to another that I won’t be able to clearly explain it in a way that they will understand. I’m also worried about this turning into a confessing compulsion, confessing was one of my worst compulsions and was super hard to get under control and I don’t want to lose the progress I’ve made. Does anyone have any tips for this?

Hey yall I have pocd and one of the symptoms I have is the intrusive groinal response; it seems to be a pretty common one and from my personal experience seems to be more of a stress reaction. But lately I keep having nightmares where in the dream my fake dream self is actually distressingly “aroused” by minors and I wake up freaking out bc I’m worried I might have felt that arousal irl as well and it wasn’t just hallucinatory. I feel violated by myself and haven’t been able to stop thinking about it and these dreams keep coming up. Does anybody else deal with this or have tips on how to let this go?

I’m so nervous, and sick to my stomach. I don’t know if I accidentally said a slur out loud when answering a question in class, and I’m trying so hard to remember all of the details. I know that I thought it the same time I answered but I’m still not sure. I’m trying so hard not to email my teacher to ask him if I did say something inappropriate or not, but it’s so hard. I just need to know—for certain.

I’ve got ocd and am bisexual. Since so many homophobic people see lgbtq people as groomers and p words I’ve been kinda worsening. People see bisexuality as insatiable lust and some sort of sexual deviancy and perversion. Those ideas have not been helpful for my ocd and I really feel myself almost believing those sick words. My brain is exhausted and confused. Can others bigotry play a role in worsening ocd symptoms? Cause it sure feels like it.

Good night from Armenia, I wish us to overcome our intrusive bad feelings. Please share with me with your experience, have you had the feeling that the cause of having OCD was the wrong attitude toward you in childhood, it maybe children from school, from yard or members of family? Are there people that think that if something had not been hapenned to them in the past, now they would not being sufferred from OCD problems. Please share with your experience. I wish you good night and sooner overcoming of OCD. I share with you with one picture of our capital of Armenia in January 28 night.

hi ok so since I turned 16 I’ve wanted a tattoo or a couple and I’m currently 22 so I’ve been able to get one for a while, and my religious ocd is making it hard for me to get one or makes me go back and forth a lot with it. I think god will punish me for getting a tattoo. i grew up Mormon and I remember one time when I was a kid my mom was really sick (probably with the flu or something) and my mom prayed and said to Heavenly Father that if he made her feel better she would take out her piercings. and she felt better and so she did. And I kept wondering did god really do that? was that sickness punishment for the piercing? I want to get a tattoo of a flashlight. there’s a book I’ve loved since I was 16 where the main character has ocd (turtles all the way down by John green) and when she’s starting to recover or at least feel better in a moment her and her friend are going in a dark drain and her friend says she’s terrrified and it’s so dark and the main character grabs her and turns off her flashlight and says, this is scary, and then turns it back on and says this is control, we just don’t see it that way because things feel so heavy right now but we have a lot more willpower and say then we think. and ever since then I wanted to get a flashlight. I’m just scared I’ll be punished.

I recently started pulling my hair out, and it’s getting kinda bad. I have a small bald spot on the back of my head, which is embarrassing, and it also just hurts a lot. Not to mention I have scabs on my scalp that I keep picking until they bleed. Gross. And it’s probably going to leave scars. I just can’t stop hurting myself and it’s getting to be too much. I’ve tried fidgeting, and it helps for a bit until I get distracted and go right back to it (I also have ADHD so I get distracted easily). Another thing that helps a lot is playing video games, but I can only play them for so long.

I’m 17F and have always had a huge problem biting my nails, ever since I was young from my anxiety and OCD. Ive been becoming very insecure of how my nails look and It’s extremely difficult not to chew my nails though I know it’s unhygienic and in healthy. Is there any advice on how to stop this?

How do you stop mental checking???? I dooooo this all day to the point I don’t even know when a normal intrusive thought happens becuse I check they are there that often I cause a lot myself. I don’t want these thoughts but feel like I’m making them happen all time because I check for the thought without even realising

Hello 👋 I'm new here and wanted to share my story. I'm 27 and struggle daily with OCD. I've had it for many years and got diagnosed 3 years ago. I have intrusive thoughts daily and constantly washing my hands because I feel contaminated. My hands are so sore they crack and bleed. When I get my food shop delivery I have to clean the kitchen floor where items have been and for days after I wash my hands after touching the food items because they are dirty to me. I wear PJ'S when I'm on my sofa but I have to change into different PJ'S when I get in bed, I cannot wear the same ones because I feel the sofa has germs on that I can't put in my bed. I clean my phone everyday when I get home from work because of the work germs. It's very rare if I use the toilets at work because of other colleagues using them. I get behind on jobs at work because I have to re read things a lot. I struggle very much leaving the house by myself. My last job I had to leave due to constantly being late because I had to check all the windows, doors, switches, cooker, ect. Luckily now my husband is at home when I leave for work. But times where I've had to leave by myself I've had panic attacks and cannot stop crying because I cannot leave the house. I think something bad will happen. I freeze at the door, I know I've locked it but the OCD bully in my head is saying I need to keep checking it until it feels right. And a lot of the time it never feels right. I have accidentally broken door/window handles because of checking them so many times. A few years ago I struggled that much to leave the house I had to film myself locking the door and I also wrote on paper "locked" "off" ect. Take a photo/video and send it to my husband who then stopped work to look and reply. A lot of the time it didn't help at all. At night I have to check everything is switched off and locked up, that can take a long time and a lot I ask my husband to do the checks either with me or by himself. This is so difficult. I have been having therapy for about 3 months, it's helped a little so that's something. Some days are ok and other days are horrible. I know I'm not alone but it does feel like that a lot. Thank you for reading :)

Harm OCD has always been my main theme and I've been dealing with it from the age of 15 but a new theme appeared a few years ago of the fear of schizophrenia. Its the commands during an OCD theme that gave me the new obsession that its actually voices when it isn't. It's so annoying and I just wondered if anyone else here experiences or has experienced this?

Can others with suicidal ocd share some common symptoms they noticed/experience with this theme?

so, i wake up every morning feeling anxious and like i need to start ruminating. it’s like that feeling when your thoughts are jumbled and immediately start to race the second you get up. for me lately my focus has been on my rocd per my latest post. i feel like ill settle into the fact and idea that i love my girlfriend, that i like her and that i want to be in the relationship blah blah but the second i wake up the loop of doubt continues. it obviously makes me feel like im lying to myself. that im convincing myself that i have basic feelings of attraction and connection to my partner, at this point the thoughts are so loud that im beginning to believe them. it feels so hard to access my true feelings and beliefs and when i do it just feels like i have to try so so hard and that i dont even believe it! i feel like im struggling to let her in. we had a really good conversation about my rocd last night, but i still worry about being a liar, secretly just staying in the relationship and not being attracted! ugh!! you can imagine this makes me feel like i dont even have rocd or ocd. the thought/compulsion of even breaking up with her comes to mind, but i know i would just feel unhappy and think about her then too. i dont want to do that obviously but those with rocd know sometimes it feels like the only way out. (we’ve broken up before because of this) which def adds a level. though i know doing that would alleviate this anxiety/ocd source, it would just come back and form itself in different ocd themes until i got back into a relationship and then the whole loop would start over. Does anyone have any advice for how you cope with this? I do my exposures and try to accept my uncertainty and thoughts but i’m wondering if any other methods that help anyone get through these struggles.

I am constantly thinking about my breathing because if I don’t I feel like I won’t be able to breathe. I think about my heart beat because when I’m calm I worry because I think that it’s stopping. Somatic OCD is obsessively thinking about bodily functions. Am I alone? Does anyone else go through this?