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I see there a lots of OCD subtypes but which one would Trichotillomania fall under so I can follow it?

i’ve been having difficulty feeling a lot of guilt for past things i’ve done. such as mistakes etc. it’s even hard for me to share these things because i feel like such a bad person for them. one thing is for the longest time even up till recently there’s times i wouldn’t wash my hands after using the bathroom. i have no idea when i didn’t. but now i feel terrible for it. idk if i was being lazy at times sometimes ik my hands would be clean so i felt i didn’t have to other times i was lazy. i’m sure everyone has probably done this at one point in their life however i feel i probably did this more often. if i was cooking i’d wash my hands ofc before. but now i feel bad for potentially getting germs on other people bc i was being gross. this is hard to share bc i’m so scared of judgment. sometimes i’d turn the sink on and pretend i washed my hands when i was lazy. like i said i don’t know why and i have this insane amount of guilt for it. i keep thinking what if i put people at harm bc i was being gross. i used to babysit and i do think i washed my hands after using the bathroom most of the time or all the time but now i’m worried what if i didn’t them i’m putting the baby at risk. i just hate myself for this bc thinking back to it it’s so gross. i did this even up till i was 18 it’s not like i didn’t know right from wrong. like what is wrong with me why did i do this? and if you’re going to hate on me or make me feel guilty pls don’t respond bc i already feel very bad. i just can’t get this out of my head and don’t know why i did this so often. :/

Today I ran out of money in my HRA account so now therapy is completely out of pocket I’m scared I can’t afford to get better. (My husband says we’re fine so I really think this is an irrational fear) but I can’t shake the feeling. Maybe it’s my ocds last ditch to get me to stay sick. I keep checking back accounts and calculating how long I’ll need therapy to get better…

Good Evening, First post and glad to be here! I would like to sympathize and resonate with all who are suffering at the moment. I am really going through it and truly realizing what a monster this disorder can really be on all aspects of your life. Sending good vibes to this entire community that you find peace and comfort! I am posting to see if anyone struggles or experiences the hyperawareness fear of sounds , music , auditory imagery, or loud pitch screams or anything of that nature .I am petrified of hearing voices or hearing something that may not be there, which obviously plays into my health fear of schizophrenia. I will relentlessly play and repeat noises in my head then try and “ neutralize” them with another sound. This leads me down this intense, panicky thought loop that can play on repeat for hours on end. It gets to the point where I don’t even know what is an obsession or a mental compulsion anymore. Also , I am now conjuring up scary noises and sounds that are bringing me back to my first mental health battle 17 years ago. Wow what a memory bank! I will get the Joker’s laugh from Batman or an intense, fast bass line of a song that I fear will repeat forever if I don’t cancel it out with something else. It is truly embarrassing that I am this deeply effected randomly by noises and sounds. When I’m at my highest point of anxiety I tend to touch my ears or hold them to check and reassure myself that it’s my thoughts and not hallucinations. I also have a compulsive need to listen to external sounds /music to distract myself. I am not seeking reassurance as I know this is a serious symptom of mine and I have to live with that % of uncertainty. I thought it would be helpful to see if anyone experienced this in their journey to recovery and what tips you could provide to help manage. Thanks all! -Mike

Anyone on Prozac for ocd and does it help? Or anyone on Lexapro and it helps?

How long did it take you to start feeling like Zoloft was helping your mood/helping to cope with intrusive thoughts? And what dosage seemed best. I’m on 50 MG now. Thanks!!!

So this is why I hate this app. It’s designed to help people with OCD. But God forbid you post something that makes someone “uncomfortable” News flash: we’re all uncomfortable. You post something and people report it. So I guess only people with lesser forms of OCD receive support on here.

i’ve been cheated on and left a 3 year relationship august 18th, its now almost a month later, my dads birthday to be exact. and i went out to eat with my parents. and i kept having the intrusive thought that if my dad cheated on my mom. and now i feel like i can’t trust anybody. because i told my ex how fragile my heart was and everyday for 3 years he reassured me how he would never cheat on me. he said he couldn’t even cheat on me because he only has eyes for me and that i mean more than anything to him. he said why would he want to ruin us. and then guess what?? he ruined us and now my trust is shattered and idk anything anymore.

I’ve had a really awful day,last night I researched and I know I shouldn’t have and it was at night time, I was left feeling extremely anxious to the point I felt my insides were burning,then I woke up feeling the exact same,I started crying when I woke up and I was reching and now I feel so physically ill, my stomach hurts so much and I feel as if I’m going to throw up,i also feel so weak,and I’m not sure if it’s an ilness or just anxiety,but all I know is that I feel absolutely awful in every way

How does one live a nuanced life…it feels like everyone on the internet (and thus everyone irl) uses black and white opinions to simplify morality and I feel like a bad person if I don’t just blindly agree…all these simple platitudes that people on twitter use to make morality into this simple easy issue. I find it hard to believe that the people around me are living with nuanced thoughts on these polarizing issues until they start talking about it and I feel like my brain is breaking cause I want to say “bad person!!! Cut them off”, then if anyone is trying to promote nuance they’re “anti-cancel culture” and basically alt right…Does the world really work this way can someone actually hold nuance in todays day and age or is it just my OCD brain

Recently my rumination has been so bad that my ocd doesn’t focus on one thing. It feels like my brain is just flipping through a theme book and obsessing over every theme there could be… does anyone else suffer from this

I’m really struggling to know if I’m doing ERP right. My therapist is away for 2 weeks and I’ve been given homework. However I suffer with POCD & I’m not sure what it is I should be ‘sitting with’ as I don’t really have an initial intrusive thought. They’re immediate groinal/whole body responses and severe anxiety - there’s no sentence in my head initially. It’s just general panic then my brain starts to study the child & what it is I find ‘appealing’ about them. I’ve had a few successful ish days and then today it’s making me think it’s not OCD at all and it’s actually me attracted to children but trying to convince myself I’m not.

I’m in a relationship, 8 months now, and my narcissistic (diagnosed) ex and I had broken up about 6 months prior. We would sometimes drunk call each other but that’s about it. Anyhow, my current boyfriend is everything I could ask for. He treats me better than my ex ever could and I love everything about him. I randomly got a feeling about my ex the other day and hyper-fixated on it. I know continue questioning if I still have feelings for my ex even though I know I don’t at all and want nothing more than my current boyfriend. I don’t want reassurance because I know that won’t help, I just want to know if anyone else has ever had this OCD obsession of convincing themselves they want a toxic ex or just an ex back while with someone else? Most of my OCD obsessions are so obnoxious I’d know they couldn’t be true, but this one, while still obnoxious, isn’t as crazy as the others but it hurts 10 times more.

id love if someone could interact with me, stating their opinions on what i should do & if anyone has ever experienced this. i am in the most healthy, healing, loving, & spiritual relationship ever. i love him so much. we’ve been together officially a month in 2 days and i’ve known him for 6 weeks. my brain is telling me that i’ve terribly cheated on him because i had a brief conversation with someone on social media that i once found attractive. in the moment i had no intention to come off as flirty. it was a subconscious conversation like i’d have with anyone. i think because i have found her attractive that i’ve done something wrong. this person is still attractive and is my type but i’d never presue it. i’ve had a total of 2 very short conversations with this person. i’ve seen them one time in person for about 5 minutes. i do not know this person. when this happened about 2/3 weeks ago, my bf was actually right next to me, that’s how i know it wasn’t like i was trying to do something bad or inappropriate. this did not start bothering me until a week ago. i went a whole week without thinking about it and then all of the sudden my brain is now trying to convince me i did something wrong and that i’m a bad person. my brain is telling me that i should tell him what’s going on and possibly ruin the relationship. or it’s saying i should break up with him. it’s telling me i don’t deserve him. when i’m with him, the girl from social media keeps popping up in my head subconsciously. i’m not forcing this thought, it’s not me who’s thinking this. i feel like i’m fighting myself. none of these things are my reality. i feel as though i shouldn’t have even interacted with her but i can’t go back now. my thoughts are saying “well do you want to be with her. break up with your bf and be with her.” it’s trying to self sabotage. my other compulsion is to block her but that would be so out of pocket because nothing is going on. i keep asking myself how would it feel if it was vise versa & then i start to feel bad & believe that i actually did cheat. in the conversation with her, i made a joke about my bf. me and her both know it was a complete joke (just like girl talk) but if my bf read that, he’d be hurt/wouldn’t understand the joke. so much is going through my head and i cannot release this guilt. does anyone have advice? thank you so much for reading. anything is appreciated. i cant do this anymore.

I was told I had attachment disorder.

I find for me personally the biggest assistance with my health both physical and mental is my little cat 🐱 that I adopted as a kitten 12 years ago . If you have the resources and your situation permits it please consider adopting a pet from your local animal shelter. It makes a huge difference for the person adopting and the pet !

Hi, I’m a broke college student. I’m in a relationship with someone I care so deeply about but my OCD has latched onto it and distorted my thoughts and feelings about him. More over, my thoughts about feeling like I actually exist. I want to feel alive, I want to love myself and my lover, I want to be okay. But I can’t afford therapy. I want to try ERP but I am not sure where to begin. I’m an artist too and drawing has been so much harder because of it. Music makes me feel the worst. Help?

i haven’t been diagnosed w/ ocd but my therapist says i have like symptoms of it but i recently just stared dealing w/ Pocd (hell) that my therapist says was triggered from the sound of freedom which absolutely breaks my heart bc i was so excited to support the movie but now i feel like it’s one of my biggest regrets. i feel as if i would’ve never watched the movie i would’ve possibly never started dealing w/ this. But my biggest scare now w/ this is having my own kids . i’m F18 and throughout my whole teenhood my biggest goal and dream was to become a mother a GOOD mother. everything i tried doing was motivated by the thoughts of giving my kids the absolute best one day. Now i feel like it’s my biggest fear w/ dealing w/ this and i don’t know how i’d even explain to someone like my bf for example, of the reason why i don’t want to have kids anymore ( though i still really do but i just literally feel like can’t because of this 💔💔) are there any mothers out there w/ Pocd w/ kids out here? how do you cope w/ this? should i even have kids?? i also feel as if it kinda bad rn. i was doing good for a couple weeks and last night it just rushed back for no reason. i’ve learned what groinal responses are ( it absolutely scared the shit out of me before i found out what it was and i was just not okay and sort still am not when it happens. it just feel too real and i end up sobbing god i hate this ) and i feel as if i’m constantly body checking myself especially when i see a cute baby or children tiktok i love babies n kids id never wanna hurt them in such away i rather pass away. i just can’t believe why this this happening i used to be so much more happier before this and i really don’t know how to deal w/ this and what i should do😖💔💔

Ok so my main theme is SOOCD and it eats me alive. When I was being bullied in school I became obsessed with talking to strangers on Omegle and began sexting people- including girls and idk if it’s because I thought it was wrong in my head or something which is why I enjoyed it? But immediately after I’d be like ew can’t believe I did that because I was just so horny for everything. I also watched lesbian porn too so this is something that I did for a couple of years since I was 16 but never something I wanted to do in real life. At the time I didn’t care it was some fun but I’m really traumatised by it ever since. I know I’m straight but my mind tells me because I did this online in the past there is no way I am straight. I feel so alone in the world I’ve been to therapy, had advice from several people but I just can’t listen to anyone because I know I’m the only one who has done that. I feel like it is sooooo hard to move past real events when you have OCD because people’s worst fear for me actually happened. So my OCD will forever convince me that I’m gay because of these events. I hate myself so much and always have- I don’t see a way past this and my life is slowly going downhill in every aspect because of it.

Most of my intrusive thoughts ( most, not all) are in English rather than my mother tongue. Now I wonder if that actually means something. Like it is a fact that people tend to have different personalities talking in different languages. Now I wonder if the English speaker me is more anxious ? 🤔