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Does anyone’s intrusive thoughts ever change from “What if” to “I think” or “I want” even though it’s the last thing you want? It’s really got me feeling sick to my stomach.

Basically I got a lots of vivid dreams last night and I woke up but went sleep again and was sort of trying to sleep but felt like I was awake not asleep but a vivid scene of a man say you did something with an underage person and I started remember but how can I do this in my sleep . I think I did it but not sure when .

Ok so I just downloaded this app like two days ago because I was looking for a OCD specialist. Maybe this is just my opinion but the posting’s on this app can be super triggering. If feels like even sharing your experience on an app like this can contribute to fueling OCD. So many people I see reassurance seeking, confessing and posting the same things multiple times to gain certainty. Makes me wonder if this app is counterproductive to the point of OCD treatment. I’m guilty of spending hours scrolling through the post trying to find people who relate to me, but in the end it makes me more anxious and fuels my OCD. Idk what do you guys think.

Does anyone’s cute aggression spiral their pocd 😞 i feel like i can’t even playfully squeeze , pinch , play bite my kid without the ocd twisting it … What makes it worse is when i try to “fight” the ocd and continue on doing what im doing , it doubles down convincing me that i am now CONSCIOUSLY acting on something. Does this make sense to any parents on here? 😢

I've always found women pretty and admired them since I was younger, never wanted to be with them or anything. I always pictured having a boyfriend and my crushes were always boys. I have a boyfriend now but because this has happened I feel nothing towards him or any men. To be honest I'm so exhausted I don't feel much at all, there was so much anxiety at the start and now there is none. Does that mean I have accepted the thoughts. My mind keeps going you were suppressed all these years but I do find women pretty so that's what's making it worse. Am I just in denial and being delusional? I never doubted my sexuality before this I always considered myself to be straight but I feels like my mind has been twisted and can't remember any attraction to guys but can remember thinking girls are pretty? Does this mean it's all real? I don't know anymore

This may not work for everyone but I’ve started to find being mean to my intrusive thoughts helps honestly. “That’s fucking dumb” “No normal person would worry about this” “If this happened to my friend they wouldn’t think they’re horrible so why should i?” I’ve been in treatment for almost a year so I also do the “maybe, maybe not” but sometimes my fears are so insanely stupid.

I’m involved in a relationship with someone I’ve been with for 4 years, I love him with everything I am however recently these past few months between a year or two I’ve felt very detached from him and I fear I’m falling out of love with him, last night I had a very intimate encounter over the phone with a coworker I’ve developed feelings for…. I could really use some advice I’m not sure what to do as part of me wishes to be single but the other part of me feels god awful for leaving my partner …

Im so fucking terrified by my own thoughts. Idk how much longer I can go on like this. Just every single thing my brain produces feels either distorted by OCD or like I've literally done the most deplorable thing any person could do. Can't reach out to a specialist because I don't have the money and too scared too share. So scared that it's real

Hi! I just discovered a couple of months ago that I have ADHD. I already had the diagnose for ocd and now I also have this diagnose, and I was really wondering how can you treat both? Because I think they fuel each other a lot, especially because I have Pure OCD so it’s mainly mental anxiety and compulsions. How do you treat both, does somebody have experience with this? Is there a good therapy for both of these? Thanks :)

Im going through a virus right now that is really strong and i find myself worry about my health all day. And you would say thats normal but i say the same thing and thats why i dont stop worrying or stop adding to the worry cause i think its normal to worry and doing anything about it would just make it worse, so im just continue to worry which makes my symptoms worse. I try to shift my focus but the fear is so loud and i feel like im just ignoring my health, its really hard with health anxiety cause you cant just say "well it is what it is" or the basic "maybe maybe not" cause its about your health and if you dont take it seriously then you will regret it... So i dont know how to stop worrying

hi everyone 👋🏻 This is less of an ROCD post but I urgently need advice because i feel like i can't think straight. My bf and I are together for almost 3 years. Ive gained over 10kg over the last six months which led to him kind of commenting on my relationship with food. I always struggled with my weight and he knows. I also know that I eat very unhealthy and a lot but I have been having difficulties with my eating disorder in the last couple of months and its just not easy to snap out of it. Yesterday I showed him pants that I would like to buy myself and he said that my bum would be a little too much in those pants. It hurt me a lot and I immediately told him why he would say something like that and he just said that he didn't try to be mean and it just came out like that and he knows that it was wrong, so he apologised. But i couldn't let go of it because we've had another discussion like this over 2 months ago and he promised me to stop commenting on my body and my eating disorder. It just makes me feel like he generally prefers skinny women. So i asked him, i asked him if he prefers skinny women and he said that he would prefer if i would lose a few pounds. My heart shattered in that moment and I don't know what to do and how to deal with it. We've talked about it last night and he understands that he's in the wrong but i don't know how to cope and what to do. Please give me some advice

I went out 2 years ago with some friends and I can’t remember some of the night - we went to a house party and my friends say nothing happened but I’m so afraid that I cheated on my partner and don’t remember it. It’s consuming my every minute and I can’t let it go. I was reading up on false memory ocd the other day and it triggered me into thinking what if something I imagined happening actually happened and I don’t know what to do and I’m scared that because I imagined something a certain way that if it wasn’t the same thing I imagined that it must be true

Hi so I've been having a recent theme of soocd hocd. At the start I was all panicked and couldn't leave my house. Now all my emotions feel like they have turned off. It feels real now like I'm just in denial. It's bringing up memories from the past of shows I've watched or people I was friends with to try and prove the point or people I thought were pretty. It's saying you've only realised now cause you are comfortable as I had a difficult childhood. I feel no attraction towards men and can't remember if I ever have now even though I know I did. It's saying its all fake. I really am. Starting to believe it's real and I just feel depressed now. Am I going to have to leave my boyfriend who I planned my life with. It feels like life is going by and I'm stuck. I have no energy at all.

I’m not sure what subtype this falls under , but a while ago I learned a strange fact about the human brain. (Trigger warning for anyone with contamination/cleanliness or health concern OCD) I don’t remember exactly how it works but basically while you sleep your brain absorbs all of the fluids around it and somehow filters through and “cleans” it. And the feeling of being groggy/tired when you wake up is caused by your brain not finishing through its filtration process. I’ve gotten to a point where anytime I wake up and still feel super tired I obsess over the thought that my brain is dirty and it makes me actually nauseous to think that my brain is dirty and all I want to do is just be able to take my brain out of my head, scrub/wash it with soap and water, and then put it back in my head.

i recently about six days ago ? started talking with someone with the intention of being friends and we’d talk a couple of times a day every for the past six days. But i immediately grew incredibly attached and obsessed with them i have no idea why it’s been driving me crayz. it didn’t help when they teased (?) me i guess and said if my compliments or well praise to soemthing they had done was flirting. it hasn’t left my mind at all. i don’t know what to do or why i’m feeling like this. and the worst part is i can’t say anything to them because i’ll just look weird i bet. i can’t help it i think about them so much and i check their stuff a lot and my lockscreen so much to see if they’ve texted me… is there any way to help with this ? it’s been really draining and causing me to overthink really badly.

So I’ve noticed that since my ocd started, every time I see something that triggers me like I can’t feel anything. For example, if I saw a case about a woman who murdered her kids I literally feel like I shoulf feel worse or something and sometimes the reaction comes after the rumination: What are you feeling? Do you feel bad enough? check body sensations, emotions etc… it’s scares me. Has anyone else had experience this?

i just realized that my relationship ocd is triggered the second i view someone as a potential partner! i just got the smallest crush on someone and immediately was checking my phone every few minutes for their messages and reading into their responses as either good or bad texts and made some tie to my worth based on how they reply or how quick! uh oh haha. just so many checking and overthinking compulsions. at least i realized this and can now bring it up in therapy to practice RPMs with my therapist!! RPMs are like life savers for my ocd, they help so much :,). i feel happy that i realized it was ocd. i used to think it was just feelings triggered by my ex and how he made me feel for three years. but now i realize it’s ocd and i can work on this which makes me feel better. i’m not sure if it “counts” as rocd but it definitely reminds me of how my rocd acts in a relationship. best of luck and big hugs to anyone who is struggling with rocd too!🎀🧚🏻‍♀️💗

does anyone else struggle with this? specifically it is my eyebrows! i get a thought that one hair feels weird, and i’ll pull it out, but then i can’t stop because it triggers me to think another one feels weird. now, i barely have any hairs on either eyebrows. i keep trying to grow them back but it feels impossible to stop pulling the hairs sometimes. i’m excited to talk to my nocd therapist about this so i can start to regrow my eyebrows and not have this compulsion affect me so much!

My mom made chicken soup today, and she left raw chicken skin on the sink. There were some dishes next to it and I grabbed some tongs and put the chicken in the trash. My mom washed all of those dishes including the tongs I used and now I'm scared of salmonella. I didn't say anything to her about the chicken bc she usually gets frustrated and says I worry too much. I made sure to wash my medicine cup before bc I'm sick and I was scared of getting salmonella on top of my sickness, but i regret of not doing anything for my parents. My mom already washed all of the dishes with just dishes soap. What do I do?

I’ve been struggling in life in general pretty much this whole year so far. But this week I started thinking about my POCD more and I always try to push through it and go about my day and not let my fears take over. Today my sister randomly told me she’s pregnant. She’s 25 and her boyfriend is 20 and they’ve only been together for a few months. I’m incredibly disappointed and angry with her because it comes off as being so selfish. She can’t take care of herself (neither can he) but they still decide to have a baby. I’m upset. But now I’m also incredibly scared. It’s putting me in a position of having to not only be around but help take care of a baby/kid. I’ve always thought about how one day I’m gonna have to deal with it, but I figured it was later in the future to when I feel more confident in handling my ocd. I also felt that if I were to have to be around a baby/kid all the time that I could mentally spiral and end up killing myself. I hate to make her pregnancy about me but I truly think that in the near future I could possibly get so bad that I come to that point of killing myself. I don’t know if I can handle this right now. I’m scared of how bad I could get. I barely survived the last time and I never had to constantly be around kids. But the times that I had to were the most dreadful times in my life. Of course I’ve gotten better but I still don’t want to be in these scary situations so often. And with her having a kid then I’ll have to be. I don’t think I’m strong enough to constantly push away my fears.