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I keep seeing things about end times. I have always suffered with OCD about religion. Like solar storm/solar eclipse knocking out cell phone service and the solar eclipse happening. Does anyone relate??? I feel so alone I keep talking to my boyfriend about it but i don’t think he understands what I am going through mentally from it.

Does anyone else feel like a switch in their head gets flipped and they become the worst version of themselves. Like I can love life one second and then the anxiety hits me like a truck and I’m completely winded. I’m exhausted on every level. I feel it in my stomach. I’m tired. I’ve had OCD my entire life and I’m not sure I’ll ever live peacefully. Trying to stay hopeful.

I’m new to all this and just wanted to post what I’ve been going through. After experiencing hallucinations from sleep deprivation, an overwhelming fear of possibility developing schizophrenia has become like.. a theme for me? I also have visual snow/bad vision so lately, I guess a compulsion I have been doing is double checking if I’m seeing stuff or hearing voices, but it’s nothing. I’m just stressing about a sound of an ac, for example, y’know? Another one is checking my heart constantly in fear of a stroke/heart attack. Any body sensation or muscle twitch makes me spiral so bad. It’s gotten to a point where if I laugh or get up from my bed, or do something that requires physical movement, I stop to check my heart and panic if it’s fast. This all has just been so distressing for me and I have a lot more things that I think and worry about obsessively. It’s the constant what ifs that are so debilitating.

Hey, all. I’m feeling really terrible right now and feeling utterly alone. So, I’ve been dating this guy for a couple months. He has been so great. He’s treated me well and we have had a lot of fun. However, my mental health got super terrible when we got together. I realized I started experiencing pretty bad ROCD a month in. The doubts about the relationship and the uncertainty got debilitating. But, I was committed to making the best of things and being with him although I was feeling a lot of emotional turmoil. Anyways, I decided to bring up a pretty uncomfortable topic recently with him, regarding our relationship, like any normal couple would do. I asked him if I could call him my boyfriend and it lead to us talking about the relationship in general. He said he really really likes me and wants to continue things with me but doesn’t want a relationship over the summer because he has trouble with long distance, as his last relationship failed when he went long distance. Him telling me this has turned my world upside down. I’m worried everything is ruined and that we have lost everything and I have to move on. I don’t know how to cope with this. All of my friends and family says he is an idiot and is ruining everything. With underlying ROCD, I know my decisions could be seriously biased. My mind is so quick to think everything is ruined. However, in reality, what he said is a big deal. It’s caused so much pain, sadness, and hurt, as I had assumed that he wanted a relationship with me. Anyways, I know how all this sounds but please, if anyone is there, I desperately need someone to talk to. I am not feeling great and am feeling so alone. I want to tell him my feelings but I’m worried I’ll ruin everything.

I’m in the process of overturning a SZ diagnosis in favour of one of OCD. So they put me on escitalopram and reduced my dose of antipsychotic. For a while I’ve been getting really triggered by stuff and today I took a little extra antipsychotic and felt better. I mean I have an OCD dx now but it looks like I might have both. Every day I get new hope but things often just get worse. I’ve been having a lot of days where every little thing goes wrong. I’m tired.

Today was so nice, I had a girl who I’ve like for so long at my house today and she was hugging me and laid in bed with me. My heart was racing everytime she laid with me. Life didn’t feel real. She made me hard every time she was on me. But then when she left I got the scared thought that what if I don’t really love her and what if I’m gay and bring a guy home one day. What does this mean.

I feel like I’m at the end of my ropes. I feel sick to my stomach that my false memories might be real. I have so many memories of assaulting children and raping people that I can’t tell if it’s real or fake but it FEELS REAL. IT FEELS LIKE A REAL MEMORY AND EVERYONE AROUND ME THINKS ITS JUST IN MY HEAD. I can’t continue thinking I did something so egodystonic. It makes me physically ill. My memories feel real too real. What do I do how do I LIVE WITH THIS PLEASE SOMEBODY HELP ME

I'm having a hard time with sexual ocd kinda stuff. I feel like I will never know what's real or get any kind of certainty around my fears. It's just so scary and uncomfortable and it's so hard to talk to my therapist about. I've overcome pretty much everything else, but I've been avoiding this part so bad. I've just been obsessing and compulsing about this stuff for so long it's left me so confused. I genuinely don't know what to do, I'm so scared of talking to my therapist about it, I say very minimal things in my sessions.

Anyone else get groinal responses when they see a child in public and get fears something might happen? That happened to me earlier at work today. I felt super uncomfortable and my mind is telling me I like children. I don’t even know how I got ocd. I’m a bodybuilder and I don’t understand etc this is happening

Hi! Looking for some help. I’m struggling with my wedding anniversary coming up in about 2 months. We’ll be married for 10 years. I discovered 6 months ago that my wife had an emotional affair through texts with a mutual friend of very sexual nature. It started on the date of our 5 year anniversary while she was out of town. We sort of have been working through things, but I feel I’m far from over the betrayal. She wants us to go on a date to a place to make our own new wedding rings. To try to reframe the day. Honestly, I don’t want to do this at all. I have intrusive thoughts of it almost every day and hour. I took down all of our wedding photos and removed the date from our Facebook. Compulsions, I guess, but I didn’t want any reminders or triggers over it surrounding me. I haven’t worn my ring in 2 months. I know we’ll have to talk about the day and our plans soon, but I’m overwhelmed by feeling like I’m supposed to reframe this day and just get over it. Right now, I don’t even want to be married. I feel so much anxiety about getting the conversation over with, but fear how she’ll take it, if I’m honest. I don’t know for sure that I have ocd as I’m pretty new here, but I am experiencing severe relationship anxiety. I’m curious if the draw to get the conversation over with is the compulsion I’m looking for to relieve the obsession. The intrusive thoughts seem to get worse, especially in feeling the pressure of the upcoming anniversary

This is the first time I’m posting here but I really need to. Basically, I have known this boy for about 4/5 years now. We usually just talked on snap as we were too shy to meet irl. We were just friends. He did have feelings for me for a long time it I didn’t until recently. I did him really bad as 2 years back, when I got into a relationship. I blocked him out of no where. I know it’s really bad and a messed up thing to do but I was dumb. I hurt him a lot. A year or so later I realised my mistake and reached out to him again with an apology (me and my ex broke up by this time). I helped him get a job with me. So we started working together as well. During this time once again I didn’t have feelings for him. But sometimes he would flirt and stuff. I’m kind of a bitch. A few years ago, and even a few months ago I’ve said a few bad things about him behind his back to other people. Like bad things. Just to give you guys an understanding I’m 18 atm. Old enough to know what’s right and wrong but I still messed up quite a bit Recently, we have started working a lot more and meeting in real life unlike before. And I have caught feelings in the past few weeks. We both confessed. Aren’t official yet as I’m worried about my parents finding out (I’m not allowed to date). I feel really guilty tho. Whenever I talk to him, I remember the past and the things I’ve said about him and just want to confess. I’ve confessed a lot of things already and he’s told me that the past doesn’t matter. But I still feel the need to confess. I know for a fact that my feelings have changed a lot towards him. I feel like I took him for granted in the past and his attention for granted but I really really like him now. I’m started to love him. But these feelings of guilt keep coming in my way. Please help me.

Do the urges to perform compulsions ever go away? Even with ERP? I feel like I’ve been doing good resisting compulsions but the urges lingering in the back of my mind are making the healing journey very difficult. Anyone experiencing this now?

Hello. Did any medications help with sensorimotor OCD? I started Zoloft a week ago. Thanks!

Does anyone ever get scared that they are going to be stuck like this forever. Or that eventually you wont be able to fight against the thoughts and it just sends you into a spiral. Also sometimes it feels like an urge to act on these thoughts and its really scary and i dont know how to deal with this and im just really scared and i just wanna get better. Any tips?

1. We’re both Christians and have different faith journeys. He doesn’t view the Bible same way I do. 2. He believes that oral sex is okay before marriage. I’m starting to get uncomfortable with doing that. 3. Reading the Bible, listening to worship music, going to church events, fasting now all trigger me which is why I do it less often. But now I feel like my relationship with God isn’t as close as it was before the relationship because of it. Now, I’m highly aware of the fact that I’ve been diagnosed with OCD specifically Scrupulosity for almost a year now. ROCD has become a new theme. But the reason why it’s hard for me to wrap my head around the fact that it could be OCD is because of how I feel about my relationship with God. That’s obvious. It feels different, way different and I feel terrible. I love my boyfriend deeply. I truly see that man as my person, my best friend. We are very similar and rarely have disagreements, talkless of arguments. I honestly can’t see a future without him in it but I’m scared I’m wrecking my relationship with God by idolizing him. I just don’t know why it has to be so difficult and heartbreaking. If anyone can relate, I’d love to hear.

Hi all , please comment if you’re experiencing what I’m about to share . I am going through a very tough time with existential fears & very frightening thoughts to a point where the thought of myself sends me into a spiral. I ask myself “am I even existing right now as I’m typing this” “ how do I know that I’m not already dead or in a purgatory “how do I confirm that I even exist” what if I’ve already died and this is what death feels like “ nothing & no one around me feels real , I look at my kids & my husband & question their existence. I’ve also been suffering from severe depersonalisation/derealisation & I don’t know which one is triggering the other ! I also suffer from harm ocd where I’m forever worrying that I might lose control & harm my family whom I love to bits & I’m always battling the nightmare inside me that makes me believe that I’ve already hurt them but I just don’t know it … I’m on lexapro & have been for two years but I find that all it does is numb my emotions, I can’t cry & at times worry that if sharpens to someone I love , I may not be able to cry or show emotions . I am convinced that I’ve developed schizophrenia 🥲🥲 which has always been my worst fear! Or that I’ve gone psychotic without realising . I cannot see myself out of this hole & my brain had forgotten what being a normal person once felt like 🥲🥲. I was seeing a psychologist and he did ERP with me but sadly that did Not help so I stopped seeing him altogether & lost faith in therapy altogether ! Sorry this is a very long post but I just want to know that someone out there is experiencing the same symptoms and has gotten over it through ERP or other medication ? Because I feel like I’m the only one suffering from this debilitating illness and there’s no way out!

Went through absolute hell last week sticking with ERP and not seeking assurance on a massive obsession of mine. Since those three days, my thoughts have been really clear of that issue. And now here it is again. I hate the cycle. It makes it hard not to anticipate that things will randomly get worse on a good day.

Diagnosed with Pure O, Bi Polar, anxiety and Major depression. I've tried so much medication that I don't know what's left. I thought Capylta was helping and felt good, but after 3 months I crashed. Anyone have any suggestions?? Don't think my Psychiatrist even knows

I have probably the worst intrusive thought ever and I obsess over it big time. I’m scared that im the worst person ever with secret hidden violent desires and urges. Im so scared that ill become this murderer or perform an action i dont want to do. Today its been extra hard as I feel like I have an urge to do something. I feel like i am empathetic person ever like I even save bees from the pool when they are drowning. But this harm ocd makes me question everything and its a living hell and I feel so alone and scared and I dont want anybody to be scared of me and ive never felt more lonely in my life. I just want this to end.