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Ahhhhh I feel like I need to confess to my mom or my husband…. But how…..?! “Hey I think I might have done something really really bad, I think I need to turn myself in, I’m not sure if I did it but you know just in case…” 😭

does anyone else feel like their OCD makes them feel uncertain about their values? there’s always a weird layer of not understanding myself below my OCD.

Does anyone else struggle with Christian OCD? I feel like I want to die right now. One of my core fears is the fear of my loved ones going to hell. It’s been my son for a while now because he started expressing fear he was going to go to hell and (unfortunately he appears to have religious OCD as well at even nine years old) it had gotten to a point he had felt he was unsaveable and getting angry at God. I realized that my fears of a false conversion were pushing him away/confusing him to the point I was hindering him coming to Christ. Only, I am afraid that I forced it on him now because he has asked for so long if he was ready and my husband took him to the altar. Not surprisingly he still doubts himself - he’s confused and I feel even WORSE than I did when he wasn’t “saved.” I fear if I try to reassure him and he isn’t saved that it will be my fault he goes to hell. I have barely slept since this happened Tuesday. I’m ready to die and all my therapy has completely gone out the window. I am just so depressed it’s hard to even look at my baby and not cry. *Please don’t respond if you’re not a Christian. I respect your opinions, but please respect mine.*

What’s up y’all, Does anyone ever deal with the fear of being canceled. In the past year all of my dreams that I’ve worked really for are unfolding and it’s crazy I’m doing so well but I’ve dealt with an insane amount of imposter syndrome and this ocd fear of being canceled for something I’ve done and losing everything. I have skeletons in my closet like everyone else. I’m so happy with the lessons from I’ve learned from my mistakes yet I’m terrified I’ll be torn away from all my hard work and outcasted from my community by some online bullshit.

Tested the images during sex and felt strong arousal to it and then felt so terrified and confused so I tested again and felt arousal again. I’m so terrified, this obviously is real and isn’t OCD anymore. I don’t even want to have sex anymore

Somatic ocd is so tiring. I can’t stop thinking about my saliva and swallowing. I’m going to a psychiatrist, but I’m only doing cbt atm. It always gets worse in school. My mouth gets filled with salvia and then I can’t speak. I have a water bottle with me each class so I can drink from it instead of swallowing just the saliva. Which makes it a little easier, but sometimes I just swallow without any control like I literally get surprised. Or like my mouth I full of saliva, but my throat is dry. It’s so uncomfortable. I’ve had it for like 7 months. I feel so alone. I’m trying to motivate myself to keep going. It honestly made me so depressed. Hopefully my psychiatrist can help me.

I've found something but i feel very vulnerable going to the Doctors about it. I don't know if it's normal or not. I've had blood tests for unrelated reasons and they came back perfectly fine. So surely if it was bad something would be showing on the blood tests?? Everytime i'm doing better OCD comes back again. I'm so tired of living everyday in fear. And new 'things' for me to worry about is so tiring. Idk what to do anymore. My OCD has been constant all year. Normally i only have my normal rituals and about 8-12weeks of an OCD flare up but this years OCD has been non stop.

This course I am taking is undermining years of retraining my brain not to believe my OCD. I had come so far in fighting perfectionism, and accepting that many things only needed to be good enough to meet their standards rather than the standards my OCD set for them. I had learned that while assignments (whether school or work) are important, they aren’t everything. I was starting to believe the truth that one can’t give everything one’s 100%. I was starting to trend towards more balance in life despite having a ways to go. I was taking time for myself, but not getting quite so burnt out that then I hibernated and got stuck in those “little breaks”, or at least not for as long. I was celebrating that personal progress as I encouraged myself to keep trending towards healthier. Now, I may need to disappoint my in-laws and last-minute not show up to Thanksgiving because this paper is due tomorrow night, and 2 full days of work on it has me at less than 2/3 of being finished.

Why do false memories feel so real and that it’s what actually happened. Because it feels like it’s not a false memory at all and it feels like and I feel it’s true

People with this theme how long did you guys have it for??

Hi everyone. I just have a question. Anytime mass shootings go on, I start to feel extremely anxious. & then I have “could this ever be me?” or “what if this happens to me some day?” thoughts. I started feeling guilty and wondering if I may have characteristics of a mass shooter or something. Like I start to compare myself to them. I guess in an attempt to correct my wrongdoing before it happens. I definitely don’t want that to happen to me. but it’s something that runs through my mind every time. Does anyone else experience these hard, horrific moments? Would this be considered a part of harm OCD?

Hello, I'm wondering if anyone has had a similar experience with OCD to the one I recently had, and how you got through it! I have dealt with a variety of intrusive thoughts and OCD symptoms for many years now, and recently learned that these symptoms were actually signs of OCD. These symptoms bothered me now and then, but the didn't really impact my daily life, relationships, or joy. That all changed over this summer when I experienced a stressful life event. The event sent my OCD symptoms into an intense spiral where I could literally not stop thinking about what happened and kept going back to try to "solve it" in my brain by reliving each detail. This only made me feel worse. However I felt like I had to keep thinking and talking about what had happened in order to process it and make my thoughts calm down. I then started freaking out and feeling as if I had lost control of my mind. My emotions started to rotate between numb and intense anxiety, and I felt like I couldn't focus in conversations with loved ones or be present anymore because my mind, body and emotions were constantly racing down a dark spiral. I felt no rest or peace and had 5 nights of literally zero sleep during this intense period of my life. As of recently I have started medication and meeting with a therapist. I only have a few intrusive thoughts per day about the life event now, and seemingly random things trigger those thoughts. It feels like the days and people surrounding this event are always in the back of my mind, wanting me to think about them. Other symptoms spiked up after this event that have not gone down as much as I would have liked. For example, I am constantly checking to see if I am truly present with whoever I am with, if I am truly being myself and saying what I would normally say, or enjoying myself as I normally would had I not gone through the stressful event and been left with these strange side effects. Its like a mental trap, because the checking to see if I am engaged and enjoying my time with friends and family is what keeps me from being engaged and enjoying times with friends and family. Have you experienced anything like this before? Any tips and support would be appreciated!

Should we really not analyze thoughts? I feel like that is a form of repression. Maybe analyzing the thought without reassuring ourself of anything is OK..?

I’m contemplating on taking meds, and would like to hear some opinions/experiences with them. I’m honestly tired of being in and out of OCD land.

Having ocd is a nightmare. I feel so alone. Most of society doesn’t understand it and it feels so awful. I feel like sometimes I don’t have anyone I can really vent to because no one truly gets it. My family and husband are supportive but I feel like they just don’t truly get it.

Does anybody else experience delusional intrusive thoughts? I have a very big fear of developing schizophrenia or becoming delusional. And it seems that a lot of my intrusive thoughts are delusional intrusive thoughts that I fight.

How is everybody today? Does anybody need to talk about anything? ♥️♥️♥️

I’ve been struggling with my most recent bout of harm OCD. I haven’t had this subtype before so it really scared me. Before that was pedophile OCD. The bad intrusive thoughts started in July. I’m a female and I don’t know if this is related but I started taking these skin multi vitamins (high vitamin A and C, some others too) around the same time. I’m not sure if those are correlated but I just stopped taking them and felt relief from anxiety therefore less bothered by intrusive thoughts. I’m just wondering if anyone has noticed their intrusive thoughts get worse or better with certain supplements. I want relief but really want to stay un-medicated (for now) so looking for natural alternatives. Has anyone tried inositol?

Can anybody relate? I have not been able to get away from the thought of hurting people, it is making me think that I actually want to do these things. The thoughts don’t stop it has been a little over 3 weeks and they start when I wake up and are there until I go to bed. They usually are targeted towards my girlfriend or mom, but they will latch on to anyone I’m with. I’m starting to think that I actually want to do these things… the thoughts don’t give me much anxiety anymore either. I also experience urges to act on them. I never had a thought like this until Oct 29 and now they just won’t go away. Pls help, is this ocd or is something wrong?

How do I start romance exposers and what’s the prevention part for it