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Does anyone suffer from emerophobia? Currently doing exposure therapy and very triggered by it. And also very frustrated to that I’m not “cured” I have the compulsions to ask loved ones “do you think I’ll get sick?” And I need them to say “no”. Well my therapist wants them to say “it’s a possibility” and also tell myself that too. It’s hard. First few days was hard. I broke down a lot and had a ton of anxiety. After a week or so it got Easier. However I felt sick tonight after dinner idk if I was still hungry or anxious or what but I felt nauseous. I tried to tell myself “it’s ok it happens and just because I feel nauseous doesn’t mean I’...
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Why does it feel like I'm defending my intrusive thoughts whenever I compulsively search online? I know I'm not meant to and I'm sorry for that, but at times. It feels like I'm defending my thoughts especially when it feels like I like my thoughts even though I don't want to

How do you know you don’t like the thoughts you’re thinking or the images in your head that you are seeing? Is there a way to get proof for yourself so I know I’m a safe person.

vent // ‼️TW: implied thought of su*cide‼️ hey guys, this is my first post. just wanted to share something from my notes app to see if anyone could relate! and if not, just something to see of how I feel/think when intrusive thoughts are beating me down :D here it goes: “I feel like I’m burning up. drowning. trapped. what if I am a bad person….? it’s like I’m obsessing over and over…. overthinking….. it’s killing me…. and I feel selfish for not wanting to die….. how would I react to someone who is going through the same thing as me…..? of the opposite sex….? I feel like I can’t even think for myself…. I doubt everything….. wh...
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I want to overcome OCD because I’m tired of it consuming me every hour, every day.

I give up. The false feelings and groinal responses are just too much and too real. I can't even look at the same sex now without thinking, they look good, automatically turns it into a sexual thing and..."response". I'm focused in on all the slightest things that they do and my brain goes "like" and response. My brain tells me I like them. I'm no longer anxious. I can't seem to fight it. It's just insane now. It convinces me I like this and don't, doesn't feel like me but the urge comes in and that's it. It's took away any draw I had to the opposite sex. All because of my lack of experience with relationships and sex in general (an...
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I was trying and doing my best to not dwell too much on these thoughts and obsessions, especially with my sister’s wedding coming up. But as I was stocking at work a woman with her granddaughter passed by to shop in that aisle and of course, the girl tried talking to me. I didn’t want to be rude so I gave her very brief responses and avoided eye contact, well avoided looking at her at all honestly. I was stressed tf out cause i didn’t know what id feel or what would pop up in my head but thankfully nothing did. After they left the aisle I just wanted to cry cause I didn’t know what I was feeling or if I’ll feel differently later on in...
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I’ve been wondering a lot these past two months have been really bad. I’ve had just about every theme of OCD from harm, sexual, existencial you name it. The only theme I haven’t had is germ OCD, I think it’s because I’m a nurse and I literary live around germs. This time around I’ve been obsessing with sleep and not being able to sleep, which has caused me to have depression. And now I’m like obsessed over my depression to the point where I’m literary questioning my own sanity, and my own experiences almost as if I’m over analyzing every experience and feel depressed over it evened good experiences ...
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Waking up in a panick everyday thinking if this is real life or not, the thoughts never stop, I just want to get better, I had a panick attack yesterday thinking this wasn’t real life, I coped with alcohol for the past 4 years, now when I wake up it’s straight to this isn’t real life and you should just hurt yourself, am I going crazy ?

I’m wondering if anyone can relate? I often overanalyse my feelings/emotions and check that I’m feeling happy enough. If I’m not, it makes me super anxious that I’m not enjoying life enough. In the past, Ive been known to keep diaries when on holiday to keep track of my feelings so I can check back afterwards to make sure I did actually have a good time. In my brain, everyone effortlessly seems to enjoy life, social gatherings, big events, holidays…enjoyment seems to come to easy to other people? Whereas I, whilst I do enjoy myself at times, find myself obsessing over enjoying stuff enough or being happy enough. Like if ...
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This is something very difficult for me so I suppose I'm just looking for a bit of support. A bit of context before I get into my current situation: I'm not sure what facet of ocd this is, but one of the many things I struggle with would be worrying about intruders in my home, specifically mystical ones that would be disturbing in appearance. For a long time this made me afraid of my room, under my bed, the hallway, etc around the nighttime. I've done exposures around this with my therapist and it has gotten better. It's been a few months without incident until now. I just got triggered by a video on tiktok which sounds silly t...
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Which type of therapy is recommended for pure o, pocd, socd and moral ocd? I have tried cognitive behavioral therapy but it didn’t work.

can someone tell me how i can start stretching again without it turning into a compulsion? i do acrobatics and whenever i practice without someone dragging me out of there, it takes hours and i get horribly upset if i can’t do something. a few weeks ago when i stretched it took me 4+ hours just to do splits.

Over half a year ago, This girl wanted me to erotically role-play a forced scene with her and to not ask the next time we chatted online I believe... (i cant remember if this happened or not) When we started doing that the next time we met, she suddenly left the chat. So Im scared on if consent wasnt given. I remember her saying that she got booted the next time I talked to her, and asking if she wanted to continue where we left off, but im not too sure and I cant recollect it... as a part of the roleplay, she would say things like "stop" and I think she roleplayed her movements but I dont remember if this was a part of t...
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is Freud right about the unconscious mind revealing our deepest segrets? I know he's outdated, but im thinking about it because when i was sleeping a while ago yes I did have an triggering dream but I was bothered by the triggering content inside the dream itself, i was conscious and bothered by it so I knew it was egodystonic, so I'm kinda ok (it was about a youtuber that i enjoyed saying creepy things in a stream and thinking that i couldn't enjoy his content anymore, that didnt happen in rl), but a new memory resurfaced about having an intrusive image while i was i think like half-asleep, or maybe in an another...
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I need help, please. I cannot stop ruminating and I'm still not getting medicated, and that's the onlu way out I can see right now. I cry everyday out of distress, I feel sick, and I force myself to get arcades so I really feel that I'm not attracted towards women. It’s torturing me, I cannot take this anymore. It makes me think that the slightest thing I notice on a woman means that I'm attracted towards her. And it also makes me obsess over certain people which I found something interesting in, and tries to make me believe that I like them, it's disgusting, sickening, draining. By the way, I have a boyfriend, and I love hi...
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Does anyone have any experience with Prozac and how effective it is for intrusive thoughts? Does it help with the thoughts, sensations, urges?? I’m desparate this is not what I want for my life this is not who I want to be but OCD is making me feel that way. I’m so down right now because I’m afraid this is what I truly want because of all the thoughts, sensation, urges, etc. Someone please tell me I’m not alone in this….i just want to quit feeling like I’m some disgusting freak.

I don’t know if it’s actually de realization or I’m just scared that it is. Either way it puts me into an intense state of anxiety. It’s like my OCD makes me hyper aware

I cannot quit thinking about a certain thing over and over. Its starting to affect my mental health and daily functions

I’m going on a hen do in 3 weeks to Marbella for 3 nights. I’m a bridesmaid but don’t know the other girls very well apart from the bride. I feel sick at the thought of going which makes me really sad as I should be looking forward to it. It’s the first time I’ve left my little boy and along with the soocd etc I’m really dreading it. It’s not like a fear like scared of an exam or scared of jumping out of a plane it’s a sick to my stomach don’t know how I’m going to force myself to go kind of dread and I feel like I could cry just at the thought of it …this isn’t normal someone please help me how I prepare myself as I’m so worried of feeling like Ill need to jump straight on a plane back as soon as I get there 😔😔😔