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I’m putting it all out there. When I was young I was a very sexual child. I have no idea why, but I just was. I remember my siblings and I used to take turns playing “house or doctor” this happened between ages 7-9 until eventually we just grew out of it. Never thought of it for years. I’m 26 now and for some reason one day it just popped into my head and I haven’t been able to shake it since. I start creating new memories worse then the original ones and I start making myself believe I continued this behavior into my teenage years ( even though I know I didn’t) OCD has me now convinced I’m a disgusting human being and a p*dophile for what I did at these ages. What makes it worse is I can’t go back in time and check myself which is all my OCD wants to do. Double check everything ALWAYS. Do others struggle with this too?

Anyone who struggle with porn and masturbation? Can we talk, I need help :(

Anybody else struggle with religion OCD? Would love to hear what it’s like for others! I’m a Christian, but more spiritual the older I get. Borderline agnostic with a lot of fear that I’m moving away from Christianity. Fear of hell even though I don’t believe in hell. Fear that there is no God, even though I believe in God. Please no responses with scripture! I’ve had way too many people in my life try to “fix this” by sending me sermons or verses

Any tips for maintaining a healthy relationship with ROCD? I know it can be hard and this is my first real relationship so any advice would be appreciated :)

I truly just want to die, this shit is never going to get better i have zero support, nobody understands me, my family’s lives are perfect and im just here miserable as fuck i get so irritated and jealous because nobody is going through this but me and they can care less. Im done with everything.

I was sitting and got the random intrusive thought "Go smear soap all over your TV and yourself." It was a thought. It's my understanding that we aren't supposed to do anything with intrusive thoughts. My therapist, who works with OCD, said "In the grand scheme of things, it wouldn't matter whether you smeared soap all over your TV or yourself." I don't understand what they meant by that. I thought the whole point was to allow the intrusive thought to be there without doing compulsions. I'm not sure what the purpose of digging into the content is. With OCD out of the picture, it'd still bother me to to smear soap everywhere. Basically why did my therapist say "In the grand scheme of things." It's causing me a lot of distress and throwing me off in what I'm supposed to be doing therapy wise.

Anyone here with SOOCD/HOCD ever hear someone tell them that they thought they were gay? Or that someone else told them they thought you were gay? How do you deal with this? I just got triggered hard and I haven’t had my hOCD triggered this hard in forever.

Does anybody else feel like they can't tell what their true wants are anymore? Or just me

I have been having really horrible real event OCD for over a year now. Stuff I did that was bad, but I feel an abnormal amount of guilt for. I saw a therapist which helped a TON and has brought me to a manageable state. However, I think I have accepted that I need to take medication. My brain chemistry is just too out of wack. I’ve looked into everything from medicinal marijuana to prescription drugs as possibilities. Does anyone have any experience with medication and it’s effects on your OCD? Has anyone found it to be helpful?

does anyone know how to deal with parents who don't believe you have OCD? My therapist has talked to them, and I often try to explain to them what OCD is and how stressful it is, but they still think that I'm ""faking"" it. Could they be in denial or something?

I want to be normal.. i dont want to have arguments with my mind.. i want to be a normal 12 year old.. i found out that i first started showing signs like 5 years ago maybe more but why does everyone else look so normal and act so normal and i dont? What did i do? Why do i deserve this? I just want to meet my friends and act normal ive planned when im older for me and my friend to get a tatoo and have late night drives and go to starbucks snd get nails done but that'll never happen you see people on instagram and they do all of these things but i wont be normal enough to do things like that and i really want ocd to go away im suck of crying all the time and not being able to tell people why i hate hate HATE IT god if there is one must have chose favourites

Also! In order to not freak myself out like last time I didn't hide away, I still tried to watch tv with women in it, I play my videogames with female characters and I still talked to my female friends. I'm still very uncomfortable and I feel a loss of attraction and I hope it will come back, but hopefully I can go to therapy soon and get properly diagnosed. :)

Need some insight. So any straight person I talk to says that they can never understand how someone can be gay/bi, they get disgusted/uncomfortable if they think of themselves being gay/bi. But I don't get disgusted, I think it's whatever and doesn't bother me. Does this make me gay? And whenever I have thoughts I don't get grossed out or anxious it just feels like no big deal. Can anyone relate? I'm really stressing out

Can OCD make you think that despite not liking the thoughts thats truly who you are you now and you have to live your new life as who OCD convinced you of

I'm panicking because when I was sitting to watch TV I got the thought "What if you got up and smeared soap across your television right now?" And now, I don't know what I'm supposed to do with that thought.

I have several subtypes of ocd, but my most recent and most debilitating obsession I would say has been related to absolutes in politics. Does anyone else struggle with obsessions that don’t seem that irrational? Or just struggle with black and white thinking?

Hey everyone who’s doing ERP, How are you doing now? What has it been like for you? Have your thoughts gotten worse before they get better? I would like to see how other people have experienced recovery so that I know what’s ahead.

I have HOCD and ROCD. What are some intrusive thoughts you guys have?

Hi friends. Exchristian here with some serious religious trauma and religious OCD. Double whammy. But more generally, do any of you struggle to trust yourself and your feelings after experiencing severe OCD periods?

I am so afraid that I dont want to be a Christian anymore and that I will do bad things and go crazy and it's tormenting me 😭