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I was thinking about random stuff and then started thinking about what it would be like to raise a baby. After thinking that I had a random wave of arousal? I know it wasn’t from thinking of babies but I’m still worried it was. How do you know if it was or not? I wasn’t even thinking of babies specifically just what it would be like having one. It was random arousal and scared me.

I need help because I’m really struggling right now. There is a masc woman/lesbian athlete that came up on my tik tok and it feels like I have a crush on her. Now I keep getting intrusive sexual images about her. I don’t want to have a crush on a girl but it feels so real. I absolutely hate this and want to cry because now I feel like Im attracted to her. Has this happened to anyone else???

Recently I’ve been feeling like if I look at myself in the mirror and think I look good / hot that this means I’m attracted to the same sex because I’m female and I think I look amazing, so I obviously think other females are hot too then. It feels like such a warped way of thinking 😭. Can’t wait to have my first therapy session soon and finally start to beat this!

Does ocd put these types of thoughts in your head about anyone that’s even remotely attractive… stuff like “they look good or would look good naked” and puts images there of them people like I don’t want to think this stuff it makes me feel actually disgusting. Especially when it’s saying it about people from my past I don’t want to think this stuff at all. I hate this illness. How am I meant to ignore these thoughts I feel horrible I love my boyfriend so much

I feel like now I’m just completely in denial and the next step is acceptance. I love my boyfriend will all of my heart and I really don’t want to leave him but now I’m scared I have to. I also just read something someone left on someone else’s post saying how exploring your sexuality is something you should not be ashamed of and should try. That just completely sent me over the edge. The thing is I want to like boys but I feel like at this point it’s not my choice I was just born to be a lesbian and I have to accept that even though it’s not what I want. I feel like this is something my relationship can never recover from and now I just have to break up with my boyfriend and move away to be with a woman. I don’t want to hurt him ever and that’s truly my biggest fear. Every time I feel happy with him there’s always the thought in the back of my head that I would be happy doing the same things with a girl and it truly ruins the moment. I can’t get this out of my head and I would really appreciate some advice. I just want to know I like boys too so I can stay with him forever but I know I am never going to find the reassurance I need so I feel like I’m never gonna get over this bc it’s just the truth. This is so painful I don’t know what to do at this point

I deadass feel so gross right now. So I just turned 20 and I feel stupid for doing this. I took a shower and I ran back to my room in a towel, and my 15-year-old step-nephew was asleep on the couch. I brought clothes with me to the bathroom to throw on after, but because the bathroom was so damp and I felt extremely disgusting (contamination OCD), I decided to go to my room where I feel more comfortable and less like there’s mold on me. I ran to my room and hoped that he was still asleep. I realized my towel was super short. What if I did that on purpose because I’m a pedophile? I’m so tired. Please give me any help at all. And I genuinely feel so dumb for doing that because it is lowkey weird. I’m 20 and smarter than that, but I just couldn’t stand the dampness. I genuinely feel like it was my fault and I should’ve done better and now the guilt is gonna eat me up til I no longer wanna be here. Just being real. ✌🏽

do you guys often confuse being triggered with actually being attracted. I struggle with this a lot.

I put in a trigger warning, have others done things such as “am I gay” quizzes or tests on the internet? If so, how did you stop?

Does anyone ever have really good days where you think all these thoughts were just silly and then suddenly everything hits you and you can't escape? Do you also question whether it's really OCD or not?

I honestly do not have a desire to be sxeual with a woman (I am a woman) nor do I see myself in a relationship with a woman romantically but since this theme has popped up again I panic around pretty women. What if me acknowledging she is pretty or has a nice figure means I want to have sex with her. I don't.

I feel like when I watch escenes of women performing oral sex I want to do it too, but this didn't happen before, it feels like it really turns me on, and regular porn it's not as exciting, almost not arousing, is this something that can happen?

Tw, groinal responses (18+ convo) Can someone tell me what the difference between a groinal response and true arousal is? Is there any true way of knowing other than you don’t want a groinal response? My groinal responses tingle, sometimes feel like I need to pee or a stinging feeling (I’m a female) and it’s usually mainly focused on just the feeling between the legs and nothing else. When I’m feeling arousal (from what I know) there’s a core heat and aching up the loins then pleasant feeling. I feel calmer in this state then with what I assume is groinal responses. That’s the only way I think to see them differently. If anyone is an ADULT and would like to also talk about their experiences, leave a comment below thanks

Hello fellow OCD sufferers; Long story short I will be purchasing my own place and taking on some responsibilities that I’ve never had before (taking on and caring for a family members pet). Maybe I was ignorant to everything, but it suddenly hit me in the face overwhelmingly with stress and anxiety how much this was going to take and this new endeavor. While it should be “good stress”, my OCD will take what it can and my dormant SO-OCD has started to get rear its head. My question to you all is, in times of stress and change, does your OCD flare up or get worse? If so, how do you pull it back in, and lessen the noise as well as the stress/anxiety.

Hi, i have been on and off with my SOOCD and I have been really good at understanding that my thoughts are just thoughts, yesterday i seen a masculine lesbian and it triggered me and I got severe anxiety because I was expecting some thoughts to come as I had been triggered. I then got thoughts “you find her attractive don’t lie”, when I seen her I do not personally think she is attractive looks wise and all that, but all my mind is saying to me now is I do and I am lying and it’s started to just get to me i just want to shut off and get the thoughts away from me😫then I seen on tiktok this person had SOOCD and then turns out they were gay and I just am spiraling.

All of a sudden it feels like I want to be lesbian! I haven’t been having any anxiety and now I just have the urge to kiss every girl. I don’t understand how this could switch overnight, I know this isn’t me but now I feel like I’m lying when I even say that. I’ve always dreamed of being with a man, but now all of a sudden it feels wrong? Not only that but my brain is all over the place to the point I can’t think straight.

My ROCD HOCD only comes back when I get into relationships. Like for example when we broke up bruh my heart was messed up I’ve never experienced heart break before, but my ocd was like null during that experience. But when we started working things out my thoughts started to come back again? It’s like when the thing I love most is gone I get no bad thoughts? But I guess I wouldn’t have been that heart broken if I really wasn’t into him. Cos the whole time I was like he’s so pretty I don’t want anyone else. But at same time not one intrusive thought maybe ur not into him came???

literally feel like i can’t live anymore. everything i was ever excited about or looking forward to in the future seems like it’s shattered. I feel like i must be lying to myself and i must want this and OCD is bringing in false memories AND combining with real event. this is one of the worst flare ups of any sort of OCD i have ever had. literally cannot get through a day without ruminating, bringing up scenarios and checking how i feel. feeling guilty because i am anxious about what if im just a homophobe? this is absolutely terrible, i can’t day dream or think about having a relationship without it immediately being shattered by an intrusive thought image or feeling. just don’t want to live anymore honestly.

Worry about groinal responses while laying down and worry when i hear relatives voices. I adjust as a compulsion and worry if im arousing and if i dont move i worry am i dwelling.

I've never been turned on by a woman. I've admired a beautiful woman but more so in ways I wish I looked that or a 'good for her' never anything sexual. My SO-OCD is back quite strongly at the moment and it's causing panic in me because I have no crush on any males at all and I've been single by choice for so long it's making me worry what if its because I'm really secretly gay or bi. I even get scared to test mentally thought of being a woman incase I like it. I've done this test before and came to conclusion it wasn't for me but now it's back again. I even used to watch WLW p-orn but not like the close ups it was more because it was less peeness on face.