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Anyone have any tips for intrusive thought and ruminating. Hope everyone is doing good tonight. Keep fighting.

Sometimes I feel like I see things out of the corner of my eye that's not actually there. Like when I'm driving I'll think a mailbox is actually a person or similar things like that. Now I'm thinking I'm schizophrenic because this happens a lot. I'm only 21 and I'm freaking my self out.

I fucking hate my OCD I love boys and I know that for a fact I want my old life back I want to get married has kids and live in normal settled life, but my OCD doesn’t want me to leave it like that it keeps on playing games with me and I don’t know what to do about it. I want to manage my OCD I wanna walk along with it I love boys and I only love boys that don’t like girls and that way but why doesn’t my obsessive compulsive disorder understand that I’m fucking tired of it. I just want to end bloody pain I love boys and I always will. it has ruined my life. I want to have my own life back. It looks like I am being two people at once and me is locked inside me. I want to have my crushes on boys I want to live a happy and settled life the urges and unwanted thoughts about my own sexuality is getting with the top and I hate that I don’t know what to do I can’t eat or do anything else my University work is pending, but I can’t get that done because of my fucking obsessive-compulsive disorder. Can you suggest any UK based face-to-face therapies that are specializing in sexual orientation obsessive compulsive disorder I want to continue with NOCD. They are great but they are also expensive. I am a wheelchair person and I rely on my benefits. Thank you for listening to me I’m not asking for reassurance I just like to write what I’m feeling down. It gets out of my head.

Hello all! I have harm ocd, anxiety, and depression. I feel I know exactly how to get through most thoughts because I’ve probably had exactly what you are thinking myself. So, if you have any questions or any problems that needs solved please comment and if I don’t have an answer maybe someone else who is reading this does!

Hi! I'm in therapy right now, my therapist is fine but she doesn't do ERP... I'm always afraid I will get worse, but unfortunately I don't know what else I can do. For all of you who are in therapy with an Erp specialist, may I ask what do you do during sessions? Do you do exercises together? Do you have to do some exercises at home? Thanks to everyone who will answer!♡♡

My my name Brendan Simons. I first learned about my OCD when I was around 6 years old. It all started when I was in my daycare, and one of the kids was talking about the scary ghost of bloody Mary, and spinning three times in the mirror while saying her name will make her appear and harm you. As a kid, this horrified me as someone that was very afraid of ghost this led to my first experience with OCD. My OCD took this to a new extreme touching doing or saying anything threes times would cause harm to me or somebody that I love and care about this lasted around five years it seems to be a theme in my OCD that keeps coming back, but not always in the way of numbers are doing things multiple times. Later, on in life in my teenage years, it seemed to change from Numbers to that just right feeling. As I’m sure some of you as experienced as I’ve looked online and many people have had that just right feeling, it’s very hard to explain what we’re talking about but I would repeatedly do my actions over and over many times of whether that’s turning on and off water touching closing a door multiple times until I felt just right and if it didn’t feel right, I thought something bad again what happened to me or somebody I care about. More recently, my OCD has come along with intrusive thoughts, and it kind of like what was going on as a teenager with the just right feeling but now my mind tells me to think of harm to somebody that I do not care about so that way it will not affect somebody that I do care about. As family ages my worries continue to grow and I have just recently moved out and live on my own now and I’m very very stressed about my family back home. Now recently, my OCD has started to take over my life. I was prescribed Zoloft for anxiety and OCD and have noticed small changes in my personality. I feel like I have been able to resist the compulsions, but it hasn’t fully taken this anxiety feeling fully out of the picture. It really takes over my day-to-day activities and I still find myself doing multiple compulsions and rituals to try and prevent these things from happening. I understand and I’m self aware that me doing something or a ritual multiple times will have no effect on anybody at all in the world, but for some reason my brain overpowers that and gives you that what a feeling what if this were to happen. Join this app to find people who have possibly has similar experiences just like mine or any advice to help me get through this. As I live in a town that I’m unfamiliar with I know nobody here and I’m just trying to make friends. Please don’t hesitate to reach out.

I recently found out that I have OCD and it’s becoming harder and harder to enjoy every day that passes. I spend hours a day, reflecting on all of the bad decisions I made out of ignorance or out of intention. I don’t know if I can ever forgive myself for what I did but I also don’t know if it’s the OCD making it worse. I was wondering if you guys have any tips on how to distinguish between guilt over what you’ve done in the past versus the OCD. I just want to be able to enjoy every day, but I’m plagued with guilt!

Hello, I am still very afraid that I’ve gotten scabies since 4 months back. I’ve been to 3 different doctors and they’ve like slightly looked at the spots and one dermatologist quick with like a big thing that zoomes in the area. Either way, everyone has told me it’s nothing but I still get a little itchy here and there, and I GET RANDOM SCRATCH MARKS ON MY BODY and it says that those can appear with intense itching at night and when you sleep but I don’t feel like I can do that because I don’t have like intense itching. Either way my friend booked us a trip and I got new scratch marks but my time with my dermatologist told me it’s after the trip and I don’t think they have it before, and I’m so scared I’ve contaminated everyone around me. Should I go on the trip or should I cancel and should I stay home until the 29th of January…., I sound crazy but I’m so afraid. I can’t sleep or think

Has anyone with soocd thought that they looked Lesbian and then just obsessed about it and then thought that must have meant that they were a lesbian and they all the times they though they were going to marry an man just all of a sudden though about it would be a women. It’s like a switch!!!!! It’s horrible and I don’t know what the truth is. I want a man and to have kids but now I’m question all of that and freaking out.

i had some control over my obsessions in 2023 but as new year came, everything just got more ruined. ive been obsessing over a guy 4 years ago and since then i feel like ive been living in 2020 only. ive a bf and its making me question my feelings. i also feel 2020 has become my comfort as im scared of future. i find it really hard to get out of 2020 and just being present at the moment. my partner was my comfort but now 2020 has become my comfort and its horrific.

I’m Moriah, I just downloaded this app and I’ve been experiencing some pretty intense feelings and I’ve created pretty bad habits. Not too long ago I was having a conversation with a friend and what we were talking about made me realized that when I was young I was touched by a close friend. It became a central thought and I fell into a deep depression because of it. I felt dirty, betrayed, confused, angry, and lost. I had told no one but the friend that I talked to about it. I had anxiety and depression diagnosed before this and was hospitalized at one point for an attempt before I even knew about the sa( around 6 or 7). I didn’t understand myself and who I was. I didn’t know who I wanted to be I was scared and lost. my dad and mom weren’t very helpful around this time because I would refuse the medication my doctor had prescribed. I didn’t know why I did but I hated my therapist and I hated my parents for the extra attention I was getting after the hospital. But at the same time I needed someone to try and help me understand what I was going through. They gave up giving me medication, my doctor never followed up and my therapist never asked for another appointment. Even though I was the one that rejected all of it I felt abandoned and forgot about. I did every now and then when it got bad ask my mom to schedule an appointment with my old therapist and she said she would, but she never did. A couple years go by and I give up. Around this time was when I found out about the sa. and I eventually told my dad. My moms getting me back into therapy and I think I understand myself a little better but I still can’t seem to grasp who I am and what my personality is. Everyone I tell looks at me like I’m genuinely insane. my parents don’t understand I even got bold enough to say something about it. nobody understands and I’m hopeful someone on here does. That someone else went through the same thing I did. And feels similar to how I do. It’s so hard to explain how I feel and this is my last resort. But I feel slow and stupid, that everyone knows something is wrong with my and my friends are only there out of pity. all because of how I think about myself. I started pulling at my hair. And I do when I get anxious or (now) when I focus, also sometimes subconsciously I’ll catch myself doing it. I don’t know how to stop and I need someone that understands.

I’ve been having this thing going on where I can’t remember if I did something and I retrace every step and everything I did. And the something that I “did” is an intrusive thought. For example, last night my father in law was outside until the early am and I had an intrusive thought like what if I went out there with him and we did “stuff” and I just don’t remember. I don’t know why my ocd is obsessing over this, this isn’t the first time. I don’t know what to do ): I know I would never do something like that so why is this happening? I can’t stop rethinking everything to make sure nothing happened. Please leave your thoughts

I am currently going through really bad OCD and paranoia thoughts that are taking over my life. I am obsessing over thoughts and that everyone is out to hurt me and get me even friends and that people are trying to ruin my relationship and hurt me. I feel like people I know are stalking me and have motives to ruin my life. Even if someone texts me I feel as though it’s because they’re talking about me to other people and everyone has bad things to say about me and that I’m a horrible person that deserves bad things. I tried therapy for awhile and the therapist believes I catastrophize everything, which is true. I obsess over past events to the point where I feel like the most horrible person in the world that doesn’t deserve to live or have friends. I always feel as though people are going to ruin my relationship with my boyfriend so I can never be happy around him cause I’m always fearing the worst or that he will find a reason to leave me too. Anytime things go wrong for me I feel as tho it’s because the people above and the universe think I deserve to be miserable too and that they do it to me on purpose. I need reassurance from everything and everyone and when I don’t get it I feel as though it’s because I’m a horrible person and the universe knows it and doesn’t want me to be happy. I need reassurance and just never get it. I just want to know that people feel this way too so I can just feel a bit more normal and relax a little . I have exams in a few weeks and I can’t study or anything because obsessive thoughts have taken over my life I’m afraid to leave the house or talk to people or do anything I just sit and obsess about every single “what if” thought. I just want people to tell me that everything is okay and I never feel like it is okay. Can anyone just advise me or help me calm down or have any advice that helps them get through the days? Thank you .

Anyone feel like they wake up one day and don’t feel the same anymore?

I have a really hard time with harm ocd. It makes me believe that I would do in the near future surely something bad… And I don’t know what to do to make me feel better. I started to sit with uncertainty and accept the presence of my thoughts but it feels like I accept the content. I’m desperate, I think that I’ll suffer all my life with that. I know that there are ups and downs but those downs are really scary, demotivating, unhopeful.

is this existential ocd? so basically i’ve had rlly bad moral ocd for a couple of months, and before that i had horrible health and harm related physical compulsions so bad i couldn’t sleep bc i couldn’t sleep in a certain position or i thought smth bad would happen to me. and i always had bad intrusive thoughts but nothing that haunted me as much as this. So my morals are rlly important to me and i consider myself a good person. But one intrusive thought said “since life is meaningless morals don’t exist they are just a made up concept.” I had severe panic attacks because of this and i felt like a horrible person. I couldn’t sleep and worry was on me constantly. I did mental compulsions like repeating, rumination, and some physical compulsions too. I also am doing a lot of avoidance bc this triggers me sm. I’m kinda worried i’ll start believing this even though logically ik it’s nonsense bc ofc morality exists but omf am i worried. i’m trying to not do any compulsions but pls anyone with advice?

So I’m trying ERP and as a result I’m not able to function eat sleep properly should I back down to my ocd and just do as it wishes Or keep up with this ERP which has been failing for the last 3 months

Hi! Sorry to bother you guys, but I’m really scared right now. So basically, my throat and glands started hurting yet seer ray before I went to work and I just work up in the middle of the night with a stuffy nose and my throat hurts a little more. I looked at my throat in my phone camera and it looks kinda swollen now and I’m really scared that it’s gonna close. But if it was going to close wouldn’t it have happened already? Please someone respond, I’m really scared of getting sick.

Hi all! So I’m home from college now for winter break and I was just curious: does anyone else’s OCD spike when coming home for the holidays? Like having an uptick in intrusive thoughts related to family members, being home, just surrounding that theme? Would appreciate input! It makes me feel so isolated. ..

hey guys, i was recently diagnosed with OCD and i was hoping id find some guidance here. About two months ago, I started to re-do my bedroom. I was very distressed because this is the room i’ve always been in, i grew up here. Part of me felt bad for painting over the walls. In order to paint my walls though, we had to move everything out of my room and organize it all. One day I was at work, and i got home to see every belonging of mine sitting in my living room. this wasn’t the issue, the issue was 1. I was not there to watch it 2. my things were placed in the wrong place and actually just thrown in random spots For days, all my things sat in the living room because I had no motivation to actually go through it all. My mom said I had way too much stuff and I needed to go through every single item and get rid of at least half. I kept trying to put it off but eventually I found myself unable to avoid it. I began going through my things and I was NOT able to get rid of anything. here’s why: 1. someone gave it to me and i felt like they would be mad if i got rid of it 2. the item holds a specific memory 3. it was “one of a kind” 4. I might need it someday My things have always been there, and it did not sit right with me that i would have to part with some of it. I eventually found myself having an absolute meltdown and yelling at my mom. I felt so bad but the more my things were messed with, the worse it got. I even tried to walk out of the house and not return. My mom always said “there’s no way that you are okay living like this” because i had so much clutter, and i would always respond with “it’s comforting to me, and i like it there.” and nobody could grasp the idea of my organized chaos and i felt fucking crazy. My grandma was helping me decorate my room and she’s very minimalistic, and she was trying to enforce that on my room but i’m a maximalist, and I need my stuff there. No empty space. Another meltdown I had was when my grandma put my clothes away, but she didn’t put them in the right drawers. My entire life I have kept the drawers the same. sweaters on bottom, then pants, shirts, socks/underwear. So when my grandma put my pants in the sweater drawer i just about shit my pants. I hid in the bathroom because I know she was just trying to be helpful and i didn’t want to yell at her. This is just one of the things that i’m experiencing, there’s so much more but i’m still trying to learn what this disorder is and why it’s happening. tips would be appreciated:) i won’t disclose my age, but i’m young.