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Are antidepressants effective for dealing with ocd. I was on them for 6 months .. it may have helped.. i stopped kina cold turkey .. it’s been manageable most of the time but there are bad days

I don't think I have ocd anymore??? Those thoughts aren't there anymore, no compulsion have done for weeks, no weird feelings, no intrusive anything,, I have been doing fine actually.. Am I recovered or is this ocd doing?? 💀

False feelings anyone ? 😞

Do you guys think this is ROCD or am in denial(I prey not). I've been in a relationship with my girlfriend for almost 8 months now and I assume I fell out if the honeymoon faze a long time ago. I get worried because sometimes i feel annoyed with her and don't feel like I love her and then other times I just want to love all up on here, cuddle with her, and give her affection. I'm just scared because it just seems like most of the time It doesn't feel like I am attracted to her or that I love her. I want to fight and keep pushing because I know love is a choice but I don't know if i'm just in denial or not. I just really want to feel the way I used to about her or at least like not feel doubtful and feel like almost repulsed by her (in a way ig). I just want to feel for her again please helppppp.

guys this is so cruel and i feel so bad for this, but i blocked my boyfriend from messaging me. (besides the cruelty of it i want your input as to how you think it could help). my rationale was that each day as of now is just a day of brain fog, tears, stress and hopes i could just have that one hour of bliss on the phone with him. but.. am i wrong for thinking it’s not healthy to depend on someone emotionally like that? he insists that we need people for connection, and while i agree, i think ive really been using him for emotional dependency. i feel like i just need to cut off my expectations of him giving me happiness. am i wrong in doing this? should i have gone about this a different way? god i hope i havent gone crazy

Please Read. I need to say this because I want to be hold responsible, but I also want to know if I can move on from this and tried to have a life again. Like before, but with I hope better decisions. I have a story similar to others, when I was 5 I was a curious girl and I was curious about sexuality. I play with my cousin and he touch my parts, my cousin was 3 years younger than me. I regret that after the first time because in my deep I knew that was bad, but the game continue because my cousin like it and he say that he wouldn't play with me anymore if we don't play that game. This Lasted some years until I put a stop because the guilt was much. I started avoiding him. I still fear that he would think that play was fine because of me and play like that with his future daughters, or sister. Time passed and I was 11 and I discovered fanfictio. I started with straight fanfiction, but then I started reading gay fanfiction more and more. And then the only thing I read was smut gay fanfiction. I have ocd since I'm ten. I would think I do something sexual to a teacher, and I would check my memory to verify I didn't. So I know I have OCD. This 2020 I started to have magical thinking ocd, and I would think this man is a rapist and then I would tell a phrase in my head saying he's not a rapist. I also started to have dreams about children, and I freak out. I also had intrusive thoughts about my cousin, my cousin's little sister. Of her being in a sexual way, and I would pray that nothing happened to her. I daydream a lot, and I started daydreaming erotic things. And one of the erotic things would be gay sex. I started to have daydreams about gay sex, and I would imagine a teen muscular man, and a teen feminine boy. Now I regret this with passion because now I fear that the fem guy look like young boy. I also read a lot of bad stuff on wattpad. Like a fanfic of a 13 and 10 boys having sex, and in the moment I thought to myself that it wasn't nothing. That I have just 15, and they are drawings, and the only thing I should do is imagine them older. Now I have flashbacks that I didn't. I also avoid looking children in tv or family members because I would imagine something bad, and I didn't want to do that. I also started to notice that some younger boys look a lot alike to the fem boys I would imagine. I also started avoiding looking tv children because of this. I also would tell myself that the guy that i imagine were teens not boys. This last days of February I started to watch wandavision. And this series had two boys that were billy and tommy. For people that don't know. Billy is one of the popular gay characters in marvel, so I started daydreaming about the future of this boy, but in teen, but when I tried to make him look older, I couldn't. I also started to notice a grionial reaction when I look at the boys, and I freak out. I start to look if OCD can make this happen, and I was relieved to hear that it could happen, but I still had my doubts. I started to have grionial constantly, and I had a lot of guilt. I didn't want to eat, i didn't want countinue living. My mom notice and I have to calm down. I need to explain my situation. I'm a immigrant. My family is also an immigrant. My that don't like to live in the states. The only reason he is still here is me. Because he wants me to have a good future. Everything was okey. I still had the images and grionial reactions, but everything was okey. This April. I don't remember the day. I started to have grionial reactions with intrusive images. And i decided to change the image and touch myself with that image, but then the image shift and I had to stop myself, and went to the bathroom. But the grionial reaction felt to strong. I was mad at myself because I knew the image was going to shift. I tell myself that it was the ocd until days later I started to feel guilty about it. Last weekend I was trying to see Netflix to distract myself. And I see the cover of a series and I imagine the sexual scene but the scene shift, and I visualize my sister cousin in it, and the scene was too real, and I had a strong grionial reaction. I feel bad but I told myself that it was ocd. Days later the scene was really prominent in my head because I'm almost sure that I did it on purpose, and I checked why I did it, and I repeat in my head again and again and again, and the worst thing is that I have grionial reactions always. Each time I less and less convince that it was ocd. Other thing I wanted to tell is that this weekend and week I convince myself that I was a p3d0 multiple times for long periods of time. And after I imagine that with my cousin again and again I feel like I crossed a line I was before. Yesterday I felt empty and anxious only trying to recreate the scene in my head trying to look for something that would tell me is ocd. Today a feel normal, with guilt like always, but normal. My mom ground me because I lie to her because I didn't eat. I started to eat less because I didn't have the energy, and because I felt like I don't deserve it. And my dad also have to talk to me. So I had to calm myself down. Now I don't know what to do. I need to keep forward for my family because the only thing my that is still in this country that is sucking his energy is me. And I did everything of above. I can't end my life because I can't do that to my family, but how I'm going to live with this in my conscious. I imagine my little cousin like that and I repeat the scene multiple times. Today I see the thumbnail of a boy, and he remember me of the fem guy i used to imagine and I feel I grionial reaction, and now I feel guilty. I had the opportunity to do the right thing to stop this to happen, and I take the wrong choice everytime. When I tell myself that the guy look young, I just told myself that it looked like an teen girl. I screw myself over, and I don't know what I should do. I need to keep going forward for myself, but after everything I imagine and did I don't know. I don't want to be a p3d0 but now it feels like i'm one. I always feel afraid of going to hell because of what I did when I was 5, but now I'm sure I will never be with my family in heaven. Not after everything I imagine. I can't cry, and I want to cry, I want to feel something but I can't. I just feel guilt and nothing. I regret everything. I'm sorry. I will go to a therapist in the future. When I'm old enough to do it on my own. I don't want to feel this anymore and I just want this to stop, but honestly after I imagine that about my little cousin I can't move on. The scene is in my head, and I still have grionial reactions. When i tried to concentrate in class I have flashbacks about what i did. I write this to ask people if I deserve to tried to pretend that this never happened, and pretend to be normal. And when I have an intrusive scene or image avoid it and move on. I just want someone to tell me that I can have a normal life after this. I don't know if I'm a p3d0 or is pocd or both. I just want to move on. Please someone tell me that I can move on. And tried to be better and that I can change and be normal again. Please I need that. Is the only thing I want to hear. I'm 15 right now. I just want to hope that this is not going to be me for the rest of my life.

Good Friday To You Folks: I am a 28 year old man with HOCD, POCD, and ROCD. Here’s some of my thoughts and feelings. I have been struggling with this my whole life, and as I begin to grasp this, who care attitude, things slowly start to become muddly more clear. First off, “who cares” is not the right attitude to go towards things. I had a previous therapist tell me to take that attitude, and because I have an obsessive mind, I obsessively devalued, degraded, and disavowed my values. This sent me into a manic and depressed state that I hope no one has to go through. Values are subjective to those that hold them, and by others telling you their values are right and wrong, especially when they and society feels they have the moral high ground, it can get real confusing. Everybody has values that they developed with, and that what makes you who YOU are, so as long as your values are hurting others than your values are right, regardless of social standards of your own values. Not to reassure, but as far as sexual standards or your own sexual interests, If your interested in women and a male or vise versa, or any interests that don’t negatively affect the other party THATS OK! It seems like a societal norm to not have traditional views on sexuality, and that if your curious in swimming in the new formed views on sex that if you try it or even imagine it, than your OCD tells you that is what you have to be. That’s your all or nothing thinking and that’s not the truth. As far speaking for males, I myself can warp anything into a sexual situation because I’ve been so obsessed with sex. Now that I begin to calm, I begin to realize. It doesn’t make those feelings developed in my manic moments go away, but it makes some of the pieces of the puzzle connect better. Kick today’s ass so tomorrow doesn’t kick yours, try to stay calm, and love each step. Best wishes

Idk what am I going to do ify therapist tells me it's not OCD or if she doesn't recognize Pure O (as it's rarely talked about in Ukraine) bc I don't have that much money. Idk how I'm going to continue living

Has anyone tried tricyclics like anafranil, clomipranine for OCD? I am switching form Lexapro because it didn’t work and want to know what peoples experiences were.

been thinking that i won't be able spending time with my boyfriend or like being intimate with him til i full on confess about the themes of my ocd and get reassurance that he still loved and accepts me even after knowing that but also i dont want to atm esp what sent me to spiral was pocd about his younger nephew i think of this bc i've always had this like urge or thought that i can't enjoy good events or moments until i've settled the things that make me anxious or the "problems"

Hello!!! Is anyone taking wellburtin?? Looking for feed back

I'm just going to say it at this point. If I don't then honestly, who the hell will? Porn is a drug, just like the rest that are out in the world. Say not to it. Take care of yourselves. Those that are trying to quit, you can. Keep following your path. I'm 13 days clean from all PMO. Porn is used to escape from reality, to get hooked, to distract, which results in negative changes in the brain and most notably viewers find themselves escalating to higher and higher and higher and higher forms of videos. You could be watching vanilla the very first day and feel like you won the lottery (Just like I did when I was 11, first discovering it). Next thing you know, you're desensitizing yourself to things you didn't even know could coexist with life itself. And as you escalate, it gets worse. Strugglers, know that you can quit. It's never too late to heal. It doesn't last forever, but it will take quite a long time to recover from this mentally. I'm going through withdrawal, which is giving me intrusive thoughts of the taboo videos I've seen, how it's tying into my themes, and how it's trying to say things about me. The porn you've seen or watched says NOTHING about you and definitely NOTHING about your sexuality. For too long tons and tons of people who claim they are straight have escalated to transgender porn such as myself. Even LGBTQ people have escalated to straight porn, the complete opposite. Parents, please please please have the talk with your kids. It does nothing to hide this stuff, because one way or another they are going to find out. Save the trouble, and talk to them about sexual development, for it's such an important part of growing in life. OCD victims, do not use porn to check, escape, avoid, reassure, or convince yourself of ANYTHING. Do not use this material at all. People all over forums worry about the porn they've watched, the porn they've accidentally come across, the porn they think they've seen but are false memories, the porn that they never knew they could escalate too. So many factors could play into just watching this content. OCD and pornography is just about the worst combination you can have as a sufferer, and unfortunately, for 8 years, I've been apart of this content without knowing how bad it could get, or if I was even addicted. Don't keep this to yourself. You're not a bad person for struggling with pornography. You're human, and you've come in contact with something that unfortunately society is normalizing heavily. Putting your foot down and stopping yourself from being controlled by this content is the first step in your healing process. Just like OCD, this can take time. Be patient. Be safe. Be compassionate. Be loving. Be yourself. I'm currently trying to get therapy with the help of a mentor and I hope I can share all of this along with what I struggle with when it comes to thoughts of events in the past. I really do wish everyone the best. I hope this helps.

need help or tips? i've been spiraling because i have confession compulsion and i have this fear that once my boyfriend finds out the themes of my OCD, he'll leave me. he loves me and tells me he'll always be by my side but before i kind of confessed that my mind kind of has his followers memorized because of compulsions i've performed before and he admitted that it slightly turned him off because "damn that's something else" but it wasn't a dealbreaker... can't help but think if he thinks that's something else then he is definitely gonna be turned off after he finds out about my POCD especially now it kind of involved his younger nephew or about Harm OCD or Pure O Really need help to overcome this. I have this urge to confess to him and try to make him understand to get that reassurance from him that even after knowing these he won't leave me but I also don't want to bc not a lot of people will understand or be comfortable about it esp we've only been together for a few months

This just must not be normal for someone with OCD. I have harmful thoughts and urges towards others, but I hate how lately it’s been like I can’t measure these thoughts as irrational or completely horrible, so I can be able to say that I would never do them. I hate it I feel like I’m denial, and this doesn’t feel like OCD anymore. I feel like a bad person already. I’m even thinking, why are you writing this when you already like your thoughts, and you’re already a bad person. Is it that I already like my thoughts? How do I know I don’t want my thoughts? How do I know I’m not a bad person? What if I already am and I just haven’t accepted it?

How do i suck it up? When ocd triggers an anger/panic attack, i often feel so out of control that i either contact others (which will just land me a rejection), shovel food down my belly or break things. Because i can't do my compulsion. What's a better alternative to this? Anything really, to get this to pass quicker.

One really painful and annoying thought that my brain tries to use as “proof” is my old best friend. In middle school I really struggled to make friends until I met my old best friend and after that we started hanging out all the time just us two because we both didn’t really have anyone we were super close to. This carried through all the way up into halfway through high school where we finally split. She went through a breakup and started ditching me for bad habits, meanwhile I was getting into a healthy relationship with my now boyfriend. Looking back, I was very possessive of her because I didn’t want to be alone and making new friends is very difficult for me because I always get scared of rejection and since we had already been friends for years it was easier to hang out with her but after meeting my boyfriend and expanding my social bubble I realized it was better if we weren’t friends with all the dumb stuff she was doing. I was a little torn up (more angry than nothing) but after a few months I got over it. However, when my soocd started in December I read an article about lesbians who realized they had feelings for their close female friends and so I spiraled and my thoughts latched onto her since she was the longest and closest friendship I’ve had. What makes it worse is that one time as a stupid freshman we kissed as a dare but it was only a peck and I felt nothing compared to the guys I’ve kissed, I was way more interested in the reaction of the crowd as opposed to her. I regret it so so so much, I was just being a shallow stupid teen. I wish I could go back and slap myself if I knew it would torture me this much. I had no interest in getting to know her beyond our shared interests and the thought of being with her intimately just doesn’t appeal to me but since the thoughts won’t go away it feels like a lie. Before my soocd, I never questioned our friendship. I hate this so much 😭

For the past 3 to 4 days I have been seeing the number "444" everywhere and i have thus fear of "signs" from the universe and things like that so everytime i see the number it scares me, i know it means something good but still, i just don't want the whole "signs" thing to be real in the first place. Someone please help.

Can ocd cause intrusive urges?? Like it can be sexual/violent????? Moreso anything I believe..

How do I deal with the fact that my boyfriend might or might not accept me if he were to find out the fucked up thoughts I get related to OCD (that sometimes relate to him or people in our lives) I doubt normal people would understand that it's a product of OCD (some do) but not all. I keep obsessing the fact that if he knew, he would leave me so my compulsion becomes me wanting to confess to him to get that reassurance he won't leave me if he were to understand. But I know some things might put a strain in my relationship with him and his family and I just wanna be able to disassociate with these thoughts bc my OCD brain just makes them up on my head and make me question my identity but I also want him to accept me no matter what so I'm anxious about it

I just saw Colton Underwood from the Bachelor’s coming out story and I am now in a complete downward spiral about him not knowing, trying to figure out who he is and hating himself and maybe that’s me. Anyone else??