Anonymous
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- 1y
Suicidal ocd
Can others with suicidal ocd share some common symptoms they noticed/experience with this theme?
Sarah CSarah C
- Date posted
- 1y
I had this before, I have somatic OCD so I always think about my breathing, but sometimes my mind wants me to hold my breath to make it go away or to see whats the worst-case scenario is. I don't know if my mind is overly curious or it is trying to hurt me. You're truly not alone. I have a relative with suicidal OCD and she got help and they gave her treatments and exercises now she has a new found love for life and enjoys the small things in life.
confused writerconfused writer
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- 1y
How I’d do it, when, where, pain in my veins, distress, kind of depression, rumination, seeking reassurance, avoidance etc
SitwithitSitwithit
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Hi are you diagnosed harm ocd?
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y
Yes I am! My first and longest lasting theme.
SitwithitSitwithit
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
I had constant thoughts. The what if this or what if that. Then I had more confusing ones. With those thoughts I say oh shut up to my ocd and move on. It's hard just found it feeds it if I pay attention to it..and when I say hard I'm really under selling it.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 1y
You're right they do certainly feed off of fear and attention! I'm working on finding the best responses but it is hard when it feels so urgent and scary!
SitwithitSitwithit
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Can I ask what your thought is? Maybe I can help you come up w a good response prevention? Or I can give you mine. I warn you they sound insane. It helps shut up KAREN (ocd) though
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 1y
I promise no response can sound crazy to me 😂 a common one is what if I'm really actually depressed and will lose control or hope and kill myself 😬
SitwithitSitwithit
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous Oh the lose control one. Yup I know that one. I will help you but maybe you could try first. What would you say back to that thought? How would you cast doubt?
SitwithitSitwithit
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous Think about losing it. I personally don't think I would know I'm losing it till it's lost. So how could you use that to come up with a response prevention?
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous That's a good point..I guess I could say "that's a wild idea!". If you got any good/funny ones I'm all ears lol
SitwithitSitwithit
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous Yours is pretty good. You could take it further and be like that's a wild thought. I won't worry about it now. I will worry about it if it happens. Also you had depression in there..so I'd be like well I might be depressed or maybe not. I'll deal with it when I find out. Or we'll maybe I might lose hope and kill myself it could happen or if could not happen..I'll worry about it when and if it happens. Funny tends to elevate some of my anxiety and I want ocd to know she can bring it and I'm not going to do one little thing about it. No reassurance no goggleing, no problem solving. I just say above then go read a book, or listen to an audio book. Something I need to focus on to distract me from ocd thoughts.
SitwithitSitwithit
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous I keep pushing back on the ocd thoughts CONSTANTLY.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous Thank you SO very much!! It seems to ring true that it really is a lifestyle choice vs a one a done thing (would be nice if it were that way!). Do you find it gets easier with practice and time?
SitwithitSitwithit
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous For me its gotten so much easier. I've decided to look at the rest of my life as an exposure. I honestly think my progress has been a combination of my meds, nocd therapy and 2 books my psychiatrist recommended. When Bob (ocd) tosses a thought my way I can deal with most of them. I have other mental health challenges I see my doctor for and it'd been progress all around. Try to celebrate those small wins. I hope your in ERP. I fond having the support if my NOCD therapist key to really getting how to do the exposures and transferring those skills to rumination and reassurance. I hope all this helps
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous I am in ERP on here! You've helped beyond words. Thank for you the encouragement and I pray you continue to kick ass. I'm sure you will!
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- Date posted
- 19w
Anyone please?
Okay so I’ve dealt with harm OCD from the beginning. Started off with harming my kids, going to jail and then harming myself. The harm to myself stuck around for a long time. Then it went away and other themes picked up but it keeps coming back. This is like the third time it’s come back and every single time it comes back it feels worse. It feels like this is the time something is going to happen. Has anyone ever dealt with this? With old themes constantly coming back and feeling more real? Please any advice is greatly appreciated. Thanks
Anonymous
- Date posted
- 19w
Newbie and mama searching for help
Hey all, This is so strange to share this, and I have been judged by others and misdiagnosed many times. About a year ago I worked with an OCD therapist and it was really triggering. For me my thoughts are mainly about suicidal ocd and harm ocd centered around my children of all things. Fear that I could or would want to hurt them, then feeling so horrible that I believe I’m suicidal then I go back and forth on that. After reading a few of your posts, it makes me truly have a bit of hope that I can overcome this.
Anonymous
- Date posted
- 8w
OCD 'feeling real'
I suffer from religious ocd. My only goal in life is to live in God's will and to serve Him - to live and enjoy His eternal purposes & His presence. Jesus Christ is my life. That is my only desire on this earth, this short trip into eternity, and it's being stripped by ocd thoughts and intrusive thoughts 24-7. I have read many times that ocd can 'feel real', and this is true, our minds lie to us because of fear and anxiety we can't and were never meant to carry. I have begged and tormented myself in every way to find an answer from God. I think His answer may be that this is OCD, but I'm not sure. I started therapy again because I am so exhausted and this had stolen so much of my life in a spiral of negativity, depression, and constant anxiety & intrusive thoughts. I have spent about 2 years trying to figure out if my thoughts are real or not, especially with ocd it can deceive so easily as a spiritual matter when in reality it is just a thought, which is confusing and scary to say the least. Can anyone share their experiences with this sensation? No matter what the theme is... Thank you & Praying for your comfort
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