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I don't think I've had these theme that I see people struggle with but it's common. Where is the line for you with looking up stuff? What makes it a compulsion as I want to learn how to help people with this. Any and all info welcome

I know this sounds really silly, but I cannot decide on what to eat for dinner and I've gone into a full anxiety attack. I don't know why but every time I cannot find what to eat or if I go way past my dinner time like now or my family finish eating before me I have an anxiety attack. I tried to go into the kitchen to cook but then I had just started having a panic attack and had to go back to my room. Why does this keep happening to me??

I’m trying to use the phrase anything is possible to get off of ocd. But I strongly believe what ocd is questioning didn’t happen. Do I still just agree that it’s possible but keep my belief that it didn’t happen?

Does anyone else make a list of things that they have been told during arguments, or offhandedly, that upset them or just pops up during rumination? The lists also usually include, for me anyway, things like "don't do x, don't do y, make sure not to say z, you always (something someone said)" and I look at them any time I have confrontation with the person or experience a stressor that includes the person. Sometimes just when I am obsessing about a conversation that I had, or might have. I just can't help it, I want to make sure I don't mess up. I want to do everything I can to not be what my brain decides is Bad.

I know this isn’t OCD but anyone on here dealt with depersonalization. Two days ago I was walking in the mall and looked at myself in the mirror and i felt like an immediate detachment from my body like my mind felt completely separate from my body. Every since then I have been so anxious because now I just keep thinking my mind is trapped in this body and I feel so weird being a human like I should be some other species. its like I look at myself and don’t even know who i am. Currently am going through antidepressants withdrawal symptoms having quitting them cold turkey and been on them for 3 years.

I am a grad student in an online STEM program, and my career depends on my analytical skills, which mask my OCD. It has become debilitating (7 hours revising an email reply) and negatively impacts my social life (response inhibitions and shame) and my academic performance (excessive amounts of time spent on every task, resulting in easily found errors like unfinished sentences; cognitive impairments). Like, I have 7 planners and can't start a to-do list because it triggers my OC. My university is insufficient in my situation. Figuring out how to accomodate as a virtual student with neurodiversity/debilitating mental illness has been ridiculously exhausting. Despite communicating with every professor, the student accessibility services, and my department director, I feel like I am fighting an uphill battle alone. Everyone places such value in diversity, inclusion, and equity, but fail to actually have resources that support mental health conditions. Almost everyone I have contacted have no experience with OCD or how it works. Yes extended time of my due dates would be great, if it actually alleviated my anxiety and paralysis instead of extending masked compulsions. Asking chatGPT and trying to afford Grammarly premium is so far the only useful shit I've resorted to. I can't even mention AI because of how stigmatized it is from lack of information/tech literacy about it being a tool and not e-Satan.

The intrusive thoughts are taking over and I don’t know what to do I’m exhausted I’m tired of living like this I just want to be ok and not have give in to compulsions. I’m not able to breathe for a second because an intrusive thought pops up all the time I can’t control it I just want it all to stop the ocd, the intrusive thoughts, the anxiety , i can’t be myself and be happy when I’m being destroyed by this anxiety. I really thought I was getting better but I keep going backwards and I just want to be happy and be myself and live life to the fullest but how am I supposed to go about my day when the intrusive thoughts pop up every day. I don’t know what to do anymore I’ve tried distracting myself I tried journaling I tried stress gone vitamins, I can’t even sleep this is frustrating!!! It’s getting worse and nothing’s working

Here I am again after almost a year of thinking I was doing better but recently slumping back. Does anyone else constantly think of an event or mistake you made in the past and can’t let it go? I told my husband forever ago and he just wants me to let it go. He doesn’t understand why I’m so upset. But to me it’s like it’s the worst thing imaginable and that I’ve ruined his trust in me and I keep feeling like I should bring it up and there’s things I’m not telling him even though I have literally told him everything. Please help.

I’m finding it very difficult to resist mental review – because your mind just wanders to it. Does anybody have any tips on how they do it?

Can be your intrusive thoughts just like normal thoughts (not commands and what if thoughts) for example like you are normaly thinking then a random (unwanted) thought just pops up like you would be thinking that but you actaully don’t want it (i hope that makes sence) please help

What are your experiences with meds? Would you recommend them? Are some of the OCD meds meds that are usually prescribed for depressed patients too? If so, do they have any side effects or negative effects overall? Like make you tired or make you stop feeling things like I've heard some people say Would you say meds need to be taken only if the situation is very bad and super out of control?

When I see other people living their life normally, being happy without OCD, I get jealous. I wonder what would take for us to be like this? because I was once like that, before ocd got me. I feel like crying. this is fr a nightmare.

Yesterday, I made a post saying that I don't know how to cope with being alive. Right now, I'm really struggling and I'm even more depressed. I think what caused me this distressed was the nickelodeon docu-series and hearing these stories what these young actors went through re-opened a wound of my own childhood trauma and I'm spiraling. This week has been horrible and I know when ppl say that when you're suicidal the problem you're a dealing with is temporary but this doesn't feel temporary. I called my counselor a few days ago to schedule an appointment but he's off this week but he promised that he may squeeze a session tomorrow. At least I have that. I just don't know what to do.

feeling awful right now- last night and this morning i was thinking about something and didn’t have any anxiety or shame around it. i then realized today how wrong that thought was and it caused me a lot of anxiety and shame, and now i can’t stop ruminating about it. i can’t stop thinking about the fact that i had that thought and didn’t really see an issue with it, and now i feel like a horrible person. i feel so much guilt and anxiety now, and i hate that i had that thought. has this happened to anyone else?

And even a bit angry when trying to stop ruminations and compulsions and how long should I expect to feel this way?

What do you guys do to distract yourselves from having intrusive thoughts and images? help please.

Have any of you ever experienced OCD and driving? It does to me. I’m constantly afraid to drive alone or I’m afraid I’ll get into an accident with someone. I’m trying hard to cope with it by saying affirmations and meditations before I get behind the wheel. Does anyone else with OCD experience this?

I m at the dentist right now I m worry because I have tmj I m already In pain in my teeth head pressure eyes face ears pain all over but don’t want them to give me anything for the pain so I won’t say anything but coming to the dentist with tmj pain is the worse plus I have dentist anxiety

Hi, I need some help and insightful words if you aren’t too busy and it’s convenient for you. I’m very melancholic, borderline, and irrationally jealous. Here’s the story: My grandmother is letting my female cousin move in her house, despite the fact that she most likely does drugs — she talks extremely fast, always has beer in her hand, is very thin, and has abnormally constricted pupils. Her father used to be on meth. That really bothers me, and it’s not fair because all her money will go to them and she’ll be rent-free. It’s also not fair because, humbly speaking, I make good decisions, used to take care of the family the best I could, and got kicked out when I turned on the water for the roommate’s RV out of kindness (you remember what happened). I understand that she broke up with her ex-con criminal boyfriend, but this is no excuse. It sounds horrible, but I don’t care, as she got herself into her own mess and she’s the company that she keeps, and she needs to find her own way, yet I at least tried to be compassionate and prayed that she stay safe. I got to admit, I also did a banishing ritual for her not to move in or not stay there forever so no one gets in trouble for her plausible using. Anyways, I am unable to control my depression and jealousy. I was told that I was the favorite granddaughter, however, now with her moving in, I am afraid that that won’t last forever. I can’t cook and my grandmother loves her meals — she always brags about them. That makes me angry, which is one of the “poisons” in Buddhism. I’m melancholic since I know that she’ll warm up to her again, despite me warning her of her past (or current) criminal history when I did a background check. How can I control the unnecessary crying spells and jealously? I keep on reminding myself that according to Buddhist philosophy, jealousy is one of the three “poisons.” Yet, I’m unable to control these imprisoning feelings that are associated with the mortal brain that God gave me that just so happens to have a major chemical imbalance. I know I chose to live this way before I was born as a test of resilience, but everyday it is so difficult to live with OCD, Bipolar depression, ASD, etc. Also, I’m trying to finish an exercise in my jealousy workbook, but it isn’t quite helping. Do you have any helpful tips? Thank you for your time! I apologize if this sounds too lengthy… I’m also going to send this to my therapist.

DROP SOME COPING MECHANISMS FOR ME TO TRY :3!!