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So i have an amazing boyfriend. Hes patient, understanding, and very reassuring. I also have a guy best friend who has been there for me through a lot. I guess i just want to know if this would be considered ROCD? Because i never really knew that was a thing. We did sexual things last night. We have done them before and i havent had intrusive thoughts. But last night i had intrusive thoughts about “what if this was my guy best friend instead” and what if this was his body instead and images of him were popping up in my head. Then the guilt came. Why would i think about him like that? I have to tell my boyfriend. I have to confess. I know this is part of OCD. I know its a compulsion. It’s frustrating because in my last relationship this exact same thought popped up in my mind during sexual things and i told my last bf when it did too. He was understanding and we worked thru things also but then my brain started finding other ‘bad things’ to think of during intimate times with him. I dont want to be thinking about my guy friend. I want to be thinking about my boyfriend. It doesnt help that the world now also questions me constantly the fact i have a platonic relationship with another man. It makes my suspected OCD worse in this specific aspect. I guess i just need advice, or someone to atleast tell me im not the only one who has experienced this. My boyfriend is an amazing man and i feel like hes so understanding but slowly its ruining things and draining him. He wants to help me with my suspected OCD and wants to be there for me but i feel like telling him about my obsessions is just feeding into them. But i dont want him left in the dark either.

So I’ve started to begin a relationship and my ocd was pretty good but now I’m starting to think I HAVE to tell him what my real event ocd is about. But I am so scared to :/

Does anyone else feel guilty for making stupid jokes that feel innocent but later you worry paints your significant other in a bad light?! I'm obsessing right now and feel absolute guilt after making what at first felt absolutely harmless

Before starting ERP for Real Event OCD, did anyone else think “they’ll never have heard something like this before”?

I’m really stressed and freaking out because my ocd is trying to tell me I found someone younger (16) and I’m 22 pretty or attractive but that’s so not the case. Like what do I do!? Ugh someone help I’m really scared right now 🤢

It’s one thing to think something bad, because thoughts aren’t actions but how do you deal with actually doing something bad? The guilt is consuming me.

I'm Lesbian,but since these disturbing thoughts started some of them are like "do I like guys?","I want to kiss some guys",but like that's not really my thing if you know what I mean,I really dont like guys and this to me is kind of weird Can ocd be like this?

I appreciate all of you here so much 💛🧡 (even whoever it is that blocked me, no hard feelings 😉) ”Safe space” is kind of a buzzword now, but after all the time and effort I’ve put into different kinds of therapy over the years, this is by far the safest-feeling and most motivating group I’ve been part of. Seeing so many other people working on the same things I’m chipping away at is helping me stay the course when I get discouraged. Even though I mostly try to keep it positive here (or at least constructive), I’m glad to feel like I can get into the really hard stuff or work through things through here when I need to, since there’s not really anywhere else in my life where I can do that. 💛🧡

Physical intimacy triggers can be so scary. It's hard cause it feels like, even when you do the thing and face the uncertainty anyway, it doesn't feel the way it always used to feel like to kiss your partner. It feels like it will be a thing that has some doubt tied to it forever :/

I’ve talked about my rocd before, and how I’m so done with it. But can someone give me some insight as to why. Why does my ocd make me think I can’t or I’m not allowed to be in a relationship. I’m 15 going on to be 16 in the spring, and it’s not like I’m not allow d or something by my parents. They don’t mind at all as long as I’m being treated ok. But since discovering my ocd in the first place I realized about my rocd as well. It didn’t have as bad affect on me when I was younger because I didn’t care and I wasn’t where I am now, but now I’m at the age where I’m getting asked out or I’m becoming friends with these guys and I can’t even go on a date with them or hang out because I just keep getting intrusive thoughts. There getting worse, it’s causing me nausea, and it’s overall driving me crazy. I just don’t understand why my brain thinks all these negative bad things, like I haven’t even been able to give it a shot. I don’t have a nocd therapist due to my location, and due to covid I can currently see a local therapist for a professional opinion, so I just don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing. I’m just so tired of never being able to chose what I want to do. I feel like my decisions at this point aren’t my decisions there all up to my ocd. I just hate it.

Has anyone on here experienced a serious increase in OCD while pregnant? I am pregnant and my OCD is really bad. My general anxiety is worse too and I feel like I can’t escape it. I am constantly either worrying, doing rituals, or faced with unpleasant thoughts. Any tips on what I can do to get through this??

Happy #flooffriday night :) here's a picture of me + gyppers 😊 I have looked better lmao this pic was taken on a hair wash day She got up on the chair all by herself, it was a nice relaxing patio outing hehe I hope everyone is doing amazing tonight, how'd everyone's days go? 💗 If you're struggling tonight, here's my favorite 60 second guided meditation for intrusive thoughts: https://www.pixelthoughts.co/#

My POCD thought feel to real. I feel like an actual p* I look at kids and check to see if I’m aroused or get a thought. Than I make a thought and it doesn’t scare me as much anymore and I don’t know why to do. I’m starting erp and I’m scared that I’m just going to end up realizing I probably am one. This is so tough I feel like admitting I am one and when I do I just cry because I know I’m not but why does it feel like this. I hate this I never had thoughts like this and I just want die

My mom just told me that she had a dream that I came out as gay to her and told her I wanted to break up with my fiancé. I feel like I’m spiraling. Does this mean I really am? Does she think I am? If she thinks I am, isn’t that good proof? I know I’m asking for reassurance but I’m freaking.

Having a pretty bad relationship oriented spiral for the past two days. Stopped myself from asking for reassurance, but I haven’t slept that much and it’s eating away at me. Any tips or advice on how to cope??? Like I said I’m unable to do anything because it’s all I’m thinking about

Hey everyone so I need someone advice. So basically my friend does weed. And I have never done weed before and they asked me if I wanted to try some I could. And they aren’t peer pressuring me or anything like that. But I’m just curious but I’m also nervous. I am a teenager and I would just like to know anyone’s experiences with it when they were a teen if they have any. And also do you think it would be ok if I tried a little.

Is anyone here dealing with identity issues? I dont feel like myself at all, I feel my perception is different on everything, I feel blocked inside, like Im not present within myself. Any advice please?

I’m so scared therapy won’t work and i’ll be stuck like this forever….cause apparently therapy & medication only works for 70-80% of patients. Knowing my luck it won’t work for me…. I’m so scared. This is my last resort. I’d rather die than live like this the rest of my life 😭 And i’ve been in therapy for like a month and a half and found no improvement—if anything I’ve been getting worse. The only thing I’ve noticed that I’ve improved on is recognizing the thoughts & being aware of my compulsions. Besides that, the thoughts haven’t improved one bit & i haven’t gotten any of my life back. AND THE FUCKING THIS IS IM SO SAD AND FEEL SO ROBBED OF LIFE CAUSE I HAVE THIS DREAM OF HAVING A HUSBAND AND HOUSE AND KIDS AND BEING A SUCCESSFUL WRITER AND MOTIVATIONAL SPEAKER YET MY BRAIN TELLS ME THAT’S NOT WHAT I WANT AND I WANNA BE A LESBIAN I CANT WANT ANYTHING CAN I WTF

It feels like I’m losing him and like it won’t get better. It feels like I simply don’t love him and it feels so real. Can ocd feel this real? I don’t know what to do I don’t want to lose him

With ROCD how do you enjoy the moment with your significant other? I’m constantly feeling pressure to decide and make a decision how I feel. And I feel like the feeling gets worse when we are together or doing something as a couple. They are still there when we aren’t hanging out but I’m able to tell myself it’s just thoughts. It’s just way harder when I’m actively doing something as a couple (I hope this makes sense)