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Not like ocd compulsions but more you buy something you should not have or do some not bad but you should not have done. Examples like eating a lot of food at one time, start a random project when you need to do something else , do not do things you need to get done. Say yes thing you don’t have time to do. Can anyone else relate?

What can I do so I would not be thinking my partner's past sexual experiences while we are having a moment? That is really frustrating and makes me sad and disgusted that my partner has done this before with other people and felt nice. I also have sexual past before him so I feel like hypocrite. I don't wanna be thinking these things because they dont matter and I know the present only matters and our deep love. It just ruins my mood too many times a day almost. It helps to know that others are experiencing this too so I'm not alone and these are just thoughts.

my hands and arms are breaking out into an itchy and bumpy rash from how much rubbing alcohol and sanitizer i put on my skin. it hurts and it burns. i dont know how to stop doing this. i physically cant make myself stop. washing my hands is inconvenient to do as often and sanitizer, but even if i did hand wash, id still use sanitizer anyway for other reasons. how do i stop doing this?

My OCD is really latching onto my husband this week. I’m so in love with him and can’t wait to grow old with him and see him grow and change throughout the years, but my SOOCD has latched onto him saying that I don’t want that. I feel sick about it. It makes me so sad. He’s everything to me, and makes me feel so loved. When I am having a bad day, knowing that we’ll be together at the end of it on the couch, drinking tea, and snuggling is what makes me feel better. Knowing that he’ll be next to me in bed that night makes me feel better. But my OCD says so many nasty things. Just trying not to follow the OCD noise and hold onto what I value most.

I have contamination OCD that causes me to excessively wash my hands/clean items with disinfectant wipes. I know I just need to start with small exposures but how do I do that without spiraling? I tried a while back by just touching the outside of my dishwasher and not washing my hands after and it led to me being unable to even exist in my house. I basically lived on my couch for three weeks as it was the only 'safe' space that I had not touched with my dirty hands. I had to take a week off work to clean my house to make it somewhat liveable. I still haven't got round to cleaning everything though so things like my kitchen are still no-go zones that I don't enter. I just don't know how to start ERP without it making everything worse. Any advice would be appreciated. I am not seeing a therapist at the moment due to financial constraints.

Yall these panic attacks are getting FOUL. please give some good advice. The ocd brain in me be telling me I’m dying and bout to head to the Gates of Heaven. Helpppp

Hey guys, I’m really struggling with real event ocd with something I did 3 years ago, to do with relationships. I cannot shake this guilt feeling and urge to fess up and tell my partner everything. My therapist has told me not too as apparently it’s reinforcing the cycle. But I feel unworthy and like I’m keeping this huge secret (which I never was worried about before until recently). Over the past few weeks confessing has made me feel relief but then I find something else really bad in my past to dwell over. Anyone got any advice how to move past this or get over it? If so I’d really appreciate it, thank you!

18+ pls reply yesterday i was trying to fantasise about my girlfriend and i enjoyed it mentally but physically down there i didn’t feel anything? but when i get intrusive thoughts i do? and i’m confused because then it’s like am i not attracted to her? i get thoughts saying im not turned on during thoughts of my gf and its stressing me out is this ocd or is it not????

I should have never googled schizophrenia because now I'm constantly having intrusive thoughts about delusions and I'm in a 24/7 panic attack. I'm using erp tools but the thoughts affect me so much my stomach and chest keep tightening. Why can't I have good thoughts I'm so exhausted

So I’ve been obsessed lately with the doubt I might be developing schizophrenia. For days now I’ve been seeing things out of the corner of my eye and moving things and it’s almost constant now that I see something. I feel like I’ve been hearing things lately too, like the sound of my cat meowing when she’s laying down asleep and I just heard crickets chirping when there were no windows open or anything like that and there’s no way I could’ve heard that. Or I’ll hear a real faint thud like someone’s walking around occasionally. There’s no history in my family of schizophrenia that I know of and I don’t think anyone in my family currently has it. I feel like I’m losing it and I might actually somehow be developing it. Someone tell me please, is this the start of schizophrenia or is it just my OCD playing tricks on me? It feels so real, I don’t know if OCD can cause all of this. I don’t know what to believe.

Hello everyone, I’ve just gotten broken up with by my boyfriend 2 days ago after 6 months. For some background, he was extremely busy with very personal issues on top of getting his PhD. He simply couldn’t give the relationship the time/effort he wanted. On top of that, I had realized that there were a lot of obsessions involved with this relationship on my end, so I put a lot of emotional energy into it. That being said, the actual breakup was very sudden to me because he did not indicate to me (verbally) that this had been on his mind for weeks before this. We had ceven bought each other Christmas gifts just days earlier at a local market. Now, my obsessions would relate many things to him or our relationship (songs, movies, etc), which I was aware of and in the process of working on not doing this to be more independent. I never shared this with him and did a lot to not let it affect our relationship. Now, after the breakup, I am consistently being triggered because I never truly got to surpass these obsessions, and also because we interact almost daily at work (I know what you’re thinking, bad move). I know a lot of these thoughts and feelings will pass with time since it’s only been a few days, but I was wondering if anyone has had a scenario like this for specific advice or just anyone’s advice in general? I’m working on writing my masters thesis and I want to do my absolute best work, but this scenario is making it extremely difficult to focus while at work. Thank you.

my therapist suggested that some of my less bad rocd intrusive thoughts are actually mine, and not intrusive. She ended up taking it back when she saw the alarm on my face and saw how panicked I got. I feel really freaking anxious. We were only talking about it because I mentioned a lot of doubt surrounding those less bad ones, but it only filled me with more doubt. I don’t want those thoughts to be mine. I really don’t. I feel scared and so discouraged after this session. I feel scared about the worst thoughts, what if those aren’t intrusive. I feel so much doubt.

He won't use condoms due to ED, so I started taking birth control for him. He also refused to give oral until i let him inside me which was weird to me. Anyways, I went to his home at the weekend and it was very messy, tiny room, unclean. It annoyed me that he felt comfortable inviting me, knowing how tidy and spotless my house is, and it took me a few hours to get there on public transport. (I understand that rent is pricey and he travels a lot, but a toilet seat missing). He drives 5 hours to see me on some weekends but my place is always to a standard. Next thing, he always wants to be on top of me but it hurts me and he won't keep trying different positions, and says things like "I give up" then walks off to a different room and won't speak because I won't do it how he wants. I didn't wanna be in his house not speaking so I stayed with family last night. Am I out of order for leaving? first we had the protection issue, now the position issue plus his attitude. Makes me feel like im in the wrong for not letting him have what he wants after 5 months of talking and meeting. I thought once I started taking BC this would solve our problem but now it just feels like pressure, and he also says "you know what I'm doing" like I have some sort of game plan, when I would literally be happy kissing and touching because I love him. I can't figure out why he's so desperate for it, wouldn't he want to make me feel comfortable? This was the first time with him in his city, and he didn't wanna go out anywhere, not even to dinner. I don't ask for much

This app has helped me overcome a lot of my obsessions but right now I'm really struggling with pure o. I get so many thoughts about things happening to the people I love and this is just so distressing. Today I realized I've had enough of ocd stealing my time and happiness away so I really want to do ERP for this, but I really don't know how to create exposures for this. Is somebody else here in the same boat? I feel like a script would be useful but I'm not sure where to begin

Hi yall - Once people recover they typically don’t post, so I just wanted to post some of my notes as I reach full recovery to hopefully help someone. I had a BIG relapse with Harm OCD, after 10 years of being recovered. I never thought it would happen again, because I had my management tools in place from when I recovered the first time, but it did. I was too comfortable, so the first graphic violent graphic intrusive thought caught me off guard & I spiraled. Note one: Do the exposures. As directed. I would definitely do them with professional supervision, so they can note when the exposures become compulsive, because they might. Note two: It’s not going to happen overnight. There’s no deadline. Don’t give it a deadline. I would wake up in the morning after having a decent night & have to start from square one, but you know what? Each time it was easier to get out of the doom spiral. & that was progress. You have to have a realistic expectation that you will not be back to normal in the morning, or after a nap, or after a good few hours, but it will get easier & you will eventually get there. (It took me two months to feel recovered- just a note) Note three: This is the hardest one… Try to stop focusing on how recovered you feel. It becomes obsessive & then each time you slip up, back to the beginning of the doom spiral. Note four: You’re not alone. You’re not the only one. You’re not the exception. It is just the OCD. Even when it feels like the OCD is winning or it’s in control.. if you’re here & you’re disappointed about it, it’s not. You’re the same person you’ve always been, you’ve just been really scared of something & you will have to work at different angles every day as the OCD latches to different things because it’s creative & manipulative & it will try its best to stay. You’re not the monster, your OCD is.. I’ve thought every horrible thought there was to think & you know what? They are never going away… but they don’t affect me anymore.. Last note: Probably the second hardest one for me… It is okay to let go. I had trained my brain to think that I needed my OCD. It was protecting me. (With the harm ocd I felt like it was protecting those around me too)… that was the OCD talking. It lied. I never actually wanted those things no matter how much I thought I did due to the OCD… You can let go of the OCD. You’re not alone. We’re all in this together. You’re not your OCD. There is hope. It is hard. It does take work. You will get there. I believe in yall. ❤️

My head feels weird all the time, it feels like I have a tight headband around it squeezing , like heaviness and a really weird feeling, literally feels something is wrong inside, I also feel spaced out and this feeling of going literally crazy at certain moments of the day and the anxiety spikes. The thoughts are always there 24/7 even in the back of my mind, nothign I do makes these feelings and thoughts go away which is extremely scary. I can’t go on like this, wish I woke up tomorrow and OCD didn’t exist anymore. Do you guys also feel like this? 😫

When it comes to soocd exposures, that sometimes means engaging in triggering things like sex and intimacy with my partner, but I worry that I am sometimes also being compulsive like wanting to be intimate to see how it makes me feel, check my feelings, sensations, emotions etc. and then at that point how can I really do the exposure? Idk I’ve just been struggling so much with this theme lately. I feel like a fraud most of the time and the thoughts convince me I am deeply in denial, constant loop.

Does anyone else relate to the above being the go-to mantra when OCD wants to manipulate you? It's a hard one to shake for me personally, if you have any tips for overcoming this particular thought, it'd be much appreciated! The current example: There is a sticky fly trap that hangs from the ceiling above our drying rack. I removed a strainer to strain my pasta and worried it hit the fly trap (even though I have no reason to believe it actually did). At first the voice was saying "better safe than sorry" and I was able to "overcome" it to drain my pasta but now that I have a bowl of pasta sitting in front of me, I can't get myself to eat it. Update: I asked my mom for reassurance and she gave it to me so, now that I'm eating the pasta, I'm worried, what if she was wrong. This is a pretty common version of a spiral for me when it comes to contamination and consumption, it's just very hard to shake the "better safe than sorry" mantra. No reassurance please, just tiprs to get over the "better safe than sorry thought." Thanks in advance for your insight and support!

Has anyone on here been on Lexapro before ? I just recently started it and I just wanted to see if anyone went through similar symptoms and if they went away at all. It started out as me feeling extremely tired all day long and now recently I feel numb like I have no feeling or reaction to anything like I used to before starting this medication. Has anyone gone through this? Does it go away after a while? Do you end up feeling normal and able to cope with the OCD better? Any feedback would be really helpful. Thank you

So I’m scared I lost feelings for my girlfriend of almost 9 months and I feel like it’s my mind overthinking and anxiety. I talked to her about it and I started crying to her because I don’t wanna break up with her. I care about her being a good person and all and just making sure she’s okay but I don’t wanna lose feelings and I would do anything to get them back. I had the biggest crush on her and seeing her with other guys before we dated even broke my heart for weeks. I wanna live a life with her but it hurts because I think I lost feelings.