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does anyone have any annoying ocd triggers? mine include anything scary or crime :( I love horror and true crime but can’t enjoy it without my state of mind being harmed :/

This is going to sound weird, but the OCD guilt that I have makes me feel as though I actually committed a horrible crime, and sometimes I have to remind myself "hey, you didn't k**l anyone, you just have intrusive thoughts/make a tiny mistake 3 years ago". I also have a huge fear of the police busting down the door for something "I did wrong"? Even though I didn't do anything wrong, its so weird. Does that make any sense? Please say I'm not alone.

I work at a summer camp and have POCD and it’s the most awful thing…I really care about the kids a lot, and I try to just remind myself that OCD attacks the things I care about the most. Heck, a few years ago I had harm OCD about my best friend and my family, and I now that doesn’t bother me at all…but POCD is the one I haven’t been able to shake even after all these years and having been through therapy for OCD before… I think one of the main reasons why is the groinal response. I know logically that it doesn’t mean anything and do my best to just ignore it and let it pass. And the sad thing is, it was actually getting a lot better, the intrusive thoughts and groinal responses. But my upped medication was making me sleepy, and I figured that I should try a different one since I had upped it for a reason, and it was making me WAY too sleepy. Now I regret ever trying to switch my medication. I switched from citalopram to Prozac, and my doctor said that they’re in the same family so it should be fine. But the Prozac did nothing. Nothing at all. So after 3 years of taking citalopram, I suddenly feel as if I don’t have any anxiety meds in my body. But all at once, like a truck hitting me. And I just really wish I would have stuck it out with the citalopram and just waited to go back to therapy instead… But now I’ve just been having constant groinal responses at work and I don’t know how to make them stop. It feels so uncomfortable, disgusting, and unwanted. And I try to ignore it and let it be there but it still just won’t stop. And I just don’t know what to do until the citalopram kicks back in again and until I can go to a therapist again…and this might be my last year at this camp too, which will break my heart if the last two weeks are remembered as being one big trigger. Today I did my best to just push past it and to have fun, and there were definitely some good moments today, but overall I just felt uncomfortable and like I wanted to run away and scream. Does anybody have any tips or advice?

Does anyone else have excessive guilt about doing something that is literally not even bad or in the wrong? When I get this feeling of excessive guilt it totally takes me on a fast downward spiral into perfectionism OCD and also some false memory OCD because I feel like I have to mentally go back in my mind and check every little detail like to make sure that I did not do anything wrong or bad to anyone. The main theme of my most recent OCD episode that I am currently in right now, is, if I am considered a cheater because I went back after two months and tried to make things work with my ex-boyfriend. It's super confusing and brings up a lot of tough emotions to deal with but deep down I don't think I did anything bad or wrong. I think that honestly my brain gets a bit confused and I get triggered with OCD episodes when I am talking to two different people that I care about and love. It doesn't make me a cheater, right guys? 😰 ugh.

Got blocked by someone and now its like oh god they think I'm a horrible person 😵‍💫😵‍💫 Trying to calm myself but ugh. I tried to help ! Why was I the one to get blocked :( Did what I say seem horrible ? Do they see me as someone who is horrible ? Am I that horrible person ? Man....

I want these urges and thoughts and feelings to leave. I hate feeling like I want to or have to hurt someone. I hate feeling like I have to get up right now and do it. Or the urge to punch my friend when I’m with you. I hate how real this feels. Like I’m someone I don’t even know anymore. I want it to all go away. I know we aren’t supposed to wish it away but I do. I don’t want to feel like this. Like I’m some evil monster laying in wait. I hate it.

So I saw a tiktok about comphet and it triggered tf out of me. Like I felt my heart drop, an uneasy feeling in my stomach and my mind started racing. And as a spiritualist it didn’t help that the likes were at an angel number. :( And just yesterday I was talking to my amazing boyfriend about how much we love each other, I also opened up to him about soocd and my journey, he was so understanding and accepting because he could relate to some of my experiences. I felt amazing and so aligned with him. I just wish these triggers would stop. It was for this reason that I deleted tiktok for months and I redownloaded it and I’m already getting so triggered. I don’t mind letting go of tiktok for the rest of my life honestly.

Hi! Anyone dealing with SO OCD and have a partner? I am having the hardest time with this. The thoughts and feelings feel so real and scary but there’s moments where I have felt love and attraction for my boyfriend, but right now it feels so hard to believe that was true.

Hi pals! I’m usually the one who gives advice on here since I’ve been through the trenches and come out the other side. I’m newly pregnant (yay) and with that comes lots of hormones and lots of thoughts/feelings/sensations. I have to confess that I haven’t been the best with self care lately and am going through what I think is an OCD relapse. I thought I’d get on here and say that, hey, relapses happen. We are merely humans trying desperately to live life “normally” and sometimes that just doesn’t play out exactly how we hope. My plan in the next few days is to get back on my self care routine, start attending group therapy again, and reconnect with a therapist because I deserve it. You do too. Sending love to everyone who lives with this annoying condition!

Has anyone with ROCD been feeling numb and the feeling of “I don’t love my partner” is becoming stronger despite you knowing and telling it, it’s not true It’s like I know I love my partner deeply with my whole heart but because of the numbness me absence of the anxiety right now the feeling like I mentioned before is trying to convince me more I don’t And i feel desperate because I know it’s not true and I just want it to go away Because i Iove him a lot and want a future together it’s just these “feelings” are putting me down They began to intensify once I started doing self care for myself and stopped neglecting my usual routine because I went through a deep depression And like now i get worried oh I don’t love him because I didn’t text him right away Can anyone relate to me

It's almost been two years since I got hit hard with OCD. I have listened to OCDstories plenty of times. Did therapy many times(don't compare yourself to my therapy experience), I read unwanted intrusive thoughts. Whatever at this point OCD is all about uncertainty maybe, maybe not. But therapists saying there is no CURE is being 100% certain that there isnt. How do we know there isnt any cure? It just seems cynical and no effort. There has to be a cause and effect.

I just discovered ROCD… and I used to overthink a lot about my relationship even though I knew I’m with the best person for me and a trust worthy person too! Is that considered ROCD, when the thoughts are reversed? For example “what if he breaks up with me?” Also I used to confess about everything I did like something so small that made me feel so guilty even though it wasn’t bad at all! But I had to tell me bf because I felt like something bad would happen if I didn’t! Is that considered OCD? If so what subtype? But a few months ago I had the worst intrusive thoughts such as “what if I don’t love him?” or “what if he isn’t the one?”…. This thought came out of nowhere! Where it started to eat me up! Then later on I thought I was crazy thinking about that because I know I do love him!

I’m fairly new to discovering I have OCD and my main types are rocd and pocd. Pocd is most relevant now and I’ve actually googled things like “child porn” into the search bar before I realized that this compulsion wasn’t productive at all. One thought attached to all this is the fear that the police will catch me, or that I’m on a government watch list because I have searched multiple things related to my POCD, on Google images, porn sites etc. Idk if this is my OCD or the truth and it’s one of the most debilitating things I’ve faced. Any suggestions how to deal with this?

I don’t know what to do anymore someone please talk to me so I’m know I’m not alone. My life is a nightmare my mental health is declining

i keep getting weird thoughts and like if i think about something i start to think about it more and make my self believe i am this how do i stop this? ugh

Please does anyone else have the same thoughts and feelings as I do who suffer with ROCD (bearing in mind I love my boyfriend, he’s the kindest most loving boy and I love him with all my heart) we spend all day laughing with eachother! I’m constantly like: You don’t love him, this isn’t right with him, you’re horrible for stringing him along, break up with him, break up with him, did you ever actually love him, you’re probably a lesbian, you don’t find him attractive, there’s nothing between you two Then in other moments when I’m not feeling this I literally could cry with how amazing he is! 😢🙈

Does anyone else here have an obsession over a person? Really struggling right now.

Does hocd causes lost of interest because this days i don't have interest in anything

How do I get over it? How do I get over the fact that I've seen a bunch of horrible videos that were completely out of my morals when I was addicted? I constantly get the fear of going to jail, being a bad person, or never being able to recover from all those years of watching, wasting so much time when I could've did better things. It's hard not to blame myself for this stuff. It's honestly the only thing in my life that keeps me down over and over.

Does ROCD try to convince its not ROCD and it’s your real thoughts and feelings even though you know it isn’t?