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Does anyone ever get confused of what’s an actual conviction versus the OCD instilling fear/ guilt? Sometimes it’s hard for me to discern the difference

How do you guys deal with religious OCD? I don’t wanna go to hell.. i’m so scared of blasphemous thoughts.. i feel like i force horrible blasphemous thoughts.. what am i evil? i’m seriously about to cry cause God please help me.. somebody please just help me

I don’t even know how to start but this is the worst type of intrusive thoughts i’ve had and it’s breaking me down.I really need to find comfort in this but have no idea how.I have intrusive thoughts about my religion and God which I can’t even describe in detail because I feel horrible about it.Its thoughts about death,contradicting my beliefs and saying i don’t like my religion and what I believe in,terrifying thoughts about afterlife. really need help with this It’s literally tearing me down and it’s sickening to me.I’ll try going into more detail if anyone needs it,if I don’t feel too uncomfortable.

My OCD tends to get really triggered by quotes, different instagram posts, TikTok’s etc. I keep having reoccurring thoughts that I did something to cheat on my boyfriend early on (we have been dating for 6 years) with guy friends I had on Snapchat at the time. Not too long ago I saw a quote saying “someone from your past is going to resurface unexpectedly”. I saw this quote at the same time I was having this horrible OCD flare up. My OCD seems to connect itself to different things like this quote. In my head this means it’s conformation that I did something and now something is going to come up and ruin my relationship even tho I don’t remember doing anything. Then today, I saw a instagram post saying that “Because of our faith in Jesus, we learn that nothing is random or meaningless”. This triggered my OCD again because now I think that I didn’t see the quote “someone from your past is going to resurface unexpectedly” on accident and that it means I did something bad. I also always see quotes in instagram saying “don’t ignore the signs you asked God to show you” and it really messes with my head. Does anyone else deal with this. I feel like it’s completely irrational but my OCD attaches itself to different things and patterns trying to prove to my mind I did something wrong. I prayed to God for a sign and to just reveal to me if I did anything and don’t remember. Is this a sign I did something wrong or is it my OCD?

This question is from a religious perspective. I know we have to be good, but we cant be all good, we have to stop sin, but we cant stop sinning fully and we are saved either way, cause its not our actions that sends us to heaven, its God's grace. So anyone who accepted Christ as their saviour its saved, he can still sin, he can still be a bad person, unkind with people, have sex before marriage, do bad things, he is still saved. This makes me angry cause i try everytime to eb a better person and sometimes i just get tired cause i get alot of temptation and i fight to not act on it and be kind person but then i get tired of it cause of many things, and i see people that accept Jesus but they still live an earthly life and enjoy their life better than I do, and they will be in heaven too. Im not saying thes shouldnt, im just talking about whats the point of all of this? If i try to be a better person i get hit by how sinful i am,i feel guilt and i want to avoid being sinful but it doesnt work, and i feel guilt repenting, and there are others who just live their life like others. I have really bad sexual temptations, i dont know if i will be able to not have sex with my girlfriend(when i will have one) im always thinking that i will fight somehow, but there are other christian who doesnt wait till marriage and nothing bad happens, they feel a little bad but they still do it, they are happy, and i will be there struggling to not sin, and maybe it will even do bad for the relationship... What's the point? I struggle with this alot, if im saved why do i have to fight so hard to not sin if im unable to be fully sinful but im still saved? It's like we know its bad to steal food from a store but they would say " you wont get fined or penalty for that but pls dont do it" you will say okay but what happens if youre starving and you dont have money? You dont get any penalty, of course you will steal instead of dying by starvation, and then you live freely... they still welcome you to the store. I know this shows how God really loves us and its beautiful, but then why try to be soo good, why try to be like Jesus if we can never be like that... and as i said many "sins" doesnt seem like its really hurted someone, like i know christian people who had sex before marriage and they still live happily. Or i heard people saying they dont feel bad or guilt having sex with random girls and they are christians... Im struggling with having thoughts that many things i do is a sin and i want to think its okay Jesus saved me, but i feel like a bad person, that i use Jesus pain to just sin...

Been having some harm intrusive thoughts tonight when trying to sleep and I really wanted to vent but then I got scared that if I discussed it out loud or wrote it over text that the devil/one of his demons would hear and tempt someone to do something harmful to me/those I love. I have therapy tomorrow but now feel like I can’t tell her what I’m going through because of this fear. Any help?

Hello! I recovered from my severe religious themed OCD about 3 years ago. I thought my OCD had went away but I'm starting to think it's still impacting my life. Or maybe I just have high anxiety now. I have been told I'm a perfectionist and I have a huge fear that I'm not always "living correctly" which causes me to intensely compare myself to others and other things. This fear got so bad last august that I got into a relationship with an emotionally abusive person just because I thought I was falling behind. He was my first boyfriend and now I'm dealing with the affects of this. Im a baton twirler and although I'm getting better with exposure therapy.. I have anxiety attacks when I don't perform or practice perfectly. Where I can't even twirl in front of my mom right now without just shutting down and panicking because I somehow think she's judging me harshly when she's not at all. I also avoid doing assignments in school or asking questions because I have a huge fear of being considered slow or getting a bad grade. But this also makes my grades worse so it's a terrible endless cycle. I'm out of the relationship and I'm starting to take care of myself but I'm just kind of rusty on OCD knowledge and I'm trying to figure out if these are just new obsessions or if I'm just a perfectionist. Ever since I was little I've had this cronic fear of missing out or not feeling perfect for myself or others. And failure makes me flip the fuck out.

So writing this again My mind usually do negative swears with God so I have already prayed to God that don't listen to those swears which happens in my mind or my mind says so this time I already told God not to listen to those thoughts and ignore them so tell me will God punish me in any way I don't think so but my OCD does think this way

Hello all! I'm in the process of learning more about my OCD and I've been growing my relationship with God. Recently, I've experienced a huge roadblock to what I would like to do in future-- and that has led to significant doubt in myself and God. To be honest, I believe this stems from my perfectionism and wanting to be in control. I'm a bit conflicted because I want to believe and trust in God, but I have doubts and I'm scared of making mistakes. Has anyone else experienced this? If so, what did you do to continue grow your trust and faith in God?

I want to love God and not fear him and what I think is I am having least knowledge about my religion and want to explore more in it and one interesting fact about my religion is that It is not a religion, it is a concept, an idea, a principle based on Truth, Equality, Justice. It is logical, stresses on contemplation (vichaar) & application of logic (vivek) alongwith faith (sidek) in the path to Truth realization. Yes, it is a distinct, more fundamental path towards Truth. (I define Religion as an intolerant, insular, tribalistic power grouping based on blind tautological illogical beliefs & cultural/ritualistic habits.) despite of this beauty of my religion my OCD tries to convince me of things which are untrue like i sometimes laugh on myself how foolish of me being trapped in this loop but this is 50 percent decreased by acquiring some knowledge of my religion and want to explore more...this is what I wanted to share

Since scrupulosity is a big part of OCD, I was wondering how other people deal with moral dilemmas. Things like choosing whether or not to support a company because of problematic ties or actions of employees or associated people, is something I'm struggling with. It feels like if I were to support certain things (companies, video games, etc.) that I've been supporting for a while I would be directly or indirectly supporting people who have done bad things. But sometimes giving those things up is difficult, and it feels like I'm losing a part of myself. I also feel that if I were to ask for guidance, I'm not really asking for guidance so much as hoping people will say it's fine for me to keep supporting those things for one reason or another. The burden feels like it's entirely on me to make these decisions, and either way it feels like there's no right decision. It's really overwhelming, and I'm having trouble navigating it.

Idk if anybody is religious but yesterday I was so distraught and suicidal and I pray to God to give me a reason to continue and beat OCD. I called suicide hotline and it sort of help. It's really hard to talk to a stranger what you're go through, especially when you comes to OCD. I made a call to an ocd therapist through this app and that helped. It wasnt until after hours later that I told my brother why I've become distant and I told him how I was feeling suicidal and I promise that I will go on anti-depressants. I just wanted to say that idk what's gonna happen in the future and idk if I'm able to fight ocd or seek recovery.

Hi! I am a Christian who is about to get married. According to my religious beliefs, I believe that if you get married, you cannot marry again except for instances of infidelity or death. I was in a play in college where my character married another character, and so I am obsessed with the idea that I actually got married to the other actor, and therefore have no (religious) right to be married. It is really ruining everything surrounding my upcoming marriage and making me feel extremely distressed, anxious, and hopeless. My friend recommended this app!

If anyone suffers with OCD harm or other OCD subtypes. ✨♥️ you’re not alone. Even though the my battle with OCD is won through the blood of Jesus. I have more healing to do. I’ve went through the compulsions (temptations); and the hospital visits for chest pains , and was sent home 🏡 because they didn’t see anything wrong , it hits spiritually. It’s spiritual warfare that’s why we are to put on the full armor of God to fight against principalities of the dark world. 🌎 it saddens me that for generations we have been suffering. Let’s turn our lives over to Jesus and let him help us.

I need help someone plz help I keep getting thoughts and physical urges about girls and I feel that I’m getting aroused. I don’t know what to do I don’t want to be with a girl I keep getting images about my sister arms and I xojld care her veins and I know that I like men with veiny arms but I keep getting a reliant that I like My sister with it I don’t what to do I don’t have anyone to talk to u I feel like I am alone. In Islam I don’t know if it’s true or not but god says to the fetus 77 times if u want to come to this world and god shows his or her life to it till his death. I wonder what did I see in this world that I agreed to come here I don’t want to live anymore I’ve had enough no one understand I want to go back to normal I don’t want to be with a girl I’ve never imagined my life with a girl I’m having 5 tablets a day of medication and I’m becoming worse I can’t focus I can’t remember certain things

I get paranoid a lot because of the feeling of being alone. I’m constantly talking to Jesus and listen to sermons and read Bible verses to help me. Due to health issues and body limitations I’m not able to clean the way I used to. Now that I have a home health aide, I’m having to adapt to someone touching my things and putting them different. I am finding myself getting annoyed with her, but I haven’t said anything. How do I deal with this?

I’m a 13 year old girl and I think I have ocd. But im not sure. At around maybe 8 or 9, I remember giving signs, like touching things 5 times or 10 times, and other things similar to that. I’m now 13, and I feel like lately it’s gotten worse over the last year or so maybe. Here’s a list of my compulsions. I stay up until 8:00 AM or 9:00 AM counting to 5 because if I don’t God will send me to hell and I need to ask for Gods forgiveness. I love God In The Name Of Jesus Christ Amen At night before going to bed, I need to g and fix my bed at 7:50 AM and only :50 because if I went to bed at 56 it’s the devils number and I love God In The Name Of Jesus Christ Amen When scrolling, I need to scroll 5 or 10 times Before going to bed, I need to shake my sheets 5 times, shake my pillows 5 times and shake my blanket 5 times. And there’s way more regarding around do this or you’ll go to hell, it’s really exhausting. My parents noticed the way I act but they just get mad at me for it, I just really want to get help.

My OCD makes me doubt my faith & God! It also makes me doubt myself, my values and literally everything! Makes me even doubt if this is OCD! I love God & Jesus! I know I gave my life to Him! Being reborn! I’ve seen the changes! It hurts to have these thoughts & feelings of doubt! I know it says OCD attacks what you care about the most! I’ve been having this for 6 months. It started as a thought of “is God real” now it’s like my mind has interrogated me over & over again making me question everything! Yelling accusations at me! Telling me I don’t “believe enough” or “maybe I don’t believe” or “I don’t love Him” and just stuff like that & I hate it! Sometimes whenever I think about it to much it gets so confusing or I need to “fix it”! I want faith & belief and I refuse to give up! I know I’m very hard on myself & I try to remind myself this isn’t a Faith problem but an OCD problem but my OCD tries to make me doubt that! Logic & OCD don’t mix. Has anyone gone through this? Please any advice?

I’m just wondering. Would God send me to hell because I swear? I am a Christian in my faith but I have to admit sometimes I may not come across that way because I swear like a sailor, can even come across as nasty at times like judgy? Me and my partner dirty talk when having sex and say things maybe god wouldn’t approve of?? But we aren’t doing it to cause harm to each other, and it’s our own private time, where we say things that turn us on that aren’t very “Christian like” if that even makes sense… do you think God will look down on me because of this? Or he would think I’m not worthy enough to be a Christian? Even me smoking and having tattoos and planning on getting more, what would God think of this? I need a good Christian opinion of this please 🙏🏼

I need some support from anyone who’s willing to offer it, please. My ocd, particularly scrupulosity, has been making my life a living hell. I can’t ignore my suspicions and compulsions and they rule my life. I’m debating whether or not the God I rely on even exists, and quite frankly I’ve been thinking about suicide. I don’t know how to tell my loved ones. I was in a position where I had to talk someone down from suicide at a young age and it crushed me afterwards. I know suicide is wrong, and I’m scared to think about it, but I don’t know how I can live. I just need someone to know.