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i'm not sure if i'll be here in the end of this year. i can't do this anymore i'm fighting but i'm tired

Hi, I'm writing here after reading lots o post about HOCD. I've been suffering from this for a long time (3 years more or less). It all started one day when an image of me kissing my best friend came to me suddenly. Then I started rumiating about that, also I started to look back to my childhood to look signals. 3 years ago it wasn't that convincing. (I also experienced the fear of hurting my family). But now that I have a girlfriend that I love so much (I had HOCD also),I can't take it anymore, when I see a male that seems handsome I feel like something in my gut and a feeling of blushing, I was so afraid at first but now I'm tired. I want to be who I was, I want to feel attraction again for girls and live a life full of joy. Sometimes I thought of ending everything in life to be at peace but I think that's the worst thing I could do. I don't know how to figure out who am I, sometimes I dont know what I like. I used to spend hours and hours researching on Google, reading posts on Instagram about OCD and why it's so convincing. I watch pics about males and I do not get turned on but sometimes I feel like I want that and I think I do not. Please someone can relate ? Thanks for reading.

i haven't been doing super well, but it's still not as bad. makes me wonder if what i am going through is even hocd. i truly feel like i am a lesbian in denial and it has taken its toll on me, but i am still not suffering as much as before, or not anxious as much as expected. makes me think that i may not even have ocd and it's just denial. please help :(

Hi, everyone- Executive function deficits are becoming a real issue for me and I’m looking for information on how to deal with them. I consider myself to be in remission from my OCD but I can’t seem to get anything done. It feels like I’m just spinning my wheels at work and around the house. For a while I though I might have adhd in addition to OCD but the research seems to show that the two rarely occur together. They are really causing me issues at work and I don’t even know where to begin looking for help.

Good morning and happy Monday, yea things aren't perfect and ocd is still there but today is another opportunity to stand up to it and starve the monster! Brothers and sisters, we are in this together! Do not be afraid!

has anyone ever had hocd and turned out to be gay? i feel in denial, i feel like i am one of those few who come out as gay at the end of hocd, and i fear i am not letting myself be attracted to girls because i am in denial and living a lie has anyone ever gotten to this extreme??

Anyone here with religious ocd. I’m struggling with intrusive thoughts . Feels as I’m slowing losing my mind..

I sure hate how when I’m in a deep hole, every attractive woman that comes up on my screen I don’t feel anything, but every man that comes up, my mind is telling me that’s what I want (I’m a straight man, and you would never know this was the case based off of who gets me physically aroused) But, throw in the groinals and the concern that you’ll become actually aroused by the orientation you’re not attracted to, and it’s crippling and your confidence feels so low.

Ok I'm not sure but I think I am experiencing an ocd spiral and it's been going a few days what are some good coping mechanisms or exercises I can do?

anyone else feel like whenever they're starting to heal/get better and the anxiety starts subsiding, all of what they were going through was fake and a lie, whick makes it seem like denial? because like at least back when i had extreme anxiety and always felt nauseous, i knew for sure i didn't want that but now i am so confused and it all seems so real and that my hocd was a big lie and a cover up for my denial

Unsure if I have ocd but if I do I think I have some sort of relationship type for sure, I have extreme thoughts about cheating on my partner or them cheating on me and then I’ll get mad and want to get back at them. I constantly think about downloading Grindr and having sex with other people and then(sometimes) developing stds unknowingly, transmitting it to them unknowingly and just not caring I have to tell my partner everything that happens, maybe compulsively maybe not. Very hazey on this part. So obviously the second half is not rooted in my reality. I go between hating my partner viciously to loving them so much and I don’t know what I’m capable of doing. I just have very intense thought spirals about this I’ve tried to combat this by saying “if I cheat, who cares? Whatever. I’ll download any app and have sex with whoever.” And sometimes it works but other times I just feel more alone and more “evil” (note: I know evil isn’t a real thing. Sort of reclaiming it but not at the same time.) Don’t really know what I want to gain out of posting this but I’ve been on a high stress roadtrip for almost a week and feel like I’m falling apart but also can’t afford to do that because I need to take care of my partner who is more fragile than me. Which I for the most part am ok with, but it feels like so much lately and inflames my Maybe-potentially ocd spirals (I’m not looking for reassurance on this, I have no where else to vent so trying this out I guess)

Okay so this is not about OCD but I need to get it off my chest and this is the closest thing to therapy that I have cause it it very expensive and I can't afford it. I feel like my mom has a sexual problem. I feel unsafe around her. When I can growing up she always wanted to touch me and touch and see my boobs. When I hugged her she would always try to touch my back trying to figure out if I was wearing a bra or a tank top. And between 1 and 2 years ago I stopped letting her touch me. Not my hands, not a hug, nothing. And even though I've told her that I don't like touching she always tries to grab my but, or my thigh or my belly. When she does I feel like I wanna push her and I have a panick attack. I'm 19. She doesn't like when I have friends. It feels like she gets jealous and she always tries to keep me home, to not go out at all. I feel like I'm not making any sense but I needed to get that off my back

Comphet masterdoc is so triggering when it feels like i can relate to everything:(

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I feel like real event Ocd is hardly talked about on here now. Just wanted to say you’re not alone if this is your theme. I’m struggling with this today.

I’m just so exhausted

i have some "gay" and "manly" mannerisms especially that my hands look so manly and it makes me feel like i am a lesbian and i would look in the mirror and have this thought of "omg you're so gay just accept it already" ans it sounds like i am in denial and i don't even panic a lot anymore :(

CompHet (compulsory hetrosexuality) is something I find quite problematic even for those who dont have SOOCD. If you are unaware of what comphet is in the modern term, it's a lesbian masterdoc that was first posted on tumblr I believe, its essential goal is to "help" women see if they are just attracted to men by default by giving you all these bullet points, signs, reasons or scenarios that might tell you if you're actually a lesbian that's just getting with men because it's a societal norm. The main reasons I find it problematic is its need to label you into a neat little box: sexuality is a spectrum and we won't always be on one extreme end (straight or gay) we can float in between throughout our lives, depending on who we fall in love with. I also think it plays into bisexual erasure, bisexual people are already misunderstood as it is this masterdoc doesn't help that, it is possible that people can be bisexual in this case women and depending on who they meet in their lives it might appear to lean more towards one gender but it doesn't mean they're not bisexual. Another reason I find it problematic is the scenarios it uses to "prove" that you could in fact be a lesbian especially the sexual ones with men because alot of them could be due to a woman having gone through sexual trauma in her life and lets be honest alot of us more than not, have sadly. The last thing I find odd about it is the fact its only targeted towards women, so does that mean men can't fall victim to comphet because in my opinion men have alot more to lose essentially by not being straight as society unfortunately is alot less accepting of gay men or men that arent straight. That's just my rant, I'm sorry if it offended anyone. I think it could be useful but theres too many ways I find it problematic and I'd be saying that even if I didnt have OCD, as the whole doc gives me OCD vibes, the need to say you're one over the other for that certainty, instead of just accepting that maybe you're not one or the other and that's fine also.

Seeing celebs like Liza Koshy coming out just makes me feel like it’s inevitable and that I just need to accept that I’m just in denial

Okay, this is a really specific and embarrassing thing that I’ve been ruminating on to the point of exhaustion since yesterday, if someone could read this and try and give me some advice, I’d really appreciate it. It feels like too personal & embarrassing of an issue to go to family & friends about, and I know that there will hopefully be a lot of likeminded individuals here, who understand what it’s like to have a tendency towards obsession. So, my friend brought me along with her to apply for a new job. I’m 16 (17 in July), and have been looking for a little part time job to do alongside school. We walked in, and it was this room of about 12 people who had all previously applied for the job. Me and my friend were applying for waitressing. There was two owners of the resteraunt there that day, one Italian man, and one British man (I’m British - live in England) The second guy would just stare at me intently while he was talking, and never looked at anyone else, and it felt uncomfortable and it seemed like he was attracted to me - bear in mind he knew I was 16, and he was probably in his mid to late 30s. He was telling us an anecdote about how you can never ‘get away’ with being off work sick when you’ve been drinking in a pub/club the night prior, because he’s on a group chat with all of the pubs/clubs in our area, and he will know if you have been drinking the night before. Because of how much he was staring at me, I had to respond to him saying, ‘well, you won’t have to worry about me because I’m only 16!’ And everyone laughed, and then the Italian man said - ‘look, you are staring at her haha!’. My friend afterwards was like, ‘what the fuck, that man would not stop staring at you’ - and it made me not want to go back, because it just felt really weird and uncomfortable. A couple of days after our first shift, me and my friend found out that this man and another co-owner (not the Italian man) were actually gay together… now, this is where things got slightly obsessional. I am a perfectionist when it comes to my appearance, I’m never happy unless I feel that I look pretty and feminine. I’m HIGHLY critical of my own appearance, and am constantly checking myself to see if I look okay. If I feel that I don’t, then my mood drops instantly and I usually want to leave the situation I’m in - that’s how much I obsess over appearance. This guy was giving off the vibes that he was attracted to me - but he was gay… (not to go off of stereotypes, but he SEEMED like a straight male, if that makes sense) I started to have this horrible feeling in my chest, like intense dread and disgust with myself. ‘What if I look like a man?’ I thought. ‘His boyfriend is quite feminine, what if I look sort of like him?’ Each time I thought this, I was almost brought to tears it was that devastating of a possibility. I try so, so hard to be pretty, and the idea that I could appear masculine in any regard was like my life was crumbling around besides me, and I KNOW how dramatic that sounds, but it was just how I felt. Has anyone got any thoughts on this? I’ve not stopped thinking about it since I heard…