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Tell me why I noticed my Friends hands 😭💀💀💀and today I had a good laugh with him and I was wondering if that meant I liked him bc I have good conversations and laughs b stuff but I don’t want to like him and it’s weird to me like I’m scared abt the future bc what if I actually start ti like him 💀 and I just like ugh I feel so weird bc I really do see him as a good friend like I value friendship very much but then I can’t tell if it’s romantic feelings which I’m scared of abd don’t want to be with him like that abd ever since that confession my mind has literally been thinkng abt like foward stuff if we go like be a thing which I don’t want but idk this shit feels real idek if I can say that bc it feels automatic idk if this applies to false attraction 😭💀 fml I hate ocd

hello! I’m a new user and just joined after doing lots of research about OCD and it really made sense to the feelings I experience… but at the same time since I’m undiagnosed I feel like I don’t belong here. my obsessions are very different from everyone else’s and I feel like an outsider. I want to talk to a specialist but feel like I’m not allowed to because I don’t know if I have it. does anyone else feel/have felt this way?

Anyone else find ERP incredibly difficult? My OCD does not want any part of it. I feel helpless because I keep giving into compulsions and a small part of me knows that the only way out is to stop compulsions. My OCD says otherwise, however. It has even gone so far to convince me that I actually cannot ever accept uncertainty and I find it so hard to not believe it. I know I will only ever find out if I stop compulsions but it is so damn hard and now OCD is getting in the way of my school work. One week I'm highly motivated and ready to fight, then the next week I'm so low and cannot stop ruminating. Then when I want to try again I know I'll just give in again. Much love for anyone suffering from this nonsense.

Trigger warnings/ mentions of suicide and self harm. My internet friend who self harms and is suicidal today told me she cried for 30 minutes. She then told me that she have too much on her mind including suicide. I'm also so scared and worried and I don't know what to do...😭

Guys I don’t know what to do. It feels so genuine almost that I don’t want to be with him. I feel like this is anticipatory anxiety. And then I had a thought that he’s going to break up with me and I felt really anxious. Idk

Feeling very triggered and am not sure where to turn… Some of you have probably read my posts about me struggling with the breakup of my ex, over 3 months ago. I’ve been inundated with anxious intrusive thoughts since then, picking apart EVERY aspect of our relationship and being reminded of every single thing that make me anxious. It’s felt like torture. My biggest fear/OCD trigger was always around him cheating on me or betraying me. And he wasn’t perfect by any means but I don’t think he ever actually cheated on me. I just cannot stop thinking and obsessive about it, even long after the relationship has ended. I thought I was slowly getting better but unfortunately, anxiety got the better of me again this morning. I snooped the Instagram of some girl that I knew he’d chatted with in the past (an old friend and he always maintained the conversation was just friendly and nothing that crossed the line). I was never too worried about it, especially because she was married and in another city. But anyway, I crept her Instagram and found out that he had commented “cute!” on one of her selfie photos back in Feb 2020. Obviously this was a really long time ago but I’m absolutely spiralling about it. This was at the same time he was telling me he wanted to have kids with me and I thought we were in a great place. I feel so betrayed by just one silly comment. I’m terrified now of what else was going on. I truly cannot tell if I’m getting worked up over something innocent or if this is a real threat. I mean, I know it’s not real now but…it feels like it’s happening right now because I’m just discovering it. Please help. I want to call him so badly and confront him, but we just got to a good place after the breakup and I don’t want to rock the boat. I did a deep-dive into her Facebook and Instagram. He liked her photos for a period of time, liked a couple profile pictures but that’s it. There’s been no public activity since last year. Sorry this post is long. Thank you for reading. I really don’t have anyone else to talk to about this stuff and I know it might be trivial or it might be serious but I can’t tell

Hey everyone, could use some inspiration today. Having a lot of anxiety around real event and wanting to confess a possible “lie.” Sitting through most of the urges to ruminate but the anxiety is just very uncomfortable. I’m also 9 months pregnant and feeling really sick today which makes it tougher because I can’t do much moving around. Any words of hope would be awesome.

Happy Wednesday everyone!:) Just thought this post was cute and I'll definitely be ordering quite a few things off of this menu today 😊 Please take care of yourselves. Know that it is absolutely okay to take your time with things. No one is expecting anything of you, there is no rush 💗 What's up everyoneeee

Hi I just wanna vent how I’m feeling and what’s going on, For the longest I can remember now OCD has plagued my life I’ve recovered from it and have entered back to where I am and am arguably worse then ever. My themes are so many I cant even recognise but they centre arlund harm. I’m so scared I’m emotionally broken I keep searching for answers by searching how I feel and that has caused me to shut down emotionally as it’s gotten to a point where I couldn’t cry anymore and I couldn’t take anymore pain. I just want to cry it’s been 2 months I am in so much pain I just want to let it out but I can’t it’s like it’s stuck behind my eyes. I want to cry for weeks there’s that much there. I’ve become emotionally numb which has helped with anxiety but it’s the only thing I feel strongly and doesn’t help with harm ocd, I have scrutinised every feeling I’ve had trying to feel the perfect feeling and not feel like a secret sociopath or serial killer where most the thoughts I just don’t react anymore because I’ve had them all. Im severely depressed, I feel tiny moment of love and care but it feels like I’ve lost these abilities that give life meaning like love and empathy. I keep questioning is life even that good, why does it matter if I do these horrible thoughts, everyone is a secret sociopath, no one cares about u, you want to do these evil thoughts and I just feel hopeless. I’ll never feel how I want to feel, I want to help people I want to want to be kind. I don’t even know at this point what I actually want, is it I want to do these things or am I convincing myself into it. Do I want to hurt people or am I convincing myself out of it. I’m so tired of fighting it’s caused me so much pain, my family is amazing they do so much for me, but my brain is convincing me that they don’t and it makes me feel like they don’t care, I feel like I’m watching life from outside my body, I’m scared I don’t feel emotions strongly. I’m tierd I just want to cry and let out all these emotions, I just don’t want to hurt people. But I’m to tierd to care. Im angry because of how much OCD has taken from me, I’m angry because of how shitty I feel, the world just feel dark and gross, it just feels like it’ll never get better. I use to be a happy person I was very emotional person, I cried when someone else cried, my favourite thing to do is make a differnce in someone’s life, I felt hopeful about life I appreciated the e beauty of life. Now I question everything from why we experience emotions to why I do the things I do and I always feel opposite to how I feel. I can’t even describe how I feel anymore cause I don’t know what I feel. I just hope most days I don’t wake up, life is a struggle and OCD is torture, it’s a bully, it causes so much pain, it strips the beauty from life it makes me doubt everything and is pain. I just hope I get better and I hope everyone gets better to live a happy life.

Hi can someone talk?

Opinion needed So I’m noticing (I’m assuming my medication) with my medication that I feel like crap the first half of the day but near the end of the day I feel more motivated to get my life together and figure stuff out, I take my medication at 6:30 AM every day, do y’all think it would make the difference if I took it at night instead and maybe I’d feel better the first half of the day if I switched?

I am a mother, my daughter is suffering with OCD anxiety. Any advice on how I can help her? I find myself wanting to call and check on her a lot, but think I should not?

Hey guys I have been doing well with my ocd and anxiety thought and keeping them on a simmer but I am now realizing the stuff I have misses like I can't do or watch things normal teens do it's pretty annoying because all my friends want to watch things like pg 13 movies but I can only watch Disney Channel or kid movies because the stuff in pg 13 movies really trigger me and make thoughts come and like I said in doing sooooooooo much better with the occasional bad times obviously but it really bothers me and annoys me that I don't want to hang out with my friends or really be around them because then it's always let's watch this movie and I don't watch that stuff or horror movies because I also hate those for other reasons it's just hard idk what to do but I'll keep fighting my ocd don't worry lol

Which medicine would be best for my false memory ocd associated with harm? I’m on luvox right now but idk if I’m on the right one.

I am curious about the intersection of OCD and neurodivergence. From some sources, it sounds like OCD is officially considered a neurodivergent condition, and from others, it sounds like we're still not really clear whether or not it "counts". I'm curious about how often it happens that neurodiverse folks also have OCD. Or do you have OCD and consider yourself neurodivergent bc of it? Personally, I'm still waiting for my first NOCD appointment to formally confirm or rule out OCD as a diagnosis for myself, but I think it would make a lot of sense for me as a neurodivergent condition. I am fairly sure I have some form of neurodivergence but this is the form that seems to be the strongest fit for me.

I've recently started to identify less with being a Christian and now I can't stop thinking about what if I actually want to be a Muslim. Idk much about Islam, it's cool, but it literally feels like I'm going to convert and idk what to do. Ignore this? But questioning isn't a bad thing in itself I'm just freaking out

First time poster. If anybody can help, I'd really appreciate it. I'm terrified I did something very wrong over 30 years ago and hurt someone. I never thought about this until 2020 when I had an OCD episode which resulted in me checking my past to make sure there was nothing I had forgotten. At first different scenarios cam e to mind about which I obsessed over for many months to see if I had done any of these things. I finally managed to move on but then earlier this year, it was triggered again. More thinking followed and I suddenly got this new memory of doing something awful to someone. I say memory, it was more like a snap shot. Months later, I'm still really struggling. The thing that I keep telling myself is that I would have remembered before if this was true. Surely, it would have popped into my memory over the years and bothered me, especially as I have had other false memories (I hope) along the same theme over the years. It's just horrible. I am waiting for therapy but I still have a couple more months for it to start. If anybody can help, I'd really appreciate it.

I haven’t been on here for some while because I’m wanting to quit NOCD since I don’t think erp will be good for me even though it’s proven to work. I have spiritual ocd and I cannot sit with uncertainty because it goes against my beliefs and so much of the process of erp since it makes me do a lot of the things 80-90%, against my faith too and I’m not going to compromise it. I do want my ocd treated but too me, I’m more worried for my faith than my ocd health. This might be something hard for people to understand here. Though I’m doing pretty well with my meds however, I’m really concerned about erp from a faith based perspective. It feels difficult to get a doctor on here who has my beliefs so I’m planning find other places near me. I hope everyone has a blessed day and I will miss being on here with you!

I will delete this post soon Please don't judge me. :( So, Maybe, 2 days, ago, I sneezed on the floor and I saw my nose boogers fell on the ground. I was sick that day. I didn't wash the floor and I still didn't.. but my mom walks on the floor with her barefoot... I'm scared I did a huge mistake.. and I also, just now, I massaged my mom's barefoot and now I'm scared My hand is full of germs and viruses. I even touched Mt sister's earphone and I'm even more s are cause my sister is gonna use the earphone soon. I want to wash my hands right now but should I or should I not?

My son is 22 as of tomorrow. This OCD for him was caused by a strep infection at age 17. He is a Pandas/Pans kid and has Neuropsychiatric Autoimmune Mimickry. The autoimmune markers being highly elusive and the OCD was so bad two years ago it almost took his life losing so much weight so rapidly. The OCD became the biggest thing to battle. I have spent the last five years learning everything I possibly can to help him battling ignorance with the general public as well as medically. He is scheduled for his first ERP session on the 29th. My question here is what can I do and family members do to reinforce the ERP treatments? He has Pure O and severe harm OCD. There are others in the mix as well. In the past being told not to accomodate him. This is a regular battle and in some cases the damages are far greater than the control aspect of his OCD to make us stop, wait, repeat, go back, remain silent and frozen in place while he submits to compulsions. There is a definite dynamic to the other half of the condition where family and friends are concerned. We have our own suffering and PTSD from it. Something we also need training in. Please advise as to any information on this you may have. 🙏