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I get so scared when I confess that I didn’t confess enough. I have to stop. This is good motivation to get out of this loop. Does this happen to anyone else?

Over half a year ago, This girl wanted me to rp a CNC scene with her and to not ask the next time we chatted online. When we started doing that the next time we met, she suddenly left the chat. So Im scared on if consent wasnt given. I remember her saying that she got booted the next time I talked to her, and asking if she wanted to continue where we left off, but im not too sure and I cant recollect it... as a part of the roleplay, she would say "stop" and I think she roleplayed her movements but I dont remember if this was a part of the roleplay, or her genuinely telling me to stop... my friend on the explicit chat site says that since its been over 6 months, that I most likely didnt do anything to hurt her and that I should move on, but my intrusive thoughts keep saying that I violated this womans consent, when a womans consent is the most important thing to me..:

I cannot stop thinking about and judging my girlfriend (almost 23) for sleeping with a 34 year old before we met. She said she didn’t know his age and thought he was younger (I made her find out his age for my own ocd purposes) its ruining our relationship and my view of her. Please someone give me some sort of advice. I thought I was going to break up with her when she told me, but I just am devastated and have no clue what I’m feeling.

Does anyone think ERP therapy costs are really unreasonable? I stopped NOCD because I had BDD concerns, too and now go to another Telehealth therapist who is $225 per session. TWO HUNDRED AND TWENTY FIVE DOLLARS!!! 😡 I got an email about NOCD going to $210 per 1 hour session. It was $170 when I did it, which was already ridiculous and I felt taken advantage of for sure. Am I the only one who thinks this is just ripping off people when they're down and suffering and desperate for help? Doesn't it seem predatory and exploitative? That is a lot of money . . . and I'm now about $8,500 into getting help for my ROCD and BDDBP. The way I see it, $80 a session would be unreasonably high but $225?!?! $210??!? It’s just Insulting and a scam, especially when people (like me) were suffering so much they couldn’t hold down a job and can already barely afford food and rent. Do you agree?

I m scared I have more than just depression I been depressed for too long been trying to fix it but go back and forth with it I m scared I may need in medicine but I m no on it and I m terrific right now :( maybe I have bipolar or who knows

was hugging my cat and she got annoyed and meowed and i got sad and thought how could anyone hurt any animals then i start getting thoughts like u want to hurt one u want to really hurt one even ur own cats and it made me scared but i have little anxiety it made me sad tho. when i was little i had kicked my dog and that came up in my memories and now im scared i will hurt my pets. when i was younger i was weird and i have memories spaced out of me doing weird/bad stuff that i would never do now but it makes my ocd worse. I hate this :(

Has anyone tried N-Acetyl Cysteine for their OCD? My psychiatrist told me to buy it from the store and try it. Wondering if anyone’s had any experience and what’s it like?

Just watched a video that said that you're unhappy and with the wrong person if you find someone else attractive while in a committed relationship. OBVIOUSLY, I have ZERO desire to cheat... yet the comments and this video triggered me to think WILL.....

I love God & Jesus so much and having these awful blasphemous thoughts suck! I’ve been through this before and eventually got over it but it came back! I get cussing thoughts, rejection thoughts and just the opposite thoughts of who I am and what I value! I love them so much and I get scared what if I’ve said these intrusive thoughts out loud! I don’t think I have but the thoughts can be just so loud! Any advice to move forward past these thoughts? I’m trying to remind myself God & Jesus loves me no matter what but it can be hard when I’m being plagued by these blasphemous thoughts that make you doubt yourself too! Makes you doubt if you’re a Christian for these awful thoughts! Please any advice? Will God & Jesus be with me no matter what? I love them so much!

Anyone else struggling with false memory ocd and believing you have ‘evidence’? I don’t mean feelings I more mean finding real details, coincidences or clues/ making links to things. It’s all becoming very real, and it’s so hard to explain.

So, I have coworkers that will not stop making jokes about “being OCD and wanting things organized” which is very typical, and annoying. A part of me wants to explain to them what OCD really is and that it’s kind of frustrating to hear them talk about it without knowing what it’s really like. But I’m also embarrassed and feel awkward about saying anything. Ugh

I'm in an amazing, beautiful relationship with the literal LOML. I absolutely love and adore my boyfriend. But relationship OCD has been plaguing me for 6 weeks straight. We were going through a super rocky time mid-March, and about 2 weeks after that is when the ROCD started. First, it started with thinking I cheated on him with my coworker (which I had no proof or evidence) and I slowly got over that 2 weeks later because I knew I had no proof. But then like always the theme restarts and I started obsessing about the fact I had intrusive thoughts about this coworker. Thoughts that maybe I liked him, thoughts about fantasies, thoughts about wanting to be with him. I don't think I had a problem with it because I think I just thought it was OCD, or knew it was OCD. I'm sure all this ROCD and overthinking started because of me and my boyfriend's rocky time, and in that time, I was extremely worried about him cheating on me. I don't know how to heal. I have fully convinced myself I purposefully thought all these things about that coworker. I've talked to my boyfriend about my struggles, and he's told me many times he knows it's OCD and even then, we are happy as ever and I've clearly chosen by boyfriend and I never did anything or even flirted with this coworker. I have never flirted or done anything inappropriate with this coworker. My boyfriend and I both know that. But I can't help but feel so guilty for the thoughts I had. I feel like they were real. They feel so real. I told my boyfriend I'm terrified I had a crush on this coworker, and he comforts me because he knows I only love him. I did not tell him about the sexual fantasies (I think I mentally pushed them away. I don't remember if I did because it was over 1-2 months ago.) because that would obviously just cause him pain even if it was OCD. What sucks is I have to work with this coworker still. He causes me so much anxiety, I prefer when he's not at work and I avoid talking to him at all. Before all this anxiety and ROCD, we would talk and joke all day at work (with our other coworkers too) and it was just a running joke for everyone (not just me) to pick on him. But now I convinced myself I was just flirting. We would only ever chat/text about work, like our clients and just never anything work inappropriate. I'm so scared. I'm so guilty. I feel like I emotionally cheated. Please someone guide me.

has anyone experienced going through a breakup and experiencing ocd thoughts, i’m having them about reasons why i ended it, lots more. just want to see if anyone relates

My images are weird, they feel “close” and it’s strange that they are blurry with a background yet I’m still sort of aware of my actual surroundings whilst my intrusive image can be taking place anywhere. What about you?

If you’re like me, you use alcohol to cope and it kinda pushes the OCD thoughts way down - temporarily. My question is, does quitting help in the long term?

My brain keeps saying what if it’s not OCD and you are in denial and you are just using OCD to cover it all up…

i feel like having this ocd is making me transgender. i constantly imagine myself as transgender like starting to use t, coming out to my family and my boyfriend. i would really prefer to not be a boy but i don’t even know what i want anymore. and now my voice is triggering me because i sound feminine. what’s going on 😭 im freaking out

Can’t do this anymore. Been suffering from this for two years straight and it just keeps getting worse 😔

Ever since I caught my... now-ex, I guess... having cheated, and I worked the nerve to talk to him and break it off in a surprisingly strong and boundary-concious way for myself, I have been looking at housing areas around me. I can't move out soon even if I wanted to since I want to apply for disability and that can take a year or so, I have no job and no saved up money because we used it all when he had no job/refused to get one and was hoping it would be quick and easy for him to find one (took him 4 months). I have no car so I was/am checking mover services over and over. I keep looking at the bus routes in the city to make sure the apartments that are available NOW are around them, which I know makes no sense because there is job guarantee they will be available later. Which... leads me to checking again the next day. Or later that day. All stemming from discomfort that he is just still lying even "just as roommates" and it is a trigger for my ROCD even without being in a relationship anymore. I am so frustrated. This would be my first time moving out on my own. The uncertainty and fear and distrust here is eating at me but I have no friends or family to go to so, I'm just... stuck.

This is probably the worst part of my ocd. When I have a flashing image I have to start adding details, thinking of scenery and making a little story up. Now I find that my stories actually have some truth, there’s details that are in favour of my false memory ‘evidence’ almost. I find myself doubting all day everyday due to these details.