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Anyone else on here struggle with religious based ocd? Just wanting to see what some other people who deal w it experience. It’s been really hard and flaring up recently. Would love to connect with others that deal with this :(
Hi guys! I'm actually doing pretty well lately but this obsession is sticking, and I don't like it. It's kind of sexual and disgusting so be warned. Basically, when I was 14, I was sitting next to my 7 sister and adjusting my pants. My hand accidentally slipped and pressed between my legs. It felt good, obviously. I knew then that doing sexual things around others was not okay, but for whatever reason, I subtly pushed my hand there again. I didn't do it again, and nobody saw, but it's so disgusting. I was next to my sister. And I was 14—that's a high schooler, a ninth grader. I should have known better by then. I know people always say there's no age to stop making mistakes, but this is about hard boundaries. It's incredibly inappropriate. I feel really bad about it and I genuinely think what I did was wrong, and that I deserve to—not go to jail, I don't think I'm a criminal or anything, but I deserve to be treated with disgust at least. I don't think this is forgivable. Am I overreacting? Please help me out, guys. Thank you!
hi so i am pretty new to discovering ocd and trying to figure out why i am feeling the way i am feeling. i’ve never been diagnosed with ocd and honestly thought my anxiety was just super bad until it started affecting the way i saw my relationship. i’ve never had this bad of anxiety in my relationship and around november of last year is whenever i started noticing the cycle of repeated thoughts of “should i break up with him?” ive been with my boyfriend for almost two years. yes we’ve been through our ups and downs and our relationship has overall been such a beautiful relationship (super healthy compared to old ones) we love each other deeply and communicate and just overall find ways to help improve our relationship healthier and i’ve had a doubt here and there throughout these years but since last November i started feeling disconnected with him a little. i started to question sometimes if i really loved him. other times i told myself and asked myself if i should break up with him. if we really loved each other. i started focusing on his features a lot more. to the point where these thoughts around him made me feel so extremely uncomfortable. i’ve done all my research trying to figure out if I love him or not and trying to find reassurance and other people stories to see if they feel the same way I would also see how I feel whenever I was around him and it got to a point where I overall just felt very disconnected with him and a lot of different forms. I sometimes will forget about these thoughts and I will go out through my week throughout my days and I won’t even think about them and then something good will happen actually and it will trigger that immediate thought or sometimes we’re not even doing anything we’re just hanging out and being together and that will trigger the thought of wanting to break up with him and it makes me extremely uncomfortable and it makes me panic gives me anxiety and it just stresses me out because I know it’s not true, but my brain has tried to fully convince myself it is. I was doing really good and I figured out how healthy I wanted this relationship to be recently and because we’ve been so stressed on talking about our relationship and moving on even further and growing together, it started coming back and now I’m very very anxious again. I also have this type of anxiety of obsessing over things such as my health. When it comes to my gut health to my skin I have a very bad habit of having perfectionism not only within, my body face and everything around what is myself. I have a lot of anxieties, and I always thought it was just very severe anxiety until when I was researching why I was doubting my love for my boyfriend I heard of ROCD and I was super curious to know if I even have OCD, I brought it up with my psychiatrist and she doesn’t think that I have any. I have so much anxiety over this I feel like it’s physically and mentally controlling my body from how much it’s overwhelming me. I don’t know what to do. I keep convincing myself it’s not even RCOD and maybe I truly don’t love him but I have no other proof or feelings that that could be true. It’s just a thought that circles in my head and no matter how many reassurance I give myself it will come back within an hour, if someone could please give some advice I will have my own therapy session here soon and I’m very excited to know how I can overcome this
I'm not sure if this is part of my ocd or not. In some ways it feels like it is and in other ways it feels like it isn't. So I go through these cycles of throwing all of my possesions away like clothes and books etc everytime a relationship ends or whenever someone has hurt me. I even sold my car once as I was so hurt by my ex that I wanted a different car that she had never been in or seen. I remember the first time I felt and did this was when I was about 12 and my father had let me down so much in life that i decided i no longer wanted to support the same football team as him and I ripped up every piece of memorabilia and pictures i had taken with the players etc I am now 36 and I still doing the same thing. I am currently putting my backpacking photos from 8 years ago into an album as it is something I have wanted to do for a while. A lot of the pictures I am very drunk in and not proud of as I believe that was the time i started struggling mentally. Also a lot of the pictures have a guy in that i became good friends with at that time but in the years since then where I have become sober he did nothing but try to derail that so i dont particularly count him as a friend anymore let alone a good friend and a lot of the pictures just make me feel angry now when I look at them. My question is does anyone else have this and is it ocd or is it normal?
Today as soon as I opened my eyes this morning, my mind was being hammered with uncontrollable images and scenes of same-sex friends and relatives performing sexual acts on me and me doing it on them. Like, I couldn't even sleep afterwards because these thoughts kept me awake. My body started reacting to them, making me feel viscerally that I would enjoy those experiences. I felt like I wanted to have sex with every same-sex person I laid my eyes upon the entire day. On the streets, on TV, you name it... Jesus freaking Christ, why??????? This is so irritating! My OCD has gone meta and it feels incredibly hard to see through all this BS. It's gotten to a point where I feel extremely jealous of people who don't have to put up with this nonsense that I've been dealing with for 12 freaking years since I was 14. I see couples on the street, all my siblings are married and have kids. In fact, my brother got married last week and my sister is expecting another baby. I guess I should be happy for them and deep down I am, but when will I get to experience these things without OCD interfering? Most of the people around the world are straight, it's all natural to them and they don't have to to put up with this mental tonture to make a case for their heterosexuality, but I do? 12 years with HOCD and these thoughts, images and urges are starting to feel ego-syntonic to me now. I'm so done.
i want to just pour my heart out and leave it here and i hope for some reassuring advice ❤️ me and my boyfriend have been together for a year and a half and he is everything to me. he is the type of boy who would drop anything for you if you even slightly need him, without even asking. who always goes out of his way to make you feel special- you get the jist. but my ocd is triggered over various different things throughout my life, espcially when it comes to my partner. i become overhwlemed and doubt my relationship- i cant even look at him/touch him at times without fwelung like something bad will happen to him. this results in many arguments as i take my anger out at him when i know i shouldnt, as he can not help triggering me. i try and work very hard to change these actions wverday- but as much research, journaling, exersize and communication i do it always ends up the same. its putting a massive strain on our relationship and i have developed rocd and am having intense doubtful thoughts- what would you do in this situation?
My new obsession is any little pain I feel around my heart or arm is a heart issue even if I know deep inside is no my thoughts will try to convince me that it is and that I should be hyper super alert of any sensation for “safety” well today I stopped the hyper focus on it and just letting the pain be there I felt so risky like I was risking my life but pain when away and I felt so much better after taking the “risk”
I’ve had the same themes of ocd on and off for years. I have a new theme i’ve never had before now. Has that happened to anyone else?
How’s everyone doing? I’ve had 2 really great days followed by today where the intrusive thoughts and anxiety have come back a little. Sigh. It’s such a non-linear journey. Curious how everyone else has been?
Do y’all fake being happy? There’s days I’m happy but others not do much. Sometimes I feel I’m not really happy.
Hey, So I was supposed to finish school in 2020 but Covid kinda messed that up so I graduated in 2021. I always had the plan to study nursing but with my OCD and the pandemic I opted to wait and take a sort of gap year. Fast forward to the present day with exception to a job or two here and there I have no career. I’m 21 unemployed and feel completely lost and isolated. I have no direction in life. OCD caused me to ghost all my friends in 2022, I have nobody except my dogs. Leaving the house to go to the shop gets more intense and scary each time I do it, my ocd is only getting worse
I am not educated that well with the different types of OCD. But being here opened me up to it all. I am struggling with intrusive thoughts and i can’t stop thinking of those thoughts until i physically feel ill or nauseous. I struggle with getting over things that has hurt me especially when I see the people who have hurt me the flashbacks always come. I am not sure if this is a form of OCD. I just can’t stop thinking of the certain thing and I feel as if I am self sabotaging myself when I have good things in-front of me because my intrusive overthinking thoughts will not stop.
Why it does? Like i understand anxiety and ocd, it wants us to keep us safe. But what about intentionally gives sou thoughts that makes you feel guilt or discust, or just crying, and it knows its bad for us but it keeps giving the story. Like if something shameful happened to you and it keep making you thinking about it and makes you crying... how to stop that?
I am going a weekend away for trainings for my sports with the team that I coach. We might barbeque and I am really nervous for that, as I have been avoiding meat. I am not sure the guys will wash their hands properly, really nervous that I will feel contaminated or accidentally get bacteria on me or contaminated contact lenses :(
My depression is really hitting me hard lately due to an episode i had in November im on antidepressants to help treat my obsessive thoughts which is working but it’s doing nothing for my depression if not making it worse??? (not sure if that’s possible) Im still in school which is making things complicated for me, i just want to rest but i have to finish school. I was supposed to start ERP on Tuesday but i cancelled so i can “prioritize graduating” which probably wont even happen for me because im drained and have very low motivation. I speak with my psychiatrist next month about upping my dosage of antidepressants but until then i just have to manage with what i have. I keep getting rude remarks from people even when they know im suffering saying things like “you’re giving up” im not if it was really up to me i would isolate and sleep but im fighting and sometimes its not easy and all i end up doing all day is sleeping but sometimes i cant help it. Its exhausting and the episode i had in November was traumatic, i don’t need pity from these people but some surface level understanding of what im dealing with would be nice. It feels like my mom is the only one who sees how much im fighting everyday to not let my brain consume me, it’s a constant battle that i don’t always win. Sorry for this rant im just so tired.
Anyone else scared to stop compulsions incase the thoughts come true? This is why I’m reluctant to do ERP 🙈!
2 years ago when I saw the news about Russia and Ukraine i almost became psychotic. I never leaved my room. And I never stopped crying with the fear that I was going to die. I live in the UK and there’s loads of stuff on the news (I’m not allowed to watch anymore because of my anxiety) and on tik tok saying ‘UK going to war’. I have this debilitating sense of doom. I’m hysterical right now. Please can anyone help me? Some information or anything?
I miss getting midnight snacks but now I refuse to do it because of the germs in the kitchen and don’t want to bring it into my room after I’ve showered. Or I miss being able to go outside and come back home and not worry about germs in my home or my room. I miss being able to hangout in my room calmly. Now, whenever I leave my room I can’t come back inside until I’ve showered because I don’t want it to become contaminated. This is mostly just me missing hanging out in my room like before. I remember having friends over a lot and never worrying about where they’ve been cus I didn’t care. I miss how pretty my room used to be. Now it’s empty because I’m scared to add posters due to germs being on my posters and spreading all over my walls. I miss having fairy lights all over my room.
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