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- 45w ago
How do you know?
How do you know you don’t like the thoughts you’re thinking or the images in your head that you are seeing? Is there a way to get proof for yourself so I know I’m a safe person.
How do you know you don’t like the thoughts you’re thinking or the images in your head that you are seeing? Is there a way to get proof for yourself so I know I’m a safe person.
OCD is ego dystonic, meaning the thoughts go against your core values. That being said, there is no such thing as 100% certainty, so you can't really prove that you are a safe person. The best you can do is accept the risk and live your life, maybe you will do something, maybe you won't (I know, easier said than done).
I think one thing ocd patients have a hard time dealing with, like myself, is the time frame expected to become sub-clinical. When i was be treated for the first time, i had no idea about how ocd worked or how erp worked. I wasnt honest about some of the things that were bothering me and kept performing compulsions. It can take time to develop trust with a therapist. Some people have sexual or violent themes or maybe just obsessions/compulsions that are so weird they are afraid to talk about them. The therapist really has to put them at ease. And it can take a long time until someone accepts the uncertainty and stops performing compulsions to neutralize.
The whole idea of erp for ocd is to not know. Live with uncertainty and not perform compulsions to become certain. Because the certainty will always be disrupted eventually.
Because the thoughts cause you distress .. otherwise, it wouldn’t be a problem. You wouldn’t be questioning it.
does anyone else use the fact that they dont like their thoughts as a confirmation/compulsion, and or when you go through something stressful with little to no compulsions take it as a sign they actually like it? is this apart of usual rumination or am I expirencing something different? and how do you deal with it?
I've gotten diagnosed with OCD and I'm in therapy. But I'm worried that I don't have OCD/that I got misdiagnosed. And recently I'm worried that I've just gotten myself into a habit of thinking of dirty minded or just plain old terrible things after I see/hear certain things because I feel like I need to prove I have OCD or else I'm faking(sometimes this goes away). Or that I'm just mimicking symptoms of ocd to cope with real problems I may have and that im just really deep into denial. I don't know...I'm just so tired. I mean, what if I really am what I think I am and this is my brains only way of coping? I don't even really feel anything towards most of the thoughts anymore either I just know they go against my values and I don't want them. I don't know if that's because I'm so mentally exhausted, I just don't care, or that the thoughts are true and I'm comfortable with them.
I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅
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