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What differences did you notice when you started to actually resist compulsions? Are intrusive thoughts less frequent? Less intense?

Isit me alone or anyone experienced this. My anxiety and worry somehow at the peak every night before i sleep. I have never fall sleep on time because of my intrusive thoughts. All the worry, bad thoughts, anxiety of something bad will happen, guilt, you name it, entire world problems will run in my head. I end up using phone so that i wont think, just scroll social media or read articles to divert my mind until im so exhausted and my mind shut down. This is very exhausting and tiring. Anyway to deal with this?

Hi, i have been on and off with my SOOCD and I have been really good at understanding that my thoughts are just thoughts, yesterday i seen a masculine lesbian and it triggered me and I got severe anxiety because I was expecting some thoughts to come as I had been triggered. I then got thoughts “you find her attractive don’t lie”, when I seen her I do not personally think she is attractive looks wise and all that, but all my mind is saying to me now is I do and I am lying and it’s started to just get to me i just want to shut off and get the thoughts away from me😫then I seen on tiktok this person had SOOCD and then turns out they were gay and I just am spiraling.

My husband has been struggling with ocd for honestly I think most of his life. Officially diagnosed in the last two years now with paranoia as well. It’s difficult. I struggle myself with some anxiety and depression and overthinking situations. And we both have struggled self insecurities and insecurities in our relationship. He always tells me I don’t want to loose you after he has been is a dark place and needing reassurance. Right now we just feel very disconnected after a situation. I been trying to be as understanding as I can. And acknowledge that we both need to not seek so much reassurance from each other. Anyone have any tips on ways to feel connected again after an intense ocd episode?

Hello I've been on fluoxetine for 3 weeks now The first two weeks my intrusive thoughts got much much worse Almost to an unbearable point Now I feel restless legs and hands Also my sleep hasn't been so bad since I've been taking alprazolam but still I wake up some times at night I'm taking 40 mg a day Should I be worried?? I was reading about some real crazy side effects and bad stuff that just made me fell worse And right now I'm not sure I'm really in danger or it's just my ocd attacking me I don't wanna develop akathisia And I've been feeling some uneasiness in my limbs but not to that point I think

These past couple days, Ive had 2 huge panic attacks in a row. I’m getting worried because they were kind of the worst theyve ever been. I couldn’t function at all and if my partner weren’t with me, I’m afraid I wouldnt have been able to move or get up. I was convulsing and couldnt stop having the worst intrusive thoughts. I was so disappointed in myself that I started having super intense suicidal thoughts and couldn’t speak. I really hate ocd. I ruined some of the most fun days that were planned out in a trip too. Idk what to do anymore

I wanted to ask because I have this problem that my intrusive thoughts have completely attached to my ocs. There's one character I have, she has blonde hair and has a name pretty similar to my younger sister but not (the oc's name is Charlotte Wine who is a 32yr old women) and I had this for a while. I don't know what to do about it and now I completely avoided drawing or sexualising her because it now mixed up my little sister's name with hers and vice versa. I'm scared that if I do that I would be doing something horrible and criminal. The character was never based on my little sister so I don't know what to do about this. And I've just completely avoided drawing her and stuck to what's safe. It makes my uncomfortable just drawing her now because my brain attached itself to it

Just feels like i can never win in life... I dont ever have a special talent that makes me stand out from anyone... I cant win at games, nor ever have a victorious moment based on my skill instead of luck... i just lose and lose and lose... from having OCD based on real events, to my OCD gaslighting me into thinking my fears are true, to just never being able to ever win in life once in my life... i have no one in my college who understands... let alone anyone who cares... Maybe I deserve this because Ive done bad things in life... maybe I deserve this because of my childhood mistakes... who knows... Im just in a state of giving up on ever being happy because I genuinely feel like nothing works out for me, either by my own stupidity or just life being a bitch...

I want to start from adding that I had OCD as long as I know, but not as severe as I experience it now. Sometimes I wonder, how did it get this much worse? And I trace its roots at a time when I started believing in the Law of Attraction. (I don't believe it, even then I didn't but acted as if I wanted to try) The books I read around Law of Attraction most often taught that always have a positive thought, and not a negative one for positive thoughts manifest good things and negative ones bad things. I would keep a journal, and deliberately think positive thoughts and undo the negative thoughts that I had. Although, at that time, I had no idea what OCD was. But neutralizing thoughts begun around this time after reading books like The Secret, and other popular books around the concept of Law of Attraction. It was also this time when I got into a relationship, and it started consuming me when I started magical thinking. Certain hairstyle mean (the hairstyle) dictates how my girlfriend talks to me. Let's say, I change my hairstyle one day and my girlfriend is happy and wants to hang out. It caused me to believe that this new hairstyle brought or made this thing happened. Now let me add, I don't believe in these things. I don't. But as of writing this now, I just feel so unbelievably stupid that I could think something so rubbish and idiotic like that. I know it's a mental disorder and I shouldn't label it like that. But I think for anyone who is in the recovery process, when you look back, you do have that anger on your chest that why did I waste so much time? So this way I believe I learnt OCD. I had it already and I know I had. But the severity of OCD has all come from this concept of Law of Attraction. It was 2017 and it's 2024 now. I don't know how to express this more clearly. But do you have similar experiences where you feel like your OCD wasn't this much worse or something that resonates with what I just said. If you feel like you can contribute to this, please do so. Stay Safe. Awais Bahar

I have been struggling with ocd a lot lately, it makes my life impossible to deal, I just wanted to have a normal life, I have ocd since my childhood but I was recently diagnosed, I just worry so much about my dreams and their meaning. If I obsess in a though I will dream about it and it makes me a lot distressed,I just wanted them to stop

My ROCD HOCD only comes back when I get into relationships. Like for example when we broke up bruh my heart was messed up I’ve never experienced heart break before, but my ocd was like null during that experience. But when we started working things out my thoughts started to come back again? It’s like when the thing I love most is gone I get no bad thoughts? But I guess I wouldn’t have been that heart broken if I really wasn’t into him. Cos the whole time I was like he’s so pretty I don’t want anyone else. But at same time not one intrusive thought maybe ur not into him came???

Do conspiracy theories trigger anyone elses OCD? They always scare me and make me feel like I need to “figure them out” and I over-research and over-analyze them. It’s not like I’m genuinely just interested in them or believe in them, it’s more that I feel like I need to know the answer. Tiktok is a huge trigger for this.

I have thought about this a lot and feel it is a great DISSERVICE to us on this app that therapists aren’t available to us without them knowing who we are. The whole point of the app is so people can explain horrible things they’re thinking without shame. If you have to say who you are a lot of us wouldn’t be on here; including myself. I really need someone to talk to about things that doesn’t know who I am. I have a therapist and she’s wonder but I can not talk to her about this stuff. Its unbearably uncomfortable and painful to talk about. Ugh thats all i wanted to say 😔

I was ok and then did some erp with puff daddy story and it triggered me so much. It’s been on my mind all week

Worry about groinal responses while laying down and worry when i hear relatives voices. I adjust as a compulsion and worry if im arousing and if i dont move i worry am i dwelling.

Recently I’ve been having these spiraling thoughts that my intrusive thoughts aren’t bad enough anymore, so I am therefore faking OCD. Does anyone ever get this?

I was doing fine for over a month.. I was managing my ocd really well till yesterday. I was at my friends house for her birthday and she invited me, 3 other girls and 2 other guys and her bf but one of the guys look attractive he looked good but I wish that’s where it would end. But instead my heads like cheat or it felt like I wanted to cheat when I know I would never and I hate the fact that I even got that thought like why can’t I just find another guy attractive without my brain telling me to cheat. It felt like I wanted to cheat and I got so scared because why would I do that or get that :/ I don’t want to cheat on my boyfriend I love my boyfriend. I’m scared that I actually wanted to cheat and I wanna confess to my bf so bad :/ but no like I know I didn’t want to but it feels like I did :/

Can I pls get tips excuse intrusive images, mine is like a lil movie that keeps play and I have a good imagination so that’s what makes it more scary

I reached out to one my older cousins wife she has been in family for long time so she watched me grow up, and she talks to my mom as well. I basically told her about my current situation with my siblings and their criticism toward me since healing in therapy and how my mom doesn’t defend me. I didn’t at all gossip about my family or try to make them look like bad people only wanted advice on how to cope and I feel like I could trust her because she’s level headed and very spiritual and so am I. So we had a short convo and she gave me some good advice and also checked back in with me. That was last weekend and I’ve been worried and feel guilt that it was bad or wrong to do that but I couldn’t talk to my mom about it because she was part of it, plus I just wanted outside perspective. And now I feel the urge to confess but I don’t feel I did anything wrong nor do I wanna tell my mom that I had private convo with her bc it’s my business as an adult. Sometimes idk how to cope with the urgency to confess and usually end up confessing but I genuinely don’t want to bc I don’t feel what I did was bad, everyone needs someone to talk to plus I wasn’t being gossipy about it at all.

I’m really struggling the past few days constant awful intrusive thoughts from the second I wake up!! I know this is probs down to mostly ruminating but why does it feel like I’m thinking these vile things on purpose? Like I want them? Still trying to practise mindfulness but wow I feel very lost at the minute 😭😭