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I’ve been getting really bad intrusive thoughts and idk how to deal with them or what they mean TW : So basically I’ll see stuff on social media of people going through certain things and I get intrusive thoughts like “oh what if people in the comments are going through this and I don’t see it” and so I’ll look up posts of that topic and scroll for hours just to make sure people are okay. I don’t know what to do and I really wanna help everyone but am I a bad person for not commenting or scrolling through every single post and comment section? I just keep getting intrusive thoughts like “what if You’re just letting it happen and it’s all your fault.” And I just don’t know what to do. Am I a bad person for that?

It's funny but my soocd subtype seems to pop up during fall and winter, and leaves during spring and summer. Currently it has me overanalyzing my friendship with my friend who happens to be gay. It's really frustrating. What makes this even worse is this friend and I are fairly close, (I see them as a parental type figure) and it makes it really awkward especially when they use words like honey or sweetie. They're biologically female, but identify as he/they, which again doesn't help my OCD. They're like 6 years older than me. Idk I'm just freaking out a bit lol.

I am doing everything I can to sit with the thoughts and the feelings and the urges. No matter how grotesque they are and not matter how real they feel, I am doing all I can to keep going about my day. But I am really struggling. Every time I feel like I’ve made progress, more and new thoughts come in. More anguish comes. I feel like I’m drowning. I keep going. But it comes and hits me harder. Even then, I keep going. I would think it would subside but it’s just hitting me harder and won’t stop. It’s making me concerned that I am doomed and this isn’t OCD. Please help me.

Can medication help with mental compulsions? Like not caring about the thought /ruminate about the thought and overthink the thought…

A image popped in my head that I saw earlier today, and something in my head said something gross in detail of something gross I saw, and said “oh you thought that on purpose” or “you said that, you’re a bad person” and it made me go “what if I’m a bad person And said that” and it’s causing me to panic, because I genuinely believe that I said something like that, because I feel like did??? It sounded like my voice?? And I genuinely feel like a bad person?? What if I did say that??? I have go over the story to make sure I didn’t actually say that Let me know if this is ocd so I can do better with how I react with it

When I get a thought but it’s not specific I don’t understand it (part of the time), like I got a intrusive thought right now and it was not specific but I wanted to realise the thought. Like sometimes ocd gives me a thought that I don’t understand/realise(like I do but it’s weird to explain) and I feel like I have to overthink about the thought to realise her. Is that normal?

Hi everybody! I started with a therapist who’s super pricey outside of NOCD, when I had mentioned that I’m struggling with OCD she didn’t seem too well versed she said oh so you’re struggling with intrusive thoughts? Lady you don’t know the half of it!! But I’m afraid of continuing because I don’t want to waste $180 a week for what is sold as someone who can treat and help with OCD then turns out to just be talking about stuff I’ve already talked about with past therapists! Anyway onto the question at hand! If I join NOCD and they don’t cover my insurance but I pay out of pocket fora real OCD/ERP specialist because I really need the help! Is NOCD going to help me? Or am I going to waste my time and should I keep trying my hardest to find ERP specialists on Google. I’m exhausted I just want to know I’m going to get help and relief from this before I put more money into therapy Any advice or honesty would help greatly! ❤️👈🏼

I’m so tired of my OCD changing “themes.” And no matter what it changes to, it’s always directed towards a specific person - my mom. My mom and I are very close. I consider her my best friend and we live together. I can share anything with her and she’s very supportive. I’m 32 now, but harm ocd started when I was 15 and she was the main target back then as well. I had a bad flare up this year and the harm thoughts came back, but about a week ago they turned into sexual thoughts. Graphic thoughts and images about incest. These thoughts typically make me feel panic and dread, and just an overall depressed feeling. It has made me uncomfortable to be around my mom, since I can’t even look at her without a sexual thought or image popping up. Even watching a romantic scene in a show, listening a romantic song, etc. My brain wants to put an image of her in my head. Even me fantasizing about a man that I’m attracted to will replace the man with my mom. They just keep popping up. So this of course makes me think I actually want these things, and are actually fantasies. I have started to wonder if I’m in actual denial or that these are my true feelings. I have never been a relationship before due to not having much interest in it plus my mental health issues started as a teen, but someday I would like to get married. But now I’m thinking maybe I’ve never pursued a relationship with someone else because I’m actually in love with my mom and want to be with her, but I can’t so I’m just suppressing my feelings. And I do love my mom, but I question myself is this just platonic or familial love? Also questioning our relationship in general now - is it unhealthy or too dependent? It makes me feel doubt, since I have never really been in love before with someone else so I have nothing to compare it to. Always just crushes or finding a man attractive, and I identify as straight. But I also have not thought of my mom in a sexual way before, so I’m hoping this is just my OCD acting up. Even thinking about a future relationship with a man is making me feel nervous, since I think if I have feelings for my mom, will I ever be able to be in a serious relationship someday? If I’m with someone will I actually just picture her? It makes me feel hopeless, like I can’t help how I feel and what if these things are true? Would I act on them? My brain even made me think, “you want to ask your mom to be in a sexual relationship with you and/or want her to ask you.” I feel like such a pervert for writing that, like a truly disgusting person. I know I don’t want these things to be true, but what if they are and I can’t help how I feel? Again just feel doubt and uncertainty, that I’m in denial, and not to mention just feeling like a very sick individual.

People are always talking about their contamination ocd and all that stuff and i know its selfish but like I wish that was all I had. I have never had a worse subtype than what I have now and its hell.

I love Terrifier and I love horror movies but I have these intrusive thoughts or fear ever since Terrifier 3 came out and I feel extremely bad about cause it’s not about me. Every time I hear someone talk negatively about the director and creator my brain goes “what if you support that?” Or “What if they’re actually sick in the head for making that movie?” Or “what if you’re a bad person for liking movies with so much blood and gore” or something like “the director is a bad person for making a movie like that you should not be watching that” or “you shouldn’t like that character” and etc. I feel so bad😭 and my ocd brain is asking “is he a bad person” “should I not enjoy this?” Etc. like I can’t enjoy shit with negitave Nancy’s and Joe’s on the internet and shit😞😭

I have come so far in my therapy and days like today feel like I’m just still buried in OCD. Sometimes it is so insidious and I don’t realize I’m in a loop. Once I do realize it, it’s hard to get out. I thought sharing here may help, as I never have, but I know you guys will understand. It’s so hard to decipher between regular anxiety and obsessions and compulsions. It has all just become one big ball of panic. Anyway, I’m just struggling today - so thanks for listening.

I’m struggling so much lately with feeling so different in comparison to others with ocd. I feel indenial , like I don’t really have ocd and like others probably think I’m guilty. I hate feeling this way constantly. I feel like such an outcast like I don’t belong in this community because I’m a big ‘fraud’. I suppose it’s the ocd doing this to me.

I was in this game with this person and I noticed his voice was deep, and his avatar looked attractive to me?? and my brain was like “his voice is so??? And his avatar kinda fine too” like omg, shut up, I’m not taken yet but I still want to be in this relationship with this other guy, I feel like there’s nothing I can do and I’ll always be a cheater, I don’t even know how I feel, like do I actually want to cheat??? And it freaks me out because I don’t even know how I feel? Because sometimes I’ll get a feeling that agrees with it, like I’ll have that feeling that wants me to date them and then I’ll hear something like “yeah I would” / “yeah I agree with that” ,, now I feel like I’ll be a cheater and I’m really scared, I would NEVER cheat, nor would I trade this boy for anything, but I can’t do it. I just need to know what to do.

At the core of OCD is the feeling of losing control—over your thoughts, feelings, and sometimes even your reactions. This can be overwhelming, especially for someone who feels entitled to control their surroundings and body. However, the truth is that we have limited control. This misconception often leads to a struggle when OCD takes over, challenging that deep-seated belief in control. Consider this: when you get on a bus, you trust the driver to navigate the roads. You trust a pilot to fly and land the plane safely. Yet, in life, it can be hard to accept that something greater is guiding us. Yes, there might be bumps along the way, but trust in The Owner of All to lead you where you need to be. We often think we control our thoughts, emotions, and actions, but it’s really our brain at work. It shapes our perception of reality and our reactions to it. So, let’s humble ourselves and recognize that we’re not truly in control. We’re passengers on the train of life. Embrace the journey with its ups and downs—it’s all part of the adventure. Let's not blame ourselves for the ruff road and bumps along the way. Be kind to yourself; you’re doing your best.

earlier i got a thought but it didn’t cause me anxiety and i brushed it off now i’m worried it was my true actual intention and i can’t remember if it was i don’t know why it’s not making me anxious, maybe cos i know how bizarre it is and that i wasnt actually doing that? but my memory is so blurred and i dont know anymore

Does anyone else ever feel like they urinated on themselves, even though they know they didn't. But, I also have weird sensations on certain parts of my legs as if maybe I did, yet I know I didn't. How come I am having these feelings and have an urge to check and wash my legs? I know it's my OCD, but I just feel. Like I can't ignore it. Please share any tips or experiences that y'all can share?

Is anyone else tired of hearing the stereotypical ocd that everyone thinks of but isnt the main one that most of us have? I by far am. I get told daily “you dont have ocd as you dont keep things clean.”

Sometimes I wonder am I going to have ocd when god brings me my person am I going to still have feelings for an ex will I ever cheat on him some of these are my worst fears what if I don’t pick the right guy and I mishear god what if I get him when I’m not ready to be able to love someone else I’m broken right now I know I am I still have trauma I know god will fix me one day I might not have the answers to my question but I feel like I have a little peace knowing god has it all taken care of it’s just hard to let go and let god sometimes may he help me and all of us

Help so I was at an after school extracurricular club thing with a friend of mine and it was pack up time- and there were like 4-6 people in the room- and i said something to my friend after she told me she liked some guy (he is an idiot and is VERY rude) and i made a sort of rude comment about her for liking him BUT I WAS JOKING and one guy over hearing goes “that was mean 😕” and HEKDHEJDHDJXJDJDJDSJ i literally wanted to go and delete myself in the moment 🚶‍♀️🚶‍♀️🚶‍♀️ lowkey never coming back- and then after my friend and i were walking in the halls and i was like “hey, i wasn’t serious about that comment im sorry…” and she was like “oh girl its totally okay ik you didnt mean it- plus ive said worse…” and idk i still felt so bad and i asked her 2 more times and she didnt look offended at all but now its HAUNTING me and i am literally never going to face that guy who said “that was mean 😕” ever again bc i genuinely think he thinks im a horrible, rude, terrible, arrogant, hateful, stupid, awful person and im literally gonna go cry now ✌️

I'm having a really hard day. Just have this super bad sense of impending doom and my OCD is trying to rationalize it by telling me that it means my obsessions are going to come true or I'm going into psychosis and probably the worst one is that my OCD is telling me that "today is the day" I am going to have an intrusive thought so bad it will somehow take me out or do something really horrible to me and I won't survive it. I just have this really, really, really bad feeling and I'm not sure how to shake it or if this is even a normal OCD thing or an actual gut feeling?