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When my intrusive thoughts gets too much, and I have to do response prevention. I listen to 'no easy way out'- Rocky soundtrack. 💪

I really need support right now. I’m having a bad moment :( I’m having one of those moments where I just can’t see the bright side of ocd and accept it. I’m just so mad at how I have to live with this and how sometimes it affects everything.

I want to build my sims a new house but now I have intense ocd thoughts and it is problem to just open the game so I think I'll let it be for a while😂

Mental checking kicking my ass everyday ruining my time. Fuck this shit

Anyone with confessing as a compulsion here? My OCD got better, which means I don't feel like my life is worthless everyday. But I still don't have the security I used to have around my bf... I still don't believe that I can live with this feeling and the uncertainty that I may did something unforgivable. I feel so sad and angry when I go through Instagram or when I see those couples in the streets, like they seem so sure that they never did something really bad what could hurt their partner. I know you should not compare yourself but I just can't help it. I envy those people so much... Do y'all know that feeling?

So I was doing an exposure and I think I finally nailed down the exact obsession even though it takes on different forms. I was in a toxic relationship in the past so I fear that since I still struggle at times to make sure I don’t fall into any bad habits I formed that it will cause something bad. The biggest one is that I fear being attracted to or wanting to date other people. One of them is my toxic ex so I just fear that he will try to inch his way back into my life and I’ll lose control in some way. The fact that that is something that *could* happen theoretically is terrifying and creates a lot of confusing compulsions.

I’m having a breakdown please I don’t know what this is anymore and I’m terrified I can’t do this every one thinks it’s questioning but I know it’s not I just feel terrible and anxious and I can’t stop crying, I don’t want to do this anymore

It all just feels so real. I literally think I've overthought my way to another sexuality. Ugh

i feel like everyone hates me :(

How do u know if a thought is intrusive. I cant tell if a thought is intrusive anymore. It sort of feels like as if I brought the thought up myself, but it's also something I wouldnt want to think. Y'all know what I mean?

I cut my “best friend” off of 11 years this week. I have given her chance after chance to get better and she continued to treat me like shit. So I feel free from that, however my other best friend of 11 years stopped being friends with both me and the toxic friend just because I was still friends with her. I’m 20 and go to a community college and it’s been very hard for me to make friends even before the pandemic. I haven’t had any other friends outside them since hs and my hs friends honestly weren’t great to me either (we distanced, all of us) and of course I’ve looked at myself and considered myself to be the problem and blamed myself but even my therapist doesn’t think that’s true... but anyways. I’m here. Lonely af. Officially no friends. And the sad thing is I don’t know when I will have any. It could be months or years from now and I’m so focused on school... I have no idea if I will ever be happy with someone (like a vest or close friend) or even be in a relationship. Anyways this is what I’m going through and I’m feeling very alone

I’m finally having a moment of clarity and it feels so good. I can’t believe that I feel love. I forgot about my OCD and when I saw my fiancé I truly felt so in love again ❤️ by not over analyzing my thoughts I was able to live in the moment and feel how strong our connection really is. I have been struggling so much with this and it’s so nice to get this break. I want you guys to know that by doing ERP and learning to love ourselves we can all heal from this torturous hell.

Currently really struggling. I have had Relationship OCD and other themes for almost a year now. I was doing so good until a couple of months ago. My new obsession is questioning if my boyfriend of almost 5 years is abusive, or a narcissist. (TMI story ahead, just a warning lol) Earlier, my boyfriend and I were laying down and he asked to ya know.. touch my boobs. I said yes, then he was doing that for a bit. I then said “mkay” in a silly joking tone and went to go grab his hand away, and he said “nooo wait I’m just squeezing it” and I let him do it for a couple more seconds then I said “wait no I said no” and he said “oh okay” and he stopped. I then mentioned that it bothered me that he kept his hand there, but he said he was sorry and he thought I was okay with it. We have been working on boundaries and before he would just randomly grab my boob lol. Not disrespectfully, just at appropriate times while we were at home just hanging out he used to do this. Before OCD it really didn’t offend me, it would annoy me sometimes but I never really thought anything more of it. I loved that he was attracted to me and often showed it. Now about a month ago I told him it kind of bothered me (I think this was a compulsion because I was researching it and obsessing about it) and he has really worked on it, sometimes he slips because he has been doing it for so long, but now he’s always asking before grabbing anywhere near my chest area. I just want to not think about these things. Be like a normal person and just forget. He is so amazing, respects my boundaries, and I can tell he is really trying to love me through all of this no matter how hard I push him away. He always sits and listens to my concerns and really is constantly working on this relationship. I love him so much. But it’s hard to love him when my ocd is not even letting him touch me without being so sensitive about it. I know his intentions because I have been with him for almost 5 years, and I know in my heart he never has bad intentions. I don’t want so many boundaries up. I feel so far from him. I feel like he is afraid to touch me, and I don’t want him to be. I want him to touch me. I want things to go back to normal.. How do I expose this, any advice? Not asking for reassurance, I just am trying to finish strong through school and I am so tired of having panic attacks everyday. It is getting so bad. Thank you for reading if you got this far. Sorry it was so long.

I need advice. Should I quit my job? Its making me very depressed and anxious everyday. I'm a cashier at a grocery store. I've been there for almost 4 months now and I thought it would get easier but it hasn't. Customers are so rude and it makes me feel like shit about myself. I also feel like a failure for not being able to handle it:(.

how long does it take for the intrusive thoughts to stop to making me feel like I’m not who I am? im dealing with gender identity ocd on top of so-ocd and it hurts so bad. ive never wanted to be anything other than a girl, ive never even considered anything else. but ever since the anxiety faded it feels like i actually want to be a boy bc whenever i imagine relationships with guys i see a boy and it’s so unsettling.

Please someone talk with me. I need someone to talk. I am so sad right now. I dont know what to do anymore. I feel no anxiety, there are too many signs. I dont want to become something like that, I am so scared. Please help me

I saw a tik tok post about hocd. It made me kind of happy that we were being represented, because i don’t see things about it very often. I scrolled through the comments, and one of them said “I used to do all these things, then I found out I was bi.” It triggered me. I’m trying to do my erp, and trying not to do mental compulsions. I’ve been doing pretty well the past few days... I can do it.

TW: Discussions of Covid and infection. I’d like to talk to someone about it if they’re up to it, but if you’re not up to it or reading about it that’s perfectly ok. I’m shaking and panicking so much right now. This past weekend I went to go grab my gaming system from my father’s house even though I wasn’t feeling perfect since my brother had begged me to do it for weeks so he could play online with me. That day and the day before, I had sneezed a few times and my nose ran a few times, though it wasn’t really running but was just kinda damp to the touch. My throat hurt a little bit too, but I had reasons to think these were nothing to worry about. My throat hurt (I thought) because I slept with my mouth open and my mouth was super dry, and my nose ran (I thought) because my apartment was 64°F and my nose tends to run when it’s cold. Plus, I read that sneezing isn’t really a symptom of covid so if I did have something it probably wouldn’t be covid and thought maybe I’m just overthinking because of OCD. I hadn’t left my apartment in something like 25 days before that, isolating myself in my room for the vast majority of that time, and had only had contact with the one person I live with for a total of maybe 20 minutes that week. His girlfriend came over and coughed a few times, but he told me she coughs when she’s anxious sometimes and hadn’t taken her allergy meds that day. In addition, he had gotten a test (since he was planning on visiting someone for thanksgiving) a few days before and it was negative. I know asymptomatic people have a high rate of false negatives, but in combination with everything else I thought it was ok to go down there as long as I took precautions. Plus, I had been putting off going down to see my father for a couple of months anyways and he kept asking when I’d come. So, when I went down there, I agreed to meet outside only for 15 minutes, most of which was at least 10 feet apart while I wore a thick mask. I got about 6 feet away for maybe 3 minutes from my father, who was wearing a mask, and his girlfriend (whom he lives with) for maybe 30 seconds, though she was not wearing a mask. I also touched my dog a couple of times. Today I learned that both my father and his girlfriend (whom he lives with) started having symptoms yesterday, 3 days after my visit, though his girlfriend exhibited symptoms first. Her symptoms have not improved and she has to go to the ER now and has lost her sense of taste and smell. When I called them, she did not sound good. My father had a rough night but has not had many problems this morning. But I’m SO scared that I gave them covid. This has been my biggest OCD fear for the last half a year or so, and I’m worried that it’s true and that I’ve been irresponsible enough to give someone a deadly disease. Even worse, I’m worried about where they’ve been since I visited and if they may have infected others and I caused a chain of infections, and the other people who live in the house (the girlfriend’s children and a family friend). There are only a few places they could have gotten infected other than me. Both the girlfriend and one of her daughters work at Walmart, and one of the daughters goes to school, though school hadn’t been in session for at least 6-7 days before their symptoms started. I don’t know what to do now or how to live with myself if they are infected, especially if it is severe.

I haven’t been able to sleep since I upped my dose of medication. Has anyone else had this problem before? I’ve taken it for months but since it increased the last time I just can’t sleep anymore.

as far as i know, we're supposed to react to our intrusive thoughts by saying "maybe yes, maybe not, i won't figure it out" and accept them. Some even recommend we "agree" to them. I am not going to doubt the effectiveness of this technique but how do you do that. The content of my thoughts bother me so much. Like a person with POCD for example, is supposed to accept the possibility of being a potentional child predator? That sounds dreadful. And i know you're going to probably tell me that this is my OCD talking but I'm afraid that by trying to accept these thoughts I may end up agreeing with them for real. These thoughts feel so out of character yet so real it's hard for me to accept them and let them be. It's a natural response for me to react negatively to them because they're disgusting and confusing. What if i end up liking them and realize that they might actually be true. This is so stressful.