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I'm sorry I keep posting. My therapy sessions ended with nocd. I miss the support. How do I get through this? The anxiety turns my stomach for most of the day while I do my erps for breathing ocd while I try and balance work and stay positive. I wish I could go back in time and not stress about anything that happened this year. I wouldn't have activated this ocd. Those who recovered. How you stay the course?
Does anybody feel like they ‘should’ be able to outthink the thoughts? Even though i’ve tried to rationalise them away it’s like the moment that one reappears every previous lesson learnt or realisation is made redundant by the fact you’ve had the thought again, it’s so hard not to get mad or judge them in any way.
Hey y'all, happy Wednesday:) I'm going to be honest here and this is really hard for me, but for the past few weeks I have really not been okay. I have a lot of things working against me at the moment and I'm really doing my best to be positive and kind to myself. I just wanted to let everyone know its okay to not be okay and its a human thing to feel from time to time. You don't always need to put on a brave face okay?😊 and just because you're having a moment does not mean that it'll last forever. Us with ocd tend to see things in black and white and never ending. That is not the case in reality 💗
Hi just wondering if anybody has ever had the same thoughts I’ve went threw ROCD HOCD false memories you name it I’ve been there but this thought is killing me ive been in a relationship with my girlfriend for about 2 and a half years she is the most amazing person on this world and she means everything to me the most important person in my life before I first met her I had been flirting with her friend she was very flirtatious and a pretty girl I only met her friend about 3 times everytime I was drunk well she had a boyfriend so that was that for the friend and that’s when I met my girlfriend there wasn’t that initial spark or sexual chemistry like there was with the friend but as I got to know her the more I fell for her 2 and a half years later I love this girl with all my heart I can’t imagine my life without her she is perfect to me in so many ways but the thought came to my head what if you would rather be with the friend since there was that initial spark or whatever keeping in mind I haven’t spoke to this girl for 3 years I can’t even remember a conversation we had and I can’t shake this thought it causes me so much anxiety I just want to go back to how I was with my girlfriend before these thoughts thinking about getting married having children together all these things and now the mention of it sends me into a anxiety attack if anybody has any advice or anything I would love to hear it I just want to love my girlfriend how I did before and not have these stupid thoughts :(
I watched straight porn… knowing full well I was focused on the women but my mind always tells me I was focused on the man and want the guy. Now I’m thinking have I always been focused on the guy this entire time? Maybe I have I really don’t know anymore. But it just sounds like denial.
Lately I’ve been scared remembering a dream I had a while back where I acted inappropriate to say the least with a child , I remember waking up that day feeling so guilty that my consciousness even let me do what I did in my dream I felt so scared that I had to tell my mom n I felt so disgusted n horrible n just needed reassurance that I’m not a pedo Does anyone have any ideas for dealing with dreams like this ?? I’m scared one day I might get one again n in general it’s so hard to even handle the memory that I even had a dream like that
So I realized that now that I don't get as much anxiety when I get intrusive thoughts it's hard to determine if I actually am them or which are intrusive thoughts. But I think that I was using the signal my brain gives me with the intrusive thoughts as reassurance. I seemed the anxiety even tho I hated it. So this is a weird sit with uncertainty.
I have ROCD and my compulsion is rumination. Not engaging with my ruminations is incredibly challenging. Is there anyone who can relate?
Can you stop feeling depressed even though you are depressed? I’ve been severely depressed I want to love my partner like before… but it doesn’t feel like it’s gonna happen…
Hey y'all 😊 happy Tuesday :) here's a quick check in post for ya, are you doing alright? If not feel free to talk in the comments and me and everyone here will do our best to support ya. 😊 Today I'm doing pretty 🌙 tbh, but i am making the most of the day 💛
Im curious.. How old Is everyone here? What theme do you deal with? Anything you want to get off your chest?
What does ERP for POCD look like? Is it "I'm okay with potentially being a pedophile" because one can't know because there is no blood test or something to absolutely know that do sure, and the person just has to take comfort in the fact that whether they are or are not a pedophile, they are in control of their own actions? Asking as I am speaking with someone who is struggling with POCD but hasn't gotten therapy for it or done OCD, and deal with contaminated OCD so I am noth familiar with ERP for POCD
Drew777Hi. Was thinking about you yesterday. Praying everything is okay with you. My therapist messaged me and apologized for the way her post sounded about the weekend. She said she really wanted to work with me and help me. So tomorrow I will have my first ERP session with her. I did go back and read where the therapists are here to help us with the ERP's and be there anytime we need them. BTW, we are in Orting, WA now. Got here at 6:30 last night. Had a rough night sleeping. The bed is so soft, so my lower back is bothering me. And yes, I'm still anxious about tomorrow. When I read on here where some people wonder if they will ever get well, and then I remember my husband telling me that some Dr's and people in the medical field told him maybe he should put me in a home. That was when this started three years ago. I don't know, maybe he should have. It didn't help going through the covid thing either, and still going through it. And I don't really fear it, but a lot of stuff about the end of the world. I guess I fear it a little, because I would like to be healthy when it comes. I know that probably doesn't make any sense. I hope this posts for everyone to see. I could use lots of fist pumps for strength and prayers 🙏
(this might be long but I really want some advice, anyone who bares with this i am do greatful) I think I have gained a new OCD theme A year or so ago I came out at not female, early this year I finally came out as trans male. I have been happy with this up until last weekend My mom sat me down and told me she doesnt think I am trans, my stepdad doesnt either, they think I just want to be different amd I felt outcasted at school and this is my weird way of coping. Ever since then my mind has been full ’what if im not trans??’ ’what if theyre right?!’ and its been upsetting me and scaring me because I really dont want them to be right, I dont even know how I feel anymore but It was so so clear before this, Im scared that its not even OCD, but I dont feel like a girl??? So surely it is ocd? But then i even question that. I cant stop thinking about it, im so desperate to feel that certainty about who I am again... I just want to KNOW who I am.. J feel so scared and alone, Im so scared i was wrong?? What if I am a girl?! Ive changed my name though, I cant see myself as a girl? But i cant see myself as anything right now either? I dont know where to even start on erp or helping myself its so alien, please help
Questions for those who take medication. What does medication do to your OCD ? Does medication supress your anxiety attacks and panic attacks? Also how bad does ocd need to be in order to take it?
I'm extremely scared to share this, please don't reply with anything mean 😔. I kind of need reassurance right now even if I'm not really supposed to because I'm really distressed. Last year when I was 11 years old, I was on Roblox and I was arguing with someone and I was really mad and I cant remember why. Nothing I would say would upset them so I said something horrible. I said go oof yourself ( I don't want to say the actual word, like oof as in dissapear. ) And then they said to me they have problems with stuff like that. And then I apologised and said sorry and I friended her but I'm just so scared like what if she did oof because of me. I'm so scared and I cant sleep at night because of it. Please help fast 😭😭😭😭
With effective OCD treatment, you'll learn to let those intrusive thoughts pass on by. Say buh-bye to the OCD noise! 👋
PLEASE HELP - i am 16 years old and my parents do not want me to get a therapist as they believe nothing is wrong with me. i suffer from both HOCD and ROCD although that doesn’t matter because ocd is all the same no matter the theme. before my boyfriend i went through a loss of attraction, i would sit and ruminate all day and beg for my attraction back, i would cry and want to kms because i jsut felt absolutely nothing, i would try and feel sad over my last heartbreak jsut to prove i felt it, then, i don’t know how, i got my attraction back, i didn’t wake up one day and it was back, it just came back over time although i don’t remember how. in that time i developed a crush on this guy and now we’re practically dating it’s been a week but these past 3 days, that same numbness and loss of attraction is back, anytime he says anything romantic to me i feel numb, and i know it’s not just him, i feel numb to sad moments in tv shows or to my passions but my main focus is about attraction, how do i get my attraction back?? or how do i let go of the need? the thing is, when my boyfriend says romantic things to me, it sort of triggers me, i dont want to avoid him, i know i’m attracted to him, otherwise i wouldn’t wanna be with him, but how do i feel it again? i’m so obsessed with not feeling it and feeling numb but it’s the same thing as before, how do i let it go? i dont really get intrusive thoughts anymore, it’s more of this lack of feeling, i’m scared i’m not attracted to him, i keep trying to feel it and idk how to stop. please help.
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