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I have a question. has anyone tried EMDR therapy I just read that this is good for anxiety, anger ,PTSD, depression, disassociation,and Even treats OCD. If you have tried it what was you're experience.

Hi guys! I believe I have an OCD since I was around 12. I remember then I had a lot of intrusive thoughts about religious things and I had a counting compulsion (I thought that If I don't count to 8 in specific moments, someone gets hurt) During later years it was really changing - I stopped being religious, so the OCD theme also stopped. Then I had I reckon SOCD, harm OCD and many others. But for know my main topic is ROCD. But because of the fact that this is my main intrusive thoughts topic I start to have this awful thoughts that this is not OCD, I'm just with the wrong person and I need to accept this fact. This is really struggling for me, because i really love my bf and Im in the healthy realtionship but Im so tired of having this kind of thoughts, sometimes I cannot sleep because of them. Also the fact that I've never been diagnosed (I cannot go on theraphy right now unfortunately) is another trigger because I have thoughts that I dont really have OCD, I just making this up, because I cannot accept the truth. Is there someone with similar experiance? Or maybe someone who can have advice for me?

hi i hope everyone is well!! i’m a bit upset atm. so i have had pocd for a while now and one of my biggest fears is happening rn. my younger cousin has to sleep with me as her parents are away and she said she wants to stay with me as she feels less homesick with me which is so adorable and it shows she feels safe with me. but im so scared of false memory ocd playing up and the what ifs. like i’m petrified to go into my room rn nc the thoughts are “everyone is asleep what if you do something” “what if you do something and don’t remember” or “what if you do something when you’re half asleep or asleep”. it’s almost 2am here and ive locked myself in the bathroom. im actually really nervous. she hasn’t slept in the same room as me since 2022. 😭😔 like my body feels like it needs to be tensed up and that i cannot relax. any advice will be appreciated

Hello, I'm 30 and I've suffered from OCD for about half my life. It's been different kinds throughout my life but for the past few months I've had a very debilitating fear that I know is completely absurd but I have been having a lot of trouble with it. (Involving bodily fluid ocd) I don't know where this really stems from but I have this fear that someone is breaking into my home when I'm not there to contaminate my soaps and shower products with semen. It sounds so dumb even writing it out but I can't get over this feeling. It's caused me to spend so much money on new products so I can ensure those things are not contaminated. Why would anyone do that? Not break in to steal things but just to contaminate my things so when I shower with those products it gets all over me, then I feel disgusting. I fully understand how ridiculous that concept is but that's OCD for you. It's also caused my to do way more laundry which is very expensive in an apartment building. I inspect my soaps for anything that could resemble sperm/semen and I often throw things away and it makes me feel terrible doing that. This is the first time getting this out in the open because I'm too embarrassed to admit it to anyone, and unfortunately I don't currently have access to professional help (not on medications either).

Ok so I’m freaking out right now guys this has really got me , I’m reading up about urges etc on the internet and like how people with harm ocd might want to harm themselves , so what if u have pocd do u urge to want to do something sexual with a child ? Surely then that does make you a pedophile or are the urges compulsions ? I’m so confused and scared about this

TW for ppl with existential or moral ocd! 🙏 So about a month ago I got a random thought in my head, “what if morality is a made up concept? what if love, compassion, goodness, kindness are all made up concepts?” Dang, those were (and are) things that were very important to me and my biggest fear was to become someone amoral! So i got anxious, and i couldn’t shake the thoughts off and the more i fought them the louder they got. I cried at school bc i didn’t want to feel that way, i felt like everything was fake and that it was all made up which scared me to no end, and i also felt like this was the end of the world, i was losing my morals, etc. like i didn’t deserve anything and i was just wanting to go back to normal. And i always feel like i have to fight the thoughts, i need to prove them wrong right now or i will believe them! And now they are mixed in with harm thoughts, checking to see certain immoral scenarios and how i react to them.. if im not disgusted enough maybe i don’t believe in morality anymore or something and i will become a bad person! Doubts flood in all the time bro idk what to do anymore but im starting therapy tmr.. Does this seem like OCD or am i going crazy? 😭 Has anyone gone through this?

I feel like giving up. Idk what to do anymore. All of these intrusive thoughts idk if they are real or not. I wouldn’t ever hurt my daughter but I feel like I can’t be a father or am capable of it anymore. I’m so down and out of it.

I made a friend recently online and we get along great/talk everyday/etc. But today they told me they've got like an internet stalker who doxxed them and knows where they live and has threatened them and stuff and won't leave them alone. Anyway, not long after someone messaged me saying my friend is actually 12 and is super racist or something, and that they have proof and need me to believe them. I dont interact with minors, it triggers my POCD. Secondly, I'm anxious because I don't want to get involved in drama at ALL. and I'm scared of just blocking them because I'm afraid I'll get doxxed or harassed. My anxiety is really bad, I don't know. I compulsively want to just cut off this friend but they told me they don't have friends because of this so I feel bad. Besides, I do like them as my friend but. I dont know. I'm not built for this kind of thing I just want to be safe.

I’ve been having this thing going on where I can’t remember if I did something and I retrace every step and everything I did. And the something that I “did” is an intrusive thought. For example, last night my father in law was outside until the early am and I had an intrusive thought like what if I went out there with him and we did “stuff” and I just don’t remember. I don’t know why my ocd is obsessing over this, this isn’t the first time. I don’t know what to do ): I know I would never do something like that so why is this happening? I can’t stop rethinking everything to make sure nothing happened. Please leave your thoughts

Why is it we are encouraged not to seek reassurance? Isn't that a form of accepting what we are dealing with? It took me 20 years to finally see a physchologist! I was petrified to tell anyone what my mind was thinking and the way my body was responding to the thoughts. I finally experienced a little breakthrough by sharing my story with a doctor. Him telling me my diagnosis finally gave me a name to call it. And now as I seek to understand it- I need more reassurance now more than ever that I AM LEARNING, I AM OVERCOMING, I AM GROWING, that when the anxiety comes on suddenly that I AM SLOWLY MOVING THROUGH IT. I feel chastised for wanting reassurance, but I actually SEE IT as a method of helping each other face this more freely and more cohesively. Anyone else feel this way too?

Family is so hard. I just went to a big gathering where there were around 30 people I haven’t seen in probably 6-10 years. It was good to see some people, annoying to see others and man I am I SO anxious now 🥺 My family doesn’t understand mental health issues. At all. So I haven’t been coming around and they are all angry with me for that. Which is so ridiculous. I’m in my late 30s. Anyway, i feel like locking myself in my room in solitude for the next few hours to recharge. Ugh that was so much. To anyone else dealing with extended family who don’t understand mental health issues, I see you. You’re not alone.

Hi so I just want to kind of explain my story and if there is anyone here who has experienced this before I would love if you replied 😁. Last year around this time, I experienced the worst anxiety and it’s when I discovered I had ocd. I had horrendous rocd with my ex boyfriend. We broke up around March, and the ocd got better and better by the days, there were some days where it BARELY ever even appeared. I fell in love with my guy best friend about 2 months ago, we confessed and have now been together for almost a week. As soon as we confessed to eachother, I started having my rocd thoughts again. This time it’s a bunch of thoughts about my ex boyfriend who I have been over, along with other meaningless guys I’ve talked to. I don’t know why this is happening, I have loved my boyfriend for so long and why all of a sudden when we made it official my rocd has to make me question every feeling I have ever had with him. I’m just hopeless and I want to live in the moment with my boyfriend without my brain telling me I miss all of these guys and want to be with them instead.

anyone else just feel waves of anxiety even if they aren’t currently having an intrusive thought? like i had some thoughts last night and ever since ive just been getting really intense waves of physical anxiety feelings like in my chest and stomach is it like subconscious rumination about the thoughts?

Hi, I need an advice, I can't trigger myself! I want to do ERP but Everytime I try to trigger myself I feel nothing so it won't work. On the other side OCD triggers me outside of my ERP and I react wrong to it. Has anyone an Idea how to trigger myself properly, or should I wait for OCD to come? But how can I be prepared for it?

Does anyone have any good habits or other routines to try that helps them improve and overcome ocd. I want to try some new things in this new year:)

Last year in April, I've been diagnosed with a condition that "may or may not" become cancerous, which has sent my OCD into overdrive. I get blood work every 3 months to check on it, but I'm told my risk each year is low. I've had so many somatic symptoms the past year, I just can't tell what's real and what's not. I feel absolutely insane. I've started trying to make better health choices, getting involved in sports, and I'm trying to work on some personal projects, but this fear has so much power it stops me in my tracks. I've been doing good with it for the past few months. However I had to print out the doctors order to get the blood work done in a few weeks, and I have been Googling and panicking ever since. I feel literally stuck in bed on my phone. Looking at YouTube videos about the disease, Reddit stories, research papers... but I also realize NONE of this is helpful. But I feel literally trapped right now. I don't know how to get up and stop it. I planned on having a good day today and I feel absolutely stuck...

Anyone have issues with repeating sounds over and over that bothers them? I feel I have some sort of unique form of OCD or mental illness. I know this is not the case but I can’t help but to think it. Any help or insight would be appreciated

I'm having contamination OCD since past 6 months . I wash my hands infinite time a day . My hands become all dried up and blood comes out frequently from the cuts which are formed due to OCD I'm a teen but my hands are like a old human in their 90's or even more than that. I'm not able to concentrate on my studies I finish 1 bottle of liquid soap in just 2 days due to overhand washing please help me overcome this I'm not able to handle this anymore.

Does anyone get unwanted sexual thoughts? I get them frequently and I didn’t know what subtype to add them into because it didn’t fit the “children” one they had as an option. I get these with family members and it makes me feel horrible and disgusted with myself. I used to get them when I was younger and I didn’t know what it was at the time, I just remember that I felt really icky and grossed out. I know these thoughts aren’t me but lately it’s been getting worse and I’m not sure how to stop them. I’ve never outwardly confessed this to anyone, but I know this isn’t me. And I want to stop these thoughts. If anyone has any suggestions on how please help.

Like I want to know this cause I have guilt, anxiety, sadness and all of these feelings more than the other feelings. So what is considered as happiness in this recovery process?