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For context, these are online and I've been friends with them for a while (for a few months) and I decided it would be time to tell them about the intrusive thoughts. At this point I was very anxious and overwhelmed. It was on a call and I decided to give the two friends I've been friends with the thoughts I've been dealing with and the two seemed like they weren't understanding but trying to at the same time. The two seemed confused but they didn't say that they were uncomfortable and it made me uncomfortable talking more about it making me terrible and well I had to jump out of call (this was on discord). I deleted the app until I was ready. Cut to today which I log on only to be kicked out of the server without any warning. I didn't get a reason or anything. I'm a little upset but also wasn't surprised. I realised now that it may have been a bit too soon for me to open up about it and I should've given more time but I didn't know they how they would respond. I wish they could've just told me that they were uncomfortable instead of staying silent about it. I know it's a bit out of the ordinary for me to make this post. Although the writing was on the wall it just feels like a slap in the face.

Hi, I’ve been thinking about opening up to some of the people in my life who I am really close with about my ocd. There are two things that I’m worried about. One is that I feel like since my ocd and my anxiety in general to make so much to be happening in my head and it’s seems to be jumping from theme, thought, or worry to another that I won’t be able to clearly explain it in a way that they will understand. I’m also worried about this turning into a confessing compulsion, confessing was one of my worst compulsions and was super hard to get under control and I don’t want to lose the progress I’ve made. Does anyone have any tips for this?

I’m so nervous, and sick to my stomach. I don’t know if I accidentally said a slur out loud when answering a question in class, and I’m trying so hard to remember all of the details. I know that I thought it the same time I answered but I’m still not sure. I’m trying so hard not to email my teacher to ask him if I did say something inappropriate or not, but it’s so hard. I just need to know—for certain.

Good night from Armenia, I wish us to overcome our intrusive bad feelings. Please share with me with your experience, have you had the feeling that the cause of having OCD was the wrong attitude toward you in childhood, it maybe children from school, from yard or members of family? Are there people that think that if something had not been hapenned to them in the past, now they would not being sufferred from OCD problems. Please share with your experience. I wish you good night and sooner overcoming of OCD. I share with you with one picture of our capital of Armenia in January 28 night.

I’m 17F and have always had a huge problem biting my nails, ever since I was young from my anxiety and OCD. Ive been becoming very insecure of how my nails look and It’s extremely difficult not to chew my nails though I know it’s unhygienic and in healthy. Is there any advice on how to stop this?

How do you stop mental checking???? I dooooo this all day to the point I don’t even know when a normal intrusive thought happens becuse I check they are there that often I cause a lot myself. I don’t want these thoughts but feel like I’m making them happen all time because I check for the thought without even realising

Hello 👋 I'm new here and wanted to share my story. I'm 27 and struggle daily with OCD. I've had it for many years and got diagnosed 3 years ago. I have intrusive thoughts daily and constantly washing my hands because I feel contaminated. My hands are so sore they crack and bleed. When I get my food shop delivery I have to clean the kitchen floor where items have been and for days after I wash my hands after touching the food items because they are dirty to me. I wear PJ'S when I'm on my sofa but I have to change into different PJ'S when I get in bed, I cannot wear the same ones because I feel the sofa has germs on that I can't put in my bed. I clean my phone everyday when I get home from work because of the work germs. It's very rare if I use the toilets at work because of other colleagues using them. I get behind on jobs at work because I have to re read things a lot. I struggle very much leaving the house by myself. My last job I had to leave due to constantly being late because I had to check all the windows, doors, switches, cooker, ect. Luckily now my husband is at home when I leave for work. But times where I've had to leave by myself I've had panic attacks and cannot stop crying because I cannot leave the house. I think something bad will happen. I freeze at the door, I know I've locked it but the OCD bully in my head is saying I need to keep checking it until it feels right. And a lot of the time it never feels right. I have accidentally broken door/window handles because of checking them so many times. A few years ago I struggled that much to leave the house I had to film myself locking the door and I also wrote on paper "locked" "off" ect. Take a photo/video and send it to my husband who then stopped work to look and reply. A lot of the time it didn't help at all. At night I have to check everything is switched off and locked up, that can take a long time and a lot I ask my husband to do the checks either with me or by himself. This is so difficult. I have been having therapy for about 3 months, it's helped a little so that's something. Some days are ok and other days are horrible. I know I'm not alone but it does feel like that a lot. Thank you for reading :)

There’s times where I just wanna escape from reality . So I tried smoking marijuana and I didn’t even smoke alot . And 4 days later after smoking , I feel very odd. Like something is wrong with me and I’m worried I’m going to be stuck like this forever . I don’t know what to do and I’m so scared . I can’t sleep , I can’t relax , my whole body is tensed up. I’m afraid . I don’t know what to do anymore

Does anyone else feel scared to be around item that interfere with your thoughts? like with my OCD when a thought like “what is i stab someone” comes into my head i can’t be around knives, if they are out i have to put them away and hide them. i get so scared if my thoughts becoming reality so i have to distance myself

I was Reading about pure ocd and It says that it Is not included in the dsm-5 and that the obsessive compulsive disorder in the dsm-5 has ALWAYS physical compulsions/actions. So what if this doesnt exist and I don't have ocd? I don't get It. I don't do ripetitive actions at all. I Just try to research things every second, ask for reassurance, try to solve my thoughts for hours, think about the past.

I had my first real severe OCD flare up almost two weeks ago and it scared the living crap out of me (intrusive thoughts). At the time I had no idea what it was and it was causing insane anxiety and panic attacks. After a bit of research and reaching out to numerous professionals for help with anxiety, I then learned it was OCD. I had a pretty bad week and then started to feel better. The thoughts were still there but I felt like I was learning / understanding how to just not fall victim to them. Now today, I had what I felt like was a bad day. Had what I think was a derealization type episode. Horrified it was going to turn me into someone else. I can’t even explain. I calmed down, but ever since it happened I’ve had ocd on loop about how that specific event happened and what could happen next time if it does happen again. Im truly scared for it to happen again. I was stuck in a loop for hours. Then now just all of the sudden I feel ok. Like a moment of clarity that I know what all of it was. Like I know it was the ocd. And that I’ll handle it better next time. And that I’ll be ok. But then my brain tries to tell me I have more than ocd. That I’m actually losing it. Has anyone experienced these moments before? I know people have good days and bad days but has anyone wone had days where they feel like it’s unbearable but then a couple hours later feel like you have your mind and rational back? Or should I actually be concerned there’s something else going on here? I meet with my therapist on Friday and will fill her in on all this, even though it’s only my second session with her, but just wanted to see if anyone could relate.

Is there a correlation between a hormone imbalance and ocd? I have low testosterone and ocd and didn't know if there may be a link between the two. I'm just trying to figure out why I have ocd, how long I've had it, and when it might have started. I've been suffering for years now but was told it was bipolar disorder (early 2000s) since I was in high school (I'm 37 now). It wasn't until this last year that I was diagnosed with ocd and never was bipolar to begin with. I still can't believe I have ocd. I always thought that those were people who panicked about germs and washed their hands way to much. I've always had bizarre and intrusive thoughts but I just thought that's the way I was. I'm just trying to figure out a link or if it's something I've had since birth.

I used to love commentary youtube in the background but now I cant watch it because it always making me spiral into epsiodes of thinking that I am being talked about in the visdeo/have done all these things the people that are being talked about in the video. I get scared that they will mention me or talk about me in the video and say that Ive done all the things theyre talking about, even though I havent. Is the ocd related

I’m not feeling too well today because these intrusive thoughts in my head keep cycling and cycling even though I don’t want to have these thoughts and I want them to go away. My girlfriend is getting so tired of having to hear what girl I thought abt and what situation i’m reflecting on even though I don’t even mean to be thinking those things. I feel so guilty and horrible these things come into my brain. I don’t want to think things about other women, my girlfriend is amazing and is very patient and has been so patient ever since i’ve been having obscure or other thoughts about women wether it be just a thought or even sexually. It’s not on purpose. It just keeps happening and I can’t explain how my brain keeps doing it. I just came across so much research about Pure O Ocd and I think I have that. I’m very new to this but my twin brother also has OCD and Bipolar and I feel as though i’m the same way. I’m so tired of having unwanted thoughts come into my head. I feel so upset and hurt knowing I have to tell my girlfriend exactly what it is that came into my head. I feel like a failure.

Do you just be like yeah this could happen? Do you just be like yeah this is possible?

For a while now - like the last 6 months - I’ve been getting intrusive thoughts about SA, Pedophilia, and overall disturbing things but for some reason I’ve been sort of numb to them? Like they’ll come up and I’ll just look at them with indifference won’t feel anything and it scares me because it makes me feel like I’m sort of embracing the thoughts. Like I’ll have an intrusive thought such as “I’m glad they went through this horrible thing” and I’ll just say ok and move on??? How do I not feel numb when it comes to intrusive thoughts 😭 I don’t like it one bit. Makes me miss when I had those horrible ocd episodes because I at least felt SOMETHING.

I’m so devastated. I made an appointment through NOCD and they cancelled me. I have Medicaid and at first they said they took it but I got an email back saying they don’t. I offered to pay out of pocket because at this point I’m willing to pay the amount but they still rejected me. The place where I was supposed to find help and they turn me away and I’m drowning mentally. I feel so hurt and ignored. I finally reach out. Where else am I supposed to find a OCD specialist??

For as long as I can remember I’ve always counted the syllables of the words said by myself and others - even just thoughts in my head. For example, is someone says “hell-o-how-are-you?” I use my teeth on either side of my mouth and tap twice on one side, then the other, then back again etc to see if the amount of syllables in the sentence is even. If it isn’t, I would respond with an odd number of syllables such as “good-thank-you”. This habit is so engrained into my life I have no idea how anyone else’s mind works and I am constantly fighting myself to stop it but it’s impossible. I will even admit that I am doing it right now writing this 😭 . Does anyone else have a similar problem? I am still in education and feel like it’s affecting the way I listen to my teachers etc.

Is it normal in recovery to feel better but, at the same time, have the thoughts in any case? I can manage them most of the time but they are still there. This makes me feel like I’m lying. Is it a bad sign? I wonder if I can experience again the peace and quiet in my head, without being threaten by my thoughts and constantly feel in danger and be finally happy and secure about what I want for my life.