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i wake up with bad racing and intrusive thoughts. had a super bad one about hurting my dog and now i’m having a hard time being around her. i’m so sad

Am I the only one that, when gets disgusted at horrible intrusive thoughts or images feels like I'm faking it or isn't disgusted enough? When I see those intrusive images in my head I feel shaken and like about to cry, like when you see something from the uncanny valley. But then I feel like I'm faking being disgusted at it, and I'm so afraid that I might be secretely liking it. Something like that just happened now and I was triggered so much by it.

So, this evening I was cutting my kids nails and toenails and when it was my son’s turn, i was cutting his toenails and one started bleeding, well I’m like oh my gosh, did I mean to do that and so on. Well in my mind I was like what is that happens again, it did on the second one, mind you his toenails are weird. But I start stressing and think what if I wanted to and thought what if I meant to do it. I just need to ask has this happened to anyone?? I’ve been going through a lot of stress lately. And when I cut my daughter’s nails it was fine.

When you struggle to stay present, what’s something you can do to help that isn’t compulsive. When I loose my presence I become very vulnerable to sticky thoughts. Or maybe sticky days create a loss of presence. I’m thinking about making a few rules of thumb like: avoid confrontation, stressful media, making big decisions and maybe sticking to a to do list that includes extra self care. I’m on the upward swing but still have these days where I’m lost inside my head. Probably around 4-5 a month. I’m trying to accept that it happens without making OCD worse. Love some feedback.

This is a little new for me. Each time I figure out or find peace with the OCD to the point where it’s practically nonexistent a flare up happens and suddenly I’m back to feeling “off” and not normal and thinking in my head all day all kind of ocd related thoughts. Endless questions and connections of things that are not at all related. Soo darn annoying. You guys, how do you keep pushing past this!? What tips do you have for this dealing with the feelings after the flare up. The worst part is being able to laugh and smile and just live life again and then just boom feeling soo awful again. Anyone experience feeling off after flare ups??

i’m very unsure if i have OCD and am consistently feeling like i am a bad person or seeking attention for trying to reassure myself that i have it (i am not trying to attention seek it but growing up i was diagnosed with GAD when i was young because i had an existential episode about a poem.. and i have always felt that there was something else going on). when i feel this way i go on long rabbit holes of videos about ocd and have honestly become so conscious of every part of it that i now feel like im experiencing some sort of “meta OCD”. i feel that if i really do have it, its taken over my life and every waking moment is me thinking about it and sending me back on a path. lately i have been also feeling a fear of knives, bugs in my food, bleeding, etc. just want some feedback thats all.

What differences did you notice when you started to actually resist compulsions? Are intrusive thoughts less frequent? Less intense?

Isit me alone or anyone experienced this. My anxiety and worry somehow at the peak every night before i sleep. I have never fall sleep on time because of my intrusive thoughts. All the worry, bad thoughts, anxiety of something bad will happen, guilt, you name it, entire world problems will run in my head. I end up using phone so that i wont think, just scroll social media or read articles to divert my mind until im so exhausted and my mind shut down. This is very exhausting and tiring. Anyway to deal with this?

Hi, i have been on and off with my SOOCD and I have been really good at understanding that my thoughts are just thoughts, yesterday i seen a masculine lesbian and it triggered me and I got severe anxiety because I was expecting some thoughts to come as I had been triggered. I then got thoughts “you find her attractive don’t lie”, when I seen her I do not personally think she is attractive looks wise and all that, but all my mind is saying to me now is I do and I am lying and it’s started to just get to me i just want to shut off and get the thoughts away from me😫then I seen on tiktok this person had SOOCD and then turns out they were gay and I just am spiraling.

My husband has been struggling with ocd for honestly I think most of his life. Officially diagnosed in the last two years now with paranoia as well. It’s difficult. I struggle myself with some anxiety and depression and overthinking situations. And we both have struggled self insecurities and insecurities in our relationship. He always tells me I don’t want to loose you after he has been is a dark place and needing reassurance. Right now we just feel very disconnected after a situation. I been trying to be as understanding as I can. And acknowledge that we both need to not seek so much reassurance from each other. Anyone have any tips on ways to feel connected again after an intense ocd episode?

Hello I've been on fluoxetine for 3 weeks now The first two weeks my intrusive thoughts got much much worse Almost to an unbearable point Now I feel restless legs and hands Also my sleep hasn't been so bad since I've been taking alprazolam but still I wake up some times at night I'm taking 40 mg a day Should I be worried?? I was reading about some real crazy side effects and bad stuff that just made me fell worse And right now I'm not sure I'm really in danger or it's just my ocd attacking me I don't wanna develop akathisia And I've been feeling some uneasiness in my limbs but not to that point I think

These past couple days, Ive had 2 huge panic attacks in a row. I’m getting worried because they were kind of the worst theyve ever been. I couldn’t function at all and if my partner weren’t with me, I’m afraid I wouldnt have been able to move or get up. I was convulsing and couldnt stop having the worst intrusive thoughts. I was so disappointed in myself that I started having super intense suicidal thoughts and couldn’t speak. I really hate ocd. I ruined some of the most fun days that were planned out in a trip too. Idk what to do anymore

I wanted to ask because I have this problem that my intrusive thoughts have completely attached to my ocs. There's one character I have, she has blonde hair and has a name pretty similar to my younger sister but not (the oc's name is Charlotte Wine who is a 32yr old women) and I had this for a while. I don't know what to do about it and now I completely avoided drawing or sexualising her because it now mixed up my little sister's name with hers and vice versa. I'm scared that if I do that I would be doing something horrible and criminal. The character was never based on my little sister so I don't know what to do about this. And I've just completely avoided drawing her and stuck to what's safe. It makes my uncomfortable just drawing her now because my brain attached itself to it

Just feels like i can never win in life... I dont ever have a special talent that makes me stand out from anyone... I cant win at games, nor ever have a victorious moment based on my skill instead of luck... i just lose and lose and lose... from having OCD based on real events, to my OCD gaslighting me into thinking my fears are true, to just never being able to ever win in life once in my life... i have no one in my college who understands... let alone anyone who cares... Maybe I deserve this because Ive done bad things in life... maybe I deserve this because of my childhood mistakes... who knows... Im just in a state of giving up on ever being happy because I genuinely feel like nothing works out for me, either by my own stupidity or just life being a bitch...

I want to start from adding that I had OCD as long as I know, but not as severe as I experience it now. Sometimes I wonder, how did it get this much worse? And I trace its roots at a time when I started believing in the Law of Attraction. (I don't believe it, even then I didn't but acted as if I wanted to try) The books I read around Law of Attraction most often taught that always have a positive thought, and not a negative one for positive thoughts manifest good things and negative ones bad things. I would keep a journal, and deliberately think positive thoughts and undo the negative thoughts that I had. Although, at that time, I had no idea what OCD was. But neutralizing thoughts begun around this time after reading books like The Secret, and other popular books around the concept of Law of Attraction. It was also this time when I got into a relationship, and it started consuming me when I started magical thinking. Certain hairstyle mean (the hairstyle) dictates how my girlfriend talks to me. Let's say, I change my hairstyle one day and my girlfriend is happy and wants to hang out. It caused me to believe that this new hairstyle brought or made this thing happened. Now let me add, I don't believe in these things. I don't. But as of writing this now, I just feel so unbelievably stupid that I could think something so rubbish and idiotic like that. I know it's a mental disorder and I shouldn't label it like that. But I think for anyone who is in the recovery process, when you look back, you do have that anger on your chest that why did I waste so much time? So this way I believe I learnt OCD. I had it already and I know I had. But the severity of OCD has all come from this concept of Law of Attraction. It was 2017 and it's 2024 now. I don't know how to express this more clearly. But do you have similar experiences where you feel like your OCD wasn't this much worse or something that resonates with what I just said. If you feel like you can contribute to this, please do so. Stay Safe. Awais Bahar

I have been struggling with ocd a lot lately, it makes my life impossible to deal, I just wanted to have a normal life, I have ocd since my childhood but I was recently diagnosed, I just worry so much about my dreams and their meaning. If I obsess in a though I will dream about it and it makes me a lot distressed,I just wanted them to stop

My ROCD HOCD only comes back when I get into relationships. Like for example when we broke up bruh my heart was messed up I’ve never experienced heart break before, but my ocd was like null during that experience. But when we started working things out my thoughts started to come back again? It’s like when the thing I love most is gone I get no bad thoughts? But I guess I wouldn’t have been that heart broken if I really wasn’t into him. Cos the whole time I was like he’s so pretty I don’t want anyone else. But at same time not one intrusive thought maybe ur not into him came???

Do conspiracy theories trigger anyone elses OCD? They always scare me and make me feel like I need to “figure them out” and I over-research and over-analyze them. It’s not like I’m genuinely just interested in them or believe in them, it’s more that I feel like I need to know the answer. Tiktok is a huge trigger for this.

I have thought about this a lot and feel it is a great DISSERVICE to us on this app that therapists aren’t available to us without them knowing who we are. The whole point of the app is so people can explain horrible things they’re thinking without shame. If you have to say who you are a lot of us wouldn’t be on here; including myself. I really need someone to talk to about things that doesn’t know who I am. I have a therapist and she’s wonder but I can not talk to her about this stuff. Its unbearably uncomfortable and painful to talk about. Ugh thats all i wanted to say 😔

I was ok and then did some erp with puff daddy story and it triggered me so much. It’s been on my mind all week