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What differences did you notice when you started to actually resist compulsions? Are intrusive thoughts less frequent? Less intense?

Isit me alone or anyone experienced this. My anxiety and worry somehow at the peak every night before i sleep. I have never fall sleep on time because of my intrusive thoughts. All the worry, bad thoughts, anxiety of something bad will happen, guilt, you name it, entire world problems will run in my head. I end up using phone so that i wont think, just scroll social media or read articles to divert my mind until im so exhausted and my mind shut down. This is very exhausting and tiring. Anyway to deal with this?

Hi, i have been on and off with my SOOCD and I have been really good at understanding that my thoughts are just thoughts, yesterday i seen a masculine lesbian and it triggered me and I got severe anxiety because I was expecting some thoughts to come as I had been triggered. I then got thoughts “you find her attractive don’t lie”, when I seen her I do not personally think she is attractive looks wise and all that, but all my mind is saying to me now is I do and I am lying and it’s started to just get to me i just want to shut off and get the thoughts away from me😫then I seen on tiktok this person had SOOCD and then turns out they were gay and I just am spiraling.

My husband has been struggling with ocd for honestly I think most of his life. Officially diagnosed in the last two years now with paranoia as well. It’s difficult. I struggle myself with some anxiety and depression and overthinking situations. And we both have struggled self insecurities and insecurities in our relationship. He always tells me I don’t want to loose you after he has been is a dark place and needing reassurance. Right now we just feel very disconnected after a situation. I been trying to be as understanding as I can. And acknowledge that we both need to not seek so much reassurance from each other. Anyone have any tips on ways to feel connected again after an intense ocd episode?

Hello I've been on fluoxetine for 3 weeks now The first two weeks my intrusive thoughts got much much worse Almost to an unbearable point Now I feel restless legs and hands Also my sleep hasn't been so bad since I've been taking alprazolam but still I wake up some times at night I'm taking 40 mg a day Should I be worried?? I was reading about some real crazy side effects and bad stuff that just made me fell worse And right now I'm not sure I'm really in danger or it's just my ocd attacking me I don't wanna develop akathisia And I've been feeling some uneasiness in my limbs but not to that point I think

These past couple days, Ive had 2 huge panic attacks in a row. I’m getting worried because they were kind of the worst theyve ever been. I couldn’t function at all and if my partner weren’t with me, I’m afraid I wouldnt have been able to move or get up. I was convulsing and couldnt stop having the worst intrusive thoughts. I was so disappointed in myself that I started having super intense suicidal thoughts and couldn’t speak. I really hate ocd. I ruined some of the most fun days that were planned out in a trip too. Idk what to do anymore

I wanted to ask because I have this problem that my intrusive thoughts have completely attached to my ocs. There's one character I have, she has blonde hair and has a name pretty similar to my younger sister but not (the oc's name is Charlotte Wine who is a 32yr old women) and I had this for a while. I don't know what to do about it and now I completely avoided drawing or sexualising her because it now mixed up my little sister's name with hers and vice versa. I'm scared that if I do that I would be doing something horrible and criminal. The character was never based on my little sister so I don't know what to do about this. And I've just completely avoided drawing her and stuck to what's safe. It makes my uncomfortable just drawing her now because my brain attached itself to it

Just feels like i can never win in life... I dont ever have a special talent that makes me stand out from anyone... I cant win at games, nor ever have a victorious moment based on my skill instead of luck... i just lose and lose and lose... from having OCD based on real events, to my OCD gaslighting me into thinking my fears are true, to just never being able to ever win in life once in my life... i have no one in my college who understands... let alone anyone who cares... Maybe I deserve this because Ive done bad things in life... maybe I deserve this because of my childhood mistakes... who knows... Im just in a state of giving up on ever being happy because I genuinely feel like nothing works out for me, either by my own stupidity or just life being a bitch...

So writing this again My mind usually do negative swears with God so I have already prayed to God that don't listen to those swears which happens in my mind or my mind says so this time I already told God not to listen to those thoughts and ignore them so tell me will God punish me in any way I don't think so but my OCD does think this way

I have been struggling with ocd a lot lately, it makes my life impossible to deal, I just wanted to have a normal life, I have ocd since my childhood but I was recently diagnosed, I just worry so much about my dreams and their meaning. If I obsess in a though I will dream about it and it makes me a lot distressed,I just wanted them to stop

My ROCD HOCD only comes back when I get into relationships. Like for example when we broke up bruh my heart was messed up I’ve never experienced heart break before, but my ocd was like null during that experience. But when we started working things out my thoughts started to come back again? It’s like when the thing I love most is gone I get no bad thoughts? But I guess I wouldn’t have been that heart broken if I really wasn’t into him. Cos the whole time I was like he’s so pretty I don’t want anyone else. But at same time not one intrusive thought maybe ur not into him came???

I have thought about this a lot and feel it is a great DISSERVICE to us on this app that therapists aren’t available to us without them knowing who we are. The whole point of the app is so people can explain horrible things they’re thinking without shame. If you have to say who you are a lot of us wouldn’t be on here; including myself. I really need someone to talk to about things that doesn’t know who I am. I have a therapist and she’s wonder but I can not talk to her about this stuff. Its unbearably uncomfortable and painful to talk about. Ugh thats all i wanted to say 😔

I was ok and then did some erp with puff daddy story and it triggered me so much. It’s been on my mind all week

Worry about groinal responses while laying down and worry when i hear relatives voices. I adjust as a compulsion and worry if im arousing and if i dont move i worry am i dwelling.

Recently I’ve been having these spiraling thoughts that my intrusive thoughts aren’t bad enough anymore, so I am therefore faking OCD. Does anyone ever get this?

I was doing fine for over a month.. I was managing my ocd really well till yesterday. I was at my friends house for her birthday and she invited me, 3 other girls and 2 other guys and her bf but one of the guys look attractive he looked good but I wish that’s where it would end. But instead my heads like cheat or it felt like I wanted to cheat when I know I would never and I hate the fact that I even got that thought like why can’t I just find another guy attractive without my brain telling me to cheat. It felt like I wanted to cheat and I got so scared because why would I do that or get that :/ I don’t want to cheat on my boyfriend I love my boyfriend. I’m scared that I actually wanted to cheat and I wanna confess to my bf so bad :/ but no like I know I didn’t want to but it feels like I did :/

Can I pls get tips excuse intrusive images, mine is like a lil movie that keeps play and I have a good imagination so that’s what makes it more scary

I want to love God and not fear him and what I think is I am having least knowledge about my religion and want to explore more in it and one interesting fact about my religion is that It is not a religion, it is a concept, an idea, a principle based on Truth, Equality, Justice. It is logical, stresses on contemplation (vichaar) & application of logic (vivek) alongwith faith (sidek) in the path to Truth realization. Yes, it is a distinct, more fundamental path towards Truth. (I define Religion as an intolerant, insular, tribalistic power grouping based on blind tautological illogical beliefs & cultural/ritualistic habits.) despite of this beauty of my religion my OCD tries to convince me of things which are untrue like i sometimes laugh on myself how foolish of me being trapped in this loop but this is 50 percent decreased by acquiring some knowledge of my religion and want to explore more...this is what I wanted to share

Sure I wasn’t perfect as a teen but I was better, I was a good person before all my mistakes. Now I constantly am tortured 24/7 seven days a week with obsessive thought over obsessive thought about my past about what I said and did. I’m disgusted nauseated and even typing this I’m realizing my brow is scrunched and I’m scowling at my phone. I wanna restart. Reset things before I was tainted, stained, unredeemable and unfixable.

I put too much on my plate. Im working full time night shift, a full time hybrid student, and doing clinical rotations all in the midst of buying a house and adding a third to my long term relationship. i thought i could handle it. i thought that if i wanted this enough that i could make it work but now i feel like my brain is on fire. Working nights has me so paranoid that i have to count my steps out 1-2-3-4 and sometimes feel completely glued to my seat counting 1-2-3-4 over and over to get the feeling of dread to go away. I am constantly ruminating and reassurance seeking to the point of breaking down every time i’m alone. My brain is full of all of the what-ifs so full that it’s hard to sleep. I had my first appointment with a specialist but due to everything going on, i fell asleep while waiting for the appointment to start (Telehealth) Before all of this started my OCD was just the counting steps and bouts of contamination fears and over cleaning but now im questioning my life over and over to point of pointlessness and its driving me insane. i cant do this. i will because i know i have to and it will be over soon but im so scared and i dont know how i can come out of all of this okay and intact with the people i love still around me. i hate who i have become.