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Anyone out there who fears legal punishment due to real event false memory that actually sought help? How do you look for help if you feel you don’t deserve it? I think I’m going to make an appointment but this is what’s stopping me.

I just ate a piece of cake and I am worried that my sugar intake is out of control, and I can’t stop eating sugar. I worry that I will become over weight and ppl won’t want to be with me. All I am thinking about is the cake and I’m drinking hot water because I believe it will melt the sugar away.

Hey ladies! I just had a consult with my OB about trying birth control again. I was just diagnosed with OCD and a tic disorder, finally after my whole life lol. I tried an antidepressant for a few months after starting to really be debilitated by my panic attacks and anxiety, but the ssri made me feel worse.. borderline suicidal. Going off increased it as well and then I was diagnosed. I decided I would feel more comfortable with trying birth control again tovhelp with the hormonal aspect, since I can just stop taking the pill without worrying about that happening. I also have PCOS, and possibly PMDD based on my symptoms. I know PMDD can increase OCD. All that to ask, are any of you on Yaz or another bcp? How has your experience been?

I hate when my brain makes me think some how I’ve cheated on my boyfriend I keep thinking about this one time I was with an old friend and she met this guy online and wanted to play a game with him and me he was the type to like “flirt” in a joking way but I still said multiple times I had a bf so eventually my friend leaves and it’s just me and him I felt bad for leaving too and I wanted to try and make a friend so I stayed around he kept being weird in that joking flirting way and I was constantly either ignore it or laugh it off but my brain is making think I cheated by staying in the call with him because of how he was i never spoke to him since cause he said something really really weird towards the end and I told my friend and we cut him off and I feel like if I told my bf he would leave because I think that he’d think that I cheated on him I just wanted to try and get to know the guy I didn’t want anything more than that it wasn’t just towards me he was doing it with her too I fear I’m about to give into a compulsion and tell my bf due to the anxiety

Explain to me what reassurance is to you. Explain why it's bad for ocd compared to other mental health issues and brain disorders. I keep seeing that reassurance is bad everywhere but feel like the majority don't understand what it is or why it's bad. Don't be scared to put down a wrong answer, give it a go. This to help the nocd community learn as a whole.

Hey everyone, quick question: I’ve noticed a trend that my intrusive thoughts, when I’m not stressed or anxious, don’t really bother me and I barely focus on them. But, when I’m anxious and stressed, the thoughts become sticky and I dwell on them and potentially go down the “OCD hole”. Does anyone else have this process with their OCD? If so, how do you get out of the trap? ERP doesn’t do much as it’s not the OCD that’s causing the anxiety and stress.

I bought my roomate some Easter candy and I gave it to her. Anyways this morning I ate two pieces of sour patch kids and I told her which I just should have asked before but I was like I guess because I already did it I might as well not lie to her as well so I told her and now she is very pissed at me and now I’m spiraling because this isn’t the first time I’ve done something like this and it’s so stupid because she has asked me not to do it so why do I do it like bruh 😔 I do this and then feel fucking guilty and then I do it again 😭 I try to make up for it by giving people things but that honestly does not help

Has anyone got any tips on how to fight the feeling of wanting to avoid and escape? That’s my main compulsion, wanting to sleep to avoid my thoughts and feelings but I can’t spend my life in bed. I have a young son! I’ve fought this before but it’s so difficult. Anyone know a way to make it any easier? The feeling is so intense

I understood that in the 2 big flare ups with OCD (now and 8 years ago) I had problems with my period! Does anyone else have it??? Can it be related????

recently got a rlly rlly good experience w my bfs friends the 4 of us spent all day together just talking and connecting and it was particularly happy cause me my bf and his friend who i used to have problems with and stuff but i lwk always wanted his validation / approval. we were on adderall (legally & prescribed to all 3 of us because we have adhd) which i think added to the element of happiness in the air i was too positive abt everything. anyway i bonded w them super well felt so happy about the experience it lasted hours it was just me explaining sm things that happened to me and them defending me it was great. then that night me and the friend stayed up all night talking because we were both up from the adderall since we took it too late, and i know that sounds weird but it was very much okay with my bf he wants me and this friend specifically to patch things up and we built the foundation that it would be ok for me to do that w this friend i wouldnt w others but this friend is all platonic. and this friend and i actually have a traumatic past being involved w the same girl and it traumatized us so badly so yesterday we talked for hours and hours abt how i try to be genuine & we debriefed that trauma and a million other deep life things ofc. but part of me feels so weird because what if im trauma bonded to him and catch feelimgs which i don't want at all and when i was w my bf today i felt so weird maybe bcs of these thoughts and the lack of sleep and the come down but i automatically assumed it means im not interested / in love since i cant physically feel it but i want to be in love w my bf forever no one else. but what if i do like this other guy and today i had a super split 1 second of jealousy w him and then it went away and i wanted him to hang out w us today but when i thought he wasnt or when i tried getting him earlier w my bf and he wasnt there i cant tell if i was too sad or if i just didnt wanna be there without my bfs friend which i do NOTTT want whatsoever which is why im stressed. me and my bf been spending last 3-4 days all day long but im scared im not enjoying it how i would if i loved him even tho i want to desperately and am kind of sure i do but this new bond is insanely heavy and i can usually adapt to a new guy friendship easily but this one stressed me out bcs the conversation was intense but i need advice is this ocd like is this a normal response will it wear off so i go back to good w my bf?

Does anyone else feel completely consumed and controlled by their OCD? I have constant fear, panic, and anxiety now 24/7 around contamination OCD. I have tried ERP, but it feels like it doesn’t help with the daily issues I am having. It feels like I can barely get through the day.

My mind is racing all the time and I can’t concentrate on almost anything. Music constantly in my head that I don’t want. Can’t stop it.

Lately I've been having this feeling where I don't feel real. Like I know I am and it's probably just anxiety but I feel like I'm just hearing myself talk and do things but feel like it's not me/ feel out of it. I don't know if that makes any sense but it's just freaking me out and making me feel crazy

This might be a stupid question for some, but I'm genuinely confused why does any mental illness recovery full of ups and downs, for example when you breake a bone, you treat yourself and things get better from that moment forward, no hurdles no setbacks but when it comes to OCD and anxiety recovery it's very different from a physical illness?

I am a 25 year old woman who is currently interning at a high school. I keep finding myself saying in my head, “Oh that guy is cute,” when he is literally a high schooler. I would never date someone younger than 23. It’s more of a thought like oh he’s a cute kid. I just keep obsessing over it. Some of my friends have told me its normal to think someone is attractive as long as your not going to date them, but it just feels yucky since they are literally minors. I feel like a normal person wouldn’t think like this, and im just super struggling.

My OCD tends to get really triggered by quotes, different instagram posts, TikTok’s etc. I keep having reoccurring thoughts that I did something to cheat on my boyfriend early on (we have been dating for 6 years) with guy friends I had on Snapchat at the time. Not too long ago I saw a quote saying “someone from your past is going to resurface unexpectedly”. I saw this quote at the same time I was having this horrible OCD flare up. My OCD seems to connect itself to different things like this quote. In my head this means it’s conformation that I did something and now something is going to come up and ruin my relationship even tho I don’t remember doing anything. Then today, I saw a instagram post saying that “Because of our faith in Jesus, we learn that nothing is random or meaningless”. This triggered my OCD again because now I think that I didn’t see the quote “someone from your past is going to resurface unexpectedly” on accident and that it means I did something bad. I also always see quotes in instagram saying “don’t ignore the signs you asked God to show you” and it really messes with my head. Does anyone else deal with this. I feel like it’s completely irrational but my OCD attaches itself to different things and patterns trying to prove to my mind I did something wrong. I prayed to God for a sign and to just reveal to me if I did anything and don’t remember. Is this a sign I did something wrong or is it my OCD?

Does anyone else have super intense mood swings???? I’m starting to notice that I have a lot of bpd symptoms along with this one but I’m not sure what it is. Can anyone relate?

Idk if this is an OCD thing or a just a me thing but I have a very strong aversion to drugs(other than drinking/smoking) and if someone I’m dating does any at all even if it’s barely at all, it feel exactly the same as being cheated on. Like same level of anxiety and everything and legit makes me feel betrayed and sick. Anyone relate?

Hello people. I have the following problem: I always ruminate how to connect a fuse ( I am am electrician) and I decided how to do it and stay with it and I know that it's right. (It doesn't matter wich way) I watched a video of an electrician and he did it a different way and that triggered me massively. My normal compulsions in the past would be to Google it how to do it right and "forget" it after a while and do it all over again. Now I haven't done that but I had two compulsions: 1. Ruminate wether to look up how to do it or not, without actually doing it 2. Just being distracted while watching the video. I am not actively thinking about it but it's like it all happens in the background and it's still a problem, cause I can't focus while it happens. So my question is, how to stop or what to do about the second point?

The compulsions are just terrible. I don’t want to do them but some are so automatic and I need the relief so badly. I try to hold them off, and I stopped ERP but I think I should restart it.