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i haven't eaten all day my brain is telling me if i eat i am gonna act these thoughts i'm scared i got random thought yesterday now i am afraid that i am not only a zoo*****, p*do, in**** but also a serial killer i am so sad and drained i gave in to all compulsions, i have avoided my whole entire friends and family ugh this saddening, how come my brain can't view things the way i want them too, they only things that smooth me now are plants

I've been struggling with what I found through a NOCD article, is termed "Race OCD". I constantly worry that I'm being perceived as racist. I'm white, I consider myself to be an ally of BIPOC and to work on being anti-racist. Lately though, I get hit with a ton of intrusive thoughts about coming across as racist when I speak to a BIPOC, which causes anxiety, which my anxiety probably then appears racist to the other person. I can't imagine what BIPOC have to endure on a daily basis just because of their skin color, so I'm not trying to make this about me. I'm just wondering if I'm alone in this or if other people struggle with this OCD theme. To be honest, it's pretty severe and it's attacking my core, because this "theme" feels opposite to what I value (being an ally, fighting to be anti-racist & dismantle racism) & who I am. I can tell that other people notice I'm anxious, and I just hate that I'm displaying nervousness because im sure it makes the other person uncomfortable. I know I'm coming off as anxious to other people. I know it because I'm trying so hard not to be perceived as racist, to get the interaction "right", that interactions just get weird, anxiety filled & awkward & I'm sure the other person is like wtf, this person is a racist. I don't know how to stop getting so lost in my head. I've tried to tell myself "Maybe I am a sick, racist human being, oh well", but that doesn't help because I don't agree with that statement. I hate that interacting with BIPOC has become a trigger for me & that my anxiety is probably making people uncomfortable & they see me as a racist. I feel awful.

Is anyone struggling with inability to get vaccinated?

I hope I’m not offending anyone by saying this and if I am please let me know so I can apologize. I just want to know why everything is surrounded around gender identity now a days . I understand spreading awareness but it’s literally all I ever see now and it triggers me so damn bad . It’s almost like ocd knows I’m trying to get my mind off it . I feel like my view of my gender has changed for ever and I will never be the same …

reddit is so triggering but i try to delete it but end up redownloading it i don’t know how to stop it

It sucks going from having clarity to feeling terrible and being convinced the thoughts are true.

I’m afraid about going to therapy despite I can’t.. If the therapist say i have ocd then I would be really sad.. If the therapist says I don’t have ocd then I’m gonna be crazy because what are these thoughts if I don’t havr ocd If I won’t gi then I’m gonna live with uncertainty and doubt wich make me tired…

I am really concerned by Michael Greenberg article that he posted saying HOCD doesn’t mean you’re not Gay and it doesn’t mean you are Gay it just means you have ocd about your sexual orientation. Really need help understanding this

I know a lot of people say to face your instructive thought with exposures and then the thought will go away. When I do this the thought does go away, then comes back in about 5 minutes randomly. Any advice on what other exposures to do? I’m really trying not to give in

Why do people never talk about what it's like to be bisexual with soocd? The lack of representation among ocd circles makes it feel even more like my situation is the exception.

Has anyone ever felt like you have to confess to every single lie you’ve told? Me and my brain lol

does anyone have intrusive thoughts about animals? I saw a video years ago on Twitter of a dog performing a sexual act on a human (disgusting I know) but sometimes I see my dog and I think about it and it makes me very uncomfortable and not want to lay down with him because I just imagine that happening to me and how disturbing that is

Happy Saturday night y'all! Not me watching Twilight for like the 4th time in the past month...😂 I've seen a lot of people struggling today and it really breaks my heart. Just know that you're not alone. I've been there, I'm sure the majority of us have been there. We are all here for ya!:) Anyways I thought this pic was funny 🤣. How's everyone's night been? As always, here's my fav 60 guided meditation for intrusive thoughts :) https://www.pixelthoughts.co/#

I could use some seriously advice from anyone that’s very familiar with ROCD. I was recently diagnosed and things have been really hard. I am in a 7 year relationship and things have been very hard lately. I feel like I’m not attracted to my boyfriend, I remember things from the past with other guys thinking what if, not knowing this is exactly what I want forever. I started getting help from a therapist but I’ve only had 2 sessions. Things have been so hard in the relationship because I’m constantly not sure what I want. We broke up yesterday, and I don’t know how I feel. I miss him so much and don’t want him to move on and I don’t know how im going to do life without him. Im constantly going fighting with my brain not knowing im still in love with him or is this ROCD taking control. It’s like when we aren’t together is when i miss him the most and want to be with him. And when we aren’t together I second everything. Please anything have advice? ROCD advice or regular relationship advice.

Happy saturday morning everyone! This ones for you Sully #SuchACutieSaturday 😂❤. Miss Gyppers and I hope that everyone is feeling good this morning! If you're not, please do some stretches, take a shower, or go for a walk. Remember that the real you is the content you, the thoughts are the conditioned aspect making you habitually upset. :) Please try journaling out your thoughts, it's a game changer I promise. I love my A.M/P.M journal, it really helps me sort out my thoughts and day 😊. Feel free to chat in the comments, I love talking to everyone here :)

can someone help? :(

dad just denied me of NOCD therapy :(.

Sometimes I feel really bad for being jealous of others who have OCD as well. I think my subtypes just make my life really hard and I wish I could have a different type/types. I know regardless of the type OCD is still hard and everyone still tends to struggle in the same exact ways, but I don’t feel quite hopeful for my future here with pocd/real event ocd/pure ocd/and false memory ocd. It’s a quadruple whammy I have going here.

I did something specific when I was 13-14 that I found now really really disgusting (I'm almost 18 now), I feel so ashamed about myself. (i didn't hurt anyone, it's just really not something you should do) i can't get it out of my head I really wanna tell someone but I'm afraid people will think I'm weird and disgusting I feel so guilty, I don't know what to do... I wanna feel normal. This memory triggers my thoughts about children a lot because I feel like a perv (again, didn't hurt any child it's just really weird) Help Lol

i am horrified. ‘i might actually be attracted to little girls’ is all that’s going through my mind. it’s hard to fight it. it’s hard to ignore it, i feel awful about it. but do i feel awful for finding them attractive? i don’t know. i don’t know anything right now. it’s so hard, it’s hard to just live. i’m absolutely terrified. if i see a little girl while i’m out, it’s almost like i get excited. i check with them to see how i react and i’m usually like, ‘okay just a little girl not a big deal’ but i’ve been looking at their legs and shit. i feel awful about it. then i wonder ‘do i find this attractive?’ and it’s becoming harder and harder to see what’s real and what’s not. what are my thoughts and feelings, what is because of OCD. i’d never had these thoughts before 2 weeks ago. i feel like it was latent or it was awakened all the sudden… does ANYONE ESE go through anything at all like this???? does this confirm it? i’m not getting any pleasure out of this and i don’t purposefully create any fantasies but what if that’s next??? i hate all of this SO MUCH i start feeling better and then i’ll see a little girl. then it turns into ‘oh did i like looking at them? did i find them attractive?’ does anyone else experience anything similar???? i feel SO ALONE, i feel like all my worst fears are true. i feel awful. i’m in so much intense distress and anguish and i have so much anxiety.