What do you do when you questioned something about God or thought something bad about Him and now fear that He will never forgive you, especially since you still have doubts and questions about Him?
God will always forgive you. We’re all sinners but he loves you so much no matter what. Never feel like he doesn’t love you, he loves you so so much.
I struggle with the exact same thing… I have religous OCD. Think about Thomas the disciple. He was a doubter… so many people Jesus chose doubted him, before christ people who faithfully followed God at times doubted him. This is where your faith comes in. We are human and its hard to control your thoughts, we often have wondering minds. But questioning and doubting as a believer is not unforgivable but instead a chance to lean into him and trust, pray through it and strengthen our faith. Iv had very bad hateful intrusive thoughts about the holy trinity, and it was terrifying and painful, but i don’t want those things and i don’t believe those things. I just pray, repent of all knowing sins, ask for conviction, and keep loving and trusting him. God always knows the true us, not what OCD thoughts make us believe about ourselves.
Look up scrupulosity it will help you. Jamie at scrupolosity.com and Mark DeJesus on you tube were tremendous help. I also loved the book I believe in Love by Fr.Jean C.J. D’Elbee
I can’t. I’m so scared. I don’t want to deny the HOLY SPIRIT. I keep having intrusives that make me question my real intentions.
I have made multiple mistakes in my past that lead me to believe im a bad person. thinking about them often sends me into a panic attack. i cant help but feel i need to be punished. i hate this feeling, what should i do?
I feel like a really terrible person right now, I keep replaying this, and no matter what I can’t remember what happened, it’s like my brain is purposely not letting me think about it. Without wasting any more time, I’ll get into it. Basically, I was at Walmart, and looking at cards with My Dad, I saw anime ones, took pictures of them for my sister, even ones that were anime kids, because I did my best to ignore it, so I looked at a Hunter x Hunter card, I stared at the black haired kid, being all like “ I’m glad I’m not having any thoughts about this, I’m glad I’m having normal thoughts and not thinking anything” I felt happy, then as soon as I looked at killua (white haired kid), everything collapsed. I don’t know what happened, my brain won’t let me remember. But I’ll give bits and pieces. I think that I had false attraction, and something in my head, said “oh, I wouldn’t mind being attracted.” “He is attractive, and I’m attracted to him.” “I remember a girl thinking he is attractive and he is” “ It’s not wrong to be attracted” “ I don’t care about his age” .. something along the lines of that, and now I’m panicking super hard, because I’m worried if I said those things, I feel like I ruined my life that I’m a pe//do and deserve nothing, idk what to do, I feel terrible… I remember when I was having the intrusive thoughts, I was panicking and was worrying, but it kept playing out, and I kept hearing things talk, it was drawn out too long, that now I feel convinced that I was saying those things, I tested it too, and I can confirm that I didn’t say that, but why am I still not convinced? I know I wouldn’t say those things, I was hoping the complete opposite would happen. My brain kept making me feel like it wasn’t wrong and it was okay. Maybe that’s why I’m so convinced I did that. I’m just spiraling super bad right now, I don’t know what to do or what to think, I don’t know if I said that or not… even if I did test it, I genuinely just feel like I said it, and I wanted it, because I still feel uncertain, I still feel like I said it, part of me just wants to be like oh I did and so I can move on, not because I agree with it, I just don’t know what else to do… I’m really scared.
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