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PLEASE READ AND HELP. I HAVE NO IDEA IF IM GOING CRAZY OR IF ITS OCD. Guys I could really use some help right now. My theme of OCD if it even is, it that I’m developing some sort of mental disorder like bi polar or schizophrenia. With one of my themes I was high and then someone did something to trigger me going into a panic attack and had to leave and go home since I was freaking out so bad. My house usually is creaky, but for some reason while I was freaking out it seemed to be more intense than it usually is. I woke up the next day and didn’t feel like my usual self, I felt sort of in a dream like state but my anxiety was going through the roof. I spent that whole day for like 14 hours straight looking at mental disorders and all of this makes so much sense that maybe I’m developing schizophrenia since it usually occurs around my age and drug use does take a part in that. The next few days I began to analyze absolutely everything around me to make sure I wasn’t hearing things. I spent plenty of time checking to make sure the noises I was hearing existed. They were all just normal noises you’d hear but it was still causing lots of distress. After hanging out with a couple friends of mine and indulging in alcohol I felt sort of grounded when I woke up the day after. I spent the next 3 days hanging out with friends and indulging in drinking. I was still being observant at times but I wasn’t as stressed about it or scared. After yesterday when I got home after hanging out with one friend of mine (didn’t indulge in any alcohol), I got home and heard like noises in my room. Normal noises but it sort of triggered me into another complete panic attack and I was truly convinced I was actually going insane. It was raining and really windy outside and it was making a bunch of noises outside and my house creak and I can’t differentiate if the things I’m hearing are real or not. I feel the urge to continue researching constantly and check to make sure these noises are normal. There was only a couple times I thought maybe I was hearing voices, but from the most part i can rule out it was my grandparents downstairs talking but I couldn’t exactly bring out what they were saying exactly so it was stressful. Since last night I’ve been overly observing everything and seeing if I can concentrate hard enough that I can bring out these noises or just any voices or anything just so i know if I’m going crazy or not. I’m super scared of developing an illness like that which would effect me permanently and limit the things I’m capable of completing in my lifetime. I just really don’t want to go crazy or anything and I’m just so scared this is like the beginning of that happening. I’m not delusional or anything, or seeing visuals or any other hallucinations. For the most part I’m a pretty grounded person but I’m dealing with intense anxiety and stress along with a headache throughout the day. I don’t know if anyone else has ever dealt with anything like this and if so please help me. I’ve tried calling like 8 therapists for a consultation today but it is hard to find bookings or any that are financially reasonable.

question for Christians w ocd, how do u know if it’s God convicting you of something or ur ocd thoughts messing w you?

Guys i need help from the community in making an informed work decision.

Ugh i watched this Megan fox interview as ERP , she looks back at herself from when she was 14. In this movie she was wearing a very low neck top and I randomly glanced at her chest and then I glanced again being like “that’s a LOW top “. I feel like I did something horribly wrong . OCD says it sexual abuse .

I think my problem is that these intrusive thoughts scare me and that even giving them the power to scare me gives them meaning. When they are just thoughts and nothing more. They are just a random clip in our brain. It’s just so hard to practice letting them pass through and not let them affect me. And it’s especially hard when your OCD cripples you in fear 😞 Any tips or advice on how to just let the thoughts pass right through me and not instill me in fear?

I just read an article on Chris watts the guy who murdered his pregnant wife and two daughters and I’m scared. I’m finding myself comparing myself to what this article said about him. I find myself trying to be more empathetic because I don’t want my harm ocd to think it has an edge. I love people I love my family and I’ve always been this way I just hate this so much I want my brain before ocd back is that too much to ask for?

I’m entirely aware that it’s irresponsible to try to receive advice from anyone who is unqualified, but I’m at a loss at this point, and I’m just looking for guidance: So, I’ve never struggled with depression. I have definitely struggled with anxiety - but never ‘depression’. I’ve felt down as a result of my anxiety, but I was still able to feel happy to some degree. Recently, because of some external things going on, I have just felt awful. I have OCD, and then on top of that I feel like everybody hates me. I have friends, but I just feel like people don’t like me - even though they used to. It’s a long story, and I don’t have the energy to put it all here, and I’m sure people don’t have the energy to read. But I’ve felt miserable. I’m not sure whether it’s depression... I look online, but I can’t tell. Sometimes I feel amazing, and then other times I feel borderline suicidally miserable. I’m sure if I didn’t have the problems I’m experiencing I wouldn’t be dealing with this...

I may get a lot of hate for this but this is just my opinion: ERP is not for everyone and it is not the only solution to combating OCD. Exposure therapies for certain individuals such as myself is not the proper therapy. I recently did an exposure therapy and it only made things worse. I see a lot of stuff on here saying that it gets worse before it gets better but I’ve tried multiple times and it doesn’t work for me. I use talk therapy and CBT. I’ve had severe OCD, anxiety, ADD, and ADHD since I was 4 years old and have been on medication since the age of 4. My opinion is that why would I try and put myself in a situation that is uncomfortable if I’m not even thinking about the intrusive thought? It only makes it worse and brings underlying thoughts I never knew I had to the surface. I guess what I’m trying to say to everyone on here is that ERP isn’t the only way. People are treated successfully without ERP, so if you aren’t comfortable doing ERP don’t lose hope. There are other therapies and solutions out there. Medication and therapy does wonders even if it is ERP or not. You know what’s best for you and your mental health so don’t feel pressured into doing something you aren’t comfortable doing. It’s not the only way. You will get better you just gotta hang in there and keep your head up❤️

I curious to know an opinion who knows many cases of OCD or has experience in working with it. So, a couple of years ago I became strangely obsessed with my appearance. I found that something was wrong with me but it wasn't a specific feature, I didn't know what it was. I felt really uncomfortable in public and this lead to me avoing society. I just felt really awkward and like something was wrong with me. I googled 'How to know if you're beautiful/ugly' like million of times. Did tests. Asked my partner at the time a lot. Overviewed myself in every mirror. I tried to shoot a video of myself, where I moved my head so I can see myself in different angles. I tried to understand HOW I looked. And I couldn't. Also have had derealization at time I believe. Is this connected to OCD?

So i have harm OCD and my non ocd therapist was talking about paranoia and now it’s stuck in my head that maybe I am paranoid. Like having a sticky mind sucks. Because my intrusive thoughts are already harmful. Now I’m having this fabricated story that my wife is a spy...., I think I’m slowly going off the deep end

Every time I think I’m getting better, my ocd starts bringing up certain things that haven’t bothered me as much as other things. Then I feel like I have to find the answer to something or I can’t get better. Because then I’m only focused on figuring one thing out, and then after I figure it out, I can start getting better. It’s like I’m telling myself I need reassurance, or I won’t be able to recover.

I had 2 really good days where my OCD was practically non existent... now I’m back to spiraling. I hate this. I want to be normal.

Does anyone else have relationship ocd about everything their partner does? Like maybe if they talk too much you get annoyed and you think your not meant for each other? Or maybe after sex you feel down and then think it’s about your partner? Am I just crazy or does anyone else have thoughts like these. It never stops. Once I get over one, another one comes up. Does anyone have any advice on how to deal with relationship ocd with erp?

Has anyone got tips for depression?

What do you guys think of Ali Greymond? I’ve watched some of her videos on YouTube but I don’t know if it’s evidence based or trustworthy. I’m just wondering what others opinions are.

Anyone else feel like there’s no hope left? Like with ROCD you don’t love them it’s just you’re having an unhealthy attachment rooted from childhood? Anyone else feel this way? :(

What do I do if I don't feel as triggered as my ERP was meant to be? I wrote everything that would trigger me. My real events, my false memories, the shame, the guilt, and images of my related obsession. Why didn't it work? What's wrong with me?

Last night I completely broke down. I was sobbing in the car for a straight hour. I feel like OCD is taking everything away from me. It’s so debilitating and I can’t even do basic things such as make a peanut butter and jelly sandwich because it involves using a butter knife. I couldn’t drive me and my husband home because I had intrusive thoughts. And I can’t do any hobbies or watch my shows because I never know what will trigger me. I’m so sad and angry because I don’t know what I did to deserve this illness and it’s not fair. I just want to be normal and think normal and act normal. I’m just really mentally exhausted and need a break 😞

Anybody else start to feel less anxious but still very uncertain and confused about a theme?

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE RESPOND :’( I’m getting really strange unwanted thoughts. Is this normal. Whenever I want too draw I get thought about I can’t look at colours it bothers me. When I’m stressed about money I get weird thoughts about what if I steal something and that everything is free in the world so I don’t need to work. I get thoughts about harming my self or others. If I want to save my money I get thrn weird thoughts about what if i give it to someone to harm someone else. what if I overdosed a lot and end up dying cause i have tried to end my life 7 times by overdosing already and now I have this fear. I Really hate this how do I get rid of itt