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Super anxious today. I’m scared to even write out why.

RECOVERY STORY AND HOPE/TIPS!!! Hello everyone! This is my ‘success’ story, I wanna help anyone who is struggling with ROCD or HOCD, or OCD in general. I struggled so much at the beginning because i didn’t know what was happening to me! i started feeling disconnected from the world and just so numb, my heart would pump so fast and i felt like i was completely crazy. i had thoughts of... “do i love my bf?” “am i gay?” “what if i lost ‘feelings’?” ...(etc i think u guys get it) Until i came across the name of this thing i was experiencing, i had felt such a relief that the thing i was going through had a name and that many people in the world were experiencing it. I knew i was not alone. Many of you are probably so anxious to know how to get ‘rid’ of this.. but in reality you don’t get rid of the thoughts! You have the thoughts but not as often as you usually had! eventually you’ll realize that they are just thoughts. <<HERE ARE THE THINGS/TIPS I HAVE>> #1- You have to learn that love is not a feeling, love is a choice. You have to stop searching for this ‘feeling’ because you will not find it. You have to accept that in that moment you feel uncomfortable and that it WILL pass. #2- You can not avoid things that trigger you!!!!!!!! once you are triggered, DO NOT! I REPEATTTTT DO NOT!! hop on google, or go to your partner for reassurance! this is the main thing that kept me in that ocd cycle. #3- It is okay to feel uncomfortable, but you have to accept that feeling and continue doing what you was doing! #4- Once you get those thoughts, you have to label them as “OCD” for example: {my constant thoughts were “you don’t love him” i would say “ oh hi that’s my ocd, welcome i know im having this thought again, i choose to ignore you right now and have control over what im going to do next”} after that i would continue what i was doing and that thought would flow away eventually! this helped me so much! #5- get off forums, and get off things that give you constant reassurance, it only keeps u in the same loop. #6- journaling helped me so much, i wrote down how i was feeling and my progress that helped me dump out anything stressful i had in my head. #7- meditating, this helped a lot as well. when i was having a lot of anxiety i would go on youtube and just relax on my bed listening to some guided meditations and it truly calmed my anxiety a lot!! #8- Yoga in the mornings!!! THIS IS A BIG ONEEE!! My anxiety would be really bad in the mornings, so once i felt that anxiety i would relax and do yoga with adriene on Youtube. After yoga, i would journal and start off my day with my prayers and set affirmations and get my day started. #9- stop having social media expectations of love! there are days where i have the thoughts but they don’t even bother me because they are just thoughts !!! i don’t even stress about them! and if you’re scared about leaving your partner once you heal, trust me you will not! BECAUSE YOU HAVE THE POWER. I believe in every single one of you guys. This was a hard journey that i had to go through. But it was not impossible, At moments i felt like i wanted to give up because everything felt so REAL , but i knew that it would pass and that i need to hang on. I love you all, and if you have any questions please comment, and i’ll help you!! If i did it, so can you! do not give up!! YOU GOT THIS!! GET OFF THIS AND START YOUR STORY AND YOUR JOURNEY TO HEALING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ??????

I think I am a OCD patient because th symptoms ar matched.I don’t know what to do.I feel ashamed to share this with my parents an friends.I feel so lonely.The thoughts make me ore lonely day by day. It has broken my life.How can I handle this situation...?

So I saw a girl on an ellen clip this morning and was thinking about my girlfriend naked. Suddenly the image of the little girl without a shirt popped into my head. Been overthinking about it all day long and I want to cry and hurt myself for even thinking these thoughts. I've never had them before and idk what to.do

My life is a joke ? I’m 27 female, not married don’t have any kids, don’t have a career in fact I HATE my job and enjoy this lockdown cuz I ain’t there with people I can’t stand and make me sad and anxious. I feel like a failure, I’m anxious all the time, I feel enormous even though my bf says he likes me as I am I FEEL massive and nothing is making me lose weight so I’m gonna have to legitimately starve myself again cuz that’s the only thing that works I hate myself, and I’m jealous (secretly, I don’t display it) of everyone around me my age who’s getting shit that *I* wanted in my life too ? there’s not enough to go around for us all obviously

Don’t flag I need to rant or I’ll scream. Its so unfair to have to TRY to LEARN to be normal, (and it’s not even guaranteed) when other people are LITERALLY FUCKING BORN NOT OBSESSING If my life never improves/goes wrong I don’t honestly see the point I think it’s a waste of time trying to force myself to be normal

So, is anyone able to differentiate their conscience/gut/convictions from OCD?? I feel like I automatically get anxious when people talk about their gut or intuition cause I have no idea what is what!

Hi all... I’m not sure if this is the right place for me here... but I’m suffering... not because I have an OCD I’m here for my husband... who suffers from OCD ( I think) along with a lot of other traits... but it’s hard.. because he doesn’t admit he has a problem.. so obviously I’ve been suffering and been having major anxiety and depression... I’ve sought for help for myself only realise that the root of all my anxiety’s my husband’s behaviour.... I’m not saying I’m perfect... and I know I might not be welcome here because I don’t get OCD... but since my husband has too much of an ego to realise he needs help... I’m only looking for ways to cope from my end... this marriage is long lost in the endless fights we have but I’m too afraid to leave him... because I know he needs help.. n I want to help... also because he also obsesses about me... and I feel trapped...

"Question about pocd false memories" TW: pocd, false memories (23, F) Can they get much worse if you ruminate on them?? I found a document. An old document where I wrote my worries and real life events that I thought were meaningful for a diagnosis to whether I had a pocd or not. For those who know me, you know I've been struggling with a bad false memory about groping a child's butt while giving her a piggyback ride. Today it got much worse....... During that day, after the pool, she showed me her drawings and for some reason, I started to wonder if I got alone with the child during this time (I don't remember that. I think my friends were there the whole time But I also can't be sure because I don't remember leaving the room with them so I'm scared) and if I sexually assaulted her! I even got fuzzy images about it! What is wrong with me!! I know this is fake but I'm so anxious about it!! I just want to contact my friends and ask them if we were together the entire day but I'm afraid of what they'll think and I already asked so many questions about that day! But this child loved me! She thought I was sweet and fun!! She wouldn't have liked me if I had "hurt" her right?? I'm so desperate because I knew that if I continued to ruminate on this bullshit memory, I'd get burned but the other times I had false memories, I overcomed them by ruminate them and "attack" them with logic, If it makes sense!! I know I didn't do this! I'd remember! But I don't remember... I just have stupid images in my head. In the original document from like September or early October, I have wrote a little about this because at the time I didn't think this event was so important, except on the fact that it was the first time I had pocd thoughts. I will quote what I wrote back then: *"I remember one of the earliest events that made me scared was with a friend's sister... (I was almost 21) She was 8 (I think) and she was very sweet I just had weird thoughts. It weren't even images or anything! It was just... "am I p? Am I attracted to her?" I felt so bad but I tried to dismiss the thoughts... And have fun... I even played with her and talked with her! I always wanted to have a sister so this was like a opportunity to have a sister for a day... I now feel bad for playing with her but it wasnt to do anything weird. I truly tried to dismiss my thoughts and I felt bad through the entire day... But I wanted to actually fight them and do just innocent things with her. We played at the pool... And she showed me her toys and drawings... Like if she were my sister... I know this may sound weird but I promise I had the most innocent reasons... I would never do something that could harm a child."* I don't even mention the piggyback ride! (maybe I don't think it was important at the time and FYI the piggyback ride did happen! But the groping, I don't think so) I need help??? Or else I will kill myself. Im tired of this shit.

My insurance does not cover OCD therapy, what would I be looking as far as cost goes?

So, I have these sexualt thoughts that are usually about family members, they distress me and I don't know how to seek help. How to talk to my family about it?

Is this normal in pocd?? (23, F,) Like I was just watching a YouTube video and I got a recommendation of a 13 to girl coming out and I thoughr she was pretty and I immediately click the button to stop recommending the video because I felt "attracted" to her... I don't know how sexual attraction works but I felt so poorly because I know sexual attraction is wanting s-x with a person and I immediately asked myself that question and I know I'd never do but I didn't know if I wanted to. I don't want to have these feelings! I don't want to get involved with anyone, specially any minor. I don't! I don't want to! I want to cry because I feel like a p right now... And I want to die! I can't handle this pain anymore! This is too much to handle and I don't know what to do... I feel such an embarrassement to everyone... She's too young. She's a child... I want to cry so badly... Why did thishappened to me... no I can't live any longer. I'm not strong enough

30' of ERP today, the scenario was not able to make me feel anxious, just a little sad. It was me recording a script about how being with my partner will make me feel guilty and ashamed, how being together will be a bad experience and how we'll eventually break up because of this. It's like the repetition of these thoughts makes me numb. During exposure, I also see that my mind is coming up with realistic responses instead, such as "If you do indeed cry, it's not a big deal like you've made it in the past, so it's fine." or "If he's looking fat to you, then alright you don't like him physically as much as you could possibly like someone who is fit, but so what?" I'm unsure if this is just my brain healing, since it feels calm and logical, or a sneaky way of reassurance?

I was on social media page and saw something on OCD and it made me wonder if I have it . I’ve always been told I have anxiety and depression and some agoraphobia and some hypochondria and I’m sure some OCD. But I wonder if I have more OCD. My thing lately or since ever is that I can’t breathe. I’m constantly yawning trying to catch my breath. If I don’t catch my breath I will get very anxious. So I will yawn and yawn until I catch it . Lately I’ve been thinking, like who decides what that right breath is ? Who says this is the one? I mean I know which one it is cause it makes me feel better, but then ten minutes later I back to feeling like I’m suffocating and trying to catch it again. I focus on my breathing and feel I have to be in control of my breathing cause if I’m not I’ll stop breathing. It’s crazy and it’s driving me crazy . It’s all about my breathing my never catching it and never wanting to do anything to alter it for fear of not knowing how to get it back to normal. Sometimes i swear I forgot how to breathe all together. Sorry for the long post . Could this be OCD or am I just anxious?

I was on social media page and saw something on OCD and it made me wonder if I have it . I’ve always been told I have anxiety and depression and some agoraphobia and some hypochondria and I’m sure some OCD. But I wonder if I have more OCD. My thing lately or since ever is that I can’t breathe. I’m constantly yawning trying to catch my breath. If I don’t catch my breath I will get very anxious. So I will yawn and yawn until I catch it . Lately I’ve been thinking, like who decides what that right breath is ? Who says this is the one? I mean I know which one it is cause it makes me feel better, but then ten minutes later I back to feeling like I’m suffocating and trying to catch it again. I focus on my breathing and feel I have to be in control of my breathing cause if I’m not I’ll stop breathing. It’s crazy and it’s driving me crazy . It’s all about my breathing my never catching it and never wanting to do anything to alter it for fear of not knowing how to get it back to normal. Sometimes i swear I forgot how to breathe all together. Sorry for the long post . Could this be OCD or am I just anxious?

This isn’t purely OCD related, but is to an extent. So usually when I get a spike of OCD, I’ll go into a really bad depression a couple of days before and after, and this usually lasts a little over 2 weeks, usually every 1-2months. I was invited to a little get-together thing with a couple other people who I don’t honestly know *that* well, but I digress, but the thing is, I’m afraid that since it’s gonna be a whole weekend, that I’ll be in the middle of a depression/spike or fall into one DURING the event, which would obviously be awful. Any ideas on how to express this to these people without sounding like I’m just making up an excuse? Like “sorry, but I might be in a depression/spike of OCD” doesn’t exactly sound that wonderful, almost as if I’m asking for putty or something, which I’m not. Sorry it’s not super related, wish there were a “random” or misc channel on here. Anyway, if anyone has an idea on how to express this, I’d really appreciate it.

You know you have fantasies of love and just doing happy stuff. They're normal but its werid because I can picture him with a different girl because she is better and prettier than me. Its like my brain wants to be an enemy. Idk i want my brain to quit. I want to be able to imagine my life even its just a fake one. I want to day dream like normal.

What do you do for a living? If you do work, or maybe just go to school? How’s your OCD when at work or school? Just another fun topic if you wanna share.

I know there’s a reason God is letting me go through this mental torture. But why. What could His purpose possibly be. What is this preparing me for, what’s the reason for this.

Hey friends! Just seeing if anyone here has been/is on a Ketogenic/Carnivore diet? Been doing research on this topic for awhile now. Some doctors and psychiatrists are coming to a conclusion that psychiatric disorders may be autoimmune.(Leaky gut may be causing your immune system to attack itself) With that being said, I believe therapy such as ACT and ERP rank supreme in treating OCD. But I have also seen improvement while being in Ketosis. Any experiences?Just want something fun to talk about!