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I want to be normal.. i dont want to have arguments with my mind.. i want to be a normal 12 year old.. i found out that i first started showing signs like 5 years ago maybe more but why does everyone else look so normal and act so normal and i dont? What did i do? Why do i deserve this? I just want to meet my friends and act normal ive planned when im older for me and my friend to get a tatoo and have late night drives and go to starbucks snd get nails done but that'll never happen you see people on instagram and they do all of these things but i wont be normal enough to do things like that and i really want ocd to go away im suck of crying all the time and not being able to tell people why i hate hate HATE IT god if there is one must have chose favourites

Also! In order to not freak myself out like last time I didn't hide away, I still tried to watch tv with women in it, I play my videogames with female characters and I still talked to my female friends. I'm still very uncomfortable and I feel a loss of attraction and I hope it will come back, but hopefully I can go to therapy soon and get properly diagnosed. :)

Need some insight. So any straight person I talk to says that they can never understand how someone can be gay/bi, they get disgusted/uncomfortable if they think of themselves being gay/bi. But I don't get disgusted, I think it's whatever and doesn't bother me. Does this make me gay? And whenever I have thoughts I don't get grossed out or anxious it just feels like no big deal. Can anyone relate? I'm really stressing out

Can OCD make you think that despite not liking the thoughts thats truly who you are you now and you have to live your new life as who OCD convinced you of

I'm panicking because when I was sitting to watch TV I got the thought "What if you got up and smeared soap across your television right now?" And now, I don't know what I'm supposed to do with that thought.

I have several subtypes of ocd, but my most recent and most debilitating obsession I would say has been related to absolutes in politics. Does anyone else struggle with obsessions that don’t seem that irrational? Or just struggle with black and white thinking?

Hey everyone who’s doing ERP, How are you doing now? What has it been like for you? Have your thoughts gotten worse before they get better? I would like to see how other people have experienced recovery so that I know what’s ahead.

I have HOCD and ROCD. What are some intrusive thoughts you guys have?

Hi friends. Exchristian here with some serious religious trauma and religious OCD. Double whammy. But more generally, do any of you struggle to trust yourself and your feelings after experiencing severe OCD periods?

I am so afraid that I dont want to be a Christian anymore and that I will do bad things and go crazy and it's tormenting me 😭

Am I the only person who genuinely has a really difficult time using the bathroom because of their ocd and actually puts it off for long periods of time? I’m afraid I’m going to get a bladder infection or something from this because I hardly use the bathroom, because the whole experience is so stressful and I have to wash my hands for a ridiculous amount of time after. Today I was crying washing my hands for probably an hour, ugh. The whole experience often makes me feel suicidal from all the stress and anxiety. And I’m always exhausted after from all the hand washing. I’ve never heard of anyone else having this issue and feel so stupid. I can’t even take care of my basic human needs.

Does anyone else’s brain tell them they touched something they didn’t want a touch so convincingly it’s hard to know if it happened or not?

hey y’all i was wondering if any of yall believe the stereotype that people with OCD are perfectionists? i just remember from a little girl up until now i forced myself to over achieve and be good at everything and anything i did. whether that be from doing well in school, to excelling in extra curriculars to even how i present myself physically and in social situations. was never happy with myself as a person until this summer when i finally became comfy with who i was... then this shit just took over. it’s like my brain needed something to find wrong in myself. idk im just wondering if yall think these “perfectionist” type symptoms are pre-requisites to OCD generally

For those of you currently going to Therapy, was there ever a time where your therapist reacted negatively when you discussed your intrusive thoughts? I’ve always been curious about this especially since I used to see a therapist who had no experience in treating anyone with OCD and was surprised that I thought that I might have OCD saying that it’s a serious illness. And I know other people had therapists that asked them the typical liability questions when they mention their intrusive thoughts.

The world is strange and I am feeling like a total weirdo just because I am having thoughts different from other people. The world seems to be walking on only one direction and this makes me terrified. I am really feeling strange and weird. I want to die, this world is crazy. I am not born to live in this world. I hate myself.

Hey uhhhh I feel safer in this community so ima tell y’all here. Any help or advice is very appreciated♥️. And I’m in need of help the most here... I feel numb and lost the past two day. I haven’t been able to be myself and if I continue to let myself sad ima fall into depression. No one in real life understands my situation. Here’s what happened. If you understand the Damelio Family’s situation on tik tok you’ll understand. So someone’s personal chef made a girl her food but it turned out to be a snail, which made the girl vomit. But people are saying she vomited dramatically and she was ungrateful for the food. My comment was controversial I guess. I basically commented on a video which said “It’s not dramatic it’s ✨Ungrateful ✨” and my phones been blowing up of people telling me to “grow up” “your a kid your stupid” “by what you commented we can tell your uneducated” and it was hard to focus in school and I feel sad, my fear is that ima fall into depression from this. But hate is normal for social media influencers, but for me this is the first... I’m 15

I won't to go back to who I was before I started ERP therapy. This therapy has made everything worse. I am not my intrusive thoughts, but ERP teaches you that the content of your intrusive thoughts is real. I can't do it anymore. This therapy makes me feel like I deserve to die.

Can anyone help me? I had a bad thought the other day and now my mind keep saying it is true and I really can't tell. My mind is saying I like it and I'm trying to ignore it and brush it off but it feels real and makes me done with life. The worst part is I had a thought of "maybe its true" and it alnost gave me peace like I was finally becoming my true self. It made me feel like I wanted to break free snd do this and I feel calm righr now but worried 😟

I often worry about what it means about it me as a person if I dont like soap smeared across my TV screen or soap dried across my body all the time. Does this mean I'm a bad person?

I can’t forgive myself for the things I did in my early teens. I get intrusive thoughts about the gross things I’ve done and I hate myself. I don’t understand what I was thinking when I did these things but I feel like a different person now. I feel like a horrible awful person. Like I don’t deserve to feel happy. Help.