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Any Muslims who are suffering from soocd or have suffered from soocd? Or any religious ppl of other religons?

My ocd subtype changed again. Now I'm worried what if I go crazy. With all this anxiety and worrying it already feels like I am. I don't want to go crazy or experience psychosis. I'm so scared. Does anyone know how to deal with this?

If this makes you confused, i couldnt write the whole thing out there, i mean we know that in ocd the things that we rumminate about arent the problem, so in harm ocd the problem isnt you being a psychopath, in Pocd the problem is not you being a pedophile, the problem is your reaction to the thoughts. I got myself fall back into ocd's trap, i cant even say its a setback cause i realized how blind i was through the weeks and i was rumminating and obsessing everyday without knowing it. Its so difficult cause you care about something then it turns into ocd and before you know it youre in the trap... So i started experiencing things like hate towards myself cause of ocd and how stressful is but i can say that right now i do love myself, i just realized at some point that it started to go that way, or the so much rummination about religious stuffs made me start to hate all of that, i have certain thoughts about some things that feels like its me, i mean opinions that are negative, it feels like its my opinion, and at some point i got scared that i have to work with these, i have some problems, maybe im depressed, maybe i lost my faith, and this just made the feelings of anger and sadness worse, and then i was like if i notice all of these things and give attention to them i feel worse and it gives me alot of guilt, but if i ignore it makes me feel like im being a bad person cause im avoiding that im actually problematic or toxic... so then i was like "is this still part of the this is not the real problem?" So i should ignore these things cause thinking about them just makes me feel worse? I dont know if someone can relate to me, its really confusing to write it out too what im experiencing, if you do please share what helped you

Yesterday was a bit of a more difficult day… I was online a lot. Today I’m going to try to not get on this app or on Reddit/quora… I wanted to ask this to the straight females in this group struggling with soocd. How does it make you feel when someone says that “most woman are attracted to other woman” I’ve also seen “all woman are bisexual”? For me, I have a hard time with this. I can recognize that a woman is pretty. But I can’t recognize if I want to kiss her/ be with her. So in a way this brings me relief, but the relief comes with a “but that means you really do want to be with a woman and your just hiding it” I’d like to have some other thoughts on this!

I’m scared of the truth, I’m scared of what I’ve done intoxicated one night, I feel I’ve messed my life up and ruined it, my head is telling me I’ve done something awful to a female (worst case scenario) it’s telling me I done it and I’m capable of it I’m so scared, Please help me

Harm OCD is getting really scary for me. Lately it's been worse than simply "thoughts". It's been coming in the form of commands, and an urge to act as if I can really do something like punch someone I love constantly. I always feel like crap after I "test" myself but it just comes right back. I'm so damn scared that I'm going to go too far and raise my hand at her. Oh God it feels so real, like it's something I can't stop myself from doing even though I know it's beyond wrong. I don't want to end up in jail or hurt the woman I love. Why is this happening to me?? I was so happy just two months ago. Never had a thought of hurting anyone ever for any reason. Now it's like it's all I can think about. Oh God my life is going off the rails and it feels like it's inevitable.

I’m a college student and I’ve had a healthy and stable relationship with my bf of almost two years, but about 3 months ago symptoms of ROCD started flaring for the first time. I was scared and extremely distressed. I told my mom all my doubts about my relationship. I had to pull myself together after a few weeks because college was starting back up. Since I’ve been at college my mom has only really made things worse for me even tho I explained to her that I thought I had ROCD (now I’ve been officially diagnosed) but my mom seems to not be on board or not understand no matter how much I try to explain things to her. She pokes and triggers my OCD every time we speak about it and I’m not sure if it’s intentional or even how to handle things moving forward. Any reason why she might not be supporting me? I’ve tried sending her videos on ROCD and other things to help her understand.

Does anyone struggle with OCD since they were a pediatric? I believe I have a rare form of OCD called PANDAS (Pediatric Autoimmune Neuropsychiatric Disorders Associated with Streptococcal Infections) caused by a strep infection which causes antibodies and pathogens to enter the BBB (blood brain barrier) and basically alters your neurons and synapses. This caused me to have OCD and severe tics which alleviate my OCD. Not only do tics alleviate my OCD but seeking constant reassurance on top of that makes my OCD such a struggle.

Im really stressed right now because im worried my boyfriend is too boring for me and not deep enough. He’s not great at communication, doesn’t have many interests and it feels like we run out of things to talk about. We also do spend everyday together with the rare day off. His family is from Poland and they don’t talk much during dinners I’ve had with them and seem a bit boring as well. I’m wondering if this is something he could change or if im just overreacting or if it’s an incompatibility. I do love him and he’s really kind and sweet but I need him to know how he’s feeling but he always says he doesn’t know or that he isn’t thinking about anything. im so scared and i don’t want to break up but I don’t want to be bored and lonely in a relationship forever.

Is normal that I feel like I’m not pure and I don’t deserve love because and I’m worthless because my father mistreat me Whenever I try to convince myself that I’m actually worthy and I deserve better it actually gets worse because of OCD, and I know the solution is to accept these thoughts and ignore it, but I’m afraid of believing it and manifesting it in reality, like if I accept the thought that I’m actually not deserving of love I might act on it and it will actually become a reality and no one will love me

Hello. I want to start by saying that I am in no way offering medical advice to anyone. These are just my personal experiences. I recently completed a 36 course tms regiment for ocd/depression. Did it help? Somewhat. While it helped with my general sense of anxiety and for sure helped with depression, the results were not a miraculous as I’d hoped they’d be. I was struggling pretty badly with daily brain fog and anxiety. I even tried another ssri for a short period in hopes it would help the treatment (currently not on any prescribed meds). I did not tolerate the ssri side effects so quickly went off it. Now here is the part worth sharing. I did start to research ocd and inflammation. I found a plethora of data showing some causation between ocd and inflammation within the brain. I decided to try modifying my diet to see if something in it was inflaming me. I initially went to keto. Boy what a difference it made. My brain fog almost immediately went away. Anxiety and ocd are still there but more muted. I slowly incorporated some carbs back into my diet and found that it maybe gluten that is inflaming me. Hope this helps anyone trying to look for additional areas of focus in their mental health recovery journey. Cheers and keep up the good work.

Okay so I tried erp and I feel so confused because I did what I was supposed to do and tried to expose myself but it never made me triggered cause I knew it was just not a real situation. Like I get so much more triggered in real life situations but I don’t in erp and I try to make it really painful in erp but it doesn’t work.

Hi All, the intrusive thoughts have been really sticking today and I feel so tired of this constant battle. I've been doing ERP for a month but haven't noticed decrease in anxiety level yet. I'm afraid that I will give up the fight and end up committing suicide. I wish I could get a break and feel some relief.

I had sexual orientation OCD but ir makes me feel so strange about my identity and the way I perceive myself. Idk if it’s OCD related but I am having so much distress thinking that I could actually have gender identity problems. I am feeling so anxious right now. I am a woman (biologically), but sometimes I perceive myself or the way I behave masculine and it makes me feel really really uncomfortable. I feel masculine around my girlfriends, and sometimes I feel uncomfortable about the way I dress because I have no idea if it represents me, I question my sexuality, and it gives me so much distress. (I even like a guy but I still question it). I don’t wanna feel like this and I don’t want to have identity problems. Plus, sometimes I depersonalize. Anyone help me please, I don’t know what’s going on I feel so scared

I have to ask.. I have been struggling with OCD forever and I’m pretty good about overcoming it. In fact the images aren’t scary anymore BUT.. does anyone else experience this thing where maybe the thoughts don’t come as what ifs but a “word thought” that terrify the crap out of you and then you get stuck thinking is this who I am.. i have harm ocd so I don’t want to trigger anyone with examples but I really hope this explains what I’m trying to say. Say I’m talking to someone. All of a sudden boom a word or phrase pops out that seems harmful. ***trigger warning: Like someone said I’m going to rest and the word that popped in my head was permanently I know this is dark and I’m sorry but it’s terrifying and this is the last thing I need to “beat” or “get over” in order to move forward. I’m tired of not asking people who don’t understand. Please someone??

My hocd really feels like I want it now. I truly don’t know if I just enjoy the friendship with girls or if I want a relationship WITH that friendship. It feels like the more I think about it the more it feels like I want it. I’ve never wanted this before and I’m terrified that this means I have to leave my long term relationship. Just thinking about everything instantly makes my chest hurt and makes me want to cry.

Im getting angry right now, i the bible would be written in a black and white way cause i cant understand whats right or wrong, same with halloween. If youre a christian and you can think, its clear to you that getting drunk in a party or satanic ritual are not Godly things, its not right to do it. But then what it got me really angry was that people thing its wrong to dress up in a scary costume, cause that means theres something wrong with you, how you think, cause you support murders,demons, like if i dress up as the killer from the movie Scream, then that means that I support stabbing people, murdering them, harm and evil... Dont then see how stupid is this? So with this logic we can say that if you eat meat you support animal killing and torture(btw i eat meat) or if you wear clothes you support child slavery... Where this logic comes from or im missing something? So all the actors who play bad roles that means they agree with that characters behaviour, so the actor who played Judas agree with betraying Jesus...like just think a littlr bit...Is it that i dont live in USA and people who dress up in a scary costume really idolize that character or they agree with them or what? I just like to dress up in scary costume cause i enjoy it? "So you enjoy advertisisng murder" NO... do you eat meat cause you enjoy murdering animals? Its the same thing... its logical to me that murder is bad,or worshipping demons are bad but dressing up as a killer or a ghost isnt supporting them...so with this logic dressing up as a murderer means you support that thing, then letting children dress up as pirates or cowboys why is cute? I mean they wasnt associated with the most kind things... it would be the same thing. Also i liked when i saw clips about childrens in horror movies when they interact with the scary characters behind the scenes, and they learn there that they dont need to be afraid, its just a mask,its not real. We should learn to not be afraid of evil that much. Yes its real i dont deny it, but we have to be aware of it not afraid. Dressing up as a murderer will not make you praise the devil or lose your salvation. Watching one scary movie will not make it vanish what Jesus did to you. Its just a movie, its fake... Its just my opinion but it would be bad either if we would learn to laugh in the eye of devil cause we are with God who is the most powerful thing... THAT DOESNT MEAN IGNORE BAD THINGS. Still you have to be aware but not afraid, God is with us always

It’s 5am and my mind is just runnin; head hurts and I might be dehydrated but I have breath in my lungs and a new day to live and walk in victory. I pray for everyone’s healing ❤️😊

i have had what seems to be ocd tendencies since second grade. at that point it was more physical and stereotypical (ie praying and counting). i had recognized it could be ocd at around 10 and then kind of forgot about it. recently, i have been having intrusive thoughts of what if i don't love my boyfriend, i think he's ugly, what if im lying about everything i say, im manipulating everyone, that was a lie, you're attracted to that random person etc.) i also have things such as unwanted groinial responses. the themes of lying and manipulating everyone are really common, and to be fair i have a lot of trauma regarding those things, but i haven't seen those as themes. i am convincing myself i don't have ocd and am using this app and this self diagnosis as attention seeking. i have a therapist and she seems to think i have the tendencies and says giving it a name helps anyways. however, i still feel like im lying. i feel like im lying about everything and it doesn't go away. i just looked up how to overdose on zoloft and i don't even know why but because i felt the need to tell my boyfriend, i feel like i am being manipulative and i feel like im being manipulative now. can someone please help?

Hi Do any of you have ocd around clothes like bad clothes. if you wear them, sth bad will happen thing? I have been dealing with that issue for quite some time now and I have nothing to wear atp. I am basically living in my underwears and can’t go out because I have nothing to wear. Buying new clothes is also a problem because I keep obsessing over dates like this is a good/bad day to buy new clothes and I can’t seem to find a good day. Like if I see/hear something triggering that day, I can’t buy anything. If the day is a bad number( for my ocd ) or a bad day of the week (mon/tues/thurs/fri/sat/sun), I can’t buy anything either. Could someone please recommend any erp tips for this issue?