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i’m not sure if this is an OCD symptom but sometimes i’ll feel like someone’s watching me and feel the need to cover certain things or recover things. for example, whenever i use the restroom i’ll turn off my phone and leave it in my room or turn it off and keep it with me if i’m in a public place. or sometimes i’ll think someone i like is watching me and i’ll do something different like “oh if they’re watching me, let me do this instead just in case.” does anyone else do this?

My mother killed herself today. I'm so sad. So sad. My mom. My sweet woman. Beautiful woman. Why didn't you let me help you more. I miss you. I miss you. I love you. Mama, te amo. Mama, come back please. I want to feel your arms again. Your hugs. Mama... I wanted to be your daughter for more time. I cannot be without you. Mama. I'm crying a lot. You told me not to do it in your letter. Mama. Mama. Mama.

Why do I sometimes think my intrusive thoughts on purpose? Does anyone else do this?

Does anyone have health anxiety fears around heart attacks, strokes, seizures, etc. basically fear of passing out or dying suddenly? Do you get physical symptoms such as headaches, chest pains m, lightheadedness etc? What has helped you?

I'm fighting against my ocd. Sometimes I can control my obsesions and other times is an impossible task. The compulsions are easier but when it is about mental compulsions or obsessions is very difficult. Can anyone share his thoughts with me?

How do I reduce my stress levels? My therapist told me I need to ‘heal my inner self’ and start to love myself again and start living instead of thinking about others. Care more for myself. But how do I gain confidence and start loving myself?

How do you deal with it? Any tips and tricks?

Anybody think they have this? False memories? Or stuff they think they might have done in the past but don’t remember?

That’s it. I can’t afford therapy. I’m not gonna burden the few loved ones I have with the insanity that is my mental case. I know people will freak out, wanna put me in the mental hospital. I’ve heard it all people calling me insane because I tell the truth about what’s going on with me. I do these random things online to strangers because it’s easier to confess to faceless people but strangers can’t do much can they? Most the time nobody reads anything and a lot of the time I don’t even really want them to. I just feel so alone. My girlfriend doesn’t talk to me anymore and my sister is still a minor I’m not gonna tell her shit. Maybe I should be in the mental hospital but that shit doesn’t help it never has.

What’s the best way to explain accepting uncertainty? Does anyone have a simple explanation

How do I get over an ex that I was with for a whole year?

I’m having guilt about my pocd :( which I’m not sure if it even is

Please help. Does anyone here feel bad after watching pornography/masturbation? I'm always convinced I've done something unforgivable after such a session. I don't mean that I feel bad from the watching or masturbation itself, but moreso from the details - I'm always convinced I enjoyed the wrong sort of video, or thought the wrong sort of thought, or masturbated to something immoral, etc. I don't know how much of this is my OCD, but I always feel so terrified and guilty that I think about suicide. Right now professional treatment isn't an option, so what do I do? I know that my experience fits the description of OCD (there's confession, reassurance seeking, mental review, rumination, etc) but also resembles addiction (because I have a very hard time stopping porn and masturbation); and I've read that addiction can lead a person to do bad things. I'm worried that if I treat this problem as OCD when it's not, I'll do bad things; if I treat this problem as an addiction (and/or as me being evil) when that's not the true problem, my OCD/condition will only get worse; and if I treat this problem as both OCD and an addiction or me being evil, I'll end up doing contradictory treatment and won't get better at all. What's your advice? As I said, professional treatment isn't an option right now.

I keep thinking that I want to act on these violent thoughts I am having. I want the thoughts to go away which makes me think I don’t want to act on them but my ocd is telling me that I want to and I am even having urges to act on them. I am nervous that it is only a matter of time before something bad happens. The thoughts are directed towards my family who I love so much and I just am scared

I literally have every social media/contact app on silent, because I’ll get ocd over the random notifications popping up. Ill start thinking “I have to do (whatever it may be) before she texts me back, or (consequences) will happen” anybody else?

Why is it that everyone tells me my thought isn’t bad (real event-false memory) and deep down I know it’s not bad but my ocd is telling me false things and I’m in a horrible loop and I still believe that it’s bad? Why am I not able to see it rationally? I feel so crazy and I feel like none of my thoughts make sense about my false memory real event. I keep asking for reassurance and at this point nothing helps at all bc my ocd tells me they don’t know what I know????

I’ve been experiencing extreme annoyance and black and white thinking with my partner bc of ROCD and intrusive thoughts. Part of the issue is I always expect to be annoyed bc it’s a habit now, almost like it’s a compulsion to be annoyed with him. He could just be talking and ill get annoyed. It’s just all very frustrating and upsetting and I do love my partner but I feel so consumed that it’s hard to ever feel loving or caring. But that’s exactly what the ocd wants…. All I see is negative and fear. Or, if I do feel okay I feel guilty for being okay and assume it means I don’t care.

Once again I am having trouble with the same memory that I have shared here before. When I was a kid I had a dog and I don't know why but sometimes he would sniff like private parts, and one time I let him and kind of encouraged him to do that (jesus that's so weird) and even said something about knowing he liked to do that, like I know I was probably reproducing something I heard and I know kids don't have a sense of right and wrong, it's all about discovery and they need an adult to guide and teach them what's right. I know these things and I have heard similar stories, but I can't feel free of guilt. There was another time when I was playing with a cat and I climbed up on a spot and threw it off, it wasn't a high place but what if something had happened to the cat? I don't know, what if it had gotten hurt? Again, I know that children are unaware of things but I can't stop thinking about these memories, I feel the need to sort of confess to someone, as if to judge me and define if I am worthy to have a happy life despite these events. I don't know what to do, it's suffocating.

Hi everyone, how are you doing? It’s been a really long time since I’ve posted on here. I still remember at the beginning of this year (in January) I had gotten my ocd diagnosis. After that I did ERP and I did get better thankfully. Started doing mindfulness and being present in the moment. 11 months on I feel better than I was at the beginning. Yes there are times where it is tough, but after the rain there is always a sunshine Right now I feel like I’m relapsing, but the truth is ocd isn’t something that goes away… it’s something that will always be a part of you. You just need to learn to accept it. Sometimes when we get better we forget that ocd is still there, that’s when we get caught off guard. This is a reminder to myself first, always continue to be consistent with ERP. By the way, has anyone got any advice for when ocd themes/symptoms resurface again? Thanks!

I think I've been a little stressed about school and about what I usually do in my life because I've been getting these occasional, annoying thoughts about dissociating. I know it's not something I normally struggle with and I know for a fact I didn't think about this kind of stuff without anxiety, so naturally I tie these intrusive thoughts with a form of anxiety. Lots of overthinking. I want it to go away so I'm just giving it time. Has this happened to anyone else?