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For those who are on medication, roughly how long did the increased anxiety last for when you first started taking the medication?

Hey, can anyone give me some advice? I stopped my SSRI sooner than I should’ve (I can explain the circumstances in the comments), but I think I’m having withdrawal symptoms. For a week now I’ve had vertigo-like symptoms, some nausea, eye strains (like blinking and moving my eyes side-to-side), and difficulty concentrating on work. I thought at first it was side effects of my first COVID shot, then thought it was motion sickness or “cyber sickness” (spending too much time looking at my phone, work monitors, and tv). But the timeline of when I stopped taking it matches up when I first started feeling symptoms. Any suggestions to work myself out of the hole I foolishly dug myself into? I do NOT want to go back on it, I’d rather try and tough out the symptoms, if possible, so I can be free of medications in my body.

SOMEONE please respond. I don’t know If this is intrusive thoughts but my sister compared me to a person appearance who is not soo good-looking and I don’t mean this in a rude way. Then later on she started saying she’s joking but my brain already believes her? I’m literally panicking thinking I’m ugly idk what’s wrong with me. I start to believe anything. I’m so insecure about my self already and feel like I look like a catfish cause I use makeup and filters but still its still me right? I hate this what do I do. Idk why I believe her now it’s my brain making me think that way :(

Does anyone have OCD friends in real life. How does that go for you? Is it helpful? I’m just curious as I haven’t ever met someone with OCD in real life or at least not that’s open about it

Just saw a post on Twitter about how fancying make celebs doesn’t mean you’re attracted to them as some people only fancy them because they’re unattainable, and all the comments under it were saying how this is how they found out they weren’t straight. I’m freaking out a bit now because I get such huge crushes on make celebs :(

I don't feel like I have ocd 😔

I’ve had a lot of OCD episodes in the past but these ones are especially disturbing. I had the thought a while ago bc i saw a funny video and i thought i wonder what it feels like to have a penis( i am a woman) and then my brain went bezerk and said “ omg what if ur transgender.” and then i met someone who was trans and they were talking about they have always just known. and i started getting scared and i began feeling like scared of “what if i don’t like being in my body? what if i’m trapped in a body i’m not supposed to be in?” it took me a while to get over it but i did. then it started nudging it’s head back into my brain and i kept imagining what would it feel like and i like feel like i imagine what it would be like. then i saw a stupid tik tok of how a trans person tried to pee standing when they were growing up and i think i tried that when i was literally just a dumb kid, and it made me scared like holy crap what if i am like that. and it’s making me so scared it’s even causing me to be uncomfortable with my self and i just can’t deal with it. I have undiagnosed OCD i struggle w HOCD, ROCD, POCD, Pure-O, and a lot of intrusive thoughts.

So it may sound stupid, but I can't really decide if it is false memory ocd, or not. I have a cat. I got her recently. Sometimes, if she push my hand with her nose, I get a tingle in my groinal area. It is not strange for me, because if anything push my hand, I get that tingle, it's some kind of nerve thing, I get it. But that's not the thing that disturbs me. I heard from some people, that they enjoy riding a horse, because it is pleasurable for them down there. And the thought came, that what if I enjoy when my cat push my hand with her nose. I know, that you can enjoy your groinal response, but not enjoy the thing that caused it, but I still felt really anxious because of that. One day I patted my cat's head, and there was these intrusive thoughts, so as compulsions, I put my hand on my cat's nose. I felt the tingle, and then I don't remember exactly what happened, but I remember that maybe I enjoyed it, and the thought came that I wanted to do it again, but then I was like "it's my cat which causes it, so I don't want to do it". And I didn't put my hand on my cat's nose, just a little bit later as a compulsion, and I didn't get the tingle (fortunately). After that, I got a panick attack. I know that probably my ocd is playing with me, but I really fear, that I enjoyed it. I know that I'm not into beastiality, it's really gross, but I fear, what if I really enjoyed that feeling at the moment. I feel like a bad person, who don't deserve anything in her life. I can't study, because I think I don't deserve it (I really like studying), I feel bad for the people who loves me. I also one of the top students in my country, and everytime someone says "oh you are a masterpiece" or "you are a miracle, a really good person" I feel so bad, that I don't really deserve it. I have so many plans in my life, but I can't accomplish them, if I have these thoughts and I can't love myself. I don't really want to be a bad person. So, any idea, how to feel better, how to accept myself? Thanks if you read it.

Relapsing so bad... I wish I could just disappear forever

Hi! Advice please! My 11 year old son is in such distress and I don't know how to help him. He is autistic and has OCD and has been doing compulsions in the bathroom for over 20 minutes. He's also wailing and slapping himself but when I try and go in he just shouts at me to leave him alone. He's so overwhelmed but won't let me near him. What do I do?

tw mentions of s*i*ide, inc*st ive been showing ocd symptoms for 6 months now, never got a diagnosis because my family doesn't believe me, and now im feeling more suicidal than ever. i can't stand being awake. i can't tell if this is denial or ocd anymore because everything feels so real and im trying to achieve uncertainty about something that one cannot be certain about. i have really bad incest ocd and i just can't take it anymore. im getting these very vivid intrusive images and feelings and i try to figure out if i like them or not but my brain shuts down and im just stuck there with a horrible lump in my throat trying not to burst into tears. this is the first time it has felt so real, i genuinely feel like maybe i am incestuous although it doesn't really add up and i don't wanna live like this. i want to be normal and get rid of this terrible disorder or whatever the hell is going on with me right now but i don't see myself getting better i feel like im doomed for life and maybe im better off... you know...

Minutes ago I saw a knife and felt I could’ve really done something with it, I could’ve really harmed someone with it. I am now wondering if I wanted to? Or if I’m going to? Maybe I am a bad person, how do I know I am not? Maybe I could’ve done something and I just didn’t. I could see myself going. Am i capable? do I like to be like this? Do I want to be like this?

Not sure if this is a trigger warning but just in case.. Has anyone had the emotionless numbness on antidepressants? Im not on anything but talked to a few friends about the meds and they all said they had to quit because of the numbness. They can't feel the good or the bad of heir emotions. its like they are on a cloud. They don't have ocd so hoping its just different. Has anyone felt that way?

PLEASE someone respond. I hate getting these thoughts I can’t take it anymore. Out of nowhere I’m okay and suddenly I get a thought about what if Ive harmed someone and go to jail when I never did but my thought making it believe i did something and feels real. I have also been struggling to save money for so long and finally when I’ve started saving I’m getting this weird thoughts about not going over a 1000 in my savings otherwise what if I use that money to give someone to harm someone else , like??? I hate this I really do. I even had to ask my sister for validation and she said I need a lot of money to do that. She said like thousands million. I know I might never get that much but if I ever do I don’t want these thoughts It’s horrible.

Can someone answer this !! Plzz

Why do intrusive thoughts attack the people you love the most? In my opinion it would be so much more bare able if it didn’t. Makes me feel like a monster 😞

Is is part of ROCD? My therapist told me that what i had looks like to ROCD but i still doubt it because i explained to him everything but i feel like I'm lying and telling these just to comfort me and to have an excuse to not leave my partner. At the beginning i had thoughts during the whole day and i really was against them and was arguing with them, even crying the whole day or when my girlfriend was calling me i was crying because i felt so guilty to not love her. Now i still think about it during the whole day and have intrusive feelings, or i don't know if they are real but it tells me that i should leave her because i will probably cheat, that my sexual orientation is wrong, that i don't love her anymore, that the relationship is boring, and it triggers me when she isn't here and text with delays (long distance relationship). I'm so lost between all these feelings and all i want is to live the past moments we had because they were the best feelings ive lived. I wasn't doubting anything. I always regret the past and i would do everything to live it again. I feel like nothing is the same anymore. Few weeks ago i was triggered when she was answering with delays to my messages (long distance relationship) and now i totally don't care. I don't even think to her during the day which i really used to. I don't know if i want to stay with her or not. It is weird that i used to care so much , i was crying because my brain was saying that i don't love her and now i don't care anymore at all.

I used to NEVER have dreams about being a lesbian, questioning I’m a lesbian, and lesbian sex. Now it happens so often and probably one of the suckiest parts because of how REAL they feel, like in them I enjoy it and am aroused. If you any of you get these and feel this, you are not alone! They used to bother me a lot more, now it just bothers me when I get up and a bit afterword.

It stops me from doing whatever I want to ... It tells me that if you do this thing I will destroy you with horribly feelings ...So I trust it and do nothing all day but cry... I have tried once to fight it I did the thing I wanted but it was right ... It started to destroy me with those heavy feelings ... I feel that nothing can work for me ... I am desperate

Scared and feeling like im faking my attractions towards men *sighs* I hate this it’s so real, but it wouldn’t be ocd if it wasn’t