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Anyone else on here struggle with religious based ocd? Just wanting to see what some other people who deal w it experience. It’s been really hard and flaring up recently. Would love to connect with others that deal with this :(

i’m so caught up in figuring out my obsessions because i don’t want them to come true. i have been obsessing over the devil and whether or not he can possess or control me and it won’t go away. i don’t know what to do. i’m so tired all the time and i don’t feel like myself anymore. i can’t keep up with my schoolwork and can barely take care of myself. i’m also in college so it’s hard being on my own.

So I’m praying for something to happen and I keep praying it. Do any of you feel that God said no to your prayer even though it only came as a form as an OCD thought and it wasn’t actually him? And does it give you anxiety and stress? I speak to a pastor about this and he says that it’s just me and it’s not him

So today while I was talking to myself, sometimes I do this, my mind said something like to ask for a sign from God and I didn’t mean to ask it or even wanting to ask it. I was talking to myself about something that happened a few months back for when I asked God, my grandmother who’s my guardian angel, and St Therese to help me get over the hunch of scrupulosity and OCD (I’m Catholic). They then gave me a sign in Church to let them know that they heard me and I felt peace, love and excitement then. I have been dealing with something lately that I asked them then to send me a sign if something didn’t happen or occurred, even though I couldn’t picture myself saying that. If anything I would have said the exact opposite to prove what happened or occurred, not to show me a sign if something beautiful didn’t happen. Yet the feeling felt so strong as if I did say that and it kept replaying in my mind over and over again. Going back to in the moment, It just went to my mind and blurted to my mouth about asking a sign from God even though I didn’t mean for it or intended it. I then got a thought thinking that I saw something later this morning thinking that God sent me a sign about something. Well, later this morning while looking at my daily Bible app, I saw something and my mind and feelings said that God sent me that sign. Now I’m flooded with anxiety because I was getting these thoughts before and now they like manifested into reality. It’s like as if God planted those thoughts in my head to tell me what’s coming and what will happen. I’m so angry, anxious and sad. I’m scared now that what I didn’t say is actually something that I said. It’s like God is constantly trying to tell me something and he’s keeping on telling me as if he’s playing a game with me and he won’t do it until I give up and give in. I don’t know what to do. I felt very depressed last night because last night because I couldn’t take this anymore as if God is telling me these things or he revealed me to something. Is this God or OCD that’s doing all this to me? I know it’s a lot but I just need feedback from you guys

I broke up with my boyfriend and I’m not sure if it’s because I needed to or if OCD pushed me to it. I have Scrupulosity and ROCD. We had a conversation about how we viewed the Bible and Jesus. I’m not sure if there’s a miscommunication but he made it sound that the Bible was secondary to our Spirit and that Jesus is pedestaled to much and we should be more like him instead. It scared me that the foundation of our belief is unequally yoked and I broke up with him. I woke up this morning and feel terrible. I don’t want to leave him but I also want to make sure I’m following God’s Will. We’ve been dating/talking for four months.

I’m going through the worst ocd flare up , I can’t stop crying and feel like I’m the worst person in the world and that no one understands how it makes me feel and how I feel so alone and that I’m a horrible person. Why do I feel like everything I’ve done makes me the worst unlovable person. Why is it when I pray I’m still so sad and nothing get fixed so I can be happy. I just want to be happy and at peace and stop having these intense overpowering thoughts. I know they say it’s best to sit with the thought until it passes instead of trying to direct my self but it just won’t go away and I’m trying hard to let it pass but something will always remind me of it and bring me right back to square one. I’m just so miserable that this is my life and thought process every single day😪

I have spent about 6 hours today trying to figure out the answers to a couple questions. And I feel like I will lose my salvation if I don’t get the answers right. At this point, I am just going in circles in my mind.

Can OCD go into remission for a few years, and then come back years later? I feel like this is what happened to me. Around the ages of 14 to 16, I was fine, for the most part. Disassociated but fine, because although my dad's health has been declining slowly, I was still able to function/think clear/etc. The remission lasted until I was 21 and hit me like a train from then on. I have my good and bad days with OCD, but it's there again. Sometimes it reminds me of how it used to be, when it FIRST started; I was 11 or 12. Those REALLY bad days are few and far between. I basically describe myself as "simmering in anxiety" no matter what location I'm in or what I'm doing. The only thing that helps me is church or being around my church family as much as I can.

Hey, guys. So, I feel like a lot of my scrupulosity ocd is emotions/feelings. Like, I get these impressions and feelings of being evil. I really feel like I am whatever I’m afraid of being in that moment. And I’m really confused by this, since ocd is about thoughts, right? Is that how it is for you guys too?

Hello guys i have religious Ocd almost 3 months now, could you guys give me some advice on how to deal with this? Its so distressing that i feel everytime i could possibly blaspheme Jesus. It really feels like im trying to think or recall a specific blasphemous thought intentionally.

This passed December I was diagnosed with severe OCD and it hit me like a whirlwind after watching a movie and then thinking that everything isn’t real and that I am in a simulation like the “don’t worry darling” movie. This was very distressing to me because I was a person who read her bible everyday and every night and then would talk to God through prayer a lot and when this happened it was very difficult for me to pray or open my bible because I thought nothing was real and I made up God in my mind or the person controlling me did to make me think this is real. Shortly after that happened I started having harm thoughts of “oh well if this is isn’t real you could harm someone and then wake up or you would realize if it was or wasn’t real?” like in the “don’t worry darling movie” “Or I am going to have to harm myself to find out or being in Heaven would be way better?” Which ultimately led to crying spells everyday feeling like I was going crazy. I then went to the hospital and got diagnosed and am going through ERP/ACT therapy currently but those thoughts are still very active. And even though my thoughts are active and seem very real I know that there is power in prayer no matter what my thoughts are thinking, so please pray for me to get through this and heal. It’s very hard to see a light. Thank you for reading this and hearing me.

Does anyone know of a church that is familiar with OCD? I am located in the US, Florida to be exact but I wasn’t sure if there were some that offered online if not local. I would really like to find a pastor who understands ocd. Any suggestions? It’s hard to listen to sermons about hearing God and other things when I hear from all kinds of competing voices in my head. If nothing else, I could use some prayers. In a spiral about whether the voice (internal) is as God or oCd as it relates to a huge job change and my family by extension

Please pray for me to be happy

I have been atheist for about a little over a year now, i was raised catholic for the first couple years of my life and then then both my parents decided to become christians and my father took my siblings and I to a church that my uncle was the pastor of and i endured some religious trauma as the church exhibited many cult like behaviors; claiming to make a woman’s leg grow on stage and the whole congregation going along with it, another instance when many adults from the congregation (my father included) gathered around the front of the stage and began speaking in tongues and crying and laying on the floor, etc. We were going to this church multiple times a day usually 2-3 my uncle would tell us “god never took a day off so neither can we” and i remember my father telling one of my brothers about spontaneous combustion and i was so afraid that would happen to me. So fast forward to present day i don’t go to church and haven’t been in 4-5 years and completely abandoned religion a year ago but i still feel like god is listening to my thoughts and i will go to hell for my intrusive thoughts when i was younger i used to compulsively pray i don’t pray at all anymore but i still feel like he can hear my thoughts or deceased relatives can hear my thoughts and maybe they think something is deeply disturbed with me??? I don’t believe in a god anymore why does this still happen am I delusional??? I wish i didn’t feel like someone was listening to my thoughts you know?

Brothers and sisters, God's Grace is abundant in our lives everyday, but often times we choose to ignore it because of fear and anxiety, how many lies do we have to "obey" to please ocd? To erase the anxiety? Compulsions have not worked they only have led us to more anxiety and fear. God's Grace allows us to ignore the lies and resist compulsions as a way of trusting Jesus Who Is the Truth. God gives us His Grace when we ask for it but just as with anything God gives, its up to us to accept it or ignore it. Lets ignore fear, anxiety, intrusive thoughts, silly ocd rules and lets trust God's Grace and Word. Lets ask God for help to accept His Grace, lets take a leap and trust our Father Who loves us and never lies! God knows our struggle and wants us to be healed, but brothers and sisters our healing will only come from trusting Him. It is not easy, it is not pleasant at times but its our Loving Father who holds our hands.

I’m deathly afraid of my SOOCD it has be frozen. I feel like I’m a fraud. Reading more about it it so scary but I identify if a lot of others who experience it. I’ve been in a spiral. The last few days have been so hard. I literally don’t know what to do. I’m so afraid to move forward with my life. It feels wrong when I’m so unsure / going through a terrible bout of OCD. I definitely have confession compulsions. I need to tell my husband every thought I have. I am afraid to talk to him about my SOOCD. I guess I’m afraid of rejection. He knows I struggle with OCD. But I don’t discuss content very much. I’m so afraid of him not loving me. I don’t want to lose us. I love us. I’m so afraid I’m in denial. I’ve been dealing with this for a few years. I don’t want to change my life 😭 I’m frozen. I know everything would turn out ok with whatever outcome but I’m so stuck in terror. I deeply don’t want this to be true. Please help. Ps I’m 27 and married to an amazing man. He’s my best friend. And I LOVE snuggling/kissing/cuddling with him. I’m so distraught.

My ocd is mainly around my faith so it pushes me away from God a lot how do I even talk to Him about it ?

I was at church tonight sharing my testimony & how God has worked in my life, especially in regards to OCD, & someone came up to me after church and said that she believed mental health but she thought this was Satan attacking me (could be right) & that I shouldn’t use labels like OCD & make it my identity—that I shouldn’t claim that over myself. I hear this a lot and try to let it go but it hurts every time. I went home and cried. (Still crying.) Scrupulosity is already such an isolating illness and it sucks to be misunderstood. I feel like OCD is not taken seriously at all (she compared it to ADHD). I try to just accept that not everyone will understand & well intentioned people are going to say things because they don’t understand, but sometimes it gets to me. Tonight just really hurt. Just looking for encouragement from anyone else with scrupulosity who has experienced this. I feel so alone.

Does OCD ever make it seem that if you follow your dreams, preferences and goals you will punished by God. I get that feeling a lot that God will punish me if I do and that I’m getting thoughts of God telling me to give up my desires and goals. It’s really stressing me out and getting me sad, anxious, disappointed and angry

does anyone remember what their first experience with OCD felt like? im pretty sure i know the exact minute it happened. I was nine and my cousin was over for a sleep over, i remember she was on my bed watching a youtube video, and i was on the floor watching a youtube video. Then all of a sudden i got this horrible feeling it felt almost like deja vu? but i was terrified and i was so anxious i went and threw up. After that my mind was never the same, at the time i was so scared that i had been possessed because thats what i imagined it would feel/ look like, i became obsessed with the thought that i had become possessed. i kept asking my mom for reassurance that I hadn’t gotten possessed or had “made god angry.” im just wondering if anyone else has had a similar experience or if maybe that wasn’t OCD? Part of me still wonders if maybe i actually am possessed and i don’t have OCD even after 10 years. I obviously know thats not true but it’s always the “what if” ya know?