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I’ve gotten alot better but the past week has been hard. I ended things with this guy who I thought I really liked but he was seeing other people and I couldn’t take it. The cherry on top I had a panic attack and thought I was pregnant. I’m not. Now I’m back to thinking I’m a lesbian. I was talking to my aunt and mom about my future wedding and children and got excited. I feel like I’ll never feel attracted to another man again or never enjoy sex. And then seeking reassurance I went on the nocd page and read a story about a woman who had so ocd that turned out to be queer. And now I feel like this is going to happe...
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Hey everyone, hope all is well❤️ I had a tough OCD day for the first time in awhile, and brought myself here to steer clear of that. Although I had a tough day, my ocd is in “remission”. I can’t remember the last time where OCD ruined my whole entire day and a year ago today I couldn’t even imagine that. If anyone needs help please ask questions below. My main OCD themes are SOCD ROCD POCD, and have beat the shit out of all of them so they are for the most part quiet❤️ Ask away!!!

I honestly can’t deal with this anymore. I have a 2 year old who needs me, a partner and family who love me. I don’t want to be here anymore. I don’t want to leave my family behind. I just wish there was a magical fucking cure to heal me!! I can’t confess anymore because my partner put up his boundaries. And literally drowning in thoughts. I haven’t stopped obsessing about these things for days on end like the whole time I’m awake, till the moment I fall asleep. I never get a break. I’m tired. I’m exhausted. I’m over living a life that doesn’t even feel like I’m living. I’ll probably just be stuck this way forever so what’s th...
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Hey, well, this is my first time ever posting in here but I figured why not? I’ve been struggling with this issue for almost three months now and it’s been a constant battle, I guess I just really need some support, so almost a year ago now, I got in a relationship and I realized I may be Asexual since I didn’t really have any sexual desires towards my partner, starting late November though, I began to have these intrusive images in my head of us having sex. These thoughts have caused me a lot of anxiety and stress as well as depression. It’s weird, I know deep down in my heart I don’t desire any of that with her but t...
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Hi everyone, My therapist is not a fan of ERP, we are doing a compassionate based therapy and she really wants to get to the bottom of what is behind my OCD and core fears. However, we have been trying CFT for over a year and I am still struggling with CFT and day to day life. I am really keen to try ERP and she has said yes if I come up with suggestions. Would be very grateful for some ideas of good first ERP exercises for someone with SOCD and ROCD. Thanks in advance!

I found out my mom was molested by her dad when she was little. My parents got a divorce when I was a teen and my grandpa became like my dad. He was a well respected man and he was a little weird but I chalked it up to him just being a dirty old man (when he would joke about things). My mom started having flash backs later in life and blocked them out. I was so sad to know this happened to her and that it happened at the hands of some I loved and trusted. Now I want to be a mom but I am afraid of someone hurting my kids. My grandpa has passed away but I have OCD and my intrusive thoughts are: what if someon...
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Hello, I'm new here. I went through a really intense and traumatic breakup about a year ago and I'm currently working with my university for a SA/Title IX case against him as he was abusive in varying ways and very manipulative. I have the need to check and search the parking lots, the spaces around me, etc.. for him and his very distinct car frequently. It's been getting a lot better as I'm seeking therapy and back on medications. But some days I still have frequent urges to check, I feel like if I don't check, then something bad is going to happen. Aka, I'll run into him, and I fear he'll hurt me or say something to purposef...
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I’m looking for an exposure to do when I see my partner and don’t feel physically attracted to him. I used to use photos when I was picking up on particular features on his face. They were very useful, but now they are no longer as distressing for me. I am now getting more distressed as a whole seeing his face rather than particular features. Any suggestions?

I’m looking for anyone who is working in ROCD or has recovered from this form of OCD. Does anyone feel like personal accountability is a difficult exposure? My core fear in ROCD is that I am in the wrong relationship and will stay in the wrong relationship even if all signs point to 🚩🚩🚩 My relationship with my current partner is not perfect and we do have disagreements and arguments. I have already been reassured by family and friends and therapist about these situations being normal level conflicts (no abuse happening here). I have been feeling so frustrated about my ROCD and the doubt and hyperfixation on the ...
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So many posts I’ve seen say ‘treat the thought as a thought and behave based on your values’ I have SOOCD. It’s so confusing I have no idea what my values are anymore. Do I assume whatever i was into before ocd started is my values? Like I don’t think I have any real ambition/want for a relationship with a guy, but I’m so numb, it’s been so long, I have no idea? What to do?

I think I have relationship OCD. I will be doing great with my boyfriend then out of no where I get this intrusive thought that he thinks other people are attractive and has a wandering eye for others and I need reassurance immediately. And when he gives me reassurance, I think he’s lying. After like an hour of back and forth repetitive conversation I feel better, then the next day it happens again. Every. Single. Day. I freak out and blow up and need reassurance. I can’t tell if I’m getting these thoughts because they are true or because I’ve been with someone in the past who has cheated on me so I believe that all people get these thoughts. I’m so ready for a cure. Does anyone know what to do? I don’t want to live with this

Does anyone else feel like if there friends, family or partner knew what their intrusive thoughts were then they would fear you or hate you or feel disgusted by you? I hate my intrusive thoughts but feel like a liar or fake person for not sharing them.

I notice that I have a more difficult time relating to others who don’t have ocd or do not really understand ocd, which had me thinking, how does everyone make friends when you are living with this condition? I’m genuinely curious. My tendency as an introvert is to just not really seek out friendships, but maybe that’s a form of compulsion and avoidance. I think it would be beneficial if i could make actual friends who could understand and relate to me. Any ideas? Thoughts?

Hi! How do you handle rocd after arguments? It always spikes so bad... It doesn't always have to be an argument. Sometimes my partner is tired from work, his voice sounds of and my brain freaks out. Or we disagree about something, it's not even a fight, just something minor. I start to have thoughts like: see the disconnection between you two? You would be happier with someone else. You both are miserable together. You fight too much. I am very obsessed with the word connection lately. It feels like we are very disconnected. My partner is burn out from work and I am very stressed as well. Our relationship is not exactly smooth right now and I spiral everyday, if I should end it. i just wish we could both be happy again.

I think I have ROCD (Background information then question at the bottom) I have moments where I have an urge and strong feeling that I want to break up with my gf Then I have moments where I am questioning myself if I love my gf When I’m in these moments I get very anxious and get an anxious spike I do worry that these are my true feelings and I refused to accept them and I am surprising them and I don’t have OCD at all but I feel like this isn’t true because I don’t want these feelings and I know I care deeply for my gf. It’s been 3 years and I’ve never had any of these thoughts until an event happened that almos...
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“I love him of course I wanna spend the rest of my life with him” “I feel nothing I don’t know why because I felt everything 2 weeks ago” “I’m okay it’s ocd” “What if it isn’t ocd and it’s the truth” “I love him, wait I feel like I’m lying to myself” “I’m in denial the love is gone” I JUST WANT TO BE NORMAL AGAIN.💔

Although being diagnosed with OCD nearly 2-3 years ago, I’ve just recently found out more symptoms that were related to it, ones that I had no idea of. For example, reassurance-seeking into my relationship with my boyfriend. Him and I have had a lot of issues over the past year and the stuff he has done made it worse. Even though he’s trying to change for me, I can’t help but feel like he’s lost my trust. And I know this isn’t true because within every promise he makes, I trust every word. I hate asking for his reassurance because I can’t control it at ALL. And no matter how much he tells me that he’s not mad and th...
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Does anybody else feel like there are a lot of resources to deal with our OCD during a relationship, but not after a break up?

I’ve never been under anesthesia, i’m 19 and I should be getting my wisdom teeth removed, I am supposed to call the oral surgeon, but I still haven’t called after two months of getting my referral, for a few reasons. 1. I think i will die or suffer from serious complications/ be able to feel everything but not be able to move, almost like sleep paralysis, because that type of thing has happened before, only in redheads… I am not a redhead. Just the impeding doom it feels like a possibility. 2. Who will take me/drive me home while i’m coming out of the anesthesia and possibly saying silly things. I don’t want anyone to see me in...
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I feel my heart break when I think of losing my bf, I still feel a small part of me want him but now everything is pointing me just being lesbian. I’m convinced now that I only like being w him because of the male attention😭thinking of being lesbian and being w women doesn’t feel like desire at all like how lesbians describe it, but it feels so real and part of me just wants to give up and break up with him and just give in to this :( I get a lot of anxiety now thinking about being w men and feels like there’s no other way to explain this. I know it’s seeking for reassurance but it feels so hard to bring myself back from this to even say “maybe maybe not”. I just need some advice :(