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Does anyone else’s false memory ocd try to tell them that the intrusive thought / false memory you are having is in fact not false memory ocd and is reality and you actually did do the thing it is trying to convince you that you did?

I have my fears. I have written down what keeps me up on several nights. I haven't gone into detail but I have written it down. I've been up since 3am. This isn't the first time it has happened and I feel like my mind can't get a break. I don't even feel tired. I feel way too anxious and I just can't calm my thoughts. My intrusive thoughts turned into nightmares and it woke me up. I know that ERP works because people report that it does but I've tried to do it on my own very few times and it doesn't feel like it worked. I really really want it to work though. My eyes burn a little and I just don't feel calm. Anything but calm and free from my thoughts.

I have my fears. I have written down what keeps me up on several nights. I haven't gone into detail but I have written it down. I've been up since 3am. This isn't the first time it has happened and I feel like my mind can't get a break. I don't even feel tired. I feel way too anxious and I just can't calm my thoughts. My intrusive thoughts turned into nightmares and it woke me up. I know that ERP works because people report that it does but I've tried to do it on my own very few times and it doesn't feel like it worked. I really really want it to work though. My eyes burn a little and I just don't feel calm. Anything but calm and free from my thoughts.

Hello everyone. I’m still very new to understanding my ocd and I haven’t started my erp therapy yet but I will soon. In the meantime, I was wondering if anyone had any tips on managing stress and anxiety, and what to do when intrusive thoughts take over. I’ve started to get really bad stress headaches and my physical health is declining fast because of my stress due to my ocd. Have a great day <3

My OCD, anxiety and all of my other mental stuff that I have no idea what is makes me feel so alone and like an alien- this morning I felt pretty decent and as if I could go through the day with passing colors and now I'm curled up in my messy bedroom crying and feeling non-human . Quite dissociated . Subtypes are stressing me out more. Health OCD are making me believe I'm going to lose all my hair and especially since my scalp and face is pretty scared up at the current moment due to picking and that I'll go blind and lose all my limbs with cancer, + be deaf (?? That's a lot OCD...) Real Event OCD is making me feel super sick, Existential OCD is making me believe that nothing matters especially since my grades are sort of behind and I feel stupid, and that I'm so exhausted by everything I feel like the future is too much work + worrying about the time and all . ROCD is making me second guess my friendship and making me believe everyone hates me due to many reasons and I'm wondering if it's even OCD or I do feel this way genuinely, and other subtypes are just at me . (POCD, Catastrophic OCD, other odd ones you name it.) --- Social anxiety sucked today and will suck more tomorrow and forward since I just can't talk normally, not even with my main/only friend group- legitimately only my family really I can be comfortable with them and be 100% myself personality wise and all.. (Or with other exceptions,) Otherwise my voice tone is off, I stutter, and I suck at doing conversations/try too hard . & I'm just so awkward and clumsy and everything..! I have to mask many times and overall anxiety is just eating me alive . --- I feel like I'm cosplaying a human . Not being one. my only comfort at this point is just escaping in my mind (possible malidaptive daydreaming, since I daydream 24/7 and it messes with my perspective of the real life at times- it's gotten pretty severe) and being alone with my comfort stuff . I feel safe that way and it does help me, I just hate the real world sometimes. :,,,( I go from feeling super optimistic and almost unstoppable not even a few hours ago and the next the exact opposite . My mind hurts from my weird mood switches it makes me confused on what I'm really feeling. ~💜POSITIVE NOTE💚~ To end this vent, I do want to add some good to it . : ) Despite all of this, I did diminish some of my procrastination and finished some slides for a presentation, planned a list on what assignments to complete tomorrow, and I have given myself some slack . I have been trying to be more productive. I'm trying my hardest to be patient on myself, it isn't my fault, I know that- it's my mind that's causing all of the stress . I'll still continue to try and I'm going to continue to try and stay with the uncertainty. Uncertainty is key, I know that as well, but I still wanted to vent since I just feel so hopeless and stressed to the core . I hope everyone has a wonderful night . 🌜✨️ If you are struggling as well, I'm so sorry . I hope the next day is more relaxing and easy on you, you are not alone . <3 I care for you fellow strangers on this app, you guys are amazing and worth it.

Wondering if any other young adults/ students have a hard time with figuring out what they wanna do for their careers and having OCD latch to that? I found science and psychology in undergrad super fun interesting. Now thinking about real world implication of a field where let’s just say working as a therapist or in genetics or healthcare or pretty much anything that I once found intellectually stimulating now makes me anxious and spiral. Any one relate/ have advice?

“Praise be to the Lord, for he has heard my cry for mercy. The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him.”

I’m trying to pursue nursing I’ve finished all my pre requisites but I’m so nervous. I don’t know if it’s the right path for me. Other people seem so clear and determined and I don’t know what to do. I’ve worked very hard in my pre requisites but is this career for me?? Do I want this?? Why don’t I feel determined? I don’t have a back up career so…, I believe I would be a good nursing but I’ve seen so many videos about People in nursing school and they are so negative. Plus I know how my ocd gets when I’m very stressed and it’s not good. Anyone who is a nurse that can give me some advice?????

hi so I have been taking Luvox for a few months now but it hasn’t really done much for my ocd or thoughts that I did something horrible , my doctor recommended also taking lorazepam starting tmr to help me . Has anyone taken this before and did it help

do you know what is unsent project app? im stressing because i saw a tik tok about it and i remembered that i sent one anonymous post dedicated to my past failed talking staged which ended two months before i got with my boyfriend. now im stressing that i sent it while i was already with my boyfriend and that it was something like i wait for you i miss you. im not sure about this i dont know if its a fake memory. i was so stressed i started going through this site searching for my post but everything is similar to each other and there are so many i couldnt find it and everything looked like i could have sent it and i was looking at the dates of the posts wnd im really scared and stressed should i tell my boyfriend? if it really happend then is it something terrible? i feel so bad i dont know what to do qnd its worse that i cant remember it clearly. i also have a problem with confessing things, my thoughts, old things and situations etc.

If yall had this awful intrusive thought would you still drive or be too afraid toy would jump out after opening the door mid drive! I’ve been housebound for two years :(

Do any of you obsess about if you did some horrible thing and completely forgot about it, or did it in a state of some kind of a psychosis? I replay every single memory, for me it is not really about illegal stuff, but mostly stuff about hurting my partner, specifically about being unfaithful. I would never in my life get the idea to hurt my lovely girl. I know I did not do it and never will, I am so focused on doing the right thing all the time, but ocd tricks me so well. Yestarday I randomly spiraled, it is using every innocent interacion I ever had, or maybe the time I had one or two drinks after work. False memory is hell on earth.

My health anxiety is over the top! It controls all of my thinking at times. Is anyone else like me?

I keep having intrusive dreams about family members in the moment in the dream I don’t seem to care at all and am aware that what I’m doing is disgusting but when I wake up I’m infuriated that I’ve had another dream like this and repulsed by myself. A lot of the time the thing that bothers me the most is when I wake up after having a psychical reaction to these dreams (wet dream) it makes me scared that it’s not just an intrusive dream and it’s something I actually desire deep down. I had another (intrusive) dream earlier today and I don’t think I can keep doing this. I’ve noticed that my medicine that I’m taking makes me have stranger dreams but even when I don’t take it or before I started taking it I do have these sorts of dreams so maybe I’m using that as an excuse in my mind for it. I keep searching for answers on the internet (I know I shouldn’t reassurance seek if it is OCD but I’m not fully convinced that it is OCD) and everytime I find anything about it they don’t mention anything about having a psychical reaction(like a said before meaning wet dream) in these scenarios. Please help me if you’ve had the time to read all of this by commenting and telling me any advice you have or if you’ve experienced this before too.

I only find very few men attractive/am attracted to them. Does that mean something?

Hi everyone. (|||❛︵❛.) Tonight is a bit rough I'm noticing, which is unfortunate because yesterday was a lot of fun and even today was good with the exception of one intrusive thought I had earlier. I will take the opportunity to vent, since I don't normally do so on here (even though I should—who will understand me better, besides my fiancé and sister, than others who also suffer from OCD?). I went out grocery shopping with my fiancé today, which we went to Walmart, and we had gone into the toys area because we like to look for Magic the Gathering cards and plushies. He found a Vaporeon plushie and knew that I'd want it, so he showed it to me and said I could get it. Really sweet, right? ⸝⸝ʚ̴̶̷̆ ̯ʚ̴̶̷̆⸝⸝  I was so happy, and then I had a classic OCD thought: what if we end up breaking up, and I leave my plushies at his house? It was upsetting and I ended up zoning out for a little until he asked me what was up, to which I tried shaking it off and carried on with our trip. I successfully finished shopping, getting food, and coming home without feeling too uneasy! I also helped put groceries away, ate with him, and then we watched some YouTube videos before he fell asleep. ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ ) It was only until the past 20 minutes or so that I started getting the unnerved, uneasy feeling in my tummy that usually comes with my intrusive thoughts. I notice sometimes I get the feeling without a direct intrusive thought attached to it, which ends up with me trying to figure out what's causing the anxiety or nervousness. I know that's a compulsion, and I typically am good about not engaging with it, but for whatever reason tonight is a bit more difficult for me. It sucks dealing with ROCD, same with all of the other themes there are, especially because I love my fiancé with my whole heart. I went through 2 very bad relationships before I got with my fiancé, and he's done nothing but treat me the way I want to be treated. He's my dream partner, and before my OCD latched onto the relationship I couldn't have been any happier, so it's really hard sometimes not being able to get that same level of excited happiness anymore because of how anxious I am. I know love isn't a feeling but a choice, and I have consistently made choices that align with uplifting my relationship and fiancé, but I really do hate being so anxious and having my mood tank so easily sometimes over what would be a passing thought for someone else. I had a lot of wins today, so I'm going to try and remind myself of those and also the many wins I've had throughout the week where I didn't engage with my OCD and let the intrusive thoughts pass by without latching onto them. I'm also going to try and give myself grace—it's okay for me to cry and to feel sad about having a rougher time tonight, because that's the nature of having a mental health disorder. I'm going to have good and bad days, good and bad nights, and plenty of days that are both. Hopefully I can try to sleep soon, but until then I am going to play games on my phone that I like, cry, maybe eat some snacks that my fiancé and I got today, and let myself feel my feelings that I'm entitled to feel. ( ᵕ̩̩ㅅᵕ̩̩ )

Does anyone have tips for sleeping with terrible night anxiety? I have tried no screens, reading, melatonin (it just gives me nightmares), vitamins, a guide diet, exercise before sleep, and when im at my wits end I hope a benadryl will do the trick. I know the tricks of counting down from 100 to 1 I often do it in German and English. I am stuck in a loop of sleepless nights where I get 15 to 30 minutes of rest just to be woken up alert and panicking. I'm getting desperate... I just want to sleep

I remember when I had no mental illness. In fact, no one would know I have one now unless I tell them. I remember the years when everything was “normal” and I want to go back so badly. Will I ever be normal again? I don’t think so. I see others who appear normal and feel sad.

my mom knows I have ocd and she knows I have adhd or some problem with executive functioning but when those disorders impair my functioning she tells me im not trying at all and i dont care about anyone else and when I tell her you don’t know what ive been doing this whole time (actively trying to get ready) and you don’t see what goes on in my head she’s like no I do know you’re not trying at all 🙃 lately ive been up all night freaking out spiraling cause im afraid of being a narcissist and manipulative and sometimes i ask her for reassurance which i know is bad but the point is she knows i freak out about it all the time and it causes me debilitating worry but now she literally just went “maybe you are a narcissist” because she was mad at me and thinks I don’t care or try when I am trying but it just doesn’t work anyway and I just feel like telling someone their biggest ocd fear is true because you’re mad at them is just unfair Maybe she’s right maybe I am a narcissist and this is me being unable to accept responsibility but I feel like I am trying but it just takes me forever to get ready because it’s so hard to start any task and once I do start getting ready there’s a million things that my brain tells me have to be done right that second because if I don’t do them I feel disgusting and I just feel like I can’t stop myself and I don’t have a good concept of how long things are going to take anyway and im stressed the whole time because I don’t want people to be mad at me but she just sees it as not caring or trying and it really hurts my feelings when I stay up all night doing compulsions because im so afraid and then I’m not awake at normal times she tells me that im not trying and im rude because of how it affects other people but she never ever seems to think about how it feels to be the one up all night with the horrible anxiety or to be unable to get yourself to do anything you need to do and the whole time you know people are mad at you and you know you’re only making things worse but you just can’t seem to stop I don’t want people to be mad at me but I don’t know how to be normal Maybe im just a bad person I don’t know

Potentially triggering, but I’ll try to be vague. So having ocd + ptsd has been really hard. Ever since I found out about my trauma, I’ve developed all kinds of cognitive distortions that caused a significant increase in intrusive thoughts. These were really dark and self hating distortions. I still have them and that’s why I feel so horrible. I need to come up with some cognitive defusions so that I can finally be free from this debilitating anxiety. It’s all about what I believe, so I try not to believe in lies. Ocd is really good at making me believe I’m lying when I’m telling the truth. Makes it really confusing. Any tips on cbt? So that I don’t live my life believing in lies?