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i have this obsession/fear of becoming obsessed with my bf and being “ crazy” and wanting to repeatedly call/text him. it terrifies me. ive heard of obsessive love disorder and it horrifies me. ive done endless research on how to prevent this fear from happening. this rlly scares me bc i recently started getting obsessive/intrusive thoughts saying “ why isn’t he texting me “ “ where is he “ “ i hate him” etc and im getting scared that maybe this fear is actually happening or its my OCD fear worsening and making the thoughts seen more real. its frustrating bc i question myself do i actually care?? i rllly feel like deep down i dont but these thoughts seem so real and im scared. i also even question if i truly love him or am i just “ obsessed “ bc these thoughts are making me anxious. also because i know “ obsessed “ people think they live this person but they dont. i started crying this morning when he texted me back and i feel like i cant do it anymore. im so tired of this fear and all these thoughts. ive done everything to prevent this fear but my thoughts seen so real that i dont even know anymore.

does anyone know if ocd can give you an urge to run away and act on it for no reason it’s like this strong feeling that i have to do it or else. or if it can give you physical sensations that feel like you’re going to pass out if you don’t go to your room right away its going to happen and it feels so real

I’m desperate for help to stop obsessively picking my skin. My face is torn to shreds. I’m so ashamed and I literally cannot stop. I always find myself in front of a mirror like oh we’re doing this AGAIN. I hate going out in public because of my fucked up skin, it holds me back a lot.

I need some advice. I have been having a lot of relationship troubles and not because my ocd because it has nothing to do with it. I got into an argument with my boyfriend yesterday and I apologized for my half of it. He was super cold to me and then sent me this long long message on something I did in the past.. like a year ago. And not cheating but me being with this guy when we weren’t together and etc etc, how I said goodbye to him. I apologized for that sincerely. But he holds a grudge and that’s why he has no motivation to make effort in this relationship and the way he said it seemed like it is valid but it isn’t. He told me I am fake, I am selfish, I didn’t deserve a second chance after what happened a “year” ago. This relationship is one sided... I put all the effort, I chase him, and I even asked if we could talk in person and he wanted space and that just bugged me because he always does that when he is upset when I want to talk, and yes people have boundaries I know that.. but it’s a way for him to do the silent treatment and I know it. He turns it on me then, and said I am fake.. I don’t understand. All I have done is show him love and I make mistakes but I’ve worked on them and he hasn’t. My family and friends think he treats me like crap. My only fear is he will find someone better than me and that’s my theme but I mean after a breakup stuff like that can happen and it scares me I’ll be all alone and won’t find anyone like him. And yes some people will be like you will find better but here’s the thing. This is the guy I wanted to marry, behind him not putting in effort and this stuff we have a lot in common and idk our love is strong. I know that just because you love someone doesn’t mean you should be with them if they treat you like that.. but it’s so hard I feel so attached. I feel like if I end things he will blame me and move on like I’m trash and I don’t matter. Because what he said to me honestly made me feel like everything he has said about me that was positive is a lie. Because he has all these cards w sweet stuff over the years and then a recent one from my 18th and he didn’t deny it when I said do you not still think those things.. he never said I do. He said stuff has changed since then. Like what am I now trash? He said I deserved him saying all of that because I got mad at him over something. It was about my health and how he made a risky decision and he didn’t even say sorry he said he can do what he wants.. but that’s about my health and my family because of covid. And he calls me selfish.. I don’t know what to do. He basically bullied me.. and showered me with all of this stuff as if he doesn’t care about me. Yet I love him so much. He makes me feel like trash though.

When my mind gets overwhelmed with worrisome thoughts I end up getting this feeling sort of like right in my stomach it feels like panic, its like a rush and then I get really scared and often need to go to the bathroom. Anyone have any advice on how to calm that reaction? I feel like I’m stuck in this anxious thinking then panic feeling loop.

So like is it not possible to %100 recover? Cuz like i started to have HOCD thoughts like April 2020.And i was suffering for so long but i didn't know what OCD was until August 2020.And by the time i learned it i was in too deep. With the help of people in youtube and articles i made myself a little better. But i still have Intrusive thoughts everyday with high anxiety. Ot have different obsessions. Generally just questioning everything i do and think and my morals. And don't get me started with the things I've done in the past. A kind person in a OCD video comment section recommended this. But i am not really comfortable with video calls idk if this has something to do with my social anxiety. I've seen 2 doctors and they weren't helpful i just don't know what to do. I also live in Turkey and we have this huge exam and i don't have that much time left to get ready. I realized late that how important was this. And i know if i don't go to collage my OCD will just get worse. I also had a crush but i was having ROCD thoughts as if we were in relationship but we were just in talking stage. I had to give up on that. I had too much going on and that felt like an responsibility but it was fun to have daydreams that can help run away from this stress. But now i am just left with my family issues,past mistakes, responsibilities and my brain who doesn't know how or when to shut up. And i can't take it. I keep trying to get find the reason of these fears but nothing. I get no where then i get so overwhelmed and can't do simple tasks. Whoops just realized i can't ask what do do or help here. So umm yeah. Thanks for reading i am just overwhelmed.

I'm in a weird position rn...I don't really fear discovering that I'll be a bisexual because that makes me think that I can be with men then and that if I turn out to be bisexual I still wouldn't date women...it's the fear of being a lesbian that's predominant in my hocd but lately my mind tells me that since I don't fear being bisexual that much I might be one and since a few weeks whenever I come across the word bisexual it feels like I'm happy or something but I don't want to be ...I just want to be straight...does this happen? I don't know if what I said makes sense.

does anyone have a compulsive need to pick at things? (for me it’s clothes, towels, and carpets) if you do what do you to help it?

Does anyone have past event OCD thoughts? This has been new for me in the last couple years and was wondering what helps others?

Does anyone have harm ocd? I was triggered by a video online about self-harm and I am terrified! I’ve been stuck in this fear cycle for fever all weeks. How do you know if it’s real or ocd? I guess just asking that question speaks volumes that it has to be ocd. I’m not suicidal at all, but I swear my brain keeps giving me These really distressing thoughts. I was recently diagnosed with ocd and it is so scary to me.

Intrusive dream??? Last night I had a dream regarding my intrusive thoughts. I was having a dream about making out with a girl, it felt like I enjoyed it in my dream but when I finally woke up from it I was dripping in sweat. Does this mean my thoughts are real ?

Hi all! New to this platform and hoping I can get some insight on my OCD patterns. I feel extremely hopeless at this point, like my brain is leading me into a direction I don’t want to go but I have no control over it. But I’m also not sure if it’s real thoughts or OCD rearing it’s ugly head. My boyfriend and I have been together 3.5 years and it hasn’t been the easiest ride with him, but not for any crazy reasons. No cheating, abuse, screaming at each other - Just differences in social life and some priorities. But ultimately we want the same things in life and we do love each other. Once the honeymoon period wore off after the first year, the doubts started piling in. I managed to push them aside somehow and didn’t believe them until the last few months. I’m not entirely sure what started it all, but it’s at the point now where my negative, intrusive thoughts are on an endless loop. We’ve discussed recently that things aren’t going well and I’m having small outbursts to minor things, so we started seeing a couples counselor. This offered me some minor relief as the counselor offered a plan to compromise some of our issues, but now I feel out of control. My head will not let me rest. It wants an immediate answer as to what the state of my relationship is in. I’ll google everything under the sun for answers on how I’m feeling, to no avail. I don’t want him out of my life but that little voice is screaming at me to “run”. But I don’t believe it, nor want to. I’m not sure if it’s COVID and the fact that we’re both stressed or haven’t been able to get away and spend real quality time with each other. Im not sure if it’s the fact that we own a home together and it’s making me feel trapped. I’m not even sure if my thoughts are real. One moment I’ll be looking at him and thinking how I want to fight for him and our relationship, then the next thing he’ll say something I deem insensitive or not up to my standards and I’m right back to “run, he’s not for you.” And these thoughts are now taking over my day to day and making me feel insane. They’re compulsive, incredibly intrusive, negative-focused thoughts that are followed by an urge to research and fix. But I’m not finding any fixes. I do believe there are real practical issues in our relationship and it could be triggering my flight response. I want to get a handle on these thoughts, or at least try to, before giving into the obsession and cutting ties with someone I really care about. I guess what I’m asking is, does this sound like ROCD? Thank you in advance ❤️

I saw a post on here for people with pocd warning them about something so I thought I’d do the same. I also suffer from pocd and I would advise not joining online groups or servers for ocd support (unless it’s conducted by a certified peer support specialist or it’s like this app.) TW: I joined one and it only enabled my ocd behavior because I constantly tried to find reassurance on it, and the worst case scenario happened because I met an actual pedo and people who defended predatory behaviors. I’m sorry if this triggers anyone but I felt like I needed to bring awareness to this because I don’t want people to experience the same trauma I did.

Sometimes at work, I feel like I need to get every detail perfectly. But it’s stressful when there’s a complex subject and I don’t feel like I can get it all. I never feel good at my job. Very rarely. I know this is very negative, it’s just a harder day than usual

After 3 months of ERP it has finally paid off and I can now say I feel recovered! If anyone wants some advice let me know ❤️

Telling parents about OCD when you haven’t had a formal diagnoses, help. So, my mum is such a deeply compassionate person and she is so caring and has helped me in all the ways that she could with my obsessions, but, she absolutely will NOT accept that I have OCD. I cant even use the word in conversation without her getting heated up. She assumes that I have pulled this label out of nowhere to explain my ‘over-thinking’. I have openly suffered with health anxiety (OCD), and a theme that makes me scrutinise all of my thoughts to decide whether they were normal - it’s basically a fear that I’m autistic, despite having 0 of the symptoms (it’s hard to explain), but have privately suffered with SO OCD (sexual orientation), which I managed to basically overcome on my own with self-administered ERP. I don’t feel comfortable opening up to my mum about that, so she is only aware of my two themes. My mum has a habit of minimising everything, and despite suffering with severe-post natal anxiety and depression, she has a hard time grappling with labels. It was only recently that I found out I was likely struggling with OCD, seeing as I had EVERY SINGLE SYMPTOM OF IT. In order for her to even open her eyes up to the idea of it, I have to say “look it’s not that serious, it’s fine I’m fine it’s just a label”. She hates if I try to say that I’ve been really struggling. She hates it. I laugh (A lot) with my friends, and to her that is direct evidence that I haven’t been suffering. But trust me I have been absolutely miserable. I’m almost tearing up writing this. I cant get her to accept that I likely have OCD, she just says I’m on over-thinker and it’s all because of quarantine and I’ll be fine once we’re back in school - yeah, more distractions from the issue, but will I really be fine?? Probably not. Just like the last time. Anyway, any thoughts?

I managed to overcome my trans theme in a matter of days, just by agreeing or accepting that there’s a possibility that I am. Now I don’t have that theme anymore and I managed to make it last only a few days. I’ve had HOCD for 8 months now and every day if feels more real. I want to try what I did for TOCD because it worked well but I’m scared to because HOCD feels different and I so desperately don’t want my thoughts to be true. I don’t know what to do :(

Im hating my hocd is anyones hocd making them stare at places they shouldnt? Or try to avoid looking there?

Two things: How do you no longer worry about something people not only tell you that you shouldn't worry about this real event, but you don't even know exactly why you worry about the event? I've told all my friends about the event word from word and they don't even think I should worry about it because I didn't do anything, as most of them have said. So how do I just stop? Is it wrong to ask to talk to older girls on here as a guy? I feel like that's immensely wrong and I shouldn't do that, but I feel really happy talking to them because I just like women a lot. But I get uncomfortable with anyone lower than my age.

I really can’t get over this past « mistake » . I don’t even know if it’s a mistake or a bad thing anymore . I love live and i don’t want to die but i feel like it’s the only way because i’ve ruined my life anyway