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Someone help me i have to find a cure for my intrusive thoughts. Im afraid that i will speak them out by accident, right now I don’t have money to afford a therapy, i just need someone to help me please.

Hi guys. I’ve been doing good lately which I’m thankful for. But yesterday I had a bit of a relapse. I want to a party with my boyfriend yesterday. I found myself very attracted to one of his friends. He had on a nice cologne too. I have met this friend a million times and never felt this strong attraction to him before. I have no intentions at all to leave my boyfriend for his friend etc. I love my boyfriend very much. But this made it worse, I felt so guilty and kept thinking to myself did I flirt? Even though I know I didn’t. Then I kept having thoughts of his friend making out with me etc which was so uncomfortable and just randomly through the night. Has anyone else experienced anything similar?

I'm at a kind of family gathering and I'm just hiding in my room, I wanna go socialize and have fun but idk I just can't and idk what to do!!! I don't wanna ruin the day for anybody

I recently got into a relationship about three months back but him and I have been talking since last year November. This is probably the healthiest relationship I have ever been in and the man I’m with is the sweetest and kindest person to ever exist. Before this I was in a long term abusive relationship and I would go through rocd constantly with thoughts such as I may like someone else or “I should cheat” even if I’m having a conversation with someone of the opposite sex who’s my friend. My boyfriend is currently on his senior trip and I was out with some of my bestfriends, one of them being a guy that I had a little bit of history with but I didn’t want anything from it because he wasn’t compatible in that way but amazing as a friend. While I was hanging out with them I constantly kept getting intrusive thoughts such as oh I should do something or oh I don’t even like my boyfriend and I kept comparing them for the next couple of days. I feel so guilty and disgusting and I know the thoughts aren’t true but I just feel so terrible considering how amazing my boyfriend is. I really do love him infact we’re planning our future together but rocd is just getting in the way. Any kind of advice would be helpful❤️

Does anyone else have a hard time playing a sport due to self-criticism/perfectionism? I used to love Brazilian Jiu Jitsu but started over analyzing techniques, judging myself, and comparing with others. Now I hate it. Is this ocd or ocd adjacent? Let me know and share any tips.

This has only started to occur within the last year (I’m in my late 20s). I’ve become obsessively concerned with every single sensation I experience in my body constantly. Realistically, I don’t have any health concerns (besides mental health). I have an intense fear of having a medical emergency in front of another human, I find it to be so embarrassing (only for me tho, if someone had a medical emergency around me I don’t think it’s embarrassing at all). I constantly think I’m going to pass out (I have passed out in public before due to heat and people were laughing at me). It seems like all my bodily sensations have now become foreign to me and everything I physically feel is an indicator that I’m dying. Anyone else struggle existing in their body like this too?

I did a bad thing when I was a kid. I feel like I dont deserve to move on and dont deserve to be happy. I keep thinking about the damage that I did and I feel like I deserve to be alone . And that I cant be trusted. Any advice?

Almost a year ago, I went to dinner with my now ex and his teenage daughter. I drank way too much (I was super embarrassed the next morning). Anyway, the day after I had a horrible thought like “what if I did something inappropriate to the teenage daughter.” Everyone assured me I didn’t. Then I found out her and I went to the bathroom together. That really amplified everything. Well today, I found out something I gave to my ex, he gave to one of his friends (outdoor heater). Now I’m freaking out thinking “what if he gave it to them because he doesn’t want to be reminded of me because I did something horrible to his daughter?” Now I am FREAKING out. This feels so real.

Hi I haven’t posted here in a while but lately my OCD thoughts have been presenting themselves in my relationships. I was in a relationship last year with someone who i know wasn’t good for me. I ended it indefinitely about 6 months ago and have felt like a big part of me has moved on. about 3 months ago i started seeing someone else and quickly fell for them. soon after i realized they too were not serving me the way i need, so i ended that relationship too. yesterday i found out that my first ex is dating someone that i know. and i cannot stop obsessing about this. it feels like a gut punch and like i cannot function and i keep wanting to give into toxic unhealthy habits and compulsions to relieve this feeling. has anyone experienced this or have any advice?

I was out grocery shopping and I got a thought that I could easily hurt everyone in here and now my head can’t stop thinking about it, I fell down the rabbit hole of mass shootings and now I’m stuck and scared. I wake up everyday scared I’m becoming a bad person.

I just don’t think I can do this. Every little thing feels like the biggest task in the world. I dread every part of the day and my anxiety has just made me so depressed and completely unable to do anything and I’ve pushed away all my friends. I don’t know what to do.

I really need help, this has been a new subtype coming up, I think??? It has been going on for three days straight So, can ocd trick you into thinking you like someone?? Like making you feel things?? I’m seriously terrified and I keep thinking and feeling things like this and it’s freaking me out Because, number one, I’m in a happy relationship with my gf and would never do that and I don’t want to break up???! And I don’t genuinely like anyone like that??? I’m scared that it’s true or something, and it makes me extremely uncomfortable and terrified, and it has made me stay away from people

I’m soo stuck and that’s the only way I’ve been feeling for over a year. Just stuck. I can’t even deal with myself anymore my intrusive thoughts keeps winning more and more I feel like they’ll eventually defeat me. There’s no words that can help I just feel like it’s over even if it’s not. I’m soo scared inside and out

What happened yesterday, i posted before that we got sick, now we know we got food poisoned, but we feel better, however my experience and the memories that came back makes me really uncomfortable. I got the memories when i had really bad mental health problems and i got attacked by suicidal thoughts, and i was panicking and felt depressed and like i need people to feel safe, and all these feelings and thoughts came back. Always said i had suicidal ocd but this one felt like if i couldnt have someone maybe i could lose my mind and act on the thoughts cause i was really desperate. But now im only spinning about why do i had that, does it mean im actually suicidal in hard times, and it actually makes me sick in my stomach, i feel really bad about it. One thing that makes me feel good that im so open about it and that might mean that its just ocd, but also i read posts on reddid where people shared their original suicidal experiences and those people are open too and they feel shame about the thoughts too, so it doesnt gives me the feeling that its clear that mine is just ocd... alot of times it comes up when im having a really hard time and i feel like that means something...

I have a certain number that reminds me of a bad trauma I have. I see if 24/7. I can’t get away from it. I feel stalked by it. I feel insane. People think I’m stupid. Even other people with ocd told me “it’s just a number” when trying to open up about it. It’s not just a number. I don’t want to get into what the number is and how it relates. But it’s scary. I feel like I’m going crazy. I can’t eat, sleep, breathe, without seeing it and associating bad luck with it. How do I deal with this????????????????????????????

I don't want to have to address every single medical concern I think I have because of medical bills but then I'm concerned I'll miss something that will kill me. My kidneys start hurting = "oh no I'm gonna have organ failure! You have to catch these things early! What if I shrug it off and I die!" I don't know how severe my pain has to be for it to be serious! I'm in pain all the time it seems and my tolerance is high so it's hard to tell if I need to address it seriously or if I am overreacting

Is there anyone here who has struggled with SO-OCD for a very long time? or as long as they could remember? I see a lot of post of people saying "yes, I always knew I was straight and it came suddently out of nowhere" or "yes I was always boy crazy and one morning I woke up and had these thoughts". However, I have had these thoughts for as long as I could remembrer (maybe since I was 8 or 10 years old) and I am 26 today! Which makes me feel like 1) my OCD is fake and its just denial and I'm just too afraid 2) I feel so alone. My therapist actually dignosed me with SOOCD 6 years ago but I just always feel like there is something not right... I also have been with my bf for 6 years and I love him but again it always felt like something was missing... and at the same time I cant imagine life without him and I love cuddling/being close to him... I know that there are a lot of people on the spectrum, I'm just scared that I'm living a lie and will deceive everyone and will come out later in life (like Sophia Bush or Chrishell Stause) when I have kids and I'm gonna ruin everyone's life... Like my mind is telling me now is better than after, come on do it!

A mixture of heartbreak and ocd is the worst combination to have when you’re a young adult trying to find their way through life and all I can think about is how do I just stop feeling, how can I just stop living this way, and if I’ll ever feel like my normal self again. I am a broken woman and I feel it so deep within my body that it hurts beyond repair. Everyone keeps saying give yourself time you’ll heal, but I can’t do this anymore. Genuinely I’m stuck and I’m unhappy with the state of my life and myself, I’m sick of being stuck on a person who doesn’t like me, on every night out disrespects me and my family, makes me cry and feel replaceable. Worthless is another, I feel insanely worthless. Hes now with another girl and she’s pregnant. They’ve been together 3 weeks, we broke up a month ago and stopped speaking 3 weeks ago. So the time period for everything is incredibly rushed and makes me feel even worse about myself. Nobody wants to be with me, why? I don’t even want to be with myself anymore. I have this horrendous feeling in my stomach every single day, makes me feel sick or something. And I’m just done with feeling this way. All I want is to feel better again and I don’t know where to begin. Therapy didn’t work, medication is a no, how do people do this? I’m starting to have scary thoughts about not being here anymore, and how the only way I’ll feel at peace with myself or something is to just fall asleep and never wake up. It’s stupid I know because it’s only a break up, but it’s not just the break up, I hate the way I thinks the way I act, the way I’m perceived by others, the constant worry everyone is talking about me, the constant nagging in my head fnag I’m useless, worthless, ugly, stupid, pathetic, psychotic, crazy, hated, laughed at, judged, perosn that nobody wants around. It’s hard and idk what I do anymore

just curious if anyone is taking luvox for ocd? i’ve been on it for about two years, got off once during that time because of libido issues and tried welbutrin. that made my ocd spiral out of control. specifically existential ocd, caused me to disassociate the whole week i was on it. i got off and back onto luvox and now it’s almost been a year again. so i noticed im better but now as good as i was when i started the first time. i’m on 50mg and im wondering if i should ask my dr to increase? does anyone else take it what mg and if you got it increased did it help at all? thanks!!!

I’m wondering if anyone has tips for practicing self love. I feel like I’ve hit a wall because of my ocd, where I’m upset because I was born with a brain that doesn’t allow me to trust myself, and even though my traumas and trials weren’t my fault, it’s still entirely my responsibility to fix the damage that’s been done, a task made extremely difficult because of ocd. I have to trust myself to put in the work to be better, I’ve made so much progress too, but it’s not enough, and it’s not coming fast enough. For example, I have a skin picking problem. I keep making progress and then stress or other factored cause me to relapse. I stare at myself in the mirror and ask myself why I can’t just be normal, why I can’t just stop, leave it alone and let my skin heal. I hate myself for struggling with this, but the more I shit in myself the worse my condition becomes. I want to practice self love, I want to learn to trust myself, but I have no idea where to start. I don’t want to feed into the ocd by googling possible solutions and whatnot, I figured asking members of the community would be a safer choice. If you have any tips to share please do, thanks 💪