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does anyone else feel their ocd gets so much worse at night or even when it gets dark?

Thoughts on staying away/limiting time on social media. I know it’s toxic and not helping but is that just because it triggers me? Should I keep it as a exposure ?

hi everyone, im new to this therapy & it has been really daunting leading up to getting help. I’ve been struggling immensely with emetophobia for my whole life, but it has taken a huge toll on my life within the last year and a half. my emetophobia has progressively transitioned into agoraphobia and I can’t ever leave my room. just this last day was my last straw, when my roommate came home with the norovirus. he’s not very considerate when it comes to staying clean and quarantining so my head has been spiraling wondering when or if I’ll get it too. i haven’t slept in 3 days & haven’t eaten & I feel that im inducing more harm to myself. I just want to feel better, not worry so intensely. I want to live a normal life without restricting my meals or restricting public places & constantly asking my boyfriend for unfortunate reassurance that I’ll be okay. I really hate to be that girlfriend. if anyone sees this, I really hope that I do get better & that if anyone struggling with the same obstacle as me can get through it. it’s draining, it’s daunting, & so much for one to handle.

I was just wondering can OCD switch between two specific themes. Recently my theme had changed from false memories (reassurance) to obsessing over news(Russia and the potential draft) and now it has switched back to my original theme while the new one is still subtext in my mind. Is this common and does anyone have any advice (I’m seeking out NHS talk therapies as don’t have the money for anything else)

4 years ago I had hocd with a girl classmate, I was scared of being gay and like her, not so long ago my ocd came back, that thought came back and then changed to another girl, now AGAIN came back, because he changed her style and now have glasses, I can accept she looks pretty, but it started when I was scared of my boyfriend falling in love with her, now I think about her constantly like, having the need to be better than her, I hate this I don't have life, it started today because I dreamed about her chasing my bf.. I want my bf to see that I am in fact prettier and better than her but then, my hocd just comes and tells me it's me who is in love and in denial.. I hate this, I love my boyfriend, I'm not gay and I don't like her.. help does someone knows what's happening???!!?

I feel so down right now for no reason and I feel guilty feeling bad about my well-being because some peace are dealing with wars and cancer and my pain isn't half or real compared to their pain but I can't take it anymore and I feel uncomfortable going to therapy and my family is broken my dad is abusive and mom and brothers don't really care I don't have any friends that they could help but OCD getting me crazy by signs I think I am seeing and I can't get help cuz my ocd tells me if I find happiness something bad may happen to my family so this is why I can't find a solution sorry for the long post I just feel so lonely right now I just want to fade away

Hi, I always get thoughts whenever I see or get any type of interaction with certain type of people that I will turn into them and it gives me alot of anxiety and has to do compulsions to get out of those thoughts. If I try to avoid the compulsions I get their faces, The expressions on their faces. It's not just if I see them, There faces comes anytime, While I am eating, Studying, Walking. Please give some advices on what I can do. As I don't know what to do.

I am getting better at this, but I really want to research, confess, talk to someone when my thoughts flare up. Anyone have anything else they do instead of compulsions? Trying to avoid creating another compulsion, but any healthy ideas to do something else instead of one?

I have no idea what thoughts are REAL, sincere guilty thoughts, and what thoughts are FAKE OCD guilty thoughts. I don't trust my thoughts... it's an awful, weird feeling. Almost sickening that I don't know which thoughts are real.

I can't.I even can't post my story. I am 15 years old suffering from OCD. It just feels so bad, so bad. From trying to get hurt by banging my head in the wall, I just feel things are not okay with me. I am a student. I want someone to get in contact with me - someone to understand my story and support me. I hope it reaches the correct audience, someone who can get in touch. Thank you so much.

What do you do when you questioned something about God or thought something bad about Him and now fear that He will never forgive you, especially since you still have doubts and questions about Him?

I'm kind of a techie person and I've got a PSVR2 headset and controllers. I like playing games with stories to progress as opposed to those VR "experiences" that are more like a playground for playing with the engine's physics and things like that. I find storied games more immersive and easier to lose yourself in I've noticed when I'm feeling really anxious or intrusive thoughts are bothering me a lot, I'll play VR to distract myself. I don't know if it's an avoidance compulsion to try to shut out the intrusive thoughts and anxiety they bring Does anyone else have any escapism habits like this?

I feel like I am at the top of the age bracket here. I have lived so long with OCD and finally getting targeted help. It fascinates and frightens me. I wish I had this earlier in my life.

I feel like I’ve become more selfish since opening up to my family about ocd. I’ve yet to been diagnosed, but I’ve talked to them about intrusive thoughts during a really bad period. Sometimes, I wish I didn’t open up and kept it to myself. I feel like I expect them to know when something is wrong, and im more focused on myself. I miss how things used to be, and how I could talk to them without them knowing them something is wrong with me. I feel like they treat me differently now, and I’m aware of that in the back of my mind. They don’t call me out of things they would’ve before, and I think I use this as an excuse for my bad attitude at times. I feel like I isolate myself a bit more because of this, but I know I’m in the wrong here.

Does anyone have any tips or advice for handling the OCD flare up during the pre-period time? I have PCOS too and the hormonal changes can rlly make OCD ramp it up in the time before my period. Anyone experiencing a similar thing found ways to improve that?

So, one my friends shared some news about an ex girlfriend. Apparently she is becoming a mother for the first time. When I heard this I felt happy to hear the news, but dramatically I then felt feelings of pain, envy and sadness. We’ve split 5 years ago and both made a pact not to speak to each other ever again. I thought I reached a point where talking about her or hearing news about would not affect me. However it did, I felt sad that she moved on, I feel regrets for losing her and most of all I feel envy that things are looking up for her in life and I am here being a loser trying to recover from alcoholism and keeping OCD in control. I thought time would help me heal, but the reality is that I was drinking and pushing down the feelings of regret and guilt. Now I am literally losing my mind to which at the moment I feel alone but I know I can cope with this. Most of all, I am still sad that she is not my life anymore, however I don’t regret that she has moved on and is happier. “… I know someday you’ll have a beautiful life, I know you’ll be a star. In someone else’s sky, but why, why, why! Can’t it be in mine!” Black - Pearl Jam

I am having horrible thoughts on purpose and I don’t know why. I hate having them. Is it ocd related?

Is anyone else scared that when they pee the particles get on you, you can only wear clothes once bc u fear u got poop or pee on them and ur scared u drip and leak. I’m a college student and living in a dorm w ocd is extremely mentally draining especially having to hide it from my Roomate. She knows I have ocd but not the extent. I had PANDAS as a kid and never lost the ocd. I get scared I pee myself when I wake up sweating or wake up having to pee. I hold it in for as long as I can and usually I only wear clothes until I have to use the bathroom bc once I go I’m scared I got urine on them. And TMI but discharge is a whole other story. This may sound crazy but I keep dove soap open by me and wherever I think there’s something I dab some on the spot and that makes me feel better. I’m starting to see a therapist at school so hopefully she can help with this but it’s really stressful. Having this type of OCD in a dorm is rlly hard😅

I feel like I have to great rid of someone out of my life because they used a horrible word and I stood up and said absolutely not do not use that word it’s wrong and I educated them but because they used it all of social media is saying that because I love them then I’m just as bad when I’m not I’m literally the person who’ll never ever be like that, and I’m not trying to justify it at all, I do love them and up until this point I’ve never heard this word be said so me standing up and saying absolutely not do not say that, I’m educating and this doesn’t mean I’m not allowed to be with them right? It doesn’t mean I’ve got to stop and throw them out of my life right? TikTok is stresssinf me out, everyone is you’re just as bad as the person you love if they say something you disagree with. But if I stand up for what I disagree with then I’m not as bad? But then they say you have to leave that perosn out of your life if they say something you disagree with and I just don’t believe that. A good perosn can say something stupid and then be corrected to learn that what they said isn’t okay, that they can learn and grow that’s how we develop as humans. We learn from mistakes and educate ourselves. Right?? Social media jusr stressed me out and I can’t stop thinking

I’m moving from a group art studio into my own space tomorrow and I can’t sleep. I feel like I’m going to throw up from anxiety and I’m crying because I feel like I’m going to fail before I get started. My friends are excited to help but it feels like I’m taking advantage of them. Everyone wants to see me win but it feels like I don’t deserve it. I feel selfish. I have harm OCD and I’m really struggling with keeping my violent thoughts under control so I can try to sleep so I can be on time tomorrow. I don’t want to ruin the day tomorrow by not waking up on time. It feels like I can’t breathe.