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Tw I need some advice or something, Im losing my it. I dont even feel like a guy inside anymore, wtf is going on. Someone here told me its common for people to realize their gender is different once they realize their sexuality. Wtf do I even do? Im even more discouraged and embarrassed to seek therapy now, not feeling like im even a man? This is disgusting and horrible, am I actually changing? It feels like this is my true self that was hidden all these years. Wtf wtf!!!??

Hey everyone, i just wanted to say this to see if anyone else relates , one day i feel so confident about my sexuality and just happy and my ocd isn't that bad and then the next day my ocd gets so bad and it makes me question my sexuality and tell me that im lying to myself and that i'll end up marrying that gender and i feel so confused cuz just a day ago i was so happy and all the attraction i feel now i didn't have before ocd and it makes my head hurt i cant even watch youtube or movies i cant even walk past that sex in school

It feels like I’ve just found out I really don’t love him. I don’t really feel peace but ocd is making me think I do. I think. I don’t know I’m not anxious at all anymore they’re just feelings. Can ocd be feelings

Sometimes I feel like I wake up and I have anxiety but it’s not even about my obsessive thinking, it’s like my body is waiting for me to start having my regular obsessive thoughts and it’s making my body stressed. I feel like I’m always waiting for the other shoe to drop, and it almost feels like this dwelling anxiety makes my body try and find something to overthink about. It’s very stressful does anybody have any advice or can relate?

I had just “minded my own business” to who I presumed was a woman because she had explicit female characteristics and such only to discover that he identifies as a trans man in the comic I’m reading... 😞😞😞 I didn’t even know he was a trans man... I honestly thought he was a woman because of his female body parts... 😭😭😭 I don’t ever wanna be my HOCD or POCD or Real event OCD... 😭😭😭

Anyone have questions about HOCD? Im a survivor

OK PLS SOMEONE HELP.

I’m scared that I might have feelings for someone else, but I don’t want feelings for that person and it’s making me think that I have feelings for her but I don’t want her, I love my gf and only want her

I had to tell a white lie and i feel bad for beeing dishonest. How to cope with this?

How do you do an exposure WITHOUT ruminating? Is that impossible? I'm loosing it!!!!

People can change right?? I did terrible things..even last year. Probably even this year. Which would make me my fears. But I regret them so much,I generally just want to move on and be a better person, but I feel I don't deserve to..this isn't ocd making a little bad thing bad, these things were terrible. And I know it,, everybody would know it. I just want to love myself for who I am today, not my past. I chang everyday but I generally feel so much guilt and disgust. The ocd with intrusive thoughts that I wanna do it all again. Makes me feel I still am my fears...I hate it so much. This wasn't 1 mistake or 2..or even 3. It was so so so many disgusting, horrible,shameful mistakes. I did for years and years. And I mean 11+ years.

My boyfriend says it's flirting to talk to someone if they are attractive. I'm paranoid I've talked to my new co worker because he is attractive. I am so anxious right now. I keep asking myself "did I talk to him because he was attractive" and I think I did. I've done this before and it's caused issues in my relationship, and I'm scared if I tell my bf he's gonna break up with me. I didn't say anything flirting it was just like "hey welcome to our job" and "you're going to really enjoy working with Cindy". I'm worried I said things to him because he was attractive. I would have said it to any other new Co worker but I'm paranoid I said something because he is attractive

Happy Wednesday y'all ❤ I see a lot of y'all struggling today so I'd like to offer a different perspective. When you are focusing on gratitude, it makes it quite difficult to be preoccupied with your worries. Just like how practicing compassion for a person who might be annoying you in the moment makes it harder for you to ya know...be annoyed with them. You are offering them understanding and patience, so extend that offer over to yourself. Because you totally deserve it!:) Make a list of 10 things you are grateful for and really focus on the feelings of gratitude. I promise it'll lift your mood 💛💛💛

ERT Hi all, my ocd is around bad things happening in the world and I have just started ert. At the moment it is just reading news articles but it has been really difficult and led to high anxiety and stress levels. I don't know what to do! I feel like it's not going to help as surely reading about bad things is going to make me think that everything is bad as the news is extremely skewed towards negative things. So I don't see how it's going to help! I feel to lead a more happy life you would avoid the news and focus on the good, no?

To everyone who went through/is going through ERP, what has changed? I need motivation to do ERP

Hello everyone Im 25 years old And i think I'm having my worst ocd episode ever And I'm really doubting if it is ocd or starting to be psychotic Long story short : everything started after my dad pass away 3 years ago I started to have overwhelming anxiety that wouldn't stop and panic attacks Then the fear of going crazy steped in especially to have schizophrenia I took two courses of medicine which made me better But last two months after I cut my medicine things started to be really distressing My ocd started to littearly affect everything in my life especially existenal ocd After that the same fear came again fear of schizophrenia which littearly made me super aware about everything .... Some symptoms started to come again as : Illusions Hypnogogic hallucinations (before sleep hallucinations) Misidentification people (when i see some one totally strange for the first sight i feel he is someone i know or he looks familiar) Existenal panic (when ever i think about existince and what it would be looks like if there is no existince i get like a little panic attack and strange feeling) At last feeling deattached for a while when being alone And strange feeling and anxiety while being alone and looking at a mirror .......... I've always been concerned whether I'm at high risk developing schizophrenia So i read that there are some scales from people who are schizophrenic describing their strange experiences So i read every scale (caarms ' anomalous self experience ' sips) And i just could relate Which lead me to continues fear and panic which I couldn't stop that im at prodromal phase of schizophrenia ..... And yes that turn the sh** out of me I started new obsession which schizophrenic patients would have Like delusional non existing ( like truman show syndrome) I've had an idea about whether what I'm living is the same as anybody else or it's just me in this life but that was 15 years ago maybe when i was ten ...... And now i really can't stop thinking that I'm delusional and i will stop comunicating with people and this world is just a big lie thing Im really okay with any scenario about existince i even accept that stimulation theory but the things is like if im delusional then im schizophrenic .... And at last this obsession feels so real to me I don't even know if i believe that im being delusional and think that everything doesn't exist as if the people are robots and im the only one Or because i read about that i strated to believe and obsses ... Please help me Im so helpless

Due to common misconceptions, people don’t always realize that intrusive thoughts from OCD can cause serious distress and discomfort. In reality, some types of OCD that affect many people involve thoughts that are violent, sexual, or taboo in nature. In our newest video, comedian Maria Bamford is joined by renowned OCD advocate Ethan Smith to bring awareness to taboo OCD thoughts. They discuss what OCD can really look like, and how it feels when intrusive thoughts strike at the most unexpected times. Watch now as Maria and Ethan share real, everyday experiences with OCD.

Please help. I’m spiraling again. I’m also sitting at work crying my eyes out. What is the difference between this and denial? I just want to be happy.

I think I need to leave my boyfriend and just come out and accept it. I’m heartbroken. I’m so depressed. I’m week 3 into medication and it’s just not making me feel better, maybe it’s made me realise even more so that I am just in denial.

Hello all: I have been dealing with a lot of anxiety and as of now depression. I was on lexapro 10 mg for 3 years until January 2021 then I went down to 5 mg until my ocd episode began in early July 2021. I went back up on the lexapro but it didn’t help. I continued to get worse. Now I am off the lexapro and on Zoloft 100 mg and have been on it for 4.5 weeks and I don’t feel any different. I am very depressed. Does anyone recommend any medications that work for them? Any combinations of meds ? I am getting married in the spring and really want to be a happy bride..