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Does anyone else's Harm OCD make you question if you are a psychopath or a sociopath?? I keep thinking it and I'm worrying a lot. This is all so tiring. I just wish it would leave me alone..😔

I’m not too sure how long ago but sometime in the past year i was on snapchat looking through profiles that had p**n videos and images on them. the profiles would have links to other ones so i would keep clicking on them to find more and more. eventually i clicked on one profile in particular that had bite sized photos of animal p**n and child p**n. i realized what it was but didn’t really stop looking immediately( i’m not sure why) but once i did, i was sick to my stomach and couldn’t even think straight. i told my then gf(fiancé now) and she comforted me and told me i probably kept looking at it because i was just curious. i have never once thought of a child as attractive in anyway so this really disturbed me. i had seen something like that once in the last but didn’t give it much thought before but this time was different. and just a few months before this happen my son was born so i don’t know if this could have an affect or not… presently i am still struggling and have intrusive thoughts every now and then about hurting my son and they make me feel like my whole stomach was ripped out of me. i look at younger girls now and question if i think they are attractive and ask myself if i would do anything to them. i have tried thinking of a child in a sexual manner(i get groinal responses but nothing more), watched adult p**n to make myself feel better, try and get reassurance from my fiancé, etc. i have good and bad days, but most are bad. i’ll get thoughts that tell me to watch cp to see if i would enjoy it or i’ll just tell myself i am a P and that i have to deal with it. i don’t want to hurt anyone and i feel like im just an accident waiting to happen. sometimes my brain even tells me that pedophilia isn’t a bad thing even though i know it is. i could just be looking for reassurance but my life has been on a downward slope for some time now and i’m getting miserable.. i have been thinking of leaving the earth more and more. i don’t want to die but i don’t want to keep living like this..

My brain feels so loud like I’m getting thoughts about my partner cheating on me and I hate it I know he would never but my thoughts keep coming up like every time his phone goes off my intrusive thoughts is like what is it’s a girl or something like that and it’s horrible because I’m not the sort of person to think these sort of things like he loves me so much and I love him so much and my thoughts are making me analysis everything he does and it’s stressing me out can someone help me please!

Does anyone feel alone with all the ocd struggle? Like, this is not something that we can tell to anyone. I've been feeling so lonely and missunderstood. I mean, I feel like a weirdo. This is so hard. There are some days when I feel like "this is it, i'm gonna be stuck on this forever". Tomorrow i'll see my psychiatrist to make some adjustments on my meds.

Hi ask in in the middle of an argument with a friend. And I'm having a major urge to seek reassurance. Like chest pain amount is anxiety level. I have failed my ERP today by trying to get reassurance but both people are aware of my OCD and rightly answered may or may not. Anyone have tips on how to get through this? I thought I was on the other side of this but OCD is raring up.

I had never really had OCD symptoms like this a few months ago. I had struggled a little bit with anxiety and had always had a fear of uncertainty but I’ve never felt a 24/7 pain anxiety, guilt and fear like this. I was pretty happy😭 Have others had this experience as well? Did it just show up randomly from one intrusive thought that you couldn’t brush off? Is it possible to get back to how you were before or will I have to “manage” for the rest of my life?

Does anyone else with ocd lie a lot? I found myself lying when I first started ocd treatment to try to make everything seem like I had a picture perfect life when I don’t. And it just went from one lie to another. Now I feel extremely guilty. I am much better now but I still feel that guilt. I don’t wanna lose my best friend. I know shes figured a lot of shit out. She’s a genius (literally). But she’s never treated me any differently. She holds me accountable which is one of the many many things I love about her.

I had a messy breakup with my ex who my friends and family say was emotionally abusive. There was one day we were making out after she had cheated on me and we split and I had started to touch her privates and she would say no and I would stop, then we'd keep making out and I would try again and she'd get upset and say no again. This happened a few times. I was confused because we had sexual history so it felt like the typical progression when we'd make out, but I feel awful for trying again and not immediately stopping and now I feel like this was SA. At the time I didn't think of it like that but now I'm disgusted with myself. A few months after she said it upset her. I know reassurance is bad but is this SA? I feel like an awful person I didn't mean to, but idk if I need the report myself now or what. My current gf had someone at a party shove his hands down her pants and it messed her up and I feel no better. I feel like I can't live with this

*repost bc no one responded and I’m kinda desperate :( I’ve been having such bad OCD about the afterlife. I get triggers where it feels so real that I altered where I go when I die- such as like a scary void where I’ll never see my friends pets and family again. It feels so real where I almost believe this to be true and it’s making me so depressed and terrified. I’ve been feeling this way since June, and each trigger tournaments me for about a month until it switches to a different trigger about the afterlife. ERP has not been helping like it used too. It’s so hard to live like this, I don’t know what to do or how much longer I can take this.

Really hard to deal with this right now as I have a girlfriend & a baby at home, the guilt of these thoughts is killing me inside & the further it goes on the further I'm believing I'm gay, I've had past experience with homosexuality once & It was very confusing and I didn't know what to think, I was 17 at the time & I'm 25 now. My relationship with my girlfriend is the healthiest one I've ever been in & I had more plans for our future but since this started, everything seems jeopardised by it! My head feels like it's literally telling me to give up and be with a male instead & it feels to real at this moment in time! I've struggled with health ocd or health anxiety & also ROCD, the HOCD started after this, it's so debilitating.

Anyone else struggling with their ocd at work? For some people works a distraction. For me it’s where my main focus of overthinking is at the moment. I’m ruminating a lot and can’t see it getting better.

Does anyone start having intrusive thoughts shortly after, a day, or a few days after sex. About getting an std or giving it to someone else. And then panicking if anything in that area looks “abnormal/different.”

I have a rare auto immune disease that attacked my brain causing me to have ocd. No one in my family had ocd and no one gets it. I had an incident tonight when I get home from a trip to notice that the pillows on my bed are put on there differently then I put them everyday, I also notice my lamp remote is on my left night stand when I always put it on my right night stand. I question my family and they said that my cousin slept in my bed the other night when I was gone. I broke down shaking and crying cause it’s 10 pm and I have school in the morning so I don’t have time to wash my sheets but there is no way I will be able to sleep in my bed after knowing my cousin slept on my sheets for a night. Plus I noticed a few of my drawers not pushed shut completely which I only do cause you have to push them extra hard to keep them shut which implies that she looked through some of my things and now all I can think about doing is disinfecting my entries room and excessively clean it. I just feel so betrayed but my family needs to understand that I have ocd and with that comes some things that they NEED to respect. I need to talk to them and tell them that this is not ok and that this gives me anxiety and distress probably causing me to not be able to sleep tonight. How do I tell them this?

Ocd is making me feel like my derealization is the worst and different than anyone else and that I’ll pass away from it. Even though I know it’s impossible it just keeps pulling me back in.

So my husband has been off work a couple of months due to me having some pretty severe health problems, not associated with OCD. His Family medical leave has run out and he is returning to work. I’ve been struggling with this because when he’s home my OCD is non existent. When he’s here I feel safe, and I don’t fear because he’s here with me and I feel like he would stop me from losing it if I were to. My recent fear is that when he goes back to work he won’t be here to stop me if I were to lose my mind, I get thoughts of what if I lose my mind, what if I run out in traffic, what of I go to a neighbors house and try to harm someone. I NEVER want to do anything like that, but the thought and fear of it and the urges are very REAL! I know I’m supposed to sit with the uncomfortable thoughts, feelings and urges but my god that’s impossible for me, I go straight into panic attacks and freak out! I’m doing ERP but I’m in the very beginning stages of it, and I’m really struggling to cope. My fear is I’ll forever be debilitated by this and it will cause my husband to lose his job, and we will lose everything. Can anyone help me to find extra resources on how to cope and deal with this, or any hope? I would greatly appreciate it. This is the WORST condition to ever have to deal with. :(

Hi. I wasn’t here for a very long time. Unfortunately, things got worst. I am dealing with OCD for 8 years now. Rn I’m really into the health issues. Every week something else. I got a heavy and weak feeling in my left arm (specific the hand, but every other part got on board) and muscle twitching. After couple of days and HEAVY anxiety from ALS (Google search…) my Leg joined us with heaviness and weakness, and my throat too (cough a bit and hard swallow - but not really bc I’m good with food and water) and I’m really scared. I read a lot online. I hate it fr. I’m scared I’m gonna die. pretty sure I have ALS. So scared.. wanted to ask if someone was in a familiar situation? And if anxiety can copy symptoms like these? Would love some help. 🥲

OCD has been hard today but I’m getting through it. How do you all get through tough days? Or do y’all have words of encouragement?

Hi, I have been struggling with OCD for 7 months now. First there were incestuous thoughts related to the mother. I was very bad for two months, I couldn't sleep and I had severe depression. I went to a psychiatrist and started therapy. After two weeks it was as if I woke up from a nightmare. All the obsessive thoughts stopped, the anxiety stopped and I was back to my new life again. I found a girlfriend and it was great. After about 3 months, the thoughts came back again, this time about my girlfriend. I started to wonder if I loved her, if I would be better off with someone else. And that stopped over time. A few days ago I went to the kitchen and saw a knife. I suddenly got scared and thought what if I hurt my girlfriend. I constantly analyzed that thought and asked myself if I could do it, if I wanted to. And it got to the point that I convinced myself that I wanted to hurt her and that I was just lying that I didn't want to. I became very anxious and scared again. My girlfriend has known about my problem from the beginning and is a great support. She even gave me a knife and told me to sit next to her. Of course I didn't do anything, I just threw the knife away and started crying and hugging her. But in my mind I still want to do something bad. Can OCD convince you that you want something, even though deep down I don't want to hurt anyone. I just want everything to be like before and to have a normal life without obsessive thoughts. I really love my girlfriend and I want to have a family with her. Can OCD cause false desire and will it ever stop. I heard that ERP is the best way to fight OCD. How can I do ERP alone without a therapist. I am really afraid that I will hurt someone and become a murderer. Thank you for reading this and I send many greetings and I hope you are well.

Hi everyone, just looking for coping techniques until I start my first therapy session. Recently I’ve been having panic attacks at work caused by rumination. It’s gotten to the point where I have thought my coworkers don’t think I do anything productive and I’m not doing my job right. I am petrified of going back to work again and feeling that again. Does anyone have good coping strategies I can utilize at work that worked for them that I can possibly try?

This… this notification on the screen… seeing this hurts… so so much… someone commenting on a post you’ve made and then blocking you… for anyone who does this… I genuinely don’t understand… what did I do?