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Question for ya’ll… so when you have Sexual OCD & ROCD do you think these thoughts are related to that?? I have this thing where if I somehow don’t try my absolute hardest to (very consistently) concentrate on imagining my partner and I perfectly during intimacy, so then I don’t feel like I’ve gotten off over someone else which I wouldn’t do, but ocd can be very convincing. An also I have accepted in a way that you can’t picture everything perfectly in your head our minds eye/camera is not perfect, there will always be details that are slightly off etc, I never used to worry about these things before ocd. But because I get lots of intrusive images and thoughts that seem to pop up almost all the time it makes it hard because I’m laying there just feeling so sad because all I want to do is picture my boyfriend, I know all I want to do is think about him or him and I, so That’s what is turning me on, but what if I don’t picture him perfectly is that me pictureing someone else then?? What if I think or feel lieonthe image I’m trying to create is of me and my partner but it was actually subconsciously a body part I’ve seen in porn or something in the past, I’m sure this isn’t even possible as my intention is to picture my partner and I? So even if the image is a bit off isn’t the fact it’s the intention to think or picture us so that means it is us in the images? I know this is reassurance idc I don’t come on here all the time anymore I just need some today.

I’m finding it really hard to comfort my long distance boyfriend he’s really low but I’m also feeling so low and I feel really guilty because he says I’m not there for him I’m trying to comfort him I’m getting so angry at myself because I just am finding it so hard to be there for someone when I’m getting sh thoughts Feel guilty and he thinks I’m making it about me Idk what to do I have no one to talk to because I can’t talk to him about it as he’s going through stuff

So I recently got a bf and we were hanging out. And then I had to leave and I think he wanted to kiss) make out and I was like well I have to dip, so I think he said maybe like "it'll be quick/like a quick kiss." or something like that and then I was like "dang I have to get back" (I acc did) and he was like "just one kiss? " and I pecked him on the lip. My ocd is like oh that's sexual assault or coercion. I didn't mind kissing him and didn't feel harassed or anything. I don't remember the encounter very well and feel like my ocd is distorting my memory . he mightve just asked once after I said I was late instead of twice. I can't really remember. My ocd is like oh this is sexual coercion and assault. I don't feel that way at all. I didn't feel forced to kiss him whatsoever. I've been coerced before and he's nothing like that. Idk how to tackle this.

I’ve been with my partner since I was 20. I had one relationship prior to him and little dating experience because I was religious/ covid happened. I’m having extreme OCD that I haven’t dated enough people to see who is truly out there for me/ everyone else has more experience than I do. On top of this, I believe I am bisexual and have never been with a girl (but I have sexual orientation OCD as well so who knows.) What is the best way to go about this that aligns with ERP? Would breaking up my perfectly healthy relationship be giving into my compulsions just to go date others?

I cannot stop thinking about and judging my girlfriend (almost 23) for sleeping with a 34 year old before we met. She said she didn’t know his age and thought he was younger (I made her find out his age for my own ocd purposes) its ruining our relationship and my view of her. Please someone give me some sort of advice. I thought I was going to break up with her when she told me, but I just am devastated and have no clue what I’m feeling.

Does anyone think ERP therapy costs are really unreasonable? I stopped NOCD because I had BDD concerns, too and now go to another Telehealth therapist who is $225 per session. TWO HUNDRED AND TWENTY FIVE DOLLARS!!! 😡 I got an email about NOCD going to $210 per 1 hour session. It was $170 when I did it, which was already ridiculous and I felt taken advantage of for sure. Am I the only one who thinks this is just ripping off people when they're down and suffering and desperate for help? Doesn't it seem predatory and exploitative? That is a lot of money . . . and I'm now about $8,500 into getting help for my ROCD and BDDBP. The way I see it, $80 a session would be unreasonably high but $225?!?! $210??!? It’s just Insulting and a scam, especially when people (like me) were suffering so much they couldn’t hold down a job and can already barely afford food and rent. Do you agree?

Just watched a video that said that you're unhappy and with the wrong person if you find someone else attractive while in a committed relationship. OBVIOUSLY, I have ZERO desire to cheat... yet the comments and this video triggered me to think WILL.....

I'm in an amazing, beautiful relationship with the literal LOML. I absolutely love and adore my boyfriend. But relationship OCD has been plaguing me for 6 weeks straight. We were going through a super rocky time mid-March, and about 2 weeks after that is when the ROCD started. First, it started with thinking I cheated on him with my coworker (which I had no proof or evidence) and I slowly got over that 2 weeks later because I knew I had no proof. But then like always the theme restarts and I started obsessing about the fact I had intrusive thoughts about this coworker. Thoughts that maybe I liked him, thoughts about fantasies, thoughts about wanting to be with him. I don't think I had a problem with it because I think I just thought it was OCD, or knew it was OCD. I'm sure all this ROCD and overthinking started because of me and my boyfriend's rocky time, and in that time, I was extremely worried about him cheating on me. I don't know how to heal. I have fully convinced myself I purposefully thought all these things about that coworker. I've talked to my boyfriend about my struggles, and he's told me many times he knows it's OCD and even then, we are happy as ever and I've clearly chosen by boyfriend and I never did anything or even flirted with this coworker. I have never flirted or done anything inappropriate with this coworker. My boyfriend and I both know that. But I can't help but feel so guilty for the thoughts I had. I feel like they were real. They feel so real. I told my boyfriend I'm terrified I had a crush on this coworker, and he comforts me because he knows I only love him. I did not tell him about the sexual fantasies (I think I mentally pushed them away. I don't remember if I did because it was over 1-2 months ago.) because that would obviously just cause him pain even if it was OCD. What sucks is I have to work with this coworker still. He causes me so much anxiety, I prefer when he's not at work and I avoid talking to him at all. Before all this anxiety and ROCD, we would talk and joke all day at work (with our other coworkers too) and it was just a running joke for everyone (not just me) to pick on him. But now I convinced myself I was just flirting. We would only ever chat/text about work, like our clients and just never anything work inappropriate. I'm so scared. I'm so guilty. I feel like I emotionally cheated. Please someone guide me.

has anyone experienced going through a breakup and experiencing ocd thoughts, i’m having them about reasons why i ended it, lots more. just want to see if anyone relates

Ever since I caught my... now-ex, I guess... having cheated, and I worked the nerve to talk to him and break it off in a surprisingly strong and boundary-concious way for myself, I have been looking at housing areas around me. I can't move out soon even if I wanted to since I want to apply for disability and that can take a year or so, I have no job and no saved up money because we used it all when he had no job/refused to get one and was hoping it would be quick and easy for him to find one (took him 4 months). I have no car so I was/am checking mover services over and over. I keep looking at the bus routes in the city to make sure the apartments that are available NOW are around them, which I know makes no sense because there is job guarantee they will be available later. Which... leads me to checking again the next day. Or later that day. All stemming from discomfort that he is just still lying even "just as roommates" and it is a trigger for my ROCD even without being in a relationship anymore. I am so frustrated. This would be my first time moving out on my own. The uncertainty and fear and distrust here is eating at me but I have no friends or family to go to so, I'm just... stuck.

I keep thinking about every little thing my bf does or says, I keep thinking he sounds and talks weirdly, and I keep thinking he does weird things or that he’s not tough or masculine enough and whenever I see an attractive man I stay playing scenarios in my head where the attractive man has the same “flaws” my bf does to see how I would feel if another man did it, like I’m trying to make the “flaws” feel normal and ok. And whenever I’m on the phone with my bf he’ll say something in a way that seems “weird” to me and I can’t stop thinking about it and playing it over trying to recreate the inflection and tone in my head so I can see if his inflections and tones sound normal enough or manly enough or if his idiosyncrasies are odd or abnormal or unattractive. But what’s worse is now I’m not feeling the overwhelming waves of panic that I used to have when I had these thoughts. Now they’re just thoughts, but I still feel bothered by them because they focus on “flaws” that bug me. I don’t know what to do. I worry that it’s not OCD anymore. I’m not currently diagnosed either which doesn’t help. I feel like a liar, like I’m busting using ROCD as an excuse to avoid the truth.

So I've started having obsessive thoughts about my mom's sexual orientation too. I think that she's not straight, I've noticed many times that she admires beautiful women a lot.. like a lot which I find a bit weird (I don't know if it's because of my hocd) but I've started having doubts about her orientation too, I feel the urge many times to ask her out that whether she's into women or not, I feel this urge to tell her about LGBTQ stuff to see her response (she don't know properly about LGBTQ coz this is a taboo in my country and only younger generation knows and aware about such stuff).. I've always have urges to ask her about her sexuality, I know it's weird but this is what my HOCD wants me to do. She still in touch with her school's best friend and I've doubts that she might have done something with her best friend in the past as she studied in girls school. I reassure myself that "no, she might just admiring the beauty of women etc" but the obsessive thoughts about my mom's sexuality give me urges to yell at her that's she's not straight or ask her out. You might be thinking that why do I care about her orientation but if I get to know that she isn't straight then I can't able accept myself as a straight girl coz according to my brain, a bisexual woman can't have straight daughter.. Idk but it is what it is..😔

Why is it making me think I like these things, when I don't, just because I'm not disgusted by them? And I think this person is nice, if a bit odd, but because of that, it's telling me I must like her and I'm getting a response that feels real, all because of the way I'm assuming they look at me, and makes me uncomfortable, but I'm not shying away from it. (But anything that seems remotely sexual with anything sends off things in me, like sexual disturbing things and makes me think I like them too because they seem sexual. Same with kids). But I don't want it but, my god, it feels so real. It's messing with me, it's going "you like her." And I'm not always fighting it, which brings on more response, which makes me more convinced and then it gets persistent. I've never had anything like this. Please does this sound familiar?

So I just downloaded this app to see if it could help. For the past few years I’ve been wondering if I have OCD. I know I should ask to talk to a therapist about it but I’m too scared to ask my parents because I don’t want them to think I’m broken. I got put in school therapy a few months ago for my depression and anxiety but I was too scared to tell her about my intrusive thoughts because I didn’t want to be told that I’m insane pretty much. Forgive me, I don’t know the names of the different ocd types, but pretty much this is what I experience: constantly throughout the day I have thought that I’m secretly a pedophile and these might be the worst ones. I have had really bad thoughts I’ve had for months now is that there’s a person or an entity under my bed so I physically will not stand within a foot of my bed because I seriously believe that a hand will come out and grab my ankle or that I’ll see eyes. This thought has been affecting my sleep for weeks now too because if I don’t have my sleep mask I think I’ll look up and see a person. The reason I don’t know if it’s OCD or not is because I don’t really have any physical compulsion. It’s mostly I just have to scream over the thoughts in my head and tell myself to please stfu. A big thing I struggle with is I think really bad thoughts and I can’t stop no matter how much I want and I get so so so scared that I’m going to manifest it by thinking about it too much and then I can’t stop thinking about it even more. Another thing is that I’ve had a few different periods throughout my life where I was so scared to be near my dad because what if he was a pedo??? I’d heard so many crime stories about that but the thing is I love my dad and I know that it’s not true, like I know it for 100% that it’s not right or true but I still think it and dwell on it for no reason. I also have a really bad thought because I have almost no memory of my childhood for no reason, like I can’t remember anything specifically traumatizing that would cause it but because I don’t remember it i get really caught up on the idea that I could’ve been m0lested or something by a family member and I just can’t remember. Another one I struggle with is with my sexuality. I’ve been trying to figure out my sexuality since 8th grade (I’m in 11th now) and I settled on lesbian a while ago but the reason I have barely come out to someone is I feel like I’m a big faker and I am constantly second guessing myself and I just can’t stop thinking what if I come out to everyone and then in a year I realize I don’t even like girls and then I just solidified the horrible stereotype of sexuality phases and now I’m a horrible person??? But I know it couldn’t be that because I’m sure I like girls? There was also a period where I genuinely was worried I was trans even though I didn’t feel like a man at all and my whole world was crashing because I kept thinking what if I actually am and then I have to go through rhat whole process and everyone will hate me. Another thing is I love to clean and when my home is cluttered I feel like I can’t think and I feel like I’m going crazy but that might not be related to this. Anyway that’s only a fraction of my thoughts I have so many I can only remember a few but is it actually OCD? Should I talk to someone about it? Or am I just being dramatic? Sorry for this whole thing but I have no one to talk to about it

Can anyone please help me stop my rumination? I have been ruminating for almost 24 hours and I feel so exhausted but so scared. I am ruminating about my relationship and am alternating between fear of him hurting me by cheating to fear of wondering if I love him and fear of wondering if I’m a good enough partner I am so tired and just want to sleep I woke up in the middle of the night last night and was ruminating for hours. I need some relief 😞😞😞😞

Over the past week I’ve recently started having doubts about my relationship with my boyfriend. I have logistical concerns that we were working on but something kept telling me it might be falling out of love. Because I truly do care for him. But feel that if I’m unsure whether or not we’re meant to be together. If anyone has dealt with ROCD and has any advice please let me know. In the past I’ve had OCD episodes with different types so I know what it’s like to some extent. Over the past week I’ve been very distressed over this all and that led me to ending things with him last night but he’s the one who told me it could be OCD, if it is I want to work on it with him but if it’s not then, it’s not unfortunately. Back story We’ve been talking for the past 7 months and dating for 3. When I met him it was a few months after I had a relationship end very abruptly and traumatically but I don’t see him as a rebound Thank you in advance

My head is a crazy mess. My SO-OCD is now focused on a particular person, and so every time they come into the room a get anxious, I get uncomfortable, it makes me panic in my head and a my head thinks is "you like etc" and creates a false narrative and false response/attraction that feels so f***ing real. The worst thing is, I didn't always get anxious, but I'm still not interested, but my mind starts playing scenarios in my head as if they were, and it's thoughts. Plus, subconscious worry of them popping into my head and they've are, all the time and it creates more false responses which makes me anxious, which then makes my mind go "omg you do" which makes it worse. All because she comes across as been interested which, with my so-ocd (and pocd) flare up), just makes me panic and my mind starts thinking all sorts. I think I now do this over any girl who I think is gay. I'm seeing a guy a like, I'm anxious because of self esteem issues, I'm awkward, I don't want to embarrass myself and look stupid, say the wrong thing etc, at the same time scrutinising him, then panicking because I'm analysing and, today, while we're making out a bit, never allowing myself to get into it because I'm afraid of messing up etc and I'm socially awkward and I'm hyperfocused on what's happening and, guess who pops into my head mid intimacy and makes me panic and then then get immediate things. The SO-OCD has blocked everything in general with him and guys. I hate this so much because it feels so convincing and yet I know it isn't because I'm not interested but all the time my head is like "oh god, you/I do etc." Which makes it more intense. I mean I had this in a classroom full of kids last week but it was more generalised. But my POCD has also been focused on a couple of individuals (with responses) and it made me feel I was attracted. Does this make any sense to anyone?

Back when I was at the pit of my current flare up, this time with SO OCD, I would google constantly, always desperate to find that one story that would assure me that I was going through SO OCD. During those googles, the one place I always turned to was my favorite website Reddit, which only made everything so much worse. While people posting on there were trying to be helpful, the majority of the posts that ended up triggering me more were ones one people that didn’t have an OCD mindset. While I’m still going through my current flare up now a few months later, I’m in such a better place now, and even have my OCD theme switching to questioning if I even have OCD at all, which is obviously fun. Having seen people here post about how they also turned to Reddit for guidance, I tried to find the posts that triggered me to just leave a little blurb to hopefully steer them towards ERP and you know what I couldn’t find, THOSE POSTS! While I know they exist, in my memory every post I read had the top post being someone either saying how SO OCD doesn’t exist or that the similar things described sounds like someone in denial. It’s crazy seeing know how my brain just focused on those posts, and made it seem like they were the majority and made me spiral further. Even now the one my brain wants to focus on is from someone that posted 7 years ago, that doesn’t have OCD and says how they think it doesn’t exist. Which obviously they, and my OCD, are right, I do truly enjoy a large percentage of my thoughts going towards figuring out my sexuality and that I’m just in denial 🙄 Basically it’s crazy being in a much better headspace now and seeing the constant state of panic I got myself in over a rare couple of posts, and how us suffering with OCD usually want to focus on that what if scenario so much and blow it up into such a bigger threat than it needs to be

Now I'm just uncomfortable around all of the same sex but some of them have become more triggers. Like with one talking to and everything was fine and then one day (with the SO-OCD this time firmly cemented in my head) I catch her looking at me in a certain way that I noticed (maybe in my head, like I'm now looking out for things), it caught me off guard and I thought why are they looking at me like that, immediately thought it was a 'come on' thing and got a groinal response and I like "no", then my mind started panicking when looking at them and now, every time there're around, I feel uncomfortable and responses go off and my brain goes "you like them don't you" and then I get an intense response that feels like an urge and my brain goes "yes" but I'm not interested in that. It feels so convincing. And in my mind it says "you're desperate for something" and it makes it worse and I don't like it. Why is it so convincing. I'm even saying this seems like denial, but I'm not in denial because I'm not but in my mind it keeps saying the opposite and makes the anxiety worse. Oh this means "I'm a le..." going through my head. It's ruining my life because it's convincing me and I'm not interested. I know it's because I'm so hyperfocused on it. Does anyone recognise this?

I kept saying .5 percent instead of .05 percent. I was thinking it was the same thing ( I know I’m stupid) now I feel like a complete total idiot. I was saying this percentage for possibility vs probability for my so-ocd on how probable it is for me to end up with a woman and I kept saying .5 instead of .05 😭😭