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Someone please give an honest reason to actually think life is somewhat worth it.

I… can’t shake this at all!! I am seriously needing an answer! Did anyone ever fall out of love or truly believed they did!!? I am believing I don’t love him romantically anymore but when I say I wanna break up I cry alittle saying I dont! I even bought him cookies! 😢

It feels like I can never even get to be able to get there. It shakes me to my core and writing out my fears, triggers, and compulsions today for my therapist made my OCD finally feel real and that it’s not just my anxiety. Has anyone else struggled with this? Any tips for newbies who are scared 💩less?

ive been hating analysing my feelings lately, it gives me so much anxiety and i can’t sit with them but i feel like that’s also how i used to compulse, so now i forbid myself to do it but when i slightly do it anyway i feel awful, as if i was lying since the beginning and it leaves me so so scared but this makes me feel like i can’t feel anything anymore, and if i try to analyse one it’ll bring me a weird feeling i feel less anxious since yesterday because i don’t analyse anything and i try to let things pass, but when i have a romantic thought, im like « do you feel that way about your girlfriend too? » and it feels like a no but i KNOW it’s a yes, so i try to prove it wrong and it’s worse than before and the less i care, the less love i feel it’s absolutely devastating (to me at least) help i don’t know if it’s something common :/

I had 3 people ask me today if I’m a lesbian. Started the day feeling no anxiety to my thoughts. When I got told that I looked like a lesbian I panicked. I then got a groinal to a girl vaping. I then got shown a nude of a girl and had a groinal. Then spoke to my college counsellor and she recognised an ocd cycle in my life. How can this not be real. I don’t want it to be. But it seems to be no?

I keep on having false memories and intrusive thoughts.. I keep on seeking reassurance but i try not to even though its hard..I feel like im a bad person.. also I keep on asking questions for every small detail on daily things.. Its so annoying and exhausting to do this...

I think deep down.. I know I don’t love him anymore… 😞 that deep down I wanna break up. I don’t know if ROCD can really do this to you. I gave in… My happy moments where I knew I loved him accepted him and just wanted to be with him…. Were a lie….💔 I can’t fight this anymore…. 💔 I want this to pass so badly… 😢

I don’t want to accept that I don’t love him anymore… 😢 I don’t wanna accept that it could do be me that wants to break up. I know if I told him maybe things can be normal again. That me and him can be closer together like before. My heart is breaking bc it’s like just love him as a friend when I know I love him more than that. I don’t want to be the end for us both.. 😞

Never been into dudes at all but I have recognized when a guy is good looking. I have been getting the thought that a coworker of mine is "cute". About 5 years ago I had some pretty bad hocd thoughts. I discussed it with a therapist. But is it normal for things like that to come back? Like I try to imagine myself with him and it doesn't feel right at all but I have the thought and I'm like. Uh ok..... I'm 31 by the way.

Has going off to college exacerbated OCD for any of you? I had a really bad experience this year and had to come home because I had a really hard time where I was. I just feel really alone in this experience. Even though other people have experienced difficulties with college and making connections with others, I feel that it’s been especially difficult with OCD. My worries are just so extreme, and I didn’t even recognize it as it possibly being OCD until I was having extreme panic attacks everyday.

I’ve been feeling down today because I’ve been dealing with somatic/breathing ocd now since end of July and I’ve been doing erp for over a month now and although there has been some improvement I still feel like when am I gonna feel back to normal again:( it really has been draining me I’m not gonna lie even if my Nocd therapist says I’ve made progress I just wanna go back to how everything was before this all happened :(

How can something that’s not true feel so real?! Something I had intrusive thoughts about months ago, has come back and now I’m stuck. I had reassurance from my husband around these thoughts at the time ( I know that’s wrong by the way but I was desperate) Now I keep ruminating on that previous reassurance and my ocd is doubting that and my memory of it is feeling all hazy. I’m walking around with a constant feeling of being on edge and I’ve been resisting my urge to ask for reassurance again for weeks now but it’s just not going away. Can anyone here relate? How can I get it to move on? The whole maybe maybe not approach is just not appropriate here, it’s already making me uncomfortable around my husband with just the thoughts being present, thoughts that logically deep down I know are false.

I really don’t know what to do anymore 😔 I have type 1 diabetes which causes “sugar toxicity” a rare thing that happens where because of high blood sugar your brain starts giving you horrible images (mix that with someone who has OCD and it’s magical 🤣) *fun fact: 75-80% of type 1’s develop a control issue (a mental disorder where you have the illusion of control, because every other part of your life is overly controlled) such as an eating disorder and/or OCD I have seen numerous OCD specialists all saying, as I mentioned in the past, exposure therapy does not work for me. Exposure leads to stress which leads to high blood sugar, which leads to more intrusive thoughts and has caused me to fall unconscious- ambulance has to be called because my blood sugar will plummet after the spike (I am diagnosed with brittle MODY- a rare genetic form of type 1. Extreme fluctuations) All this to say my sugar has been high for a few days (no know reason) and this causes you to pee a ton. Not just that but the piss sprays out like a broken faucet. Well this happened, getting it on the seat and on me. Since I live at home I can’t shower at 2am. So I’m in my room having a massive panic attack thinking about the fact that my day off will be spent showering repeatedly, cleaning the bathroom, changing my sheets(since I’m in my bed dirty now) I’m just so upset.

I literally hate living with OCD….I was so happy before with not having these thoughts…😢 I have so many intrusive thoughts about stabbing (specifically my husband) and it makes me hate myself and makes me want to cry. I never dealt with this until almost 2 1/2 months ago, and I don’t want to anymore…I’m so tired of living like this:( Now it feels like I don’t even care if I act on it or not…like it wouldn’t be that bad of a thing, which I 100% know it is an awful thing, the most awful thing you could ever do to a person. But I’m worried that I’m eventually not gonna care and that I’m gonna give into the thoughts…😢 I feel like I was a good person before this. I love people and being around them. I love my husband so much, but having this makes me question if I even love my husband because I feel like harm ocd is not letting me feel those feelings for him…when I know I love him tho:( Someone pls help:(

So this whole Jeffery Dahmer show has been really triggering to me especially since so many people are talking about it. I heard somewhere that he had ocd (don’t know if that’s true) but man it really triggered me and I go so scared. Also hearing that he was a nice person from outside perspectives makes me even more scared. Like when I hear someone talk about my heart just drops and I get so scared. I never want to become that ever. But of course my ocd is like “what if you want to?” I also feel extremely guilty and scared when I try not to care about the thoughts. I guess it’s my ERP trying to step in and tell me it’s ok just let everything pass by, but at the same time I feel like if I let the thoughts go, I must want to to be like him or do those things. Which is why I’m having such a hard time letting the thoughts go. And if I’m having fun I feel so guilty because my ocd is like “why are you happy right now you think such horrible things” even thought this is last thing I would ever want to think about :/ ugh it’s just been causing me to be extremely stressed and not do my knife exposures because I’m scared if I keep doing them, something bad will happen to me and I’ll go crazy. But if anyone has any advice plz share cuz man do I need it right now 😔

I’ve been so stress that it makes me nauseous. And sometimes these intrusive thoughts are so disgusting and time consuming and overwhelming that I have no appetite I’ve been eating a meal and a half a day…I’ve lost a lot of weight it’s so noticeable my family members can tell… Is anybody dealing with this too?

I had a dramatically “bad” thought (about my 12 yr son) this morning as I was rising from bed. It is now 4pm and the thought is still with me: NR, ACT each more than once; natural distraction with phone call and a long walk in the drizzling rain. Thoughts are just thoughts, etc. I have been told these thoughts just take time to leave the mind. What do you know? And will you pls share it with me? Thx!

How have you guys explained ROCD to your partner? I feel like I’m in an urge to break up again. I know it will pass. I love my partner so much - he is honestly so wonderful. I feel like I can’t talk to him about ROCD because I’m afraid he will leave. Me leaving him is the easy way out, and one I know I’ll regret. Has anyone explained this to their partner? How?

Like I have said earlier here I haven’t left my room in more than a month. So I eat in my room, when I eat at all. But because I feel my room is contaminated and myself I also think that the bags with food and the containers get contaminated once they enter my room. So it becomes a problem how to get the containers and bags out of my room. I had a bag in my room with food since Saturday and I took it out yesterday. To my surprise I wake up to find my room full of flies. I have counted at least more than 10. I decided to let the door close so then don’t go out and contaminated the rest of the house. I don’t know what else to do. My room was already a dumpster without the flies to begin with. I guess I should not eat or drink anything in a couple of days.

i want some motivation 😭😭 im so sad i dont wanna live w ocd forever😭 i just wanna be happy